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Out of Work Sick (again); Possibly Anxiety Related

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Good Morning, World!!! I am out sick again today because I am vomiting again. At least I know the vomiting is from the symptoms of my Anxiety, PTSD and Depression. I am really hoping that I can go back to work tomorrow. In fact I am slightly fearful that I could get fired for missing so many days but I am part of a union so since I have not been discussed about missing so many days of work I don’t think I will get fired. Plus my supervisors are pretty awesome.

Even though I fear getting in trouble for missing a lot of days, I am grateful that my supervisors promote self care. My self care today is of course cuddling with my beloved cat, Billie. Billie appears to be helping a great deal with my anxiety and depression which is helping the lessening of the vomiting. This is why I think the vomiting is anxiety, PTSD and depression related because I don’t have the normal symptoms that come with vomiting such as a fever or stomach upset or nausea.

Another way I plan on doing self care today is reading an awesome book called “Don’t Open The Door.” I really like the book and the author is Allison Brennan. Once I am done with this book, I hope to read another book she has written. I love reading books by authors that catch my attention right from the first two or three chapters. Of course when reading, my cat Billie cuddles with me which is a great form of self care.

Of course besides cuddling with my cat Billie as I read, I will be doing some art work. I of course will be coloring two giant posters. I will also start doing Diamond art. The Diamond art will be a bit more complicated to do but well worth it as I have had friends with Diamond art and they came out beautifully. It will take a lot of patients doing the diamond art but I think it will be well worth it.

Since this is a day of safe care to help reduce the anxiety provoked vomiting , I hope to go back to work tomorrow. I love my job and enjoy it immensely, Self care is necessary for both mental health and physical health. Just grateful for doing self care.

I do not have much more to say in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my post. It is greatly appreciated from the end of things that you read on my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

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Cuddle Time With Cat While Reading

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Good Evening, World!!! I have been home sick today due to vomiting. I slept for a few hours and woke up during early afternoon hours. After waking up from a nap I did some self reflection and realized that part of the reason I was vomiting was due to having a slight bout of depression and some pretty severe PTSD symptoms. With this revelation, I am determined to go into work tomorrow.

On that note, as I mentioned in my last post, I slept for a while. A much needed sleep that helped me feel better with the vomiting as well as the depression and PTSD. Since being up and about in my apartment, I took a shower and ate. Since taking a shower and eating, I have been cuddling with my cat, Billie and reading a book called “Don’t Open The Door.” I’m only on chapter six but it a great book. It is a suspenseful thriller book so far. As much as I love reading with my cat, Billie curled up on my lap, I wish I could be reading outside because the weather in Seattle right now is pretty awesome. It is a perfect sunny day that is 75 degrees Fahrenheit. Reading outside on a day like this is one of my favorite things to do but reading with my cat snuggled in my lap is pretty awesome.

As far as my depression and PTSD goes, I need to get back into the things that I know will help and do them on the regular basis like I used to. The first thing is to go for walks every morning to help my mind in a good place. Secondly, to do a morning mindfulness meditation to put my head in a good peaceful place. Thirdly, to do a mindfulness meditation practice before bed to help rewind from the day. I will restart this tomorrow and I know it works if I do it on the regular basis.

I do not have much more to say in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read on my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog,, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Happy Monday & Good Monday

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Happy Monday & Good Morning, World!!! I know it is not Mother’s Day but sadly I was unable to see my mom yesterday due to the fact my mom has Covid. We were both disappointed by both of us especially since my mom has staged three lung cancer. On the plus side I think we did face timed on the phone. It was nice to see my mom via time even though I couldn’t hang out with her in person.

While doing face time with my mom, mom was able to see my kitty cat, Billie. Billie appeared to enjoy my mom by talking to her. My mom would love to meet my cat in person. I am so glad that my mom loves my cat, Billie.

Honestly, I am a little depressed because I was unable to see my mom for morthers day due to my mom having stage thee lung cancer and covid. I just wish my mom didn’t have cancer or covid. I love my mom so much and don’t want her to die.

At least I know that my mom and love each other. I am hoping that one day my mom can come to my hope tot meet my cate. I am sure she will love my cat, Billie.

i think I am going to end this blog for now. I do want to thank for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog. Peace Out, world

Productivity While Sleepless in Seattle

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Happy Middle of the Night From Seattle. I am dealing with some depression that is causing the insomnia. I have a lot on my mind including not having a job which means no money. I’m worried about paying rent. I am hoping that you can my reading can click on the advertisements so I can get money to pay rent. Sorry to start this pvarticular blog post for asking for money by clicking on the advertisements. It might be only a few cents but it helps. Again thank you for putting up with me asking for money the first paragraph.

Now on to what I plan to discuss; my productivity since I can’t sleep, Let start with me educating myself with books for Dummies. Right now I am reading U.S History for Dummie. I only read tthe first chapter and I will do the quiz online.

I’ve also been doing some arts as well as crafts. I’ve done some coloring, paint by color, latch hoot and cross stitch. Being creative help with the depression and so does educating myself with the Dummies Education series.

Of course I can”t forget Billie had been a great help with my depression. He is loving and tuned into my down time like when I am down in the dumps.

I don’t have much more to say in this blog post. I do want to thank you for reading for my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. Thanks again for reading my blog. Peace Out, World

Struggling & Making an Effort to Feel Better Emotionally

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I’ve been struggling with PTSD and Depression the last couple of weeks. Partly because I lost my new job and mainly due to some traumatic events in my life that don’t count losing a job. I’ve been applying for new jobs because I need the money to pay the bills even though I know of resources I can go to to help.

I’ve been applying to jobs in fast food even thought I don’t want to work fast food or retail but I need the money to pay the bills. I would rather work as a peer specialist or in the human service feild but right now a job is job and I can’t be too picky right so I can pay bills.

Things that I plan on doing are DBT skills and new hobbies like Latch hooking or attempting to teach myself. I also plan on doing some art by coloring and reading some books. And of course reading some books. I also have a twenty minute check in via phone with my therapist later today. Last but not least doing art work with coloring and spending time with my cat Billie.

I don’t have much more to say. I do want to thank you for reading my blog and hope I’m not boring anyone of you. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

An Apprehensive Type of Day

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Good Morning, World!!! I’m not sure why I am so apprehensive today but I am. Maybe it is because of the call I just got from a former employer asking me if I’m still up for the interview. Does this mean they chose someone else or does this mean I’m the only one willing to take the job.

Plus my cat appears to not be feeling well. It might be his teeth or he could be picking up on my depression or maybe both. Animals can do that. I’m also worried about money due to not having any type of income.

I do not have much more to say except thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Ramblings

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Happy Middle of the Night World or at least it here in Seattle. I ordered some crafting stuff from Amazon. Specifically, I ordered Latch Hook crafting. Not sure how well, I’ll do at it but its worth trying. I am getting impatient for them to arrive even though I order most of them yesterday (Monday, September 5th) and some will arrive sometime today, September 6th.

I’m hoping that I can finish two or three to donate to a local animal shelter to action off during a fundraising event. Not sure how they will turn out but I would love to help in anyway I can and learn a new craft while doing it.

Another thing I hope doing Latch Hook can help improve my depression and PTSD as well as my other mental health diagnosis and symptoms. I really wish I wasn’t laid off as it would be helpful for my mental health symptom.

As far as my cat, Billie, he has been attached to me today. I think he is picking up on my anxiety. I love my cat so much and how he knows when to comfort me..

I want to thank you for ready blog. I don’t have much more to say. Just thank you for reading my blog..

Unemployment Sucks; Family & Friends Rock

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Good Afternoon, World!!! It’s evening time here in Seattle and I am feeling a little depressed while dealing with some PTSD. I have been sleeping off and on all day due to the depression and PTSD. Personally, I think being unemployed is was is helping the depression a little bit. I really need a job to help keep myself busy which help with the symptoms of my mental health diagnosis.

On the plus side when I haven’t been sleeping most of the day family and friends have been checking up on me. Some of my friends and neighbors have been feeding me. My grandpa gave me money to buy some art and crafting supplies to keep myself busy and hopefully awake during the day. So, I got some coloring stuff like colored pencils and markers as well as some of those giant and detailed coloring posters. I also got some crafting stuff as well. I got some latch hook crafting. I’ve never done latch hook so I want to try something knew and who knows I might have some done before the holidays to give as gift. Of course 98% of the latch hook stuff I’m get to make happen to be cats which isn’t surprising since I own a cat. Actually, I feel like my cat is more like a family member that me owning him.

As far as the unemployment part of life they are being challenging right now. I am on the job hunt and applying for jobs and getting interviews. It’s just the waiting game on hearing back if I’m going to get an interview or a job. Patience is not my virture.

I don’t have much else to say except my cat Billie is wanting to sit on my lap and my laptop is getting in his way. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So , thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Stress Free Sunday

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Good Evening, World!!! It is eight o’clock in the evening here in Seattle. If you read my blog on the regular basis you know that I have been laid of as of this past Friday (June 3rd). Yesterday I was stressing a little bit but realized the stress knowing I was being laid off is not long a stress at least at the moment. It has been a stress free Sunday and feel great to be stress free. The last three months at my now previous employ caused my anxiety and depression symptom increase. Now that everything is done now with the lay offs it is like the lift has been lifted.

On that note I volunteered today and as PAWS Cat City and that help immensely. I’m happy that volunteer at Cat City because it is a form of self care for me just like my own cat Billie is a source to help with my stress. It appears that animals help a great deal. I am grateful for my cat Billie and and my volunteer job at Cot City.

On a good note I have a job interview tomorrow. I am nervous as hell but at least if I don’t get the job I have the practice of the job interview. Send good juju, energy, vibes or any thing good my way when it comes to my job interview tomorrow (Monday).

I don’t have much to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. It it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Just Realized I Have a Four Day Weekend

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Hello World!!! I am just realizing that I have a four day weekend ahead of me because I forgot it was Memorial Day weekend so I am taking tomorrow (Friday) off to go to a four hour training that will help me with my chosen career. I also made a doctors appointment for tomorrow to follow up on some health care needs that I need to be taken care of.

First of all want to pay tribute to those who served in the military and paid the ultimate price for our country; death. They helped keep our freedoms and am grateful for their ultimate sacrifice.

Not on to some sad news that client of mine from work died by suicide. This was a shocker as this client worked really hard with their recover from depression and other stuff. This client is an inspiration to me in regards to keeping on the recovery path. I can not say more as I could be breaking the HIPAA Law. I am just sad that their depression got the better of them. At least they are no longer suffering.

On Saturday, I am going to go visit family and have some meals with them. It is always nice to spend time with family especially my grandpa. I love my grandpa so much. My grandpa is my hero.

On Sunday I will be volunteering at PAWS Cat City. I love volunteering with animals specifically. I look forward to Sunday mornings when I get some time with more kitties.

On Monday as well as other days when I have the time I will be reading a book. Not jut ay book but a Star Wars book. I love Star Wars and I love to read. I am really looking forward to this four day weekend.

Before I forget I will be spending time reading with my cat Billie which makes this weekend a good one.

On that note I don’t have much more to stay in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciate from my end that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you my reader reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. So thank you from the bottom of reading my blog. Peace Out World!!!