Daily Archives: September 17, 2015

Writing 101: Finding Your Inspiration; Day Nine: Reinvent The Letter Format

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Todays writing assignment is to write a letter. We have several choices to choose from. I am going to write a letter to my brother’s dad. My brother’s dad is the one the severally abused me as a child. For my abusers “protection” I am going to call him “D.” I know he doesn’t deserve protection. I will be calling my brother Jay in this letter. In fact some people do call him Jay. I am writing this letter to ultimately help me in my healing process.

Dear D,                                                      Thursday, September 17, 2015

I am pretty sure you don’t remember me but I sure in the hell remember you. I remember how you forced me to “have sex” with you at the age of nine for the first time. I remember how you use to sell me to others so they can have “their fun” with me. I remember how you would spike my drinks with alcohol and sometimes drugs. I remember how you would give me home baked goodies with a variety of drugs in them. You did this so  I wouldn’t fight back or scream when you r*p*d me. You made sure my mom was passed out drunk and/or high when you brutally r*p*d me. I remember when Jay was born. You weren’t there because you were in jail. I remember when you got out, you gave mom a ton of drugs so she wouldn’t know what you were doing to me. You put me in a position at the age of 11 that nobody should be put in. You made me choose to either have Jay get abused and have me watch and then get r*p*d myself or have me take his abuse along with mine which made it a hundred times worse. Me being the only sister by 11 years, I am of course going to make sure Jay wouldn’t get abused. How dare you abuse anyone especially your on child. Most importantly how dare you put an 11 year old to make a decision like that. How could you abandon your own disabled son at the age of one? I am beyond angry with you. I wish I could type more but I need to end this letter for the sake of my own mental health. I just wish I didn’t have to re-experience all the shit you did to me 25 plus years later. I need to stop this letter. You are a fucken asshole.

Gertie

Thanks for reading my letter. This was a tough assignment for me to do. I have a lot more to say to D but for my own mental health I had to end it. Yes, I will be okay. Thankfully, I have Junior by my side to help me through. Have a good night and peace out all!!

Blogging 201; Day Four: Give ‘Em What They Want

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It is day four of Blogging 201. Today’s assignment is to do a basic 30 stat analysis for my blog. The reason for this assignment is to figure out what you, my reader want to read. The funny thing is I do this every week. I love figuring out stats. In fact stats is the only type of math that I am able to comprehend. Plus, stats are fun as well as interesting.

The cool thing is that one of my Writing 101: Finding Your Inspiration assignments, they wanted us to stick a poll in with the assignment to see what the reader would like. I’ve only had three people vote so far.  Here is the poll: http://polldaddy.com/poll/9074944/ I would greatly appreciate your vote. It would be helpful to  know what you the reader want.

According to my site stats I receive the most views when I am taking a Blogging U. course through WordPress. Also according to my stats, if I post only the daily basis or at least on the regular basis, I tend to have better “ratings.” That is what why I make sure do at least three post a week; My weekly goals, which is a blogging even I am apart of over at: http://greenembe.rs/ on Mondays, Daily prompts on Tuesdays and my “educational” blogging feature on Fridays.

My lunch is almost over for the training I am attending. Have a good rest of the day. Please don’t for get to day the poll above. Pease Out.

200th Post

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Good Morning, everyone!! Yes, I am up this early on my day off. It is the second and final day of the Applied Suicide Intervention Skills Training (ASIST). Yesterday, the training was intense and was told that today will be more intense. I knew this training was going to be tense. That is why I made sure I scheduled an appointment with my therapist, Diana, for tomorrow. Thankfully, her schedule was open to where I could have an appointment.

I just wanted to let you all know that this post marks my 200th post. I am proud to say that I have been able to keep up my blog and follow through with being able to blog on the regular basis. Yes, there was a short period earlier this year that I didn’t blog much because of I crisis I was dealing with. Yes, I still grieve over the babies I lost through the miscarriage but the initial crisis is over.

It is an honor to be able share my story with you. My story of recovery from a mental illness. Yes, I will share my struggles with you like have in the past even if it is not easy. I will also share with you the good things that go with being in recovery. I will also share with you everything in between.  I just hope that I can continue to inspire people to be in recovery as well as to stop stigma in its tracks in regards to mental illness.

Thank you so much for following me and reading my blog. It is much appreciated. I need get going and get ready for the day. Have a wonderful day!! Peace Out!!!