First Day at Job Site

Good Morning, World!!! I am anxious as hell as today is my first day at my job site. Yes, last week was my first official week at work but it was all training and mostly online. I know I will do fine but I am still scared. I just want to do good be what they expect me to be.

I am also nervous about the public transportation part of getting to work. I haven’t taken public transportation since before Covid but I either took a Lyft to work or worked from home. So, I am a little nervous as it would be way too much money to take a Lyft to work.

The other reason why I am nervous is I am worried about leaving my cat Billie Dean home by himself for so long. He is such a lap cat and a needy cat that I worry about being gone so long. Plus, I’m a little needy myself especially for my cat Billie. I love my Billie so much.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a good week at work. Peace Out, World!!!

Anxiety Increasing as Tomorrow Gets Closer

Hello, World!!! My anxiety is increasing as tomorrow gets closer. Even though I’ve had my first week of work it was mostly done remotely or in person with the HR and IT departments which is at different location that I will be working at. See tomorrow in my first day at my job site and I am nervous as fucking hell. I know it is okay to be nervous but not just anxious about my first day at my job site.

I am nervous about having to take public transportation again. The last two years I’ve been either working from home or taking Lyft to and from work due to Covid-19 as I was trying to limit the amount of exposure I could get. I’m not so worried about the exposure as much due to having the vaccine, the booster and actually being diagnosed with Covid-19 the day after I got the booster. Covid suck shit and I know there is a possibility of getting it again but that is not why I’m worried about using public transportation. I’m nervous because, I’ll be taking a route I’ve never taken before. I’m nervous because even on routes, I am familiar with, there are times I have to get off due anxiety and/or PTSD issues and would have to wait for the next bus so I could be in a better head space to be back on the bus. I know everything will be fine but I’m still anxious about it. I just to get use to public transportation again as well as a new route to me.

When I get home from work tomorrow I am sure my cat Billie dean will be more than happy that I am home. Hell, Billie is always happy when I get home even if it is for five minutes for checking my mail or taking out the garbage. I’m more than certain that I will be just as happy to be home as my cat will be.

I do not have much else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, once again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Up Before the Butt Crack of Dawn

Good Sunday Morning, World from Seattle, Washington, USA. It is two o seven in the morning as I start this lovely post. I would rather be sleeping soundly like my cat Billie Dean is right now.. In fact he is snoring. Snoring is normal for him.

Lets start why I’m probably up before the but crack of dawn which would be work tomorrow (Monday). I go into my work site for the first time I go into my actual job site and I have anxiety over it. Not sure why but I think it’s because I want to do a good job at what I do and proof my supervisor and myself that I can do the job.

On that note, I will be volunteering at PAWS Cat City later this morning and am proud to say that Boris got adopted Friday morning. If he wasn’t FIV positive and more lovey dovey than my Billie Boy I would have add him to the family.

My other plans to do today is to do a math workbook to freshen up on my math skills. I also plan on doing a mindfulness workbook to help me with being more mindful of the moment and maybe start a mindfulness group at work if it’s the type of recovery work I can do at the Triage center. I’m also going to work on a workbook specifically for mental health recovery.

As part of my self care besides volunteering at PAWS Cat City, I’ll do some art work by coloring. And of course spending time with my cat Billie.

Too Early To Be Awake on the First Day of a Job

Good Morning, World from the land known as Seattle. It is one forty seven in the morning here in Seattle and been awake since one o’clock Seattle time. Yes, it only been just over forty five minutes but I’m tired as fucking hell and have to get up in four hours.

I think it is pre jitter nerves for the first day of my new job in Everett. I’m not very familiar with the Everett area and will be spending at a location on my first day that I normal won’t be at. On that note, I get work from home for the rest of the week and start working at my “normal office” on the 18th of July. I’ll be working from 9:00am to 5:00pm so I sort of get to sleep in. On the plus note, I get to read or listen to a podcast as I will be taking public transportation.

On that note when I woke up at one o’clock in the morning I took some meds to help with my anxiety and nerves. The meds are starting to kick in so I’m going to try to go back to sleep. Just wish I was as sound as asleep as my Billie the cat is right now. I do wan to thank you for reading my blog. If wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Television Not Working; Time to Read

Good Afternoon, World!!! My television stopped working and not sure why. That means I get to catch up on some reading. I’m hoping my uncle or grandpa can help me with my television as I like to watch the news. I like to know what is going on in the world.

Granted the news can cause some anxiety but I like to know what is going on in the world. Despite the news being depressing, I think I will read a book. I have two choose books to choose from and i think I am going to read the singleton book ss the the other three books are a serious of books.

Another think I am going to to do is listen to a podcast about philosophy. I learn a great deal from philosophy. I listen to it by podcast. I’m glad I’m learning stuff about different subjects.

I think I need to go now. i am getting tired from my med. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out World!!!

A Mindfulness Type of Post

Good Morning, World!!! Or maybe I should say Happy Friday Eve!!! Either way, I am greeting everyone with a smile despite being somewhat anxious. Not sure why, I am anxious and I am okay with that. I am okay with that because of doing mindfulness and meditation.

I started doing the “Daily Calm” on the “Calm” app once again. At one point in time I did the “Daily Calm” over one hundred days in a row. I am hoping that I can get back into the habit of doing it again like I did before because it helped me be in a better headspace.

Not only does the “Daily Calm” put me in a better headspace, my cat does it as well. My cat, Billie Dean has helped me a great deal to be in a better headspace. Billie has also helped me do mindfulness especially when he is on my lap. I am so grateful for my cat.

I don’t have much else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Once again, thank you from the bottom of heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Stress Free Sunday

Good Evening, World!!! It is eight o’clock in the evening here in Seattle. If you read my blog on the regular basis you know that I have been laid of as of this past Friday (June 3rd). Yesterday I was stressing a little bit but realized the stress knowing I was being laid off is not long a stress at least at the moment. It has been a stress free Sunday and feel great to be stress free. The last three months at my now previous employ caused my anxiety and depression symptom increase. Now that everything is done now with the lay offs it is like the lift has been lifted.

On that note I volunteered today and as PAWS Cat City and that help immensely. I’m happy that volunteer at Cat City because it is a form of self care for me just like my own cat Billie is a source to help with my stress. It appears that animals help a great deal. I am grateful for my cat Billie and and my volunteer job at Cot City.

On a good note I have a job interview tomorrow. I am nervous as hell but at least if I don’t get the job I have the practice of the job interview. Send good juju, energy, vibes or any thing good my way when it comes to my job interview tomorrow (Monday).

I don’t have much to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. It it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Haven’t Been Back to Sleep Yet

Good Sleepy Saturday Morning to you from Seattle. I still haven’t been to sleep since I was rudely awaken by three neighbors in the hallway screaming at each other. Two went to jail for domestic violence while the third when to the hospital tot get psych evolution.

Currently it is peaceful on my floor and Billie my cat is trying to help me write this blog. I think he is trying to tell me we both need more sleep which I agree with his assessment. I love Billie so much how he helps with my anxiety.

As some of you know I have advertisements on my blog. Every time someone clicks on an advertisement, I get a paid few cent per add buy I don’t get paid the money till I hit at least the on hundred mark and then I get the money. I am hoping that you the read look at least one or two adds every time you are reading my blog. I could really use the money now that I’ve been laid off. Every click to an advertisement helps. I’m usually not the one to ask for money and I have June and Julys rent paid for all reading with my apartment management. My bills are covered through July as well. The one thing I will be lacking is food as you can only get certain about of food from the food banks and I am not quite qualified for food stamps. I will try get unemployment and am worried how I can pay for my meds but will try to get stated aid for medical through the state. The is why I am asking that you click on the advertisements to help, pretty please the a cherry on top.

It is now eight o one o’clock in the morning I am I am going to try to get some sleep. Thank you for reading blog. It means a log to me. Peace Our, World!!!

Ugh!!! Not Another Fight on My Floor

It’s barely after three thirty in the morning here in Seattle. I got woken up by neighbors arguing with each other before it became and actual violent fight. I am not happy that I got woken up by neighbors who don’t give a shit about their neighbors who have plans the next day.

Thankfully the Seattle cops came and broke up the fight. In fact both ended up going to the King County Jail. Its about time that SPD did their job. Since the fight caused me a great deal of anxiety, Billie did his job and helped reduced the anxiety .

Not more to discuss so I hope you have great night sleep. Peace Out, World!!!

A Range of Emotions

Hello, World!!! As I write this particular blog, I am writing in between clients and writing note about clients. I guess it’s one of the luxuries of being able to work from home part of the time. I really love my job but today has been a tough one and I am not sure why. Be back later, I have a client to see.

Okay, now I’m back after two sessions with clients and writing their notes so their insurance can pay my employer. I love my job most days and normally don’t feel drained but I’m feeling drained because nobody really knows if my employer is actually closing or not.

I blame the board of directors on this and am happy that the county is wanting to keep us open but it appears like nothing is being done. We have no leadership left. We do have one HR person left and two of the four remaining supervisors are leaving in May.

I have a range of emotions because I love my job and am grateful for it. I’m also angry, depressed and full of anxiety of what is going on. The county is giving us some hope but not much.

Working from home is helping me today because I have Billie to help me with my emotions. I love my cat so much. I wish could talk more about Billie but I have another session with a client and then a meeting. So, thank you so much for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!