Resiliency Making an Appearance

Good Evening, World!!! The last two and half months have been challenging for me and many others due to the unexpected news off my employer closing and being laid off. It has been quite traumatizing for all involved and am beyond grateful for the support I have received from many different people including those, I never expected support from.

If you been reading my blog regularly the last two and half months, you know I’m getting laid off due to my employer closing. Due to Covid-19 I know most of my colleagues via zoom and same goes for the clients I serve. Any way, I am realizing the fact how resilient myself, colleagues and clients are while sharing the same trauma even though we are experiencing it in different ways.

As sucky as the pandemic has been, Zoom has become a love hate relationship. Zoom may has it’s problems but it sure has its ups. Lets start by the best part of Zoom meetings and appointments which is surprise visits from all the pets which includes on my end seeing (and hearing) birds, rabbits, cats, dogs, turtles, snakes, rats and a miniature horse. I think with the seeing all the animals people have as pets has built a rapport with others if the pandemic didn’t happen. I know my cat, Billie, has helped my clients in Zoom appointments. Hell, Billie and my colleagues pets have helped ease a lot of meetings when they (pets) make an appearance in meetings.

Not only have pets including my own cat Billie has helped with my resiliency, music has helped a great deal. The last two and have months my recovery play list has helped a great with the resiliency part of my recovery. My recovery play list appears to be the play list I’ve been listening to the most since I found out I was being laid off. So music helping so much just my cat Billie is.

I don’t have much more to say except that my cat, Billie (and other animals/pets I see in Zoom meetings) and music have been helping me a great deal with being resilient. I also want to thanks you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciative from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Wanting to Post but Nothing to Post

Hello, World!!!! Right now, I am feeling left out or left behind. I feel like this because some of the things I am discussing to friends and family especially family don’t seem to understand how traumatic this entire lay of thing has been on not just the clients but the staff. I just feel like I have nobody to go to that understand but my therapist. I need someone other than my therapist to talk to about it. My family it traumatizing me more about talking about it with them so what the use of discussing it with them. I don’t want to wear out the friends I do have. I just feel like the only people who know are the ones I work with and we just want to discuss it with others because it will make us more upset discussing at this point.

I do have to I Billie has been a great help through all of this and keeping an eye me. I feel like I am neglecting him in a away. Mainly by not play with him as much. I love my Billie so much and he was a good boy today. I took him outside the building with his leash and harness and it was the first time he didn’t try to run back to the building door. It only last five minutes but I’m proud of Billie for it. It was also the perfect Seattle weather to do it in as well.

I don’t have much to say except thank you for reading my blog. Have a good rest of you Wednesday. Peace Out, World!!!

Official Date for Lay Off from Work

Good Evening, World!!!! I finally found out when my lay off date is at work and am not sure if I am allowed to share it as I signed some documentation. In all honest with you, I think it’s the other shit that they don’t want out there. Not everyone has the same lay off date but mine is June 3rd of this year. I’m sad I only have a couple of weeks to say goodbye to client but they will be going to place that will be helpful to them. My place employment was a mental health agency the was geared toward the queer community was it’s main focus so Seattle experience a big loss especially since it’s been around for fifty three years.

On that note I’ve have friends and family checking on me that makes me feel loved. Having a good support system is needed when you are in recovery from anything. I truly love my friends and family and that they love and care for me back. My colleagues are in the same category as friends and family.

Speaking of friends and family, Billie Dean, my cat is on my lap as I write this post as I listen to my recovery playlist from Spotify. My cat being near me is surely helping my emotions just like the music is. Music is a go to for me to change my mood around. Billie my cat listening to the music just helps that just much more.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, again thank you from the bottom of my hear for reading my blog. Peace Out, World.

I’m Bored so I’m Blogging

Good Morning, World, once again. It’ just barely after seven in the morning here in Seattle and I am bored half out of my mind so I’m blogging. I’ve been awake since around three this morning. I haven’t been back to sleep so I’ve been doing some minor household chores like cleaning out Billie’s litter box, taking out the trash and sorting out what laundry needs to be done first later today. I’m not about to start a load of laundry now just in case I am able to get some sleep.

Since I have some minor household chores done and the weekend morning news is on, I decided to turn it on. I quickly regretted it as it’s depressing as hell yet I still have it on. Maybe I am keeping it on out boredom. I don’t know.

All I know is my cat Billie Dean, is laying on my lap purring up a storm and appears to be a happy clam with all the lap time he has been getting this morning. Hell, all his lap time this morning has been helpful for me. Billie is an amazing kitty and I love him so very much.

I do not have much to say in this particular blog. Thank you for reading my blog. It greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. it really means a great deal to me that you read my blog. I hope everyone has a great Saturday as well as a great weekend. Just know you are all awesome and I appreciate you all. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Early to be Up on a Saturday

Good Morning, World!!! It is nearly four in the morning here in the Seattle area. I’ve been awake since just after three this morning. Not sure why I am awake this early so I’m blaming it on insomnia. On that note I’ve been trying to write this blog since I woke up but my cat, Billie Dean, is making a bit challenging to use my laptop.

So, obviously, I am figuring out a way to write it with him purring on my lap. I love my cat Billie so very much. He has made the last two months so much easier to deal with shit regarding a job I love. As I’ve mentioned before I am getting laid off from work with no lay off date. I do know I’m stay to they close or at least stop paying me. On that note we officially stop seeing clients May 31st and most of the remaining staff will be laid off in June. We don’t know exact dates but at least I know it’s sometime in June.

Any way switching subjects. It’s raining outside here in Seattle. Not exactly a surprise but it’s actually only drizzle. In fact it doesn’t rain as much as people think it does here. Plus, it is usually drizzle. It’s just mostly grey, cloudy and overcast here in Seattle.

I’m going to end this particular blog post now and try to get some more sleep. Thank for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

My Grandpa’s Honor Flight

Good Evening, World!!! My grandpa came back from his Honor Flight trip this past Monday after two years of delays due to Covid-19 pandemic. I am so proud of him serving our country. I would love to put picture of what was taken but my grandpa knows I a using a pseu·don·y·mous and doesn’t want that taken a way from me.

I just don’t want to take away one of the best times he has made in in his life time and waited two years due to a stupid pandemic. I am grateful he had a grated time. He met a lot of vets that he will keep in contact with.

The best part was seeing all the love the families had for their vets coming home. A lot of families came out and there were many hugs and smiles. My grandpa had a great time.

I don’t have much more to says except thank you veterans for serving our country. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Sleepy to do Anything but Self Care

Good Evening, World!!! I’ve been tired and sleepy all day. The only thing I could do today was volunteer at PAWS Cat City which helped with my depression. Of course when i got home from volunteering spent some much needed time with my Billie Dean. Billie is such love bug.

I’m been tired and sleepy all day due to insomnia last night. So I decided to read most of the day with Billie in my lap. I read some science fiction books as well as comic books. I think the reading and cuddling with my cat, Billie helped a great deal with the sleepiness and depression.

Sometimes time just lay back cuddling with my cat and reading helps with my depression.. Depression sucks shit. At least self care is helping the depression a little bit. It’s not eve eight forty five in the evening here is Seattle and I am reading for bed.

Thank you reading my blog. I hope you all have a good night sleep. Good Night and Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Volunteer a PAW Cat City
  • Read Comic Books

Monday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Attend a Training via Zoom  on De-escalation
  • Spend tie with Billie
  • Pick up grandpa from airport from honor flight

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Read Comic Books
  • Work
  • Spend time with Billie, my cat

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Work
  • Spend time with my cat Billie while reading comic books

Thursday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Work
  • Spend time with cat Billie while reading Comic Books

Friday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Work
  • Spend time with my cat Billie while reading comic books

Saturday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Read Comic Books while cuddling with my cat Billie

Weekly Check In

Good Evening, World!!! Good news is my grandpa’s Honor Flight finally happened was not post poned for the hundredth time. So for are he is enjoying it and the is making me happy. As I sit here hat home in Seattle with my cat Billie Dean, I wish I was with my grandpa but I understand why he want to go alone and not make anyone jealous or envies. It’s also nice to just be home alone with my cat Billie.

As far are as my job goes, it is still up in the air and driving everyone including staff, clients and the count bat shit crazy. The Board of Directors want’s is closed completely however the county it is trying to keep the agency open. Honestly, I think the reality of it is that it will close.

I really wish I was in the other Washington (DC) with my grandpa but I respect his wishes and am happy his honor flight is finally happening. I am happy that I have friend and family sending cards to my grandpa for “mail call” during his honor flight.

I just that is my weekly check in. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Honoring Those Who Served Our Country

Good Afternoon, World!!! It has been just over two years of waiting for my grandpa to take the Honor Flight. Sadly, each and every time it got cancelled due to Covid-19. The pandemic ruined a lot of things for people including those who passed away awaiting to do the honor flight. I am beyond grateful that my 91 year old grandpa gets to go and that the woman he sat by is celebrating her 100th birthday today. I am thrilled that all those who were able to make the honor flight. I hope our veterans have the time of their lives as they gave us the freedoms we have.

I just wanted to thank everyone in the United States and their home countries for fighting for what they believe in. Everyone who serves their country deserves respect and a hug if they are up for a hug.

Thank you for reading my blog. Most importantly lets respect our military even if we don’t agree with each out. Our militaries keep us free and keep up protected. Peace Out, World!!!