Monthly Archives: July 2018

Depressed Yet Grateful

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I woke up this morning depressed yet grateful to be alive. I’m grateful to be alive as I am realizing that I never would have thought when I was in my late teens and early twenties that I would live to be my current age of 39. I thought way back when that I would have been dead due to suicide.

Despite being depressed and unemployed, I am grateful for my life and the life I have lived thus far. Yes, I have made my fare share of mistake however they have helped shaped who I am today. I have decided to share with you my gratitude list for the day.

  • Life itself
  • My cat, Lil Gertie
  • My family
  • My friends
  • The blogging community
  • The mental health help I am getting
  • My therapist
  • My doctors
  • My apartment
  • My teddy bear
  • Being able to read
  • Music
  • Being able to play the flute and harmonica
  • Summer

That is my gratitude list for today. I hope it helps you find the little things in life to be grateful for. Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is extremely appreciated on my end that I have people that read my blog. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Good Morning, World!!!

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! There is nothing better than having a cat laying next to purring as you wake up in the morning. As I woke up this morning Lil Gertie was beside me on my bed purring. I personally think its the best way to wake up in the morning. My love for Lil Gertie grows everyday and I can’t imagine my life without her.

As I get ready for the day, I realize how lucky I am to be alive. I am lucky to be alive for many reasons and am grateful that I am alive. I am grateful to be alive because that means I have more love to give and am still able to help others out.

I am loving the weather Seattle is having. I love it when the weather hits the 80’s or higher. The only thing I don’t like about the hot weather this summer is now I have a cat I need to worry about when the weather heats up.

I should get going to get ready for the day. I just wanted to post so I can get back in the habit of blogging again. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Combating Summer Depression

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! As I stated in my last post, I was in the hospital for a week and I am now out and doing better. I may be doing better than I was before I went into the hospital however my depression is still there. Having depression any time of the year sucks shit but during the summer it sucks even more.

Despite still fighting off depression, I have been finding ways to combat the depression. The main ways I have been combating depression is spending time with friends and family. Spending time with others has been proven helpful for me.

Another way I have been combating summer depression is attending summer parties. Parties that include other people as well as a great deal of food. In fact I am going to be hosting a summer party later this week. Actually, it is going to be an ice cream social. I’ll be providing the ice cream while the attendee’s will bringing the toppings. I’m looking forward to this get together I am having.

Thank you for reading my blog. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Been A Couple of Weeks

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I know it has been a couple of weeks or so since I last posted. I have been struggling quite a bit as of lately. In fact I was in the hospital for a week and got out yesterday (Thursday). I am doing much better that I was when I went into the hospital.

I had a neighbor as well as my grandpa take care of my cat while I was in the hospital. The worst part about being in the hospital was missing my cat. It has been quite nice being home with my cat. My cat hasn’t left my side since I have gotten home which has helped my anxiety a great deal.

I hope to post again soon as I am hungry and am going to eat. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Belated 4th of July Post

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I want to apologize to you my reader for not blogging as much. I have been struggling a great deal with my depression. My depression symptoms appear to have effected me severely enough that I haven’t been blogging.

Since my depression symptoms got in the way of blogging, I wanted to tell you about my 4th of July.  Despite my depression symptoms acting up, I managed to attended the Mariner versus Angel game here in Seattle. I really enjoyed myself with the exception of having Mariner’s fans throwing things at me. Due to having things thrown at me, I received a ticket to another game. I am also happy to say that the Angels won the game.

As for watching fireworks, I watched them at home on the television as I wasn’t sure how Lil Gertie was going to react to them. Lil Gertie didn’t react all that well to the fireworks. She hid in my dirty clothes hamper which is in my closet. She meowed out fear a good portion while fireworks were going off.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Depression, Isolation & Voices, Oh My

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World. The last couple of weeks haven’t been the easy for me. I dissociated for nearly an entire week and then last week I was severely depressed. I barely did anything last week. I only went to my appointments and DBT group. I pretty much isolated last week. To add on top of the depression, dissociation and isolation, my voices are acting up.

My mental health treatment team is getting so concerned that they think the hospital might be just around the corner and think they are right. I just don’t know what the hospital can do for me but keep me safe. I am not at risk of self harming or attempting suicide but my treatment team fear for my safety when I am dissociated.

Thank you for reading. Peace out World!!!