Belated 4th of July Post

Good Morning, World!!! I want to apologize to you my reader for not blogging as much. I have been struggling a great deal with my depression. My depression symptoms appear to have effected me severely enough that I haven’t been blogging.

Since my depression symptoms got in the way of blogging, I wanted to tell you about my 4th of July.  Despite my depression symptoms acting up, I managed to attended the Mariner versus Angel game here in Seattle. I really enjoyed myself with the exception of having Mariner’s fans throwing things at me. Due to having things thrown at me, I received a ticket to another game. I am also happy to say that the Angels won the game.

As for watching fireworks, I watched them at home on the television as I wasn’t sure how Lil Gertie was going to react to them. Lil Gertie didn’t react all that well to the fireworks. She hid in my dirty clothes hamper which is in my closet. She meowed out fear a good portion while fireworks were going off.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

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Depression, Isolation & Voices, Oh My

Good Evening, World. The last couple of weeks haven’t been the easy for me. I dissociated for nearly an entire week and then last week I was severely depressed. I barely did anything last week. I only went to my appointments and DBT group. I pretty much isolated last week. To add on top of the depression, dissociation and isolation, my voices are acting up.

My mental health treatment team is getting so concerned that they think the hospital might be just around the corner and think they are right. I just don’t know what the hospital can do for me but keep me safe. I am not at risk of self harming or attempting suicide but my treatment team fear for my safety when I am dissociated.

Thank you for reading. Peace out World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Do laundry
  • Buy baseball ticket (Mariners vs. Angels) for the 4th of July

Monday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Art group
  • Therapy
  • Workbooks

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Hearing voices group
  • Workbooks

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Workbooks
  • Be lazy

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Therapy
  • Workbooks

Friday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • DBT group
  • Workbooks

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Volunteer

Weekly Check-In

Good Afternoon, World!!! My weekly check in this week isn’t much as I don’t remember my week due to dissociation. Dissociation that caused me to not attend any groups nor appointments with my therapist. I do remember yesterday (Friday). I remember it and how I talked with my therapist and how concerned he was and is for me especially regarding the dissociation.  I have a session with him on Monday as well as my normal session on Thursday to make sure I am getting out of this particular dissociative episode.

As concerning as my dissociation is for me, I need to continue on with my structured activity as I would if I hadn’t dissociated. That includes me getting ready for my volunteer job for this evening. So that I means I am going to end this post for now. Sorry for the short check-in. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Been A Couple Of Days

Hello, World!!! It has been a few days since I last posted. In all honesty things haven’t been going all that well for me and surprisingly I haven’t been hospitalized. Mainly, because I have been isolating so I won’t do anything. No, I am not currently suicidal nor am at risk of self harming myself. I have been disassociating bad enough that I lost track of my days and missed my appointment with my therapist yesterday.  So, since I missed my appointment with my therapist yesterday, I think it might be a wise decision for me to try to connect with him at some point today.

Due to the dissociation I don’t remember much of this week including yesterday, the first day of summer.  For me the solstice is a major deal especially the summer solstice. It helps me remember to focus on my goals for the year and to see where I am at with my goals. Goals that I wanted to go over with my therapist yesterday with my therapist.

I have an inkling that there is a very small chance of me being hospitalized just for the fact I haven’t been taking care of myself this past week. On a good note I have been taking care of my cat, Lil Gertie. Having an emotional support animal like my cat has been quite helpful for me.  I think, Lil Gertie has been a life savor for me.

I think I am going to go now and call my therapist. I hope everyone has wonderful summer. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! It is nearly six thirty in the morning in my neck of the woods and Lil Gertie woke me up by licking one of my feet. She obviously had a sixth sense of knowing that I was having a nightmare. She has woken me up whenever I have a PTSD nightmare and I didn’t even train her to do so.

Dealing with nightmares is a part of PTSD that I didn’t have to deal with however it is something I have to deal with. I have learned various was on how to deal with the after affects of a nightmare. Now that I have an emotional support animal in Lil Gertie I can depend on her for help. Just one more thing I can do is depend on my cat, Lil Gertie.

I realize it seems like I talk a great deal about Lil Gertie, lately. It is just that she has helped me so much in the last nearly a month of having her. She has been a great support for me especially during PTSD moments as well as after them.

I am planning on attending art group later on today. I love art group for many reasons. Reasons that I have informed my therapist about. In return he encourages me to attend. I am hoping we do some collaging in art group today.

Thank you for reading. Have a good work week. Peace Out, World!!!

 

So Far So Good

Good Afternoon, World!!! It’s been a pretty chill day for me. I went grocery shopping for myself and my grandpa wanted to tag along. It was nice spending time with my grandpa while doing a chore I don’t really like doing; grocery shopping. My grandpa likes grocery shopping for some reason so whenever I go it’s when I spend time with him.

In all honesty if I didn’t need to go grocery shopping, I think I would have isolated today. Not sure why the depression is acting up to where I want to isolate a lot lately. Since I am aware that the depression is acting up to where isolation could become a problem, I know what I need to do. I need to use my DBT skills. Skill that have helped me a great deal.

Today is going to be one of many days that will be above eighty degrees Fahrenheit here in Seattle. Many locals start to melt at eighty degrees. I however start to melt at about ninety five degrees due to spending the majority of my childhood in Southern California. Days like today are the one reason why make an effort to go for walk. Going for walks on days like today help bring up the good parts of my childhood. Most of the good parts involve me being in California living with my dad and grandparents.

I think I am going to go so I can go for a walk. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!