Brief Naps In Between Awakenings Due to Various Reasons

Good Morning, World!!! I am having trouble sleeping for a variety of reasons. The two main reasons are due to Migraines and PTSD on top of having insomnia. All three suck equally as much, I just wish it wasn’t happening at the same time because I really want to be able to go to work tomorrow. At least I don’t have to be at work till 12:00 noon. I really love my job but I have missed a lot of it due to being sick or due to disability reasons. I just don’t want to miss another day of work especially since I am not past my sixth month probationary period even though I do most of my work on time especially my notes.

Since I have been having trouble sleeping due to PTSD, Insomnia and migraines, I have been cuddling with my cat, Billie as well as doing some art work. I have been doing some coloring which is a pretty semi easy part as it has some challenging aspects to it. As far as the Diamond art goes it appears to be simple but is more challenging than expected especially when you are just learning how to do it. I am enjoying the Diamond art despite being challenging at first.

Of course the art is helping with me being able to go back to sleep despite how short the sleep can be. Any amount of sleep is very appreciative on my end. Billie, my cat is quite helpful with my sleep.I think I am going to attempt to go back to sleep. I hope everyone has a good Monday ahead of you and enjoy your three day weekend.

Before ending this post if my insomnia, migraines and PTSD continue, I am going to ask if I can work a partial day from home and hope to use flex time for the rest of the day. Worst case scenario I call in sick which is most likely unlikely. But it is better to ask than not to ask because if I ask, I am more likely to get the answer I like than if I don’t ask. Well I do not have much more to say so thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated that you do read my blog. Peace Out, World!!!


Brief Update of Work & My Cat Billie

Good Afternoon, World!!! I have not blogged in a few weeks. I wanted to update you on both my job as well as my beloved cat, Billie. Let’s start with my job. Work is going quite well for the most part. Sadly, the team I am on lost five clients to death in less than three weeks. I can’t disclose how they died due to HIPAA laws but all five deaths hit the team quite hard. One of the clients hit me harder than the others due to them “trusting” me more than my other team members but all client deaths are difficult.

One way, I have been doing self care is spending time with my cat which includes his biannual vet appointment. Sadly, they couldn’t due the fecal test because I forgot to bring his poop. And even more sad is that Billie was not being cooperative with getting his urine check and the vet attempted this test first instead of getting blood work first as Billie is more cooperative with blood work stuff. Vet admitted to her “error” but I understand. Even though Billie is cool with getting blood drawn, the vet decided to wait to when I get the other test done which will be the next visit as she and the other vet (who are both co-owners) want the least about of fear for the animals which I appreciate as a cat parent. Billie’s vet clinic is awesome.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not continue writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!

A Mother’s Day Weekend Sadly Derailed by Covid

Happy Friday, World!!! Right now I am a little disappointed due the fact I cannot go see my mom in Olympia as if she is in the hospital for Covid reasons and is staying in the hospital precautionary reasons. due to my mom having Covid symptoms. Both my mom are disappointed by this but it is unavailable circumstance.

My mom is in the hospital due to the Coved manly due to the fact she had staged three lung cancer and is pecuartionary doe her safety. My mom appears to be in good specials despite being disappointment with my geeing my cat Billie.\

Maybe the nest time I see om I will take my Billie to introduce themeslef to gether.

I do not have much more to say in this blog post. I don’t want to think for reading my blog. Thank for reading my blog.

A Challenging few Weeks w/New & Refreshed Lessons Learned Along the Way

Happy Caturday Saturday. It has been quite a couple of weeks of being challenging for me for various reasons and many of them I have had to deal with some eighth deaths in a matter of a two week period. Some of the folks I have never met but really admired in the animal welfare community especially locally here in the Seattle area who touched the life of many humans and cats. Sadly this person took her own life and wish I would have been given to meet her in person. She will be greatly missed especially in the animal welfare community.

On the continuation of discussing death. I can’t really discuss much about it due to HiPAA law but many of the client I work with overdose on drugs and alcohol. Sadly some pass away to drug and/or alcohol overdoses and It is challenging to deal with. Thankfully I have the support of my colleagues with this especially when people have been trying to get off drugs so they don’t have to have a stigma with an addiction.

Dealing with so many deaths is the last couple of weeks I have been reaching out to my support system such as my friends, family and my colleagues as well as my therapist. I am just beyond grateful that I have supportive people in my life to be there for me. Not many people have a good support system and I have a great support system.

Now on to what I do to help with my self care. One way I do self care is due at least two mindful meditations daily; once in the morning and another one before bed time. I am also trying to put in third mindful mediation in the middle of a work day to help me refocus during work. Another way I have been doing self care is spending time with my cat as well as walking two times a day; once in the morning and once the evening. Of course another self care act is going to volunteer at PAWS Cat City a least once a week. Of course working at my job helps as well. I have been reading a lot of books that I find helpful to help with my recovery journey. I also have been doing some art work and hope to show sometime soon.

As this post comes to an end just know there is always hope along the way. I want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you reading and/or following my blog, I most likely would be continuing to writing my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out World!!!!

10 Months Down & 2 Months to Go

Good Evening, World. It is November 1st, which means the first ten months of the year are gone and we have two months left of the year. This year has gone by super fast. Hell, the years appear to go faster the older I get and I am only in my early forties. Don’t get me wrong I love being my current age, it is just life seems to go faster the older I get especially after the news I received in early summer about my mom.

In fact, I am not sure if I told you or not and I don’t feel like looking over my previous post but my mom has stage three lung cancer. She seems to be doing well. I have been taking to her multiple times a week since I found out and hopefully, I will see her sometime before Thanksgiving. I love my mom dearly and am beyond grateful that she is my mom.

So, hearing about my mom is one of the downs of this year and I have had quite of few of them this year but I have had many ups. I will get to my ups for this year in later. One of the downs I have had was that I got laid off from a job I loved due to the agency closing. I miss my job, colleagues and clients. I did get another job but sadly that didn’t work out and now I have a very part time job and am hoping I can get a full time job sometime soon. So please hope for the best in regards to the job.

As far as my cat Billie, he is doing just fine and dandy. He is loving the fact that I am home a lot more. I am beyond grateful for him and he has been one of the many ups, I have had this year. My cat, Billie means the world to me.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. So, again thank from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans


  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Clean apartment (if my concussion is up to it)
  • Do Math
  • Do a recovery workbook
  • Color picture for mom


  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Clean apartment as physical ailments allow
  • Do math
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Just enjoy the day with my cat Billie (especially when he wants attention)
  • Color picture for mom


  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Wait for the phone person to fix my land line phone
  • Hang out with my cat Billie
  • Recovery workbooks
  • Apply for jobs
  • Color picture for mom


  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Recovery workbooks
  • Job interview
  • Math
  • Apply for jobs
  • Color picture for mom


  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Time with Billie (before scary doctors appointments for me)
  • Doctors appointment
  • Recovery workbooks
  • Math
  • Color picture for mom


  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Vet check up for Billie’s dental work
  • Recovery Workbooks
  • Apply for jobs
  • Math
  • Watch Movies
  • Wish mom happy birthday


  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Color picture for mom
  • Recovery Workbooks
  • Math

Billie Not Liking Me At the Moment Even Though He Still Loves Me

Good Morning, World!!! I took Billie for a follow dental appointment. As a precautionary procedure they I giving Billie antibiotics as one of the sites isn’t getting better but not getting worse so I chose to do antibiotics. Billie isn’t liking it. He may not like me for a few minutes but I know he still loves me. He still wanted his morning loving after the antibiotic.

My cat means the world to me and I love him with all my heart. Having an Emotional Support Animal (ESA) has greatly helped me with my recovery and mental health symptoms. I’m grateful for my last cat Lil Brooke and my current cat Billie.

Thank you for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me the you the reader read my blog. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. So thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Can’t Sleep; Worried About Mom & Brother

I am unable to sleep for two reason. First my mom has stage three lung cancer and second; nobody has heard from my brother for nearly three months. Nobody seems to care about to do a missing person report on my brother but me. My brother came up missing right before the cancer diagnosis of my mom. Not sure if the two are related. I’m worried about both my mom and brother. I would love my mommy and brother to meet my cat Billie. Not sure if that will be a reality now as nobody knows where my brother is and nobody knows how much time my mom has live or if she will survive. I’m hopping a miracle happens some how since my brother has know idea our mom has cancer.

I don’t have much much to say but thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Couple of Weeks Full of Much Needed but Unwanted Things to Do

I haven’t had the easiest starts to this week do to a traumatic weekend which led to two weeks of unwanted doctors appointments for myself. That doesn’t include Billie’s follow up dental procedure where one area is in the “grey area” of being infected but unsure unless they do test. They left it up to be to not do the test w/out antibiotics and come back in a week. Or do the test to see if antibiotics were needed or not do the test and do the antibiotics. I chose no test with the antibiotics. Its cheap and precautionary.

On top of that I’ve been having my own health issues, I will not exactly get into except medicare is so under staff right now; just thinking about it makes me want to cry. You would think some place like Seattle would have plenty of doctors but no.

Anyway on to better news I am having job interviews once again as the job I up getting after being laid off did not work out to well. I just hope I get a job that best works for me and the needs of my cat Billie as well as myself.

Overall Billie and I are doing fine and I don’t have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It greatly appreciative from my perspective that you do read my blog. If it was not for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Update on My Mom

Good Afternoon, World!!! I just got back from my First Aid, CPR and AED training and will update you in a different post about it. I forgot to update you about my mom yesterday. As I’ve mentioned in previous blog post my mom has stage three lung cancer. Sadly they can not do surgery due to it being too risky on where the cancer is in the lung. So, the treatment plan is radiation and chemo therapy specific to the exact type of cancer she has and will be “mapped out” so it is directed only at the cancer. My mom is scared as anyone with cancer is but she appears to be in good spirits and has a positive outlook but she is also be realistic about things as well.

In fact she is taking it better than the rest of the family which would be me, my cousins, auntie and uncles. Sadly nobody has heard from my brother in while as he does these disappearing acts from time to time. In all honesty when my brother gets the news he is going to take it the hardest as he a mama’s boy.

I need to end this post before I start crying again. Please sent positive vibes, energy, juju and prayers my mom’s way. Thank you for reading my blog and Peace Out, World!!!