Fighting Off PTSD & Depression Symptoms

Good Evening, World!!! Right now, I am struggling with some depression and PTSD. I wish I was not struggling with my PTSD or depression symptoms but I am. Since I am struggling with my mental health symptoms, I made sure I went to my regular volunteer shift at PAWS Cat City which helped a great deal. Now that I am home, I had a late lunch and cuddled with my cat, Billie as I did some artwork. The type of artwork that I did was color. Coloring is both therapeutic and meditative for me. Even though my PTSD and depression symptoms are acting up, I am glad volunteering at PAWS Cat City, cuddling with my cat, Billie and coloring have been helpful for me today. Let’s hope coloring continues to help me this evening. Cuddling with my cat, Billie is always helpful.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Breakfast with good friends
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Read
  • Artwork
  • Evening walk

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Work
  • Evening walk
  • Read
  • Artwork

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Work
  • Evening walk
  • Read
  • Artwork

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Appointment with employment specialist
  • Read
  • Artwork
  • Dinner with friends
  • Evening work

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Work
  • Pick up meds
  • Evening walk
  • Read
  • Artwork

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Volunteer with Alley Cat Project
  • Read
  • Artwork
  • Evening walk
  • Double date with partner, best friend and her partner to dinner and movies

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Farmers market with partner
  • Lunch with partner
  • Reading
  • Artwork
  • Evening walk
  • Movies at home with partner

Another Sleepless Night In Seattle

Good Morning, World!!! I am sadly experiencing my third night in a row of not being able to sleep. It is partly due to PTSD and part due to insomnia. Both royally suck shit. Since I am unable to sleep, I have been listening to music as my cat, Billie lays in my lap and I do some form artwork. I have been doing some diamond art/painting as well as some coloring. Both coloring and diamond art/painting is both therapeutic and meditative for me. I am so glad that I have my cat, Billie, music and artwork to help me through sleepless nights like tonight.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! It is Saturday evening and that means it is that time of week to do my weekly check-in. Yes, it has been quite a while since I have done a weekly check-in. I am hoping to do my weekly check-ins as well as my weekly plans on the more regular basis.

This past week was the 4th of July which is Independence Day here in the United States. In fact, Independence Day was yesterday. I celebrated with some friends. We had plenty of fun, food and enjoyed the fireworks over Lake Union from a friend’s backyard. I enjoyed myself and I’m glad I went.

This past week was a good week at work. Hell, even when there are not so good moments or days at work, I still enjoy my new job. I love my job. I really enjoy my new job, and I am beyond grateful for it. The best part it is part time, and I get full medical benefits, and I greatly appreciate that I receive full medical benefits.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Happy 4th of July

Good Evening, World and Happy 4th of July to all Americans around the world!!! It is a beautiful Independance Day here in Seattle with sunny weather. I am currently at a friend’s house celebrating the 4th of July with my friend group. We have had plenty of food all day and continue have food flowing till it is time to watch the fireworks later tonight from my friend’s backyard. I am looking forward to watching the fireworks from my friend’s backyard. I’m glad to be having fun with friends yet I am missing my cat, Billie.

Sadly, people who live in my apartment complex have been setting off fireworks which means I had to give my cat, Billie some anxiety meds before I left. I am paying a neighbor to check on Billie every two hours and to continue to give him a dose of his anxiety meds every four hours as his veterinarian suggested. I am glad my neighbor is willing to do this for me and Billie. I feel like paying my neighbor fifty dollars to take care of Billie is well worth peace of mind and making sure he is comfortable when I am not home when there is the scary noise of fireworks.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless In Seattle Type Of Night

Good Morning, World!!! I am sadly unable to sleep due to the combination of insomnia and PTSD. Having both insomnia and PTSD sucks shit especially when they both rear their ugly heads at the same time. Since I have been unable to sleep due to insomnia and PTSD, I have been listening to music as my cat, Billie lays on my lap as I do some artwork. Specifically, I am doing diamond art/painting. I am still doing the one of a tuxedo cat as I had briefly stopped doing it for various reasons including starting my new job as a peer specialist. I really do enjoy doing diamond art/painting especially when my cat, Billie lays on my lap as I them.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Looking Forward to Work Today

Good Morning, World!!! It is a beautiful sunny Monday here in Seattle. It is going to be a warm day which is something I really do enjoy. One of the good parts of it being a nice day outside today is that I will have an awesome view from my office at work.

Speaking of work, I am looking forward to work. In fact, I really like where I currently work as well as enjoy the team I work with. My colleagues are pretty awesome. Today, I will be doing some continuing education and training at work that I need for the state. It will be online which I am not a big fan of but at least I will be getting paid for it. I will still have appointments with the I help and that is the best part of my job. Being a part of someone’s recovery journey is one of the best parts of my job. Hell, it’s the most amazing part of my job.

The main draw back of my job or any job for that matter is the fact that I will be away from my cat, Billie. Billie is truly one of the most attached cats I have ever had. Plus, he is a very lovable cat who enjoys his belly being rubbed as well as being on my lap. He is my emotional support animal, and I am his emotional support human. Anyway, when I am work, I am going to miss my cat, Billie. I love him so very much and I am beyond grateful for his unconditional love.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post except that I will miss my cat, Billie when I am at work, but I already informed you of that. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Read
  • Do artwork
  • Evening Walk

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Work
  • Evening walk
  • Read
  • Do artwork

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Work
  • Evening walk
  • Read
  • Do artwork

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Appointment with peer specialist
  • Lunch with a good friend
  • Read
  • Do artwork
  • Evening walk

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Work
  • Evening walk
  • Read
  • Do artwork

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • 4th of July party with friends
  • Evening walk
  • Watch 4th of July fireworks

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Volunteer with Alley Cat Project
  • Do artwork
  • Read
  • Dinner with friends
  • Evening walk

Life Updates

Good Afternoon, World!!! It has been a few months since I last posted. Actually, tomorrow marks three months since I last posted. I don’t have any excuses at all. Yes, I have been busy with life in general and my new job however I could have made time to post.

My new job is going quite well. It is hard to believe that I have been at my current job for three months now. I am really enjoying it. In fact, we recently hired a new nurse, and I was able to be part of the interview process. Every person on the team is a part of the interview process and I think that is an awesome idea especially since we are a small team of six people including myself (and the new nurse). I enjoy working with my colleagues and working with the young people I help. One of the best parts of my job is how close the team is as well as how much autonomy I have in my position. One of my favorite things about my current position as a Peer Support Specialist is that my supervisor and his boss as well as the organization I work for encourages me to attend trainings especially ones that are pertinent to my job. For example, I work with young folks from 15 years old to 40 years old who are experiencing their first episode of psychosis and my supervisor, and his boss are “thrilled” that I took the initiative to sign up to attend the Hearing Voices Facilitator training. Sadly, when I worked at another organization on a team that focuses on people who have a psychotic disorder it wasn’t encouraged for me to do this particular training even though it would have been beneficial for the people I helped with there as well as the people I currently help. I’m just happy I can do this training as it will allow me to help the people, I serve better and learn new skills to lean on for their recovery journey. I am thrilled that I can be part of someone’s recovery journey especially since most of the people I help are just starting their recovery journey.

Speaking of recovery journeys, mine is going quite well. Granted I am not where I would like to be like I was, in early 2022. Thankfully, I am doing better than I was in late summer of 2023 after being traumatized again. Sadly, my therapist has been out on FMLA and haven’t been able to have therapy, but I am grateful that my therapist is practicing what she preaches by taking time to take care of herself. My recovery is going relatively well. I’ve been taking my meds regularly, doing mindfulness meditation practices two to three times daily, going for two walks a day, making my bed, having a good sleep hygiene schedule and of course relying on my friends as well as my cat to help my recovery. I am just happy that my recovery is currently in a stable place and that I have my cat and some great friends a part of my life as I walk through my mental health recovery.

On that note, I am still struggling with grief over the death of both of my parents. It has been seven months since my mom died and five months since my dad died. I miss both of them dearly. I just wish I can hug both of them one last time as well as hear them say “I love you” one more time. I am grateful that my cat, Billie is there to help me with the grief just like my friends are helping me through the grief after losing both of my parents within two months of each other. I have an amazing cat as well as some pretty amazing friends who help me through some of the toughest moments of grief.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post except that I hope to blog on the more regular basis, so I don’t leave you the reader hanging. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! It is that time of the week to do my weekly check-in. I do not have much to discuss except for me starting my new job. I only work three days a week and this past week wasn’t the usual week due to the fact I have many trainings and orientations that I have done and will have to do. Some of it is review from previous trainings at previous employers such as HIPAA. I do have to say most trainings I attend even if it is a review for me, I learn something new or a new way to do things. I look forward to what the new job holds.

As far as work goes it is going to be an adjustment for me and my cat, Billie. Billie and I are very much attached to each other. Anytime I am gone for any length of time even for five minutes to check my mail, I get “yelled” at by Billie. I love my cat so very much. It is nice coming home to a cat especially my Billie. I am so grateful to have Billie in my life.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!