Good Morning, World!!! I want to apologize to you my reader for not blogging as much. I have been struggling a great deal with my depression. My depression symptoms appear to have effected me severely enough that I haven’t been blogging.
Since my depression symptoms got in the way of blogging, I wanted to tell you about my 4th of July. Despite my depression symptoms acting up, I managed to attended the Mariner versus Angel game here in Seattle. I really enjoyed myself with the exception of having Mariner’s fans throwing things at me. Due to having things thrown at me, I received a ticket to another game. I am also happy to say that the Angels won the game.
As for watching fireworks, I watched them at home on the television as I wasn’t sure how Lil Gertie was going to react to them. Lil Gertie didn’t react all that well to the fireworks. She hid in my dirty clothes hamper which is in my closet. She meowed out fear a good portion while fireworks were going off.
Good Afternoon, World!!! It’s been a pretty chill day for me. I went grocery shopping for myself and my grandpa wanted to tag along. It was nice spending time with my grandpa while doing a chore I don’t really like doing; grocery shopping. My grandpa likes grocery shopping for some reason so whenever I go it’s when I spend time with him.
In all honesty if I didn’t need to go grocery shopping, I think I would have isolated today. Not sure why the depression is acting up to where I want to isolate a lot lately. Since I am aware that the depression is acting up to where isolation could become a problem, I know what I need to do. I need to use my DBT skills. Skill that have helped me a great deal.
Today is going to be one of many days that will be above eighty degrees Fahrenheit here in Seattle. Many locals start to melt at eighty degrees. I however start to melt at about ninety five degrees due to spending the majority of my childhood in Southern California. Days like today are the one reason why make an effort to go for walk. Going for walks on days like today help bring up the good parts of my childhood. Most of the good parts involve me being in California living with my dad and grandparents.
I think I am going to go so I can go for a walk. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!
Good Evening, World!! I just finished watching the Seattle Mariners play against the Los Angeles Angels. The Mariners swept the Angels in a three game series. I was sad to see the Angels loose because I am from Anaheim now living in Seattle.
I have been isolating all day and know that watching the baseball game on Facebook helped a great deal. I just need to not be isolating. I think I’m going to reach out to folks so I am not isolating.
Good Morning, World!!! I have been awake since three thirty in the morning Seattle time. It is now five thirty in the morning Seattle time. I wish I could go back to sleep however I am unable to do so. I wish sleep came easily for but it doesn’t.
It is hump day (Wednesday) as many of you know. This means the week is half over. It is hard to believe how fast time flies even when you don’t have much going on in your life. I like Wednesdays as they are a reflective day for me. Not sure why they tend to be reflective but they are.
I am not really sure what I am going to do today as I have nothing really planned. I know that I need to do some lite housework so that is on the to do list. As much as I dislike doing house work, it gives me a sense of accomplishment after it is done.
I’m also most likely going to be reading. I am not sure what book I will be reading but I will be reading. It helps me get out of my head. I have a gut feeling that reading will be the go to skill I will be using today as I am really in my head at the moment.
Good Evening, World!!! I sit here at my laptop attempting on what I should do next with my evening. I have already ate, taken a shower and am in my pajama’s ready to relax for the night. Not sure what I am going to do except watch the news. News that always seems to be so negative.
I have had a pretty good day. Having structure in my life is always a good thing for me. As difficult as therapy was for me today it was a good session. As I mentioned in an earlier post we discussed what I could do differently to not attempt to take my own life. One of those things is having my cat, Lil Gertie around. Another thing is to attend groups to help with the structure part of my life that I need.
I think I am going to work on one of my workbooks. The one that is strengths based. The one that I am on the topic of courage. Courage is a difficult topic for me and I have no clue what. It is something to talk to my therapist about.
Life is good. I think I am going to go for a walk now. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!
Good Morning, World!!! I am sleepless in Seattle once again. It has nothing to do with Lil Gertie wanting to play at this hour of the day. It has everything to do with the insomnia that I am experiencing. Insomnia sucks!!!
Since my last post, I have not only attempted to sleep but I have read. I am reading about Buddhism. It is helping me be at peace with myself and the world as a whole. The more I read about Buddhism, the more I realize it is the right spiritually for me. Having faith in something is quite helpful for me as an individual as well as my recovery.
I am going to go now. I am going to play with Lil Gertie as she appears to be playful at the moment. Peace Out, World!!!
Good Morning, World!!! It is just after twelve thirty in the morning in my corner of the world. I just got done watching The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. Watching The Tonight Show helps me be able to get things off my mind by laughing. Laughing also helps me get to sleep.
I think I am going to read for an hour and then go to bed. Not sure which book I am going to be reading as I am in the middle of reading multiple books. I might even look over my scrapbook as I have written in that. It might be help to put me in a good mindset to sleep.