Just a rambling of a post

Happy Friday, Everyone. Well at least it is still is here in Seattle for another few minutes. My depression is action up and at least I know my meds are work for my depression. I just need to use the skills in my tool box and WRAP plan the help lessen the depression. In fact Billie, my cat is helping with my depression.

Sadly, depression is increasing my self harm urges is why I am focusing on my self care plan. My self-care play is to continue to listen to music and do art. Also I will be going to a street fair tomorrow (Saturday). The last time this street fair happened was in 2019 and was cancelled in 2020 and 2021 due to Covid019. I’m looking forward to attending.

As far as my self harm urges, I plan on working on my skills to keep myself sane. Of course Billie will be a big help with that.

I don’t have much more to say except thank you for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Peace Out!!!

Just a Blog About My Day

Good Evening, World!!! Today was a hard and busy day at work. I had two appointments with clients, a clinical meeting, called twenty-three client and wrote note on the client I saw and called. The best part such a busy day, I still managed to get my one hour lunch. I love that my current employer gives us an hour lunch and we get paid for it. Having a “meal” or something to eat during the work day unless you’re fasting for religious reasons one of the few mandatory rule we had. Of course seeing clients and writing notes on clients in a timely manner is also mandatory. I love my job and I am sad that I am getting laid off. I just wish my was not going to close. I love my job for many reasons. My clients are amazing and seeing their recovery process is awesome. Having great colleagues even the one that don’t like one another were civil and professional about it. Mostly it was that I felt support by my colleagues and supervisor. I supervisors who were not micromanagers which is why I was able to what I needed to do at work today.

Now that I am off work for the day, I’ve decided to do some self care. I started by going for a walk in this beautiful Seattle weather has I listened to music. When I got home from my walk I read a couple of chapter in the novel I am reading and then read a couple of comic books. After that I did some art as I listened to music my recovery play list. Of course, my cat Billie “helped” with my art work. Now, as I write this blog I’m still listening to music from recovery playlist as Billie lays on my legs. Doing this self care is helping me with the grief of being laid of from a job I love with a passion.

The grief with being laid of is real for me and many of my colleagues. It hasn’t been easy the last almost three months but I have faith that my colleagues and I will get through this grief together and in our own ways.

I don’t have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading it. It is greatly appreciated from end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you so very much from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out World!!!


Hello, World!!! Today, has been an unexpected. First I found out that I have reached over one thousand followers on this blog. It is slightly surprising to find out that my first blog post was on May 31, 2014 and it’s taken this long get a thousand followers but I’m okay with that. I’m okay because I know my blog it not everyone cup of tea.

I started this blog to help lesson the stigma of having a mental health challenge as well as to educate other the people like me can be productive members of society no matter how it looks for the individual person. I also started blogging in hope to give others dealing with mental health challenges hope and that recovery look different for everyone.

I’ve discussed many things on this blog. Everything from self care to having a diagnosis to therapy and meds. We even discussed stigma as well as working creating a life worth living. I am grateful that as of right now life is worth living for me at the moment and I hope you can get to that point as well.

I do not have much more to say except thank to all my thousand followers for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It means the world to me. Peace Out, World!!!

Resiliency Making an Appearance

Good Evening, World!!! The last two and half months have been challenging for me and many others due to the unexpected news off my employer closing and being laid off. It has been quite traumatizing for all involved and am beyond grateful for the support I have received from many different people including those, I never expected support from.

If you been reading my blog regularly the last two and half months, you know I’m getting laid off due to my employer closing. Due to Covid-19 I know most of my colleagues via zoom and same goes for the clients I serve. Any way, I am realizing the fact how resilient myself, colleagues and clients are while sharing the same trauma even though we are experiencing it in different ways.

As sucky as the pandemic has been, Zoom has become a love hate relationship. Zoom may has it’s problems but it sure has its ups. Lets start by the best part of Zoom meetings and appointments which is surprise visits from all the pets which includes on my end seeing (and hearing) birds, rabbits, cats, dogs, turtles, snakes, rats and a miniature horse. I think with the seeing all the animals people have as pets has built a rapport with others if the pandemic didn’t happen. I know my cat, Billie, has helped my clients in Zoom appointments. Hell, Billie and my colleagues pets have helped ease a lot of meetings when they (pets) make an appearance in meetings.

Not only have pets including my own cat Billie has helped with my resiliency, music has helped a great deal. The last two and have months my recovery play list has helped a great with the resiliency part of my recovery. My recovery play list appears to be the play list I’ve been listening to the most since I found out I was being laid off. So music helping so much just my cat Billie is.

I don’t have much more to say except that my cat, Billie (and other animals/pets I see in Zoom meetings) and music have been helping me a great deal with being resilient. I also want to thanks you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciative from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Wanting to Post but Nothing to Post

Hello, World!!!! Right now, I am feeling left out or left behind. I feel like this because some of the things I am discussing to friends and family especially family don’t seem to understand how traumatic this entire lay of thing has been on not just the clients but the staff. I just feel like I have nobody to go to that understand but my therapist. I need someone other than my therapist to talk to about it. My family it traumatizing me more about talking about it with them so what the use of discussing it with them. I don’t want to wear out the friends I do have. I just feel like the only people who know are the ones I work with and we just want to discuss it with others because it will make us more upset discussing at this point.

I do have to I Billie has been a great help through all of this and keeping an eye me. I feel like I am neglecting him in a away. Mainly by not play with him as much. I love my Billie so much and he was a good boy today. I took him outside the building with his leash and harness and it was the first time he didn’t try to run back to the building door. It only last five minutes but I’m proud of Billie for it. It was also the perfect Seattle weather to do it in as well.

I don’t have much to say except thank you for reading my blog. Have a good rest of you Wednesday. Peace Out, World!!!

Official Date for Lay Off from Work

Good Evening, World!!!! I finally found out when my lay off date is at work and am not sure if I am allowed to share it as I signed some documentation. In all honest with you, I think it’s the other shit that they don’t want out there. Not everyone has the same lay off date but mine is June 3rd of this year. I’m sad I only have a couple of weeks to say goodbye to client but they will be going to place that will be helpful to them. My place employment was a mental health agency the was geared toward the queer community was it’s main focus so Seattle experience a big loss especially since it’s been around for fifty three years.

On that note I’ve have friends and family checking on me that makes me feel loved. Having a good support system is needed when you are in recovery from anything. I truly love my friends and family and that they love and care for me back. My colleagues are in the same category as friends and family.

Speaking of friends and family, Billie Dean, my cat is on my lap as I write this post as I listen to my recovery playlist from Spotify. My cat being near me is surely helping my emotions just like the music is. Music is a go to for me to change my mood around. Billie my cat listening to the music just helps that just much more.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, again thank you from the bottom of my hear for reading my blog. Peace Out, World.

I’m Bored so I’m Blogging

Good Morning, World, once again. It’ just barely after seven in the morning here in Seattle and I am bored half out of my mind so I’m blogging. I’ve been awake since around three this morning. I haven’t been back to sleep so I’ve been doing some minor household chores like cleaning out Billie’s litter box, taking out the trash and sorting out what laundry needs to be done first later today. I’m not about to start a load of laundry now just in case I am able to get some sleep.

Since I have some minor household chores done and the weekend morning news is on, I decided to turn it on. I quickly regretted it as it’s depressing as hell yet I still have it on. Maybe I am keeping it on out boredom. I don’t know.

All I know is my cat Billie Dean, is laying on my lap purring up a storm and appears to be a happy clam with all the lap time he has been getting this morning. Hell, all his lap time this morning has been helpful for me. Billie is an amazing kitty and I love him so very much.

I do not have much to say in this particular blog. Thank you for reading my blog. It greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. it really means a great deal to me that you read my blog. I hope everyone has a great Saturday as well as a great weekend. Just know you are all awesome and I appreciate you all. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Early to be Up on a Saturday

Good Morning, World!!! It is nearly four in the morning here in the Seattle area. I’ve been awake since just after three this morning. Not sure why I am awake this early so I’m blaming it on insomnia. On that note I’ve been trying to write this blog since I woke up but my cat, Billie Dean, is making a bit challenging to use my laptop.

So, obviously, I am figuring out a way to write it with him purring on my lap. I love my cat Billie so very much. He has made the last two months so much easier to deal with shit regarding a job I love. As I’ve mentioned before I am getting laid off from work with no lay off date. I do know I’m stay to they close or at least stop paying me. On that note we officially stop seeing clients May 31st and most of the remaining staff will be laid off in June. We don’t know exact dates but at least I know it’s sometime in June.

Any way switching subjects. It’s raining outside here in Seattle. Not exactly a surprise but it’s actually only drizzle. In fact it doesn’t rain as much as people think it does here. Plus, it is usually drizzle. It’s just mostly grey, cloudy and overcast here in Seattle.

I’m going to end this particular blog post now and try to get some more sleep. Thank for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!