Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Laundry

Monday

  •  Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Therapy
  • Work

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Take Billie to vet for bloodwork
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work
  • Time with family

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Time with my cat Billie
  • Read
  • Art

Just Another Random Post About Nothing in Particular

Good Late Evening, World!!! As much as I love my job and the work I do, today was a rough day for me. It was a rough day because two clients I had appointments with today, had experienced someone close to them die by suicide within the last couple of days. It’s never easy dealing with loosing somebody close to you to suicide. I did what I could to help my clients and I personally experienced some secondary trauma from hearing both of my clients experience. Its not easy especially when you have experienced similar traumas as the clients. The best I could do was listen and I personally don’t think that is enough but in these cases is enough.

Something that I did was reach out to my therapist to help me with the dialog I was having in my head about my clients as well as the dialog I am having about quitting wanting quit my meds. I’m not going to stop my meds but wanted my therapist to know. I also have a couple of support friends who are a part of my Wellness Recovery Action Plan (WRAP) who know about the meds. I am feeling supported by my friends and therapist and the love they give me.

My cat Billie Dean is of course loving on me as he picks up the stuff I am dealing with. Billie is the sweetest lap cat one can have. I am blessed to have Billie in my life as he loves me and gives me the hope to live just like my friends. Billie is an amazing cat and I love him so much for his unconditional love me.

Another thing that is a part for my WRAP is mindfulness by myself as well as with my clients.. Mindfulness helps me greatly

I don’t have much more say in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again thank you for reading my block. I hope you have a good night of sleep. Peace OUt, World!!!

Sleepless in Seattle Once Again

Good Morning, World!!! I am wide awake once again at god awful time in in the middle for no reason at all. It is starting to get me fucking frustrating that I can not sleep. Insomnia sucks. I of course am listening to a podcast on philosophy as well as listening to music. Both help with good self care but occasionally don’t help on occasion.

I have also been doing some coloring how ever my hands are getting cramped up. So leads me to doing the CAlm app which helps me a great deal. I think I will be doing to mindfulness stuff to help help me sleep today.

I have hope everyone has a great night head of them. I will b spending tie with my cat Billie Dean as he she loves to cuddled with me. I love my Billie so much.

I don’t have much more to say in this blog post. I thank you for reading my blog post. It means a great deal to me. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

In Need of Sleep

Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep. I am not sure why I am unable to sleep but I have had my cat, Billie Dean, by my side. Having Billie next to me has be a great help.

Since I am unable to sleep and Billie being by my side, I have been doing some mindfulness meditation practices to help. It helped me by allowing myself to empty some things in my head. So, mindfulness helped in a way I wasn’t expecting and am grateful for that.

On that note, I have been coloring as I have been listening to podcast about philosophy. The philosophy podcast I am listening to is Philosophize This. I really enjoy this podcast and am learning a great deal. I suggest you listen.

I do not have much else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great Friday ahead. Time for me to try to get some sleep before needing to be up in about three hours. Peace Out, World!!!

A Good Night Sleep Will Help

Hello, World!!! I am slightly feeling better than I was three hours ago. There is still a shit load of shit in my head but I continued doing what I was doing and it helped.

Having my cat lay next to be as I colored has been quite helpful. Also, while coloring listening to a podcast about philosophy helped a great deal as well. I feel like I am learning a great deal from Philosophize This. I wish I was able to learn this in high school but sadly I did not learn it.

As far as the coloring goes, I am making some major progress and hope to take a picture of it so I can share it with you. Coloring is a form of mindfulness for me. I know it sounds weird but it is a form mindfulness for me.

Speaking of mindfulness, I need to finish this particular blog post so I can do a mindfulness exercise before going to bed. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a good night all. Peace Out, World!!

Monday Evening Ramblings

Hello, World!!! It is 9:24pm on a Monday evening here in Seattle. Monday’s are the start of the work week for me. Normally, I would have gone into the office today but I decided not to for no reason except I wanted to work from home. I didn’t have any clients that had an in person appointment with me today so I was able to work from home. I did have appointments with client but they were all scheduled for a virtual appointment or telephone appointment. Normally, I wouldn’t have worked from home today but my anxiety was through the roof and my depression was slightly acting up. I really do think working from home today helped both my anxiety and depression.

As far as my anxiety and depression they are doing much better than this morning. Working from home helped a great deal. Even though working from home helped, I think being home with my cat, Billie Dean, helped the anxiety and depression the most. Billie would not let me leave his sight and when he does this I think it is way to make sure I refocus myself. Refocus by realizing I have a responsibility my cat, Billie, who depends on me to make sure he is fed and taken care of which includes his health care. His unconditional love helps me be a more loving person to others and most importantly more loving to myself. For that I am forever grateful for Billie my cat as well as my last kitty Lil Gertie. The love I have received from all the pets I have had is what has helped me love myself and other people.

Since we kind of on the topic of love; something that has also helped me with self love as well as help my anxiety and depression is mindfulness. Mindfulness has helped me great deal with my mental health recovery. Mindfulness helps me make better decisions for my life even though I will still make mistakes.

I do not have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader I would not be writer my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom from my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great rest of you Monday. Peace Out, World!!!

A Mostly Lazy Sunday

Hello, World!!! It is 9:14pm here in Seattle. The weather in Seattle has made today a mostly lazy Sunday. I say mostly because I did volunteer at PAWS Cat City this morning. I love volunteering and enjoy being able to help people find new family members with adopting a cat.

Speaking of cats, I spent most of the day with my own cat, Billie Dean. Billie and I enjoyed our Sunday being lazy while enjoying ourselves doing a handful of things which included watching football, listening to a philosophy podcast called Philosophize This and doing mindfulness.

I spent some of my day focusing on mindfulness. I did this by doing a mindfulness practice with the Calm app. I also focused on mindfulness by doing a mindfulness journal as well as a mindfulness workbook. I am focusing on mindfulness because I know it helps me a great deal as well as keeps me focused on my recovery.

Besides doing mindfulness stuff, I also listened to a podcast. A podcast about philosophy. The philosophy podcast I have been listening to is Philosophize This. As I mentioned in previous blog post, I really enjoy this podcast and learn a great deal from it.

Another thing I did today was watch Sunday Night Football. I watched the 49ers play the Packers. The last half the game was great but sadly the 49ers lost. I am a 49er fan living in Seattle which means I live in enemy territory even though I am also a Seahawk fan. I wish the 49ers would have won but sadly they did not.

I do not have anything else to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! I realize I haven’t done weekly check-ins in a while. I will do my best to do weekly check-ins more regularly. Whenever, I do weekly check-in’s I wonder what you the reader think of them.

On that note, this week has been quite the week. A week that went by slowly but also had good moments in it. Let’s use today as an example. My grandpa and uncle came by my apartment to help me clean it. They didn’t have to do this but they did. I still have a lot to do with cleaning my apartment however I am greatly appreciative that I had help from family. I am also grateful for the love my family has for me.

Speaking of love, I feel the love from my friends as well. A neighbor of mine who is a friend invited me over for dinner twice this past week. I was able to have dinner with this friend both times she invited me to dinner. It was nice spend time with this friend.

As far as work goes, it went well this week. It did go by slowly but that is okay because some weeks are going to be like that. Yesterday (Friday), was paperwork day. I was bored as I was and am all caught up on paperwork. I was able to get some unexpected stuff done thanks to my supervisor and small group team. A client will be benefitting because of the help of my supervisor and colleagues.

This past week I realized, I haven’t been doing mindfulness meditation practices on the daily basis like I was at the beginning of the year. So, I started it back up again three days ago. Mindfulness meditation practice helps me be able to be a better person as well as help me cope.

Another thing I have started back up is journaling on the daily basis. I am using journaling daily as a form of a daily check-in with myself. Doing some journaling daily as a form of a check-in with myself will also help me figure out what I need to work on with my therapist.

Now on to the topic of my cat, Billie Dean. Billie has been more of a cuddle bug than he normally is. I am not one hundred percent sure why he is being more of a cuddle bug, I am grateful that he is being more of a cuddle bug. Having Billie in my life has been quite helpful and I love him so very much.

I do not have anything else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciative from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Buttload of Emotions

Hello, World!!! Today, I have had a buttload of emotions. The main emotion that bothered me today was anger. Anger over a training at work. I know why I was angry and it really didn’t have anything to do with the training itself but the trainer. Even though the trainer didn’t do anything negative in the training today, I have had some pretty negative experiences with this person. The negative experiences I had with this person was about fifteen years ago and thought I was over it till I saw this person and realize that I wasn’t over it.

So, when the training was over I did a five minute mindfulness meditation practice. A mindfulness meditation practice that helped a great deal and did two more times before the end of work. All three times I did the mindfulness meditation practice helped a great deal.

After work I called a friend as a well as my grandpa. After talking with both my friend and grandpa on the phone, I visited a neighbor in my building who has become a friend. Talking with friends and family helped a great deal. I felt the love from friends and family and that helped with my anger.

Speaking of love, I felt the love from my cat, Billie Dean. He could tell I was have a challenging time so he sat on my lap. Billie being on my lap also helped my anger. I am so grateful that my cat, Billie, can tell when I am having tough moments like today. He is an amazing kitty and I love him so much.

I do not have anything else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reading I wouldn’t be blogging. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Trying Out New Bedtime Routine

Hello, World!!! I am trying out a new bedtime routine tonight. I know from times past when I try a new bedtime routine it won’t work right away as I need to make it a routine to have it work. That means if it doesn’t work tonight, I continue to try doing it for a few weeks to see if it will work or not.

I will start not being on my computer or watching the television an before I plan to go to bed. When I do this I will spend doing a ten minute mindfulness meditation on my phone from the Calm App. After that I will snuggle into bed and start reading. Reading a book of my choosing. Specifically a book that is meant to fun such as fantasy or science fiction. I plan on doing this as to help relax me and make it easier to get to sleep.

Of course my cat Billie Dean will be next to me as part of my bedtime routine as he has been a part of it since his first night home. It is always nice to have Billie sleep with me.

So, here is having my new bedtime routine helps with my sleep as I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reading I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!