Unable to Sleep so I Might as Well as Read

Good Very Early Morning, World!!! It just a few minutes after two o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world known as Seattle. I really wish could sleep but something I have learned in my recovery is go with the flow even though it is not easy to do at times.

Right now it seems like it is one of those times that it’s easy to go with the flow even when it wasn’t the flow you thought would happen. On of my new year’s goals was to be reading more. Long story short my great aunt who is my grandpa’s sister lent my grandpa to read a book. My grandpa hasn’t read it yet but let me borrower it to read. It appears to be an easy reading and not a very long book which is good thing. So it is my goal to read this book within two week starting after I end this particular blog post. The book is set in the holiday season focusing on Christmas. I am more into Science Fiction and Fantasy genre books but it never hurt to try something knew when it comes to reading or anything else. At least Billie Dean my cat will be cuddling up with me as I read this book. I hope to give a review of this book when I am done with it.

I do not have much more to say about this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog because if it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you have a better night sleep than I am having. Peace Out, World!!!

An Extremely Lazy Sunday

Good Evening, World!!! It is ten o’clock at night in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. I literally have done nothing all day be eat, sleep and read Wonder Woman comic books. I mostly slept all day. I wish I didn’t sleep all day because it screws up with my sleep hygiene; sleep schedule.

I’m starting to get worried about my sleep schedule because I am wondering it is mainly due to getting over Covid-19 or if depression symptoms are starting to creep back in. No matter the reason, I just want to be back on my normal sleep schedule. If it is because of depression, I will need to let both my physical and mental health teams be aware of it. As far as the Covid-19 shit messing with the sleep, I know it’s normal for some people to feel extremely fatigue that it makes them sleep more than they usually do.

As far as when I have been awake today, I’ve been in bed cuddling with my very sweet kitty, Billie Dean. In fact I joke around with people that I sleep with a man every night name Billie. Not my fault people don’t pick up on the joke especially when they know I have a male cat. Billie is such a cuddle but and a pain in the butt at times.

While being in bed most of the day cuddling with my precious cat, Billie, I have been reading comics. Specifically comic books. To be more specific, I have been reading Wonder Woman comic books. In fact the back story of me becoming a Wonder Woman fan was because of my dad who was a single dad. Long story short my mom abandoned both my dad and myself in the middle of the night when my dad was working a night shift leaving me home by myself at the age of three. I know my mom left a note but since I couldn’t l read it I called my grandparent phone number which I was required to memorize. Anyway, my mom left both me and my dad because she couldn’t handle dealing with a man with a TBI working on sobriety and a daughter dealing with hearing impairments and speech delays. Even though I had my paternal grandmother as a female role model, my dad with his intellectual disabilities and TBI know he was not able to read due to is disabilities he wanted to make sure I had a role model to look up to even if it was/is a fictional one. So at the age of them three my dad started buying me Wonder Woman comic books. As I grew older and learned how to read, I would read two to three Wonder Woman comic books to my dad as part of our bedtime routine. I may still be sad my dad was not able to read bedtime stories to me but am grateful that we looked and Wonder Woman comic books as apart of our bedtime routine which turned into me reading them to my dad once I was able to read. Yes, my grandparents did help with me learning to read but watching my dad full of pride with me reading is something I will never forgot.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post except the my dad making sure I learned to read despite him not being able to read makes my heart happy and grateful. I would like to thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reading reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. Again, from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Random Middle of the Night Ramblings

 

Happy Middle of the night, World!!! I am unable to sleep once again when I should be sleeping and it suck shit. I highly don’t like not being able to sleep especially in the middle of the night. Not being able to sleep well affect my mental health a great deal which is why do have some skills I am able to do on sleepless nights.

So tonight’s skills will be doing art work while listening music like ACDC and Guns & Roses. I will be doing art work by coloring. Coloring Disney Horror scenes some that can be disturbing to others. I hope that I will be able to show you a completed Horror Disney page when I am done but just now it could be triggering to so some folks and not wise to chose children. I feel like it was perfect for me as I have a love hate relationship with Disney for many reasons. And yes I will be listening to some hard rock music while coloring Horror Disney pictures.

I am pretty sure my cat, Billie Deal will want to be helpful with with the coloring part of my plan. I love my cat Billie so much and how he is a a cuddle bug as well as a love but.

I don’t have much more to say in the particular blog post middle of the night rambling post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, do reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have great weekend and hope you are getting more sleep than I am. Good Night and Peace Out, World!!!

Let’s Hope I Can Sleep Tonight

Good Evening, World!!! My day did not go as planned. It didn’t go as planned due to the fact I didn’t sleep very well last night. Which led to sleep most of the day today. Yes, I admit I needed the sleep due to having not been feeling good due to having Covid-19, I just wanted to start writing down my goals for the year 2022. The big ones goals I have how I will use my small goals to get to the bigger goals.

Sadly, due to not sleeping last night and taking a nap all day I have not be able to do so as I want to be accountable to people regarding my goals for the new year. I know goals are constantly changing due to the fact some end up completed and some will need to be reevaluated. And some need to be more realistic.

As far as one of my goals is to have better sleep hygiene sleep schedule but that can be challenging to do when you are feeling sick for whatever sickness you have. So, I will try to do this despite still being fatigue from Covid-19.

At least one of my goals for the new years is being complete which is spending time with my loving and cuddle bug cat, Billie Dean. Also right now he is being a pain in the rear end but that is okay as he didn’t get much attention today due to be taking an extremely long nap. I love my cat so much. Billie helps me with my mindfulness practices.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do do want to thank you for reading my blog post as if it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. That i why it is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog post. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog post. I hope everyone has a great rest of your weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Exactly How I Planned to Start my Weekend

Good Saturday Afternoon, World!!! I did not get much sleep last night due to insomnia. When I did finally get to sleep a neighbor pulled the fire alarm on several occasions due to the fact other neighbors weren’t wearing their mask. I understand being frustrated others not wearing mask because we are in a middle of pandemic with Covid-19. That doesn’t me you pull a fire alarm because someone is not wearing a mask. Needless to say, I am extremely frustrated that this is still continuing and the police and apartment management company are doing shit. The fire department is fining the individual pulling the alarm as well the apartment management. So, at least the fire department is doing something about it.

On that note, my grandpa and uncle came over to drop some things off for me. They brought me some cough medicine as well cough drops because I am still dealing with the annoying and painful cough that is still lingering from having Covid-19. They even made me one of my favorite food and brought it me which is Cheese Tortellini. It was yummy and have some left over for dinner tonight. Oh how I love that my grandpa made me my favorite dish and that my uncle drove him to give it to me. And much to my surprise my uncle paid me back the money he owed be and gave me an extra $20 “for interest” because it took him so long to pay me back.

Now I am going to cuddle with my cat, Billie Dean, on my lap and watch a couple of movies. I’m not sure what movies I am going to watch but I know for a fact that Billie won’t mind spending a few hours on my lap as I do nothing but watch a movie or two.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have an absolutely great weekend ahead of you and that it is a fun and relaxing one. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Early to Be Awake on a Saturday Morning

Good Morning, World!!! It is just barely four o’clock in the morning Seattle time and I have been awake is just before three o’clock in the morning Seattle time. Not sure if it is the insomnia keeping me awake or if it is the Covid-19 cough keep me up or both. Whatever the reason, I just want to go back to sleep but that will be a bit hard to do at the moment as Billie Dean my cat is now being active since I am up. He is wanting to play which I will oblige. It also appears that some of my neighbors can’t sleep either. It appears many of us have sleepless nights on the same nights as I wonder if there something to do that. Whatever that reason, I am going to try to go back to sleep.

I’m not sure how I will try to get back to sleep I will make an attempt to go back to sleep as I want to get better from having stupid Covid-19. But least my sweet loving cat Billie will be doing his best to help me sleep. I love my cuddle bug of a cat. I love my cat so very much and don’t know how I would manage the hold Covid shit the last two years without him.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end that you my reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great Saturday ahead and an awesome weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

A Much Needed Nap Followed Up by Self Care

Good Evening, World!!! It’s been an unproductive day as right now. Or at least in feels like it. Since my last particular post, I did manage to get some self care in. started of my taking a much needed nap as I didn’t sleep very well last night. After my nap, I took a shower and then had some food. I had Lunchables pizza. Not the most healthiest food but at least it was food. I also had a some soda with my pizza lunchables.

I of course spent time with my cat Billie Dean cuddling me as I did some artwork. In fact the artwork I did was color. Coloring is a type of mindfulness for me. As I color, I listen to a podcast. I listen to a podcast about philosophy. I enjoy learning new things especially about philosophy.

Honestly, I wish I did not have Covid as it making me feel isolated from those I love can care about such as my friend and family as well as my colleagues at work and my clients. Not to mention missing the people I volunteer to with at PAWS Cats City.

I will be so thrilled when Covid goes away so I can do what I normally do when I don’t have Covid-19. I want things to be back to normal. Having Covid suck shit. I guess it could be worse and me being in the hospital with Covid-19. I just wat to feel better.

I do not have very much more to say this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writer my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy New Year and Peace Out, World!!!

Lack of Human Interaction Sucks Shit

First and fore most, having Covid-19 sucks shit even when you are able to be home dealing with it which I am grateful for. The lack of sleep I got suck shit but at lease I am home dealing with it. The isolation is what sucks the most. I can’t visit friends, neighbors or family which makes it quite lonely. On the plus note I least get to talk with my friends and family on the phone. My neighbors has been quite helpful with getting me what I need and leaving it at my door so there is no interaction there. being lonely sucks but I at least I know people care about me. Even my work and volunteer jobs are checking in on me which makes me as lonely as I am at times. At least I know people care about me.

I desperately miss volunteering at Cat City and know that I will be back in February as a precaution to fellow volunteers, employers and the adopters, adopting cats. I just want to make sure nobody gets Covid from me. They same thing goes for my work situation at work. I don’t want to give Covid to my colleagues or my clients.

As far as my friends and family, I don’t want them having Covid either which is why I am not going to have any plans with them for at least month if not two months. Yes, all that isolation will make me lonely but at least I have blogging as well as social networking like Facebook.

I am thinking why I am feeling like this is due to the lack of sleep from last night and me being a cranky bucket. I hate being cranky buck it.

I do have to say that I will have some human interaction when I go back to work tomorrow. I just need to go back to work so I can feel productive. I may not be back to a hundred percent but I am feeling well enough to work from home. My employer is very cool about taking care of one self.

As far as my cat goes, I am grateful for him. He has been loving on me and not making me feel so lonely. I love my Billie Boy. He is an amazing kitty and I love him so much.

I am getting really tired due to the lack of sleep last night. So I think I will now take a nap now. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Belated New Year’s and Peace Out World!!!

No, Going Back to Sleep for Me

Happy Holidays, World!!! It is 6:03am in the blasted morning and I was finally getting back to sleep after Billie Dean, my cat woke me up. I was almost a sleep and Billie was asleep snoring when the building fire alarm went of. One of my neighbors decided to put the fire alarm pull station again because another neighbor wasn’t not wearing mask. This isn’t the first time this neighbor has pulled the fire alarm pull station when neighbors haven’t been wearing mask. The neighbor who does this pulls it because he wants the fire department to talk with the neighbors who don’t wear mask because of Covid-19. The only thing it is doing is making all the neighbors and the firefighters angry at this particular neighbor. I understand wanting others to wear mask due to the global pandemic but it’s common sense that you don’t pull the fire alarm for someone is not wearing a mask.

The thing is the fire alarm causes my anxiety and my PTSD symptoms to increase. It causes my anxiety to increase because I have to make sure I get my cat, Billie in his carrier and put on my shoes and jacket as well as remembering my keys and wallet as a blaring fire alarm with a strobe light going off. The alarm going off increases my PTSD because, I have been in three fires in my life; two as a child and one as an adult. It’s no fun dealing with PTSD of any kind but it takes me a while to finally get back to an okay place after the building fire alarm goes off.

Well, I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I appreciate all of you. Happy Holidays and Peace Out, World!!!

Second Day of Vacation

Happy Holidays, World!!! It 5:04am in the blessed morning here in Seattle. Billie Dean decided he needed to wake me up at 4:14am in the morning. He woke me up by howling which is unusual. Turns out he was constipated. Thankfully he was able to poop. Then he got his after pooping zoomies for what felt like an eternity. Then Billie decided he wanted to play so I obliged him and played with him. Now he is being extra cuddly so lets hope that I can get a few more hours of sleep so I am not a cranky bucket when I celebrate Christmas today with my dads side of the family. Despite Billie waking me up before the butt crack of dawn I am grateful for the love I have for him and am even more grateful for his unconditional love to me. Now, I am going back to be to see if I can get few more hours of sleep.

I do not have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Holidays and Peace Out World!!!