The Start of the 2021 Holiday Season

Happy Hanukkah, World!!! Yesterday evening (Sunday, November 28, 2021) was the start of Hanukkah. I am personally not Jewish and I enjoy the meaning of the holiday as it was a miracle. Don’t know what to say as a non Jewish person but I do know it was a miracle and wouldn’t be able to share the story of the miracle which deserves some who is more familiar to share the miracle. Happy Hanukkah to the readers who are Jewish.

Honestly, this past week has been both emotionally and physically draining for me. It was physically draining for me because deep cleaned the bathroom as I let it get really gross and disgusting. Cleaning helped me feel a since of accomplishment even though I missed my cat, Billie Dean wasn’t around to “help” me with cleaning which isn’t helpful so he went my grandpa’s as I cleaned the bathroom as well a couple of corners in my living room.

The physical stuff was due to cleaning. The emotional stuff was missing my grandma almost four years ago as well as loosing my last cat Lil Gertie two years ago which landed on Thursday, November 28, 2019 which happened to be Thanksgiving Day that year (2019). The other emotion stuff was attending a goodbye dinner for my cat’s Billie’s last vet, Dr. B. Sadly, she had to make a tough decision close forever.

Speaking of vets, Billie Dean saw his new vet today. He tolerated a couple of things and I think that is a good thing. This vet and I are going to do our best to keep Billie a healthy quality of life which is why this vet wants to see Billie twice a year. When I adopted Billie, I knew there were dental issues and upper respiratory infection (URI). So, I knew there were going to be issues. I’m happy that I made the decision to have Dr. B (Billie’s old vet) take some bloodwork done while Billie was under to get his teeth cleaned. I really miss Dr. B even though the new vet is great. Billie was not quite sure of the new vet but sure in the hell impressed with her.

In fact I partly took today off from work to take care of Billie. The other part was give me some me time. Me time was taking Billie to meet his new vet who is awesome. The other me time I have been doing is spending time with Billie while I do some art while listening to Christmas music. I think it’s okay to place Christmas music now that Thanksgiving is over.

I know there are many other holidays this time of year and hope to find the time to blog about them. I don’t want to exclude out when it comes to holidays being celebrated. I want to make sure I can learn about other religions so I can share about them when it is time to celebrate them. I will do my best to post other holidays celebrate this time of year.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog as if you weren’t I would not be writing it. I really appreciate you the read my blog as if it wasn’t for you I would not be writing it. Again, thank you from the bottom of my hear for reading my blog. Happy Hanukkah and Peace Out, World!!!

Disappointment of the Christmas Holiday

Good Evening, World!!! I am greatly disappointed right now. My greatest wish that I have had since I was three was that both sides of my family would celebrate together with me. Sadly, this has never happened. My paternal grandfather over to drive me and my dad’s side to my moms side of the family to give me the one wish I have wanted since I was three, to have my family spend time with me so I wouldn’t have to do all the traveling. Sadly, my mom, brother and two uncles on my moms side refuse to get vaccinated while my dad, grandpa and two uncles on my dads side our vaccinated. Hell, I am vaccinated. My mom’s side doesn’t want to get vaccinated for personal reasons and I respect that. My grandpa isn’t willing to put his health or the health of my dad as risk. So I am very disappointed that other peoples choices are effecting the one Christmas wish I have wanted since I was three. I respect both sides of my families decision with their health choices. I just wish they would realize my Christmas wish is for both sides of my family to get together. Something that hasn’t happened since I was two years old. I am now 42. It’s be 40 years since both sides of my family were together for Christmas.

It’s very disappointing the my family has continued to not make my life long wish not come true and I am “the selfish one” for wanting this since I was three years old when my parents divorced the summer I was three years old. It should wasn’t my choice my parents divorced. I am lucky that my parents have remained friends.

I guess for me this pandemic know as Covid-19 has put my greatest Christmas wish to a halt. I respect everyone’s choices regarding their health I am disappointed my greatest Christmas hope isn’t going happened once again.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Blues

Good Evening, World!!! I am having the case of the Monday blues. I can blame it on the typical weather here in Seattle. I can blame it on my messy ass apartment. I can blame it on my right knee being in pain. Hell, I can blame it on everything I just mentioned which is part of why I am partly depressed.

Not only am experiencing depression from what I just mentioned, I am experiencing it from my actual diagnosis of depression. Sadly, I can also contribute the depression the anxiety that I have been having. The increased anxiety and depression is partly because I was physically attacked by a neighbor a few weeks ago.

When I got attacked I didn’t call the police first because I thought going to the emergency room first was the most important thing I could do so I did. Sadly, I am still in pain in my right knee. Specifically, my right is the knee that is bone on bone arthritis which sucks shit when it got injured while being physically attack.

The attack finally caught up to me both physically and mentally. I took today off due to the depression and anxiety while being in knee pain. That is why I am taking tomorrow off due to going to the doctor’s office to get my knee checked out by my doctor. I will also be seeing my therapist like I always do on Tuesdays.

As much as I wish I worked today and can work tomorrow but I need to focus on myself so I can help my clients. If I’m not doing well physically or mentally, how can I be have help to the clients I serve.

On that note, my cat Billie Dean is helping me so much. Billie is helping a great deal with both my anxiety and depression. Billie’s unconditional love for me is amazing and helps me love other people. Pets can also help with depression and anxiety and help with the healing process of health issues.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! This week has been an up and down week. I missed two days of work due to the fact that I wasn’t feeling well. Some of what I feeling was physical stuff while other stuff was mental health stuff.

I am currently at my grandpa’s house doing laundry. My uncle made some dinner that was awesome. Since I am currently at my grandpa’s my cat, Billie Dean is at home alone. Don’t worry I will be home later this evening. I am really missing Billie.

As far as my health, it is getting better. Some of it is because of my mental health and yes, I am getting help with that.

I don’t have much more to say. I do want to thank you for reading for my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Another Self Care Day from Work

Good Friday, Evening, World!!! I am taking another self care day from work for my mental health. It was triggered by a therapy session I had this past Tuesday. As much as I wish I wasn’t triggered to where I didn’t need to take time off for mental health reasons, I look at is as a sign of strength. A strength to take care of myself.

Today and yesterday have not been a waste of time in regards to work as I have been reading two books that are completely different but very similar. As a colleague says seeing parallels in books that are so opposite from either is awesome and a great way to learn. I am hoping to post about the intersections of the books into both my profession and personal live which I find fascinating. Reading even though it is both for professional and personal live for me is a form or self care for me.

Another form of self care for me was spending time with my beloved cat Billie Dean. Billie is an amazing 15 pound kitty that loves me unconditionally. I am so grateful that he is in my life. I hope he knows how much I love him back. Despite the weather today in Seattle, I still managed to get in a walk. In fact, I go two walk in today which is a great thing.

I did have a brief check in with my therapist today via the phone. The check in with my therapist was quite helpful and think she is a great fit for me and my recovery. I am grateful to be able to have access to therapy as many people sadly do not have access to therapy.

I do not have much more to discuss in the particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog post. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Taking A Sick Day From Work

Good Morning, World!!! I am taking a sick day from work today. I am taking it off today because one of my disabilities is sadly acting up. I did let my supervisor know via text to her cell phone as well as an email to her work email and a voicemail to her office phone. I just wanted to make sure I covered my ass even though my supervisor is beyond awesome. I admire my supervisor and how well she works with clients. I also did let Human Resources (HR) know that I am out due to my disability. I let HR know it was disability related to also cover my ass. I do plan on letting my supervisor know tomorrow when I am in the office that I was out due to my disability. I do not fear getting fired for calling out sick especially when it comes to my disability. I don’t tell my supervisor the full story about being out due to disability because I don’t want to put her in an awkward situation if people ask her why. My direct supervisor and the HR director are both amazing people.

Since I am taking care of my health today by taking care of my disability, I still plan on doing some reading for work. Both of the books that I am reading help me both professionally and personally. I am really enjoying the books and have started another blog post about these books and how they intersect with my professional and personal life.

The one thing I did do was go to the pharmacy to pick up my medication. Picking up my meds was extremely important because they help with my health issues as well as with my disabilities. So, I am happy that I got my meds.

Since I am hope sick from work I not only will be spending it reading the books I mentioned earlier in this blog post, I am spending the day with my cat, Billie Dean without any interruption. I love my cat so very much. The weather here in Seattle today makes it easy to spend it reading as I hang out with my cat, Billie.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Mixed Emotions Regarding Covid-19 Vaccine

Good Morning, World!!! I am going to be writing about a topic that is considered controversial or at least it is here in the United States. I’ll be discussing the Covid-19 vaccine and my many emotions around it.

First and fore most, I chose to get the Covid-19 vaccine long before it was “required” of me to get it due to working in the “health” field. I say “health” field because I work in mental health care. On that note the governor of Washington (State) made a mandate the people working in any type of health care setting (including mental health, EMT’s, Paramedics and Firefighters) to be fully vaccinated by a certain date in October which I know has already passed. I understand why the governor put this into effect but I feel like it’s putting people in an ethical and moral bind.

Even though I have the Covid-19 vaccine, I feel like if I was forced to have it for my job, I would hesitate working where I work. But then again, at two previous employers, I was required to show proof of a TB test as well as vaccines for Hepatitis A and B. I started asking myself what the difference is and there really isn’t a difference except for the fact that I was required to have the Hepatitis A and B vaccines to attend public school so it wasn’t a choice as my guardians had me get it.

On that note, I am also a believer in my body, my choice. What I mean by that is that, I should be the one making decisions for my own health. For me, if I am pro-choice regarding abortions then I need to practice what I preach by having people have a choice in getting the Covid-19 vaccine without worrying about loosing their job.

So, I have mixed emotions about the Covid-19 vaccine as I personally want other people to get it to protect those who cannot get it but I also want people to have a choice in what they do for their own health care. I hope that makes sense.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Sleepless in Seattle Type of Night

Good Morning, World!!! I am having a bad spell of insomnia. I think part of it is because I am in pain due to having kidney stones. Kidney stones is not something I would call as fun or enjoyable.

Since I am not able to sleep, I decided to do something that I find fun and enjoyable. That is listening to a podcast with my cat, Billie Dean, laying next to me in my bed. I am listening to a podcast about philosophy. Specifically, I am listening to Philosophize This. I really like this podcast and am almost caught up to the most recent one of it.

I do not have much more to say as I want to get back to listening to Philosophize This as I lay next to my cat, Billie as he purrs. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great rest of your weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! I am tired as hell, so I will keep this brief. This week has been a long week or at least that was the case regarding work. Don’t get me wrong, I love my job, it was just a long week.

Despite a long week at work, I ended up in the emergency room yesterday (Friday) evening due to having pain in my right kidney. I thought I had another kidney infection but I do not. I have kidney stones and they hurt like fucking hell but at least it is not another kidney infection.

Even though I didn’t get to bed till midnight last night, I still went for a walk with a friend this morning. It was a good way to get some exercise and catch up with a friend. My friend and I hadn’t hung out since last year before the pandemic so it was to catch up with each other in person.

Not only did I hang out with my friend, I volunteered mid afternoon at PAWS Cat City today. It was nice to be able to volunteer and help cats get new furrever homes. I love volunteering.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Olympics 2020 + A Global Pandemic = A Year Late

Hello, World!!! The Olympics have finally started despite concerns of Covid-19 and it’s many variants. As much as I am grateful that the summer Olympics are going on even a year late, I worry about the health of the athletes. The last think I want is any of them getting sick especially from Covid-19. I love watching the Olympics and have been watching them since I was a child.

One of my favorite sports to watch in the Olympics is the track and field events. I don’t know why it’s been one of my favorite sports to following even when it hasn’t been an Olympic year but it is. Another one of my favorite Olympic sports is new this year and it is skateboarding. I skateboarded a lot when I was a kid and teenager. I was never any good at it but I am happy to see it is finally in the Olympics.

I don’t have much more to say except I am looking forward to watching the Olympics on the television. The Olympics seem to bring the world together in a way other things do not. There is a sense of peace when the Olympics are going on even during a pandemic.

I do not have much more to say in this post. I just hope the best team wins. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!