Depression Biting Me in the Ass

Represent a dog biting a man butt.

Good Morning, World!!! My depression is biting me in the fucking ass at the moment. Biting me in the ass severe enough that I am isolating myself from people. People that want to help but right now I am needing my space. Space from the world.

Spending time away from other people has me thinking about blogging. I am thinking about re-doing courses I have done and enjoyed doing that WordPress puts on for free. I am not sure which course I am going to re-do at the moment or if I am going to do multiple at the same time. I just know that when I do a course I feel a sense of accomplishment when I finish an assignment and the course.

Something else that gives me a sense of accomplishment is reading. There is something rewarding when get to the next chapter or find something new out about a character or the plot. Right now I am reading the Liveships Traders Trilogy by Robin Hobb. I am really getting into it as well as the characters.

When it comes to reading I prefer book series as it keeps me more interested in reading especially when I was a child and teenager. I don’t mind stand alone books, I just prefer book series. The characters tend to grow on me and I don’t really like saying goodbye which is why I prefer book series over stand alone books.

Thank you very much for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Pain, Pain, Go Away, Please

Good Evening, World!! Right now I am frustrated with myself. Actually, I am frustrated with the pain I have in my hand. A pain which I caused a few days ago. A pain that is getting worse and not better.

In fact it was getting better along with the swelling starting to subside however it started getting worse this afternoon so I called the consulting nursing line. They asked what I was doing for pain control as well for the swelling. I informed them that I was taking Tylenol and/or Ibuprofen as direct by a doctor as well as icing it and mindfulness and meditation techniques. The nurse was quite surprised and is “impressed” by what I am doing. She suggested I go to the Emergency Room (E.R) and I think I am going to so that.

I will let you know what happens. Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Wednesday Afternoon Ramblings

Good Afternoon, World!!! I saw Gilbert today for therapy. We discussed a number of things today. Some of which I will share with you. We first discussed me punching a brick wall. We did a chain analysis on the self harm action. We talked about I could have done differently than punching a brick wall.

Not only did we talk about self harm we discussed my time at the DSHS office. We talked about how I am finally back on Medicaid and getting a higher amount of food stamps. We discussed how I am now able to finally get proper dental care. Gilbert also informed me about how I can double my food stamps local farmers markets.

Now that I told you what therapy was like today, I think I am going to go and read. I really enjoy reading as it helps me get out of my head.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Fun Times At The DSHS Office, NOT

Good Morning, World!!! I had to go to the Department of Social and Human Services (DSHS) office to get back on Medicaid as Social Security stopped part of my disability benefits. It’s frustrating as hell when you pay into the system and unable to get your full benefits.

As I was in the at the DSHS office I found out I will be getting food stamps as well as them paying for my Medicare premiums which will be quite helpful for me. I just need to figure out how to pay for my bills.

This is where having a great support system comes in. Having friends to help in tough times including tough financial times is great. I wish everyone could have awesome friends like me.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Blogging Through The Pain

Hello, World!!! I am in a lot of pain right now. Pain from hitting a brick wall. Having two fractures from hitting a brick wall are natural consequences from what I did and I hope I learned from it.

I did go see my doctor today. She is quite concerned that I have been hitting brick walls lately.  She stated that she will be talking to my mental health treatment team about this concern and I am happy that she is doing this.

Since I have limited mobility in my hand some of my usual skills are not available to me at the moment which means I will be doing a lot of reading. Reading that I wish I had more time for and now it appears I have that time. That’s why I plan on catching up on some reading.

I think I’ll go and do some reading. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Got Into A Fight With A Brick Wall

Good Morning, World!!! I am waking up in pain this morning as I have a couple of fractures in my wrist due to getting in a fight with a brick wall. I got angry with myself last evening and decided to hit a brick wall. Obviously, the brick wall won as I have a couple of fractures in my wrist and hand.

I, of  course went to the hospital where I found out about the fractures. The doctor had me talk with the social worker. The social worker used humor to help me as I was upset with myself for letting my emotions get the better of me. Thankfully, I was able to come home.

On another positive note, I see my regular doctor today that was already scheduled before hitting the brick wall. Hopefully, I will be able to get it my wrist and hand x-rayed again so I can get a copy of it. The x-ray will help remind me to not hit a brick wall.

I need to get going as it is difficult to type and I am in pain. Have a great work week. Peace Out, World!!!

Depression Go Away & Never Come Back

Good Evening, World!! It is a sunny day in Seattle and I am loving it. The sun appears to help my mood a great deal.

As helpful as the sun is to my overall mood, my depression appears to be acting up. Despite wanting to isolate and stay cooped up in my apartment, I went to the park and read. I found that reading outside in the park today was of great help to me. I got a natural dose of Vitamin D while not isolating and getting out of my own head.

I just wish my depression wasn’t acting up at the moment. I am now obviously blogging to see if putting into word will help. A good portion of the time blogging helps. Especially if it is in combination of using other skills I have. In this case it has been reading.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!