Untitled Poem
(for now)
by Gertie
The look on her face,
Was that of distrust.
Distrust of what?
No one will know.
Cause it was too late.
Too late to ask why.
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Weekly Goals
Happy Monday!!! It is that time of week where many of us around the world start another work week. A work week that I am looking forward to. It is nice to have a job to love to go to. As many of you know it is Monday and that means it is time for my weekly goals. Like always I will tell you how I did with last weeks goals.
1) Read Speaker of the Dead by Orson Scott Card. I actually had the time to read two chapters at once. Unfortunately, that is all I was able to read all this week.
2) Work on jigsaw puzzle. Worked on the puzzle for about an hour.
3) Color. Yup, I did color. I love to color.
4) Start Writing 201: Poetry. Yup, started the course and am loving it.
5) Work on a self-help workbook; The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook by Matthew McKay, PhD., Jeffery C. Wood, PSY.D., and Jeffrey Brantley, MD. I only worked on a few pages but it was a tough few pages.
6) See my therapist on Wednesday. I saw my therapist. It was a tough session.
I managed to accomplish all my goals this week and am proud of myself for doing so. Here are my next week goals.
1) Read Speaker of the Dead by Orson Scott Card. I will finish this book eventually.
2) Work on jigsaw puzzle. The jigsaw puzzle is getting done slowly but surely.
3) Color. The various coloring pages or posters I am working on are finally showing some progress.
4) Finish Writing 201: Poetry. This is the last week of Writing 201: Poetry. I am really enjoying the course.
5) Work on a self-help workbook; The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook by Matthew McKay, PhD., Jeffery C. Wood, PSY.D., and Jeffrey Brantley, MD. I am grateful that I am refreshing my skills.
I know I have a short list this week and I am okay with that. I am grateful to be apart the blogging even over at : http://greenembe.rs/2015/10/12/building-rome-week-41-for-2015/ Have a wonderful week. Peace Out!!
A Little Depressed
I have been feeling a little depressed the last week or so. My therapist and I talked a little about it on Wednesday. We both agree that the depression could be related to my physical ailments at the moment. I have been dealing with a bladder infection, an urinary tract infection (UTI), a left kidney infection and kidney stones. Due to my depression acting up a wee bit my therapist and I ended up having an hour and half session instead of an hour session. We also called my primary care physician to see if it is possible that so many ailments could trigger a mild case of depression and she agreed it could.
It is just a mild case of depression so it is nothing to be too concerned about. I just need to make sure I need to keep an eye on things. With the help of my treatment team as well as my loved ones, I can nip the depression in the butt. Plus as my many infections clear up, my treatment team thinks my depression will start to lift. It might take a week or two but I am cool with that. I am cool with that because, I am not in crisis mode. Myself and others are taking preventive measures to make sure I don’t get into crisis mode. Crisis mode is not very fun to be in which is why I am in prevention mode.
I am not telling all this to be concerned about me; I am telling you all this so you are all aware of how being sick can affect one’s mental health. That is why when those of us who have a mental illness need to be extra aware of when we get sick. The last thing any of us needs is to have a mental health symptoms rear its ugly head when we are trying to get physically better. Have a wonderful day. Peace Out!!
Giving Haiku Another Try
Apparently when I first tried a Haiku style poem the first time, I didn’t do correctly so here I am giving it another try because I really want to learn this style of poetry and do it correctly. I hope you all enjoy the following poem:
Untitled Haiku
(for now)
by Gertie
Gloomy days are sad
Sad enough to cut myself
Refusing to cut
As you can tell many of my poems come real life. My life. My life of living with a mental illness and how poetry plays a major part of my recovery process. Poetry comes naturally to me and find it frustrating when I have to spend thirty minutes on one. No the above poem didn’t take me thirty minutes do but yesterdays took me that long. It usually takes me about five to fifteen minutes to create a poem. I love writing poem because it therapeutic for me. Thank you for reading. Have an awesome weekend.
Writing 201: Poetry; Day Five: Map, Ode, Metaphor
Railroad
by Gertie
The scars on her arms are like a railroad,
A railroad map to where her life was;
And where it is she is going. Now she has a cause.
A cause that no longer makes her an ugly toad.
A toad that now helps others to recover.
As this toad has turned human she now has a lover.
A lover that is her by her side,
And who is full of pride
To be apart of a strong woman’s life.
A life that no longer is full of internal strife.
Writting 201: Poetry; Day Four: Imperfect, Limerick, Enjambment
UNTITLED POEM
(For Now)
by Gertie
All you seem to care about are my scars,
You don’t care about me wanting to jump in front of the moving cars.
Suicide is on my mind,
Wish you could be kind.
Please tell me a corny joke about being in a bar.
(Side Note: I wrote this poem back in February when I was feeling extremely suicidal. I AM NOT FEELING SUIDAL NOW)
Writing 201: Poetry; Day Three: Skin, Prose Poem, Internal Rhyme
You Know Me Not, You See Me Not
by Gertie
You know my name
Not my story
You see my smile
Not my pain
You see my cuts
Not my scars
You can read my lips
Not my mind
Writing 201: Poetry; Day Two: Gift, Acrostic, Simile
R.E.C.O.V.E.R.Y
by Gertie
Recovery is a gift. A gift not everyone chooses to open,
Eagerly trying to open it, to see what it has to offer.
Consciously striving,
One must not forget where they once were.
Valleys so deep,
Earnestly grasping the cliffs that surround the valley.
Recovery is just a grasp a way.
Yes, the gift of recovery one chooses to open is a gift one must work for
Writing 201: Poetry; Day One: Screen, Haiku, Alliteration
An Untitled Haiku
(For now)
by Gertie
One size fits all doesn’t work.
Recovery is a unique process.
As unique as you and I.
Weekly Goals
Happy Monday!!! It is the start of another work week and like always I was looking forward to going to work today but still not feeling all that well so I called into work sick. I love the fact that I look forward to going to work each day even when I am unable to do so. It being Monday, it also means it is time to do my weekly goals. Like always I will start with how I did with my last weeks goals.
1) Read Speaker of the Dead by Orson Scott Card. I only read a total of three pages but I read. I ended up starting to read another book that highly encouraged for those of us who work in the mental health field to read.
2) Work on jigsaw puzzle. I spent a great deal of time work on the puzzle this week since I haven’t been feeling all that well.
3) Color. Another thing I spent a great deal of time doing this week since I wasn’t feeling all that well.
4) Writing 101: Finding Your Inspiration. I finishing up Writing 101. I learned a great deal from it and hope to continue finding inspiration in everything.
5) Update my résumé. Yup, I update my résumé. I was even able to update my references with both my previous and current supervisor of my current employer.
6) Work on cover letter. I updated my cover letter. I find it difficult to look at my strengths but was able to do so.
7) Apply for a least one job. Yup, I applied for a job. It was only one job but it is the job I most want.
8) Work on a self-help workbook; The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook by Matthew McKay, PhD., Jeffery C. Wood, PSY.D., and Jeffrey Brantley, MD. I managed to do a couple of pages. It was difficult to do since I haven’t been feeling all that well.
9) See my therapist on Wednesday. Yup, I saw my therapist despite not feeling well. We discussed how I need to focus on what my body is trying to tell me. I find it difficult sometimes.
Despite not feeling well this past week, I managed to accomplish every goal. Now it is time to share with you my goals for this week.
1) Read Speaker of the Dead by Orson Scott Card. I am bound and determined to finish this book. I am loving the book, it just seem to be taking longer than usual to read.
2) Work on jigsaw puzzle. I am loving how the puzzle is slowly progressing.
3) Color. The various coloring pages or posters I am working on are finally showing some progress.
4) Start Writing 201: Poetry. I am taking another course that WordPress puts on to help improve ones blogging skills. I am looking forward this particular course because I love poetry.
5) Work on a self-help workbook; The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook by Matthew McKay, PhD., Jeffery C. Wood, PSY.D., and Jeffrey Brantley, MD. I am actually grateful that I have decided to do this workbook. It has helped me remember how much I have improved with DBT skills over the years.
6) See my therapist on Wednesday. Yes, I see my therapist again on Wednesday. I’m thinking it is a great thing because I have been feeling a little on the downside. Don’t worry I am pretty sure it is just because I haven’t been feeling well.
Well, it seems like I have been having some of the same goals for awhile now. I am thinking that next week I will have to change things up a little when it comes to my goals. I am greatly appreciative of the blogging event over at: http://greenembe.rs/2015/10/05/building-rome-week-40-for-2015/ Have a wonderful week. Peace Out!!
Gertie's Journey 
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