Monthly Archives: March 2018

10 O’clock Ramblings About Baseball

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Hello, World!!! I have a lot on my mind to where going to bed at a decent time appears to not be an option. Or at least it seems like it is not an option at the moment. My depression is acting up along with the symptoms of my PTSD.

So, I am now watching the ten o’clock news here in Seattle to see what is going on in this world. It is the same shit different day. On a plus note it is finally Baseball season.

Baseball is my favorite sport. The Angels are my favorite team as I was born and raised in Anaheim. I do root for the Seattle Mariners when they aren’t playing the Angels or the Dodgers.

I love following the stats that go with being a baseball time. It’s the one time I understand and able to comprehend math.

I guess, I will finish watching the news and try to go back to bed. Goodnight and Peace Out World!!!

 

An Unexpected Hiatus

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Good Evening, World!!! I haven’t blogged in a while due to the fact that I was hospitalized for psych reasons. Well, mainly due to depression. As stated in my last post depression was (and is) biting me in the ass. Biting me in the ass so bad that hospitalization was the was the only way to keep myself safe.

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While in the hospital, the group I enjoyed most was music therapy. The genre that was brought up the most in music group were the eighties. Yes, the eighties. It appeared that no matter the age or generation of the individual, everyone agreed on eighties music. It is always nice when folks can agree on something as simple and as common as music.

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When I wasn’t attending groups, I was reading. Reading, Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. I finally have enough consternation to read. I’ve only been attempting to read this particular book for months now and realize it was my depression getting in the way. It truly is an awesome book. A book worth reading and getting into. It is a book that is hard to put down.

Speaking of reading I want to end this post and get back to reading.  I hope everyone has a great rest of their Saturday. Peace Out, World!!!

Depression Biting Me in the Ass

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Good Morning, World!!! My depression is biting me in the fucking ass at the moment. Biting me in the ass severe enough that I am isolating myself from people. People that want to help but right now I am needing my space. Space from the world.

Spending time away from other people has me thinking about blogging. I am thinking about re-doing courses I have done and enjoyed doing that WordPress puts on for free. I am not sure which course I am going to re-do at the moment or if I am going to do multiple at the same time. I just know that when I do a course I feel a sense of accomplishment when I finish an assignment and the course.

Something else that gives me a sense of accomplishment is reading. There is something rewarding when get to the next chapter or find something new out about a character or the plot. Right now I am reading the Liveships Traders Trilogy by Robin Hobb. I am really getting into it as well as the characters.

When it comes to reading I prefer book series as it keeps me more interested in reading especially when I was a child and teenager. I don’t mind stand alone books, I just prefer book series. The characters tend to grow on me and I don’t really like saying goodbye which is why I prefer book series over stand alone books.

Thank you very much for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Pain, Pain, Go Away, Please

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Good Evening, World!! Right now I am frustrated with myself. Actually, I am frustrated with the pain I have in my hand. A pain which I caused a few days ago. A pain that is getting worse and not better.

In fact it was getting better along with the swelling starting to subside however it started getting worse this afternoon so I called the consulting nursing line. They asked what I was doing for pain control as well for the swelling. I informed them that I was taking Tylenol and/or Ibuprofen as direct by a doctor as well as icing it and mindfulness and meditation techniques. The nurse was quite surprised and is “impressed” by what I am doing. She suggested I go to the Emergency Room (E.R) and I think I am going to so that.

I will let you know what happens. Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Wednesday Afternoon Ramblings

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I saw Gilbert today for therapy. We discussed a number of things today. Some of which I will share with you. We first discussed me punching a brick wall. We did a chain analysis on the self harm action. We talked about I could have done differently than punching a brick wall.

Not only did we talk about self harm we discussed my time at the DSHS office. We talked about how I am finally back on Medicaid and getting a higher amount of food stamps. We discussed how I am now able to finally get proper dental care. Gilbert also informed me about how I can double my food stamps local farmers markets.

Now that I told you what therapy was like today, I think I am going to go and read. I really enjoy reading as it helps me get out of my head.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Fun Times At The DSHS Office, NOT

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Good Morning, World!!! I had to go to the Department of Social and Human Services (DSHS) office to get back on Medicaid as Social Security stopped part of my disability benefits. It’s frustrating as hell when you pay into the system and unable to get your full benefits.

As I was in the at the DSHS office I found out I will be getting food stamps as well as them paying for my Medicare premiums which will be quite helpful for me. I just need to figure out how to pay for my bills.

This is where having a great support system comes in. Having friends to help in tough times including tough financial times is great. I wish everyone could have awesome friends like me.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Blogging Through The Pain

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Hello, World!!! I am in a lot of pain right now. Pain from hitting a brick wall. Having two fractures from hitting a brick wall are natural consequences from what I did and I hope I learned from it.

I did go see my doctor today. She is quite concerned that I have been hitting brick walls lately.  She stated that she will be talking to my mental health treatment team about this concern and I am happy that she is doing this.

Since I have limited mobility in my hand some of my usual skills are not available to me at the moment which means I will be doing a lot of reading. Reading that I wish I had more time for and now it appears I have that time. That’s why I plan on catching up on some reading.

I think I’ll go and do some reading. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Got Into A Fight With A Brick Wall

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Good Morning, World!!! I am waking up in pain this morning as I have a couple of fractures in my wrist due to getting in a fight with a brick wall. I got angry with myself last evening and decided to hit a brick wall. Obviously, the brick wall won as I have a couple of fractures in my wrist and hand.

I, of  course went to the hospital where I found out about the fractures. The doctor had me talk with the social worker. The social worker used humor to help me as I was upset with myself for letting my emotions get the better of me. Thankfully, I was able to come home.

On another positive note, I see my regular doctor today that was already scheduled before hitting the brick wall. Hopefully, I will be able to get it my wrist and hand x-rayed again so I can get a copy of it. The x-ray will help remind me to not hit a brick wall.

I need to get going as it is difficult to type and I am in pain. Have a great work week. Peace Out, World!!!

Depression Go Away & Never Come Back

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Good Evening, World!! It is a sunny day in Seattle and I am loving it. The sun appears to help my mood a great deal.

As helpful as the sun is to my overall mood, my depression appears to be acting up. Despite wanting to isolate and stay cooped up in my apartment, I went to the park and read. I found that reading outside in the park today was of great help to me. I got a natural dose of Vitamin D while not isolating and getting out of my own head.

I just wish my depression wasn’t acting up at the moment. I am now obviously blogging to see if putting into word will help. A good portion of the time blogging helps. Especially if it is in combination of using other skills I have. In this case it has been reading.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Art
  • Laundry
  • Workbooks

Monday

  • Blog
  • Go to doctor’s
  • Art Group
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Go to DSHS
  • Read
  • Workbooks
  • Art

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Art
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Friday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • DBT Group

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Volunteer
  • Workbooks