It Wasn’t Fireworks

I’m not even going to hi or good morning as I was rudely awakened by what I thought was fireworks. Well it was not fireworks but gunshots. Of course it not only scared the shit out of me but out of my cat as well as my neighbors and their pets. Now there is a buttload of Seattle Police surrounding not just my building but other buildings on my street. There is also a buttload of fire department vehicles (Fire Engines, Ladder Trucks, Medic One Ambulances, Battalion Chiefs and even the Chief of the fire department).

All I know is it wasn’t fireworks and it was gunshots. Sadly, there were at least two people shot. As far as I know nobody thankfully was killed. On that note having two people shot is still scary. Another thing that is scary is that we can’t leave our building much less our apartments with a couple of expiation’s which are coming home from someplace of course needing to show a valid I.D/Drivers License/Passport or if the person has an emergency or has to go to work.

Needless to say many of us in my building and I’m sure other people in the neighboring apartment building are scare shitless. I know I am. My cat was scared at first but he appears to have calmed down. The poor dog two doors down from me is still freaking out as he is still barking.

I was sound asleep when the gunshots happened and I am tired as hell. I’m scared to go back to sleep. Most importantly I am worried about the two gunshot victims even though they lived in the building next door to my building. I know I shouldn’t be as scared as I am but I am. At least I know I am safe and alive.

And now there are more gunshots which is why I am purposely sitting on the floor below any windows. This is not going to be a fun night as I’m still waiting to give my statement to the police after the initial gunshots. I just want to go to sleep without being in fear of being shot.

Well, I should get going. I just want to try to calm myself down. I hope to update you all later.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 3; One-Word Inspiration

Choice

I chose the word choice because we all have choices to make. Some are good and some are not so good. For example I had and interview for a job and told them yes when they offered me the job the next dey. I really ant this job; its the commute I am not not a big fan of. Even I have taken the job and haven’t started yet, I am still applying for other jobs that are closer to home and pay more.

Worse care scenario I make a decision of taking a job closer to home and pays more money. The think about this job that I took was be cause the HR lad who works there work at the job I was laid of from. In fact I admire her.

In all honesty I don’t ant to make the choice of making a job change especially if I haven’t started yet or just start the job. It is a choice I will have to decide on if it comes up.

My Annual 4th of July Walk

A bright pink flower that reminds me of my maternal grandmothers garden.

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Every Fourth of July I take a walk that reminds me of childhood Fourth of July’s. I even took some pictures that reminded me of my childhood. The first picture I took reminded of a flower that reminded me my my maternal grandmother and her garden.

I remember playing on this playground toy. Of course most of the kids play on this got some form of injury but it was a fun toy.

Another thing I I would do on the Fourth of July is play on this push merry go around. There aren’t very many around now but there is one close to me in a park in my neighborhood. I had fun on it as kid on it and still have fun on it as an adult.

Christmas in July

Hello, World!!! I know it’s July. In fact it is the fourth of July. It being the fourth of July isn’t stopping me from play Christmas music in July. Normally, I don’t play Christmas music in July but Christmas is my mom’s favorite holiday. In fact some people like my mom do Christmas in July. She even decorates Christmas decorations in July.

I recently found out that my mom has stage three lung cancer. They are even doing an MRI to see if it spread to the brain. My mom and I have may not have the best relationship but at least the last two to three years we been mending things up. I’m glad we are mending things up because realistically we do not when are time to go is going happen. As hopeful as I am that she is going to survive this I also have to be realistic about it and her not making it.

Something my mom does every year is celebrate Christmas in July and even gives my brother and I gifts on the fourth of July as well as July 25th since “the real Christmas” lands on December 25th. My mom even decorates her home with Christmas decorations. Even though I have some hope she will survive, I decided to decorate my place with Christmas decorations just in cast she doesn’t make it. I sent her a gift for the Fourth of July and of course send her one on the 25th of July. She is my mom and I want her to feel loved.

In all honesty I’m scared she may not make it especially if they find out if it spread to the brain. I am trying to hold out hope and hope that doing Christmas in July will give her the hope she needs. She has been in pretty good spirits but it is my hope that with me doing Christmas in July with my mom it will give her more hope for survival. We may have had not the best relationship but am thrilled we have been mending it over the last two or three years. So here is to a good Christmas in July.

Merry Christmas in July Mom. I love you to the moon and back.

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Go for a morning walk.
  • Mindfulness meditation.
  • Volunteer at Cat City
  • Visit Family
  • Work on a workbook

Monday

  • Go for a morning walk
  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work on a workbook
  • Read
  • Cuddle with Billie

Tuesday

  • Go for a morning walk
  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work on a workbook
  • Read
  • Cuddle with Billie
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Wednesday

  • Go for morning walk
  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work on workbooks
  • 12 Step group
  • Cuddle with Billie

Thursday

  • Go for morning walk
  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work on Workbooks
  • Pick up meds
  • Cuddle with Billie
  • Read

Friday

  • Go for morning walk
  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work on Workbooks
  • Arts and crafts

Saturday

  • Go for morning walk
  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Arts and crafts
  • Read
  • Cuddle with Billie

Everyday Inspiration; Day 2 , Write A List

Things I am learning

  • I’m learning to play the harmonica. (I already know how to play music as I play the flute. I don’t play it very well but I hope it helps me learn to play learn to play the harmonica.)
  • I am learning to do crafts. Specifically, cross stich. I am starting with the kid stamped cross stitch first so I can start from the beginning like a child.
  • I am starting to eat heather as I want eat less just food
  • I am going to do two walks a day. One in the morning which I already do and do one in the evening which I don’t do yet. I will start the evening walk tonight.

Too Early To be Awake

Good Morning, World. It is four are seven in the morning Seattle time. I’ve been awake since three thirty three this morning. I really don’t like waking up so early; It fact as I blog, I am listening to Philosophize This. I’m listening to Philosophize This is giving me some education about a subject I am not vrrr familar with;

One of the things i will do is color as I do some art work. Specifically, I plan on coloring. I’m coloring a poster. in fact I am coloring a poster of a mandala. There is something relaxing about doing a mandala.

I don’t have much more to say except coloring while listening to Philosophize This. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. it it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Good News About New Job

Good Evening, World!!! I found out that I start my new job on June 11th. I am happy that will be working with those who have lived experience with mental health challenges and mental illness. The best part of the job is I get to work with people in crisis as well as well as doing groups and individual individually talking with other people such as professionals, friends and friends.

In fact I am looking forward to the new job. I may not like the public frans;artion. Public transportation from the U-District to Everette is long route.

A Day to Cuddle With my Cat & Do Self Care

Good Morning, world from Seattle. It is a beautiful day in the Seattle. In fact I did some walking as I did my mindfulness meditation practice. I also did another mindfulness meditation as I cuddle with my cat, Billie Dean.

Todays a day of self care. I will be reading a book or I should start reading a book. I am looking forward to reding the book as it appears to be a good book from what the back side says. The books name is Freedomland by Richard Prize.

Another thing I will do it some crafting. Mainly I will do some cross stich. It is a mindfulness meditation for me me. The only problem is that Billie like to play with the string. Even though he likes to play with the string it is still relaxation.

Of course I will be cuddling my cat, Billie. Billie love to cuddle and love to sit on my lap as well as lay by my side when I am in bed or taking a nap.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from mu end of things that you read my blog. If it was not for you the reader,, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blob. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!