Focusing On Recovery

Good evening world from Seattle. Lets start with me feeling slightly depressed due to being laid off from two job. I finally applied for Unemployment and waiting for them to take their sweet ole time to get money in the bank. I have applied for jobs and gotten interviews. Just waiting to hear back to see if I got a job. I really need some employment to pay the bills.

Not having a job is making me feel depressed which is why I am doing some things to help improve the depression and increase joy in my life. Of course I am focusing on attempting to get a job Secondly I am spending a lot of time with my cat Billie. Billie is such a love bug.

Other things I plan to improve my mood is focus on mindfulness as well as self help books. Lets not forget about going to therapy and seeing my psychiatric nurse practitioner.I figure if I focus on this paragraph that going the tarot card and journalling part will be just has helpful.

The other thing that will help is cleaning up my apartment and will start doing the cleaning pare tomorrow just like everything else I mentioned. I started studying up on Tarot cards and stuff and I am feeling a pit more peaceful and slightly less depressed.

As for my potential jobs and interviews please wish me luck. I am not finished with this particular blog post and hope to update you more tomorrow Seattle time. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again thank from the bottom of my heart fro reading my blog. Peace Out World!!!

Productivity While Sleepless in Seattle

Happy Middle of the Night From Seattle. I am dealing with some depression that is causing the insomnia. I have a lot on my mind including not having a job which means no money. I’m worried about paying rent. I am hoping that you can my reading can click on the advertisements so I can get money to pay rent. Sorry to start this pvarticular blog post for asking for money by clicking on the advertisements. It might be only a few cents but it helps. Again thank you for putting up with me asking for money the first paragraph.

Now on to what I plan to discuss; my productivity since I can’t sleep, Let start with me educating myself with books for Dummies. Right now I am reading U.S History for Dummie. I only read tthe first chapter and I will do the quiz online.

I’ve also been doing some arts as well as crafts. I’ve done some coloring, paint by color, latch hoot and cross stitch. Being creative help with the depression and so does educating myself with the Dummies Education series.

Of course I can”t forget Billie had been a great help with my depression. He is loving and tuned into my down time like when I am down in the dumps.

I don’t have much more to say in this blog post. I do want to thank you for reading for my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. Thanks again for reading my blog. Peace Out, World

Middle of the Night Ramblings

Happy Middle of the Night World or at least it here in Seattle. I ordered some crafting stuff from Amazon. Specifically, I ordered Latch Hook crafting. Not sure how well, I’ll do at it but its worth trying. I am getting impatient for them to arrive even though I order most of them yesterday (Monday, September 5th) and some will arrive sometime today, September 6th.

I’m hoping that I can finish two or three to donate to a local animal shelter to action off during a fundraising event. Not sure how they will turn out but I would love to help in anyway I can and learn a new craft while doing it.

Another thing I hope doing Latch Hook can help improve my depression and PTSD as well as my other mental health diagnosis and symptoms. I really wish I wasn’t laid off as it would be helpful for my mental health symptom.

As far as my cat, Billie, he has been attached to me today. I think he is picking up on my anxiety. I love my cat so much and how he knows when to comfort me..

I want to thank you for ready blog. I don’t have much more to say. Just thank you for reading my blog..

Billie Not Liking Me At the Moment Even Though He Still Loves Me

Good Morning, World!!! I took Billie for a follow dental appointment. As a precautionary procedure they I giving Billie antibiotics as one of the sites isn’t getting better but not getting worse so I chose to do antibiotics. Billie isn’t liking it. He may not like me for a few minutes but I know he still loves me. He still wanted his morning loving after the antibiotic.

My cat means the world to me and I love him with all my heart. Having an Emotional Support Animal (ESA) has greatly helped me with my recovery and mental health symptoms. I’m grateful for my last cat Lil Brooke and my current cat Billie.

Thank you for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me the you the reader read my blog. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. So thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Plans to Make a Better Future

Right now I have a lot of desires to improve my life. Of course my cat Billie Dean helps improve my life. I love him so very much. I know he loves me very much as well. He has kept me stable the last two and half years. I love him so much and wish his dental work wasn’t so expensive.

I am also teaching myself tarot card in hopes it will give me a better direction in my life. I also have a tarot journal to help with it creating a life worth living. A life worth living is something I desire.

Therapy helps build a life worth living as long as doing self help books. I just want to be come a better self even if therapy and self help books are helpful.

Another thing that helps me is applying for jobs a reading. I hope to get a lot done next week. I don’ have much more to say except thank you for reading my blog. it it greatly appreciated from my end of things. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World and have an awesome weekend.

Updates on Billie & Internet Issues

Happy Friday, World!!! First and fore most I took this entire week off of work due to stomach flu as well as mental health stuff. Well all expect yesterday when I took the day off to take Billie to the vet to get some major dental work done Plus I had therapy yesterday as well. I would have told you sooner but my home internet is having some issues. So I am spending time with my family and their internet. I hope to update with you about my new job when my home internet is fixed. I hope everyone has a great Friday and Peace Out World!!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 17: A Map As Your Muse

Well, whenever it comes to a map as your muse assignment, I don’t use the “typical map” as it doesn’t seem very interesting to me so I find maps such as above the focuses on a topic and doesn’t use the “typical” map style. I chose one on affirmations because they seem to help me with my recovery especially now that I am dealing with imposter syndrome due to the new job.

In fact this particular map has me inspired to look over my affirmation and say a few out loud. I might even a new affirmations to my list. I hope this inspires to continue and/or create affirmations to say on the daily basis.

Anxiety Increasing as Tomorrow Gets Closer

Hello, World!!! My anxiety is increasing as tomorrow gets closer. Even though I’ve had my first week of work it was mostly done remotely or in person with the HR and IT departments which is at different location that I will be working at. See tomorrow in my first day at my job site and I am nervous as fucking hell. I know it is okay to be nervous but not just anxious about my first day at my job site.

I am nervous about having to take public transportation again. The last two years I’ve been either working from home or taking Lyft to and from work due to Covid-19 as I was trying to limit the amount of exposure I could get. I’m not so worried about the exposure as much due to having the vaccine, the booster and actually being diagnosed with Covid-19 the day after I got the booster. Covid suck shit and I know there is a possibility of getting it again but that is not why I’m worried about using public transportation. I’m nervous because, I’ll be taking a route I’ve never taken before. I’m nervous because even on routes, I am familiar with, there are times I have to get off due anxiety and/or PTSD issues and would have to wait for the next bus so I could be in a better head space to be back on the bus. I know everything will be fine but I’m still anxious about it. I just to get use to public transportation again as well as a new route to me.

When I get home from work tomorrow I am sure my cat Billie dean will be more than happy that I am home. Hell, Billie is always happy when I get home even if it is for five minutes for checking my mail or taking out the garbage. I’m more than certain that I will be just as happy to be home as my cat will be.

I do not have much else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, once again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans


  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Do Food Handlers permit class and test


  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work (First day at actual job site)
  • Spend time with Billie when I arrive home


  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work from home as I have online training
  • Dinner with neighbors who are friends


  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work (at job site)
  • Spend time with Billie when I get home from work
  • Attend an online 12 step group


  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work (at job site)
  • Spend time with Billie after I get home from work


  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work (at job site)
  • Dinner with a friend
  • Get home and spend time with Billie


  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Spend day at grandpa’s house
  • Do laundry while at grandpa’s
  • Make grandpa dinner while at his place

Weekly Check-In

Hello, World!!! It’s been a long week. It’s been a long week. It started with me volunteering on Sunday as I normally do. We were slammed due to it being “kitten season.” The place I volunteer at has a super sweet lovable senior kitty who surprisingly hasn’t been adopted yet.

Then I started my job on Monday. It’s been a week full of training and my brain hurts from everything I learned this past week. Best part was having yesterday (Friday) off so I did an extra volunteer shift. I love me some kitten time but I love my Billie so much.

Then today I took a training to get certified in First Aid and CPR which is required by my employer. I had to pay for the training but I’m okay with that especially since it included AED training. To find out, I will get a “few cent raise” for the AED training or so I’m told. Weather or not I get the raise having all three certifications will help make me more employable.

All I need to do now is get my food handler’s permit and I am all set in what I need which will be easy to attain since I needed one for working at Safeway. On that note I just realized I need to show proof on auto insurance but since I don’t have a car I don’t have any. I still might have to get it if I’m required to drive a company car but if that is the case then I get to use auto insurance for tax purpose’s then.

Have a great rest of your weekend and Peace Out, World!!!