Tag Archives: Calming

Let’s Hope I Can Sleep Tonight

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Good Evening, World!!! My day did not go as planned. It didn’t go as planned due to the fact I didn’t sleep very well last night. Which led to sleep most of the day today. Yes, I admit I needed the sleep due to having not been feeling good due to having Covid-19, I just wanted to start writing down my goals for the year 2022. The big ones goals I have how I will use my small goals to get to the bigger goals.

Sadly, due to not sleeping last night and taking a nap all day I have not be able to do so as I want to be accountable to people regarding my goals for the new year. I know goals are constantly changing due to the fact some end up completed and some will need to be reevaluated. And some need to be more realistic.

As far as one of my goals is to have better sleep hygiene sleep schedule but that can be challenging to do when you are feeling sick for whatever sickness you have. So, I will try to do this despite still being fatigue from Covid-19.

At least one of my goals for the new years is being complete which is spending time with my loving and cuddle bug cat, Billie Dean. Also right now he is being a pain in the rear end but that is okay as he didn’t get much attention today due to be taking an extremely long nap. I love my cat so much. Billie helps me with my mindfulness practices.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do do want to thank you for reading my blog post as if it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. That i why it is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog post. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog post. I hope everyone has a great rest of your weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Thursday Night Ramblings

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Hello, World!!! It is eleven o’clock at night in my corner of the world. I have attempted to go to sleep yet I am unable to do so. I am hoping that I can get to sleep tonight as I took a nap earlier today because I was unable to sleep last night.

I have been using the Calm app to help me with my sleep. I find that it does help me get some great rest if I’m unable to sleep. Mindfulness and meditation helps me sleep as well as relax because it gets me to be in the present moment.

Being in present moment is always a good thing as it means I am in the here and now. Being in the here and now means I am able to enjoy the moment even if it is a negative moment. It is my goal to enjoy each moment as it comes even if it is a not so good moment.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Experiences Have A Beginning & An End

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Good Evening, World!!! I’m feeling slightly calmer than I was an hour or two of ago. That is because I used the Calm app and did a few pages in my mindfulness workbook. It appears that todays topic in both avenues of my mindfulness was experiences have a beginning and an end. Mainly talking about letting go of emotions. Both the app and the workbook was discussing on how to let go of emotions and they don’t last forever. Even the good emotions.

This is helping me come to terms with both the negative and positive emotions that a coming up for me in my life. Such as my grandma being in hospice and me having job interviews. I’m hoping that with continued mindfulness and meditation practice that I will just be able to let go of emotions or at least be accepting of them.

Thank you for reading. Have a wonderful evening and Peace Out World!!!

Finding the Calm of the Night

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Right now, I am having a rough go at it due a nightmare from PTSD and voices due to severe depression that is slowly getting better. So, I decided  to use a meditation and mindfulness app called; Calm. Using this app has proven quite helpful for me.

It’s helps me so much that Junior thought he would give it a try. In fact he finds it quite helpful as well. He even uses it after each call at work. As I mentioned in other post, Junior is firefighter and after he get back to the station after each run he uses the Calm app to help him regain composure.

I guess what I am saying is that I have found something that helps me with my recovery and helps those I care about be the best they can be on their jobs. As I informed you in earlier post this week I am finding and using things that will be helpful for my recovery.

Now on to trying to get some sleep after using that Calm app and blogging. I will also have some cuddling time as Junior goes to work later this morning. Peace Out, World!!!

Ramblings About Therapy & Other Things

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Hello, World!!! As I sit here on my couch with my laptop on my lap I can’t help but think how this week is dragging on. I’m not sure why this week seems so slow but it does.

Despite it being a slow week, thus far, I still went to my appointment to see my therapist. Todays session was not an easy one as we discussed what happened to me two weeks ago. I was noticeably “high anxiety” according to my therapist which is something I can’t deny or argue with her over. We discussed a little about what happened. We mainly talked about how it’s effecting my life at the moment. My therapist saw me react to a flashback for the first time even though I’m 99.5% sure she was (and is) unaware of it. I’m not sure what she was thinking because I’m unable to read minds however I’m sure she thought I was reacting to something by showing some anger by punching the pillow. She noticed me with my slight “anger” with hitting the pillow and she stated “Let’s take three deep breaths” which we both did. The thing that shocks me is I didn’t react the way I typically do when someone says “deep breath(e).” Yes, I did have a flashback and body memory however I just flowed with the flow. Taking nice good breaths helped a great deal. We continued with the rest of our session. We ended the session with me not holding the pillow and my therapist having me take “a few deep breaths.” Yes, this triggered me however, once again, I went with the flow.

I owe me not reacting to my therapist telling me to “take a deep breath” to the Calm app and it’s meditation. The lady that does the meditation practice’s I’ve done thus far says “take a deep breath.”  I feel this has been a type of exposure therapy for me. It’s something, I think I need to bring this up to my therapist as it’s a big deal for me and my recovery.

Now that we are on the topic of this particular app. I used it on my way home from therapy to help me get in a better head space. It helped a lot more than I thought it would. I am grateful to the person who informed me about the Calm app.

On that note, I’ll end this post for now. I realize that I need to attempt to eat something even if nothing sounds appetizing. I hope everyone has good rest of the evening. Peace Out!!!