All I Want Is Sleep

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Good Morning, World!!! I have not been able to sleep at all. I have been awake since yesterday at two o’clock in the morning, Seattle time. I just wish I could freaking sleep. On a plus note, I have been enjoying some fudge from a small business in Fort Wayne, Indiana that arrived at my home here in Seattle yesterday evening. The business is called Queer AF Confectionz. It is a small business that is woman and queer owned. A friend of mine who is also a small business owner suggested Queer AF Confectionz. I am all for supporting small business especially when the business is own by a minority group. The fudge is really awesome. Their brownies are pretty good as well.

Since I am unable to sleep, I am eating the fudge I bought from Queer AF Confectionz as well as reading. I am reading To Shape A Dragon’s Breath by Moniquill Blackgoose. It is the first book in a trilogy in the Nampeshiweisit series. So far, it is an extremely awesome book. It is a fantasy book that includes dragons. I love reading fantasy books and highly recommend reading To Shape A Dragon’s Breath by Moniquill Blackgoose.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Feeling Depressed & Sharing 2 Cat Pictures

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Good Evening, World!!! I am feeling depressed. I am not exactly sure what is causing it or why. I have my theories and they are valid theories however; I don’t want to use them as an excuse even though they are not excuses. Part of the depression is due to the weather here in Seattle which is the rainy, dreary and gray days that come this time of year along with the shorter days. The weather sucks this time of year here in Seattle, but I will take it over snow any day as I highly dislike snow. The other reason is due to my cat, Billie have terminal cancer and being on palliative care and dealing with anticipatory grief. I love my cat so very much and I am valuing every moment I have with him even more than I did before his cancer diagnosis.

Speaking of my cat, Billie, I took a couple of pictures of him the other day that I want to share with you all. I love showing people pictures of my cat just like I love seeing pictures of other people’s cat or any other pet someone may have. I’m only sharing two pictures in this post. I will add a caption in the picture for my sight impaired readers.

A picture of my cat, Billie as he gives a grumpy look.
Another picture of my cat, Billie giving a grumpy look though he does look annoyed in this picture.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

All I Want Is To Sleep Through The Night

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Good Morning, World!!! I woke up way too early again. I wish I knew why I was waking up so freaking early. I just want to be able to sleep and not worry about insomnia or PTSD getting in the way of me able to sleep. I will need stay focused at work today so I am not a cranky bucket. Since I have not been able to go back to sleep, I have been working on a jigsaw puzzle. Specifically, a cat jigsaw puzzle. For some reason, doing a jigsaw calms my mind.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Up Too Early Before The Start Of Another Work Week

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Good Morning, World!!! It’s the start of another work week and I am up too early. I’m not sure why I keep waking up so freaking early. I just wish I was not waking up so early as I really value my sleep. I really do not like being a cranky bucket especially for work as I really love my job and what I do for employment.

Since I have not been able to sleep, I have decided to read a wonderful book. The book that I am reading is To Shape A Dragon’s Breath by Moniquill Blackgoose. It is the first book in a trilogy in the Nampeshiweisit series. It is a really great book so far and I highly recommend it. I am really enjoying the book.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post except that I am now going to be cuddling with my cat, Billie. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation through the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Jigsaw puzzle
  • Lunch with friends
  • Do a recovery related workbook
  • 12-Step meeting
  • Evening walk
  • Artwork

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation through the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Work
  • Evening walk
  • 12-Step Meeting
  • Do a recovery related workbook

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation through the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Work
  • Evening walk
  • 12-Step meeting
  • Do a recovery related workbook
  • Artwork

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation through the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Appointment with therapist
  • Lunch with friends
  • 12-Step meeting
  • Do a recovery related workbook
  • Evening walk
  • Jigsaw puzzle
  • Artwork

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation through the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Work
  • 12-Step meeting
  • Evening walk
  • Do recovery related workbook

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation through the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Eye doctor appointment
  • 12-Step meeting
  • Do a recovery related workbook
  • Dinner with friends
  • Evening walk
  • Jigsaw puzzle

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation through the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • University District Farmers Market
  • 12-Step meeting
  • Do a recovery related workbook
  • Jigsaw puzzle
  • Evening walk
  • Artwork

Too Early To Be Up On A Sunday Morning

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Good Morning, World!!! I am up way too early on a Sunday morning here in Seattle. I’m not one percent sure why I am up so early and I have my theories on to why I am up so early. The two theories that come to mind are a combination of insomnia and PTSD. Both royally suck shit especially when both are wrapped as one present. Since I have not been able to sleep, I have been working on a cat jigsaw puzzle.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

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Good Evening, World! I do not have much to say in this week’s weekly check-in. I do have to say that I am extremely disappointed in the Sea-Meow Convention and the lack of accommodations it has for people with disabilities. I emailed several times regarding accommodations and not one email was responded to. I understand that they are busy getting ready for a convention and yet if they would have checked their spam folder, they would have been able to accommodate two of the three accommodations I asked for. They even admitted to me they did find the emails as I was talking with them in person today and they were found in the spam folder. Also, they informed me and many other people wearing noise cancelling headphones were not allowed. Anyway, when they read my emails this morning, they realized they made a major mistake especially since they could have accommodated two of the three accommodations I requested months in advance. Sadly, they also as already mentioned not allow me to wear my noise cancelling headphones which was an accommodation I did not request by email. I did receive a refund for most of my ticket. I am just highly disappointed and frustrated.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Still Haven’t Slept; Been Awake Over 24-Hours

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Good Morning, World!!! I have not been able to sleep, and I am tired as hell. My theory on why I have not been able to sleep is due to a combination of insomnia and PTSD. Since I was unable to sleep and still unable to sleep, I have been listening to various types of music and doing a jigsaw puzzle. In fact, the jigsaw puzzle I am working on is a cat puzzle. I love doing jigsaw puzzles especially when listening to awesome music.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post except I hope to get some sleep at some point today as I cuddle with my cat, Billie. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless In Seattle Type Of Night

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Good Morning, World!!! It is 2:07 in the morning here in Seattle and I am unable to sleep which sucks shit. Since I have not been able to sleep, I have been doing a jigsaw puzzle while listening to a podcast about philosophy. The jigsaw puzzle that I am doing is a cat puzzle which should surprise any of my regular readers as I love cats. The podcast about philosophy that I am listening to is Philosophize This by Stephen West. I am slowly but surely getting caught up with the podcast. While doing the cat jigsaw puzzle and listening to Philosophize This by Stephen West, my cat, Billie has been curled up in my lap sleeping.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Lunch Time Ramblings From Work

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am currently on my lunch break from work. I bought me a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and can of Pepsi for my lunch. As you already know, it is currently Thursday here in Seattle. You may not know is Thursdays are my Fridays and I have a three-day weekend every week due to being off on Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays. I am looking forward to this weekend. Specifically, Saturday and Sunday as I am going to a Sea-Meow Convention which is a cat convention here in Seattle. I am looking forward to this and have been since August. I will most definitely let you know how the cat convention goes this weekend.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post except to say it is time to go back to work. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!