Monthly Archives: September 2018

Friday Night Randomness

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Good Evening, World!!! Happy Friday to everyone out there reading my blog. It is hard to believe that I will have my first shift a week from today. I am looking forward to it. The one thing that I am not looking forward to this next week is all the orientations I have to attend. In fact I have about twelve orientations I have to do within the first sixty days of employment. I am having some high anxiety over the new job but I am looking forward to it at the same time.

As much as I would like to blame the lack of sleep as of lately due to new job jitters, it is not the case. I haven’t been sleeping very well as of lately. In fact worse than usual for me. Enough for my psychiatric nurse practitioner and regular doctor to consider putting me in a sleep study.

I am not sure about the sleep study but I think I am going to call it a night even though it is only eight thirty in the evening in my corner of the world. Thank you for reading. I hope everyone has an awesome weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

No Zzz’s In Seattle

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Hello, World!!! It is just a few minutes after two in the morning in my corner of the world. I am unable to sleep and it is starting to piss me off. I think it is pissing me off more than usual that I can not sleep because my health insurance company is being a butthead in regards to covering my new sleep med. I don’t think it is too much to ask to look over a piece of paper that was faxed over last week on two different occasions. It is just infuriating as hell when one is waiting on a decision that could effect one’s health and mental health.

On a plus note Lil Gertie successfully took most of her meds to treat her asthma and allergies. Granted it wasn’t the full dose but at least it was most of it. So far she hasn’t had any coughing attacks since taking the meds. I am hoping that the meds are working as I love Lil Gertie. She has become family and I don’t want to loose her. I know asthma is treatable it just worries me.

I know all this worrying isn’t helping with the insomnia and I am hoping that with posting about it, that it could be helpful for me to get some sleep. Sleep that is much needed if I am to remain healthy myself.

I want to thank you for reading my blog. I think I am going to attempt getting some sleep once again. Your readership is greatly appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Worries of the Night

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Hello, World!!! It is now twelve thirty in the morning in my corner of the world. I am still up due to watching late night television. Late night television helps me deal with life in general especially today. I say this because Lil Gertie has given me a couple of days due some coughing episodes and today’s coughing episodes were scary and worrisome. So, I took her to the vet. The vet diagnosed her with allergies and mild asthma even though the vet didn’t hear wheezing. She determined the mild asthma diagnosis by watching the two videos I took of Lil Gertie’s coughing attacks. The vet, Dr. B, said I did the right thing with the videos.

Another thing that I am worried about is the sleeping meds and my health insurance being slow to approve the pre-authorization for it. It is tough to be dealing with lack of sleep but am grateful for what little sleep I do get especially when I don’t have anything to help with it.

I do not have much more to say. I think I am going try to get some shut eye. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a good night. Peace Out, World!!!

Wednesday Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I did end up getting some sleep last night. I got about three hours even though it is still not enough sleep, I will take any sleep I can. I hope the sleeping med situation with my insurance company is taken care of soon.

I don’t have anything planned for today. It is a see what comes up type of day. I do know that I will need to get out of my apartment at some point because if I don’t it might turn into one of them days. I don’t know why it feels like but it does.

I am excited about my new job even though I don’t know when my first shift will be. I hope it is soon. I am not sure if I like everything about it. The reason why is because it is at night and is a twelve hour shift. But the thing about it is, is that it is only one to two days a week.

I don’t have much more to say in this post. I appreciate everyone who reads my blog. It is greatly appreciated. I hope everyone has an awesome day. Again, thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Jobless, No More & Other Stuff

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Hello, World!!! I got a job over yesterday to be an on-call shelter counselor at a local drop-in center for homeless youth and young adults which does an overnight shelter for young adults. This morning I accepted the job offer. It may not exactly be the job I want however I know from experience that you’re more likely to get a job if you are already working. I am hoping that working even as an on call staff will be helpful with me getting a Peer Specialist job.

I was able to tell my therapist the good news today. We discussed both the benefits and down falls of going back to work. We both agreed that the benefits out way the down falls of going back to work. We also discussed other aspect of my life that I am not willing to share with you at the moment.

Now on to the issue I am having with my meds. My new sleeping med is now not being covered by my insurance yet they paid for it last week but not this week. I need a pre-authorization and my doctor filled it out and faxed it on three different occasions the last two days yet my insurance company claimed they didn’t receive none of the pre-authorization forms.  Dealing with the insurance company regarding my sleep medication doesn’t help with my sleep. It is actually making my lack of sleep even worse.

Speaking of sleep I think I got about an hour and last night which is more than I got on Sunday night. I really hope I am able to sleep tonight because if I don’t I am afraid I might be a cranky bucket tomorrow when I call the insurance company again as well as my doctor regarding my sleeping med.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It is very much appreciated. I hope you have a good night (or day). Peace Out, World!!!

A Nothing Sort of Day

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Good Evening, World!!! Overall, today has been good. I have had bouts of crying spells due to depression and grief. Grief over the loss of my grandma, seven months ago today. The last seven months have has proven to be challenging due to the loss of my grandma as you never know when a sudden wave of grief will hit.

As I stated in my last post today was going to be a day of self care due to the grief of loosing my grandma seven months ago. I thought I was going to watch movies most of the day but it turned out to watching television or at least a television show on Hulu. I binged watched the show, E.R. I forgot how much I loved the show E.R.

I not only binge watched E.R., I read comic books. I specifically read Wonder Woman comic books. Reading gave my eyes a break from the computer screen and they were happy that I do.

I watched E.R and read comic books while curled up under my weighted blanket with my cat, Lil Gertie, next to me. My weighted blanket and Lil Gertie helped with my depression and anxiety today.

Today, was the perfect day to do nothing due to the weather. I am glad I decided to stay in and watch E.R and read Wonder Woman due to the weather. Despite being pretty isolated today I am glad I chose to be isolated. I had a good time binge watching E.R and reading Wonder Woman comics and plan to continue to do both after I finish with this post.

Thank you for reading my blog. I appreciate you my reader from the bottom of my heart. You guys are all awesome. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

A Lazy Friday

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Good Morning, World!!! It is Friday morning and I plan to take it easy today while staying in my pajama’s all day. Part of the reason I am doing this is because today marks the seventh month anniversary of my grandma’s death. Yes, that means I am still taking her death hard and obviously still dealing with grief. Another reason why I am taking it easy today is because of the weather. It is a rainy and dreary day here in Seattle. So the weather is fitting my depressive mood at the moment.

Since my grief and depression are acting up, I have decided that staying my pajama’s is a part of my self care plan which means I will staying in all day. Yes, I do have plans to do things here at home as part of my self care. As part of my self care I plan on doing today is watch movies. Not sure what movies I am going to watch but I plan on watching comedies as they are the most helpful to me when I am depressed and/or dealing with grief.

Another things I plan on doing today for good self care is reading. I plan on reading the Science Fiction novel I picked up from my home library. I also plan reading comic books. I will most likely be reading Wonder Woman comic books with a mixture of other comic books.

Having a good self care plan when I plan on staying home is key to making sure my depression doesn’t get worse. So, that is why I decided to do things that are quite helpful for me when I am home. The best part of me staying home now and being lazy is spending time with my cat.

I don’t have much more to say. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. I hope everyone has a good day and a wonderful weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Wonder Woman & The WNBA

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Good Evening, World!!! I have been fighting off depression all day today. I haven’t left my apartment except to check my mail. Despite being depressed and in isolation mode, I have found ways to keep myself busy.

The main thing I did today was read Wonder Woman comic books. I did this as it appears reading Wonder Woman comic books give me the strength I need to get through difficult moments like the ones I have had today.

Another thing I did was watch the Seattle Storm sweep the Washington Mystics in the WNBA championship. Of course that means the Seattle Storm win the 2018 WNBA championship. I am proud of the Seattle Storm.

Now, I need to figure out what the hell to do next to combat this depressive episode I am struggling with. I think I am going to call some friends. Reaching out to others is helpful for me. I most likely will also do some coloring.

Lil Gertie, my cat, has been quite helpful to me today. She is an awesome cat. I think having Lil Gertie has proven to be a great investment for me. She has helped my mental health in many ways.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. I hope everyone has a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Minor Miracle

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Good Morning, World!!! My new sleeping meds work well. I was able to sleep for six hours. For me getting six hours of sleep is a miracle. I normally only get about three hours of sleep when in reality I need about eight hours of sleep. So I am really happy with the miracle of getting six hours of sleep last night with the help of my new sleeping med.

I have been watching the morning news. It appears that the only thing they are discussing is the weather. Mainly about Hurricane Florence headed toward the east coast. The morning news is also discussing the tropical storm hitting Hawaii.

Now I am going to get my morning tea and read the news paper while eating cereal. It is part of my morning routine. Having this part of my morning routine has proven helpful for me to a good start of the day.

I don’t have much more to say. I hope everyone has a wonderful day. The week is half over and hope that whatever you have planed that you are able to enjoy your plans. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things.  Peace out, World!!!

Tuesday Evening Randomness

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Good Evening, World!!! Today is a sad day in America’s history. Seventeen years ago today marks the anniversary of the most horrific act of terrorism America has ever dealt with. Everyone I know remembers exactly where they were and what they were doing when they heard the news of the terrorist attack. The last seventeen years I have seen the resiliency that people have after such terrible things happening.

I saw my psychiatric nurse practitioner today. She changed my sleep med from Ambien to Lunesta. My psychiatric nurse practitioner is awesome. She informed me just like my primary care doctor does, to not drink so much caffeine. I don’t like coffee so I get my caffeine through tea and soda. I drink way too much soda.

Tomorrow my grandpa and I are going out to lunch tomorrow. We are going “dutch” meaning he pays for what he eats and I pay for what I eat. Not sure where we are going to go but I’m going to have a good time spending some time with my grandpa.

I’m also planning on watching the women’s basketball championship tomorrow. I am of course rooting for the Seattle Storm. I really hope they win tomorrow as that means they would have swept the Washington Mystics. Just so you all know, Sue Bird, is really down to earth.

I think I should get going as I haven’t had dinner yet. I want to thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!