1,000 Followers

Hello, World!!! Today, has been an unexpected. First I found out that I have reached over one thousand followers on this blog. It is slightly surprising to find out that my first blog post was on May 31, 2014 and it’s taken this long get a thousand followers but I’m okay with that. I’m okay because I know my blog it not everyone cup of tea.

I started this blog to help lesson the stigma of having a mental health challenge as well as to educate other the people like me can be productive members of society no matter how it looks for the individual person. I also started blogging in hope to give others dealing with mental health challenges hope and that recovery look different for everyone.

I’ve discussed many things on this blog. Everything from self care to having a diagnosis to therapy and meds. We even discussed stigma as well as working creating a life worth living. I am grateful that as of right now life is worth living for me at the moment and I hope you can get to that point as well.

I do not have much more to say except thank to all my thousand followers for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It means the world to me. Peace Out, World!!!

Wanting to Post but Nothing to Post

Hello, World!!!! Right now, I am feeling left out or left behind. I feel like this because some of the things I am discussing to friends and family especially family don’t seem to understand how traumatic this entire lay of thing has been on not just the clients but the staff. I just feel like I have nobody to go to that understand but my therapist. I need someone other than my therapist to talk to about it. My family it traumatizing me more about talking about it with them so what the use of discussing it with them. I don’t want to wear out the friends I do have. I just feel like the only people who know are the ones I work with and we just want to discuss it with others because it will make us more upset discussing at this point.

I do have to I Billie has been a great help through all of this and keeping an eye me. I feel like I am neglecting him in a away. Mainly by not play with him as much. I love my Billie so much and he was a good boy today. I took him outside the building with his leash and harness and it was the first time he didn’t try to run back to the building door. It only last five minutes but I’m proud of Billie for it. It was also the perfect Seattle weather to do it in as well.

I don’t have much to say except thank you for reading my blog. Have a good rest of you Wednesday. Peace Out, World!!!

I’m Bored so I’m Blogging

Good Morning, World, once again. It’ just barely after seven in the morning here in Seattle and I am bored half out of my mind so I’m blogging. I’ve been awake since around three this morning. I haven’t been back to sleep so I’ve been doing some minor household chores like cleaning out Billie’s litter box, taking out the trash and sorting out what laundry needs to be done first later today. I’m not about to start a load of laundry now just in case I am able to get some sleep.

Since I have some minor household chores done and the weekend morning news is on, I decided to turn it on. I quickly regretted it as it’s depressing as hell yet I still have it on. Maybe I am keeping it on out boredom. I don’t know.

All I know is my cat Billie Dean, is laying on my lap purring up a storm and appears to be a happy clam with all the lap time he has been getting this morning. Hell, all his lap time this morning has been helpful for me. Billie is an amazing kitty and I love him so very much.

I do not have much to say in this particular blog. Thank you for reading my blog. It greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. it really means a great deal to me that you read my blog. I hope everyone has a great Saturday as well as a great weekend. Just know you are all awesome and I appreciate you all. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Early to be Up on a Saturday

Good Morning, World!!! It is nearly four in the morning here in the Seattle area. I’ve been awake since just after three this morning. Not sure why I am awake this early so I’m blaming it on insomnia. On that note I’ve been trying to write this blog since I woke up but my cat, Billie Dean, is making a bit challenging to use my laptop.

So, obviously, I am figuring out a way to write it with him purring on my lap. I love my cat Billie so very much. He has made the last two months so much easier to deal with shit regarding a job I love. As I’ve mentioned before I am getting laid off from work with no lay off date. I do know I’m stay to they close or at least stop paying me. On that note we officially stop seeing clients May 31st and most of the remaining staff will be laid off in June. We don’t know exact dates but at least I know it’s sometime in June.

Any way switching subjects. It’s raining outside here in Seattle. Not exactly a surprise but it’s actually only drizzle. In fact it doesn’t rain as much as people think it does here. Plus, it is usually drizzle. It’s just mostly grey, cloudy and overcast here in Seattle.

I’m going to end this particular blog post now and try to get some more sleep. Thank for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 12: Critique a Piece of Work

Good Afternoon, World!!! It is hard for me to critique a piece of work weather it’s art, a piece of music or piece of writing including poetry. I have a hard time critiquing because everyone has a different way to expressing themselves. Not all them will be my cup of tea but I will not critique someone’s peace of art, music or writing including poetry as it is not my place to judge.

Wishing the Depression Would Disappear

Hello, World!!! It is late Friday evening, In fact it is almost on eleven at night on Friday. I went to work today and that went fine and dandy despite the depression and anxiety would go away. I love my job and am grateful for it. I just wish Depression and Anxiety wouldn’t get in the way of my job but at least I am still able to work and do an okay job at it. Of course when I got home from work Billie Dean greeted me at the door which helped with the depression and anxiety

When I got home I spent time doing some art while listening to music. Specifically the type of art work I was doing was coloring. I was doing some coloring of some morbid coloring books while listening to YungBlud and Nirvana. I love doing art while listening to music. As I was coloring and listening to music, Billie of course was trying to “help” me do my art work by coloring.

I do not have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope to start back to Everyday Inspiration course tomorrow (Saturday). I really want to finish the course. Again, thank from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World.

A Brief Post About Nothing

Good Evening, World!!! I didn’t post my Everyday Inspiration today because, my depression and anxiety were so bad that I needed to call out to work due being sick. Well maybe really depressed and anxiety ridden. I’ve been sleeping most of the day. I feel bad because, I was ignored my poor Billie Dean all night as well as today due to sleeping the most of the day. I hope you all can forgive me. I will be back to do my Everyday Inspiration course on tomorrow (Friday ) and/or Saturday. Thank you for understanding.

I do not have much more to discuss in his particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. I am greatly appreciated that you the reader, read the blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 10: Let the Scene Write Itself

Right now I am working from home. I am sitting in a comfy chair in front of my work computer. Technically, it’s a laptop but you get the idea. I am looking at my schedule for the day. Nothing but meetings all day. Well, not all day; I am seeing two client virtually today.

Not only do I see my work laptop, I see my cat, Billie Dean. Billie is on his cat tree looking out my living room window. I’m not sure if he is seeing a bird or two or even a squirrel but Billie is looking intently at something outside.

Another thing I see is the wall in front of me. It has pictures. Pictures of my beloved family. A family that may be dysfunctional but at least I know my family loves me. I know they love me even when we don’t get along. I love my family.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 9: Writing & Not Writing

To write or not to write depends on the context. For example, my job requires me to write notes on clients after having a session with. I tend to write the notes on my clients as soon as possible; usually after the session is over. Sadly, there are times I can’t write notes after a session with client which is why the last hour of my work day is for paperwork which includes finishing up notes on clients I saw that day.

When it comes to blogging, I try to blog at least twice a week. On that note, as of today I am on a twenty-three day writing streak. I think in is one of the longest streaks I have been on. I’m sure I have had longer writing streaks when in comes to blogging but I’m sure how long ago it was or when it was.

When, I to comes to journaling, I tend to make an effort to do it three to four times a week. I try to do it that often because it’s a form self care for me. It helps me keep my mental health symptoms in check especially when my symptoms are acting up.

Now on to poetry, it usually happens when I feel inspired to do so. Sometimes it comes multiple times a day to not writing any poetry for a month or two. When it comes to not writing poetry for a month or two, I contribute to writers block which happens more often than I like it to happen.

As far as when and where I write is dependent on what I am writing. It is also dependent on the time of year due to the weather here in Seattle. I like to write outside but I only do that when it’s nice outside and not work related. When it’s work related it needs to be in a private due to HIPAA laws. Sadly, I do not have an outside setting that is private so it’s inside a private space for work related stuff.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 8: Reinvent the Letter Format

I’m not exactly like to reinvent something that works such as letters. I know there are different type of letters; like business letters, person letters to friends and family as well as Dear John letters. But why reinvent the letter. All it matters to me is that I have friends that send me letters that are delivered by the mail carrier. I happily respond to those letter to friend and family via letter. Hand written letters are so much more personable than email ninety-nine percent of the time. So why reinvent the letter.