Just Another Rambling From Me; Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! Today, I went to therapy and saw Gilbert. We worked on both on my crisis plan and treatment plan. We spent about an hour and a half  working on both. On a sad note Gilbert is going to be working on a different team starting April but he will make sure that there will be a soft (or warm) hand off when my new clinician starts in April. As sad as I am that Gilbert is going to a different team, I am grateful that he will make sure I’ll have a good clinician.

I also went to DBT group. Only four of us showed up to group including myself. I am a little disappointed that only four people showed up today as I tend to learn better by hearing what others have to say.

Even though today is not quite St. Patrick’s Day, I celebrated it with friends a day early. We had corn beef, potato’s and cabbage. I love an authentic Irish meal especially when it’s celebrating my heritage.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

DBT To The Rescue

Good Morning, World!!! I am in a bad head space right now yet I realize what I need to do to help me get out of it. For me doing using my DBT skills is what helps me. I have a plethora of DBT skills in my toolbox.

Right now I think my go to things are my workbooks, books and comic books as they can help with various types of things. Things I will explain once again in this post.

For me the workbooks help me help myself. It is not a replacement for my mental health treatment but an added addition to help. The workbooks help with my recovery.

Reading helps me get out of my head. It helps me focus on something other than what is going on in my own head. I have been reading the Liveship Traders Trilogy and Wonder Woman comic books.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep once again and I am watching late night television. Comedy and humor appears to be of help when I am unable to sleep and/or struggling. At this moment in time I am watching due to the fact that I am unable to sleep.

I think if I continue to not be able to sleep properly tonight that I am going to work on my Self Awareness Workbook that I got from Amazon on Tuesday. I started it when I got it and it already appears to be challenging. Challenging is a good thing for a work book. I feel like if it doesn’t challenge you to a degree then it is something that doesn’t need to be worked on.

I’m also going be reading tonight. As I have mentioned in previous posts, reading helps me a great deal. It helps by getting me out of my head even if its only for a half an hour. Plus it gets me to use my imagination.

Thank you for reading. Goodnight!!! Peace Out, World!!!


Got Sleep?

Good Morning, World!!! I haven’t been able to sleep all night and it is 4:30 in the morning in my corner of the world. I want to blame the nap I took yesterday afternoon but I know that is not the case. Some of it has to do with insomnia while some of it has to do with me reading.

I spent most of the night reading as I didn’t really want to put down the book I am reading nor the Wonder Woman comics I was reading. If I can’t sleep I might as well as do something that will stimulate my mind and help me distract myself to get me out of my own head.

I also ended up doing some workbooks that I have been doing. I might as well as focus a little bit on my recovery if I am unable to sleep. It’s my way of being productive since I am not working at the moment.

Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Nap + Dinner = Better Mood

Good Evening, World!!! I’m in a slightly better mood than I was when I posted my last post. I owe it to being able to sleep due to taking a nap and eating dinner. Sleep and food always equals a better mood or at least it is for me. I had boxed mac and cheese for dinner. Not the best meal but hey it is comfort food. Comfort food is always a good thing.

I got my order from Amazon today. I got a cross-stitch pattern that I’ve been wanting to do. I am teaching myself to cross-stitch. I have found that is has been helpful when I’ve done a cross-stitch pattern before. So why not get back into it and continue to teach myself to cross-stitch.

Another thing I got from Amazon was yet another workbook. For me being able to help myself with my recovery is very satisfying. Yes, I still get professional help but being able to help myself is a good feeling.

Thanks for reading. It is very much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Liking Being Bullied

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am sitting here at my laptop frustrated with what is going on in a situation I rather not get into yet have to accept the reality that the person is going to get a way with shit. Long story short I am being bullied by another client at the mental health agency I go to and unfortunately, staff “can’t do anything about it” because they “haven’t witnessed it.” Same shit I experienced as a kid in school is now happening as an adult seeking treatment.

On a plus note members of my treatment team have witnessed some of the bullying regarding my gender identity and sexual orientation. They have seen enough that this individual was asked to not interact with me and was “barred” for two days for his bullying.

I am just frustrated with the fact of the shit this individual gets away with due to staff not being a witness. Some of the shit is disrespecting my pronouns. I just have to find a way to not be reactive to this. It’s my responsibility on how I don’t get reactive so he doesn’t get a rise out of me.

My response or reaction to others is something I will be working with the members of my treatment team. Hopefully, I can just learn to let go of things such as how I respond or react to things such as bullies.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!!

Tuesday Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! I still haven’t slept and feel tired enough that I could sleep. The problem with going to sleep now is that it is nine in the morning my time and my sleep pattern would get even more messed up than it is already.

As frustrated as I am with the lack of sleep I am beyond grateful that I have the DBT skills to help me through. Skills that have helped on several occasions throughout the years.

One of the skills I do is to read. I love reading for a multiple reasons. It distracts me. It gets me out of my head. It gets me away from my laptop and television. Reading has been quite helpful.

Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!