A Sleepless Time of Night in Seattle

Good Very Early in the Morning from my corner of the world known as Seattle!!! I am not really sure why I am unable to sleep tonight but it is frustrating as hell. I have been doing both coping skills as well as doing self care. They are helping a little bit but not as much as I wish they would help.

One of the things I have been dealing with is increased anxiety , PTSD and depression which sucks shit especially when they all decide to come all at once. One of things that appear to be helping it doing mindfulness meditation practices. It helps me stay grounded.

Another thing that helps me stay grounded in my so very smart kitty, Billie Dean. He seams to know when I need the extra support and makes sure I don’t leave his site. Oh how I love Billie and the connection we have. I am so grateful that he chose me. He is a great cat and am glad he is my cat.

Something else I have been doing it coloring. No, I am not coloring the Disney horror coloring book at the moment. I am coloring a coloring page I got from Stuff2Color.com. They have some awesome coloring pictures. In fact a colored one for my grandpa and framed it. I gave it to him for Christmas. He was happy about it and put it up on the wall for all to see.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my perspective that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!!

My New Year’s Goals at a Glance

Hello, World!!! It is nearly nine thirty at night in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. I don’t think I have mentioned my goals for this year. I have a ton of them but will share just a handful of my goals for tonight.

First, I will be continuing to volunteering at PAWS Cat City as it helps me keep grounded. Not only does it help me keep ground but I get to help the cats find furrever homes which brings me a great deal of joy.

Another thing I plan on doing is mindfulness meditation practice on the daily basis. This, too keep me grounded. It also helps me keep my emotions under control.

Another thing that will help me with my emotions is doing self help workbooks. Workbooks that can help me with my emotions and help me be a better peer specialist.

I also plan on doing art as art helps me be creative and be able to express my emotions in a positive way. I love the fact the art can help me be a more positive person and less angry.

Reading is another way to help with my emotions and is great goal for me. Reading helps me escape from the realties of what is going on in the hard and harsh world we live in. Reading is a great escape for me and helps me come up with idea’s to do art work.

I have more New year’s goals for 2022 and will share them in another post. I do want to say that my cat, Billie Dean is one of my goals for this year. Billie is a goal for this year to make sure he stat heathy due to hi kidney disease. Thankfully it is under control and not exactly at stage one yet which is a great thing. He is such a love bug that loves to cuddle. I love him so much and I am sure he loves me back.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It means a great deal that you read my blog. Peace Out, World and have a great night of sleep.

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice.
  • Work on workbooks focused on what I need to do for my recovery.
  • Sadly, I can volunteer a Cat City due having Covid-19 but I get to volunteer at home by calling inactive volunteers to see if they want to come back or remain furloughed due to being precautious of Covid-19.
  • Walk around the block. (Wish the Covid-19 fatigue will allow me to walk more but just grateful to be able to walk around the block.)
  • Read
  • Figure out some SMART goals for 2022 (some I have mention and will mention in this post.)
  • Learn about Tarot and Tarot Cards
  • Journal about my day
  • Of course spend time my cat, Billie

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Spend time reflecting on Betty White legacy to animals as today will be her 100th birthday. I am grateful for her love of animals of all kinds.
  • Work on workbooks focused on my recovery needs
  • Walk around the block
  • Volunteer by calling new donor’s to PAWS thanking them for donating and how grateful paws is for their donation.
  • Continue to learn about Tarot and Tarot Cards
  • Continue to work on figuring out goals for 2022
  • Journal
  • Time with my awesome cuddle bug of a cat, Billie.

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Work on workbooks regarding my recovery
  • Continue to learn about Tarot and Tarot Cars
  • Work on small goals to complete the big goals for 2022
  • Journal

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Work on workbooks focused on my own recovery
  • Define my goals to small goals to accomplish the bigger goals for 2022
  • Continue to learn about tarot and tarot card
  • Journal
  • Of course have time with Billie my cat the love bug who loves barbeque potato chips

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around block
  • Work
  • Work on recovery focused work book
  • Get a Covid test done to hoping to confirm I am Covid-19 negative
  • Journal
  • Focus on goals for new year and see how realistic they are for 2022

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Work on workbooks related to my recovery
  • Focus on the realistically for my 2022 goals specifically the smaller ones to be able to accomplish the bigger ones
  • Continue to learn about Tarot and Tarot Card
  • Journal

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice.
  • Walk around two blocks
  • Work on recovery focused workbooks
  • Spend time with my extra loving cat.
  • Hopefully be able to do a tarot card reading on myself and journal about it.

Side note I will let you know what my 2022 goals are at some part this week. Both the Big goals and the small goals to accomplish the big ones.

Let’s Hope I Can Sleep Tonight

Good Evening, World!!! My day did not go as planned. It didn’t go as planned due to the fact I didn’t sleep very well last night. Which led to sleep most of the day today. Yes, I admit I needed the sleep due to having not been feeling good due to having Covid-19, I just wanted to start writing down my goals for the year 2022. The big ones goals I have how I will use my small goals to get to the bigger goals.

Sadly, due to not sleeping last night and taking a nap all day I have not be able to do so as I want to be accountable to people regarding my goals for the new year. I know goals are constantly changing due to the fact some end up completed and some will need to be reevaluated. And some need to be more realistic.

As far as one of my goals is to have better sleep hygiene sleep schedule but that can be challenging to do when you are feeling sick for whatever sickness you have. So, I will try to do this despite still being fatigue from Covid-19.

At least one of my goals for the new years is being complete which is spending time with my loving and cuddle bug cat, Billie Dean. Also right now he is being a pain in the rear end but that is okay as he didn’t get much attention today due to be taking an extremely long nap. I love my cat so much. Billie helps me with my mindfulness practices.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do do want to thank you for reading my blog post as if it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. That i why it is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog post. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog post. I hope everyone has a great rest of your weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans (Slightly Late)

Normally my weekly plans would be done on Sunday mornings and wasn’t in a healthy space to do it this morning. Anyway, I am now in a health place to do them.

Sunday

  • Take time for self care
  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Blog
  • Sadly not volunteer due to having Covid-19
  • Spend time with my lovey cat Billie Dean
  • Shower
  • Recovery workbooks
  • Spend time with my cat Billie

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Recovery workbooks
  • Work from home due to having Covid
  • Spend time with cat, Billie

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Recovery Workbooks
  • Work from home due to Covid
  • Spend time with cat Billie
  • Attend a 12 step program via Zoom

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Recovery workbook
  • Work from home due to Covid
  • Attend 12 step group
  • Spend time with my cat Billie

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Recovery workbook
  • Work from home due to Covid
  • Attend 12 step group
  • Spend time with my cat Billie

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Recovery workbook
  • Work from home due to Covid-19
  • Spend time with my cat Billie

Saturday

  • Just to s self care day

Restarting Something Helping Me with My Recovery

Good Night, World!!! It is nearly midnight in my neck of the world known as Seattle. At the beginning of this years I started going to a twelve-step program that more focused on recovery with changing yourself than exclusively only using the twelve-steps. The twelve-steps is more of a guide and the focus of changing yourself and reparenting yourself is the key to this program. Anyway, I hadn’t been in over six months till tonight and am grateful I went. I am thinking this will be part of my recovery as I need to learn to deal with my inner child and how to reparent myself.

In fact this something I have been starting work on with my relatively new therapist. So, I feel like going to this program and therapy will be have great help in my own recovery. Therapy and the twelve-step program isn’t the only way I need to continue to help with my recovery is going for daily walks twice daily, doing daily mindfulness meditation practice and of course spending time with my beloved cat, Billie Dean. Billie really helps my recovery.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Little Early to be Up on a Saturday Morning

Good Morning, World!!! It is really early on a Saturday morning here in Seattle. Since I am up so early and unable to sleep, I think I will be as productive as possible as I can be right now in this moment of time.

The thinking about the what I am doing it reading about books that can help me with both my professional and preanal lives just like reading a book about philosophy that can help with my professional and personal life.

I also feel like listening to a podcast about philosophy can be helpful in my life as a whole including relationship with friendships. All this stuff has some intersect abilities to it. Something, I would to like to learn more about it.

I fell like as early as it is on a Saturday morning in a middle of a weekend, this will help me build better relationships even the relationships that are not the best relationships.

As far as reading books about relationships and listening to podcast on philosophy will help me become a better person as well as a better cat owner to my cat Billie Dean. Billie is a great way to put philosophy and relationships together.

I do not have much more to say regarding this particular blog post. Thank for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of thing that you the reader that you read my blog. If if wasn’t for you the reader for reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Listen to the podcast Philosophize This”
  • Read “The Republic and Other Works” by Plato
  • Hang out with my cat, Billie Dean

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk
  • Listen to the podcast “Philosophize This” 
  • Work
  • Read “The Republic and Other Works” by Plato
  • Hang out with my cat, Billie

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness medication practice
  • Walk
  • Therapy
  • Work
  • Listen to the podcast “Philosophize This”
  • Read the book “The Republic and Other Works” by Plato
  • Hang out with my cat, Billie

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk
  • Work
  • Listen to the podcast “Philosophize This” 
  • Read the book “The Republic and Other Works” by Plato
  • Hang out with my cat, Billie

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk
  • Work
  • Listen to the podcast “Philosophize This” 
  • Read the book “The Republic and Other Works” by Plato
  • Hang out with my cat, Billie

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk
  • Work
  • Listen to the podcast “Philosophize This”
  • Read the book “The Republic and Other Work” by Plato
  • Hang out with my cat, Billie

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk
  • Listen to the podcast “Philosophize This” 
  • Read the book “The Republic and Other Works” by Plato

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Laundry

Monday

  •  Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Therapy
  • Work

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Take Billie to vet for bloodwork
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work
  • Time with family

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Time with my cat Billie
  • Read
  • Art

Just Another Random Post About Nothing in Particular

Good Late Evening, World!!! As much as I love my job and the work I do, today was a rough day for me. It was a rough day because two clients I had appointments with today, had experienced someone close to them die by suicide within the last couple of days. It’s never easy dealing with loosing somebody close to you to suicide. I did what I could to help my clients and I personally experienced some secondary trauma from hearing both of my clients experience. Its not easy especially when you have experienced similar traumas as the clients. The best I could do was listen and I personally don’t think that is enough but in these cases is enough.

Something that I did was reach out to my therapist to help me with the dialog I was having in my head about my clients as well as the dialog I am having about quitting wanting quit my meds. I’m not going to stop my meds but wanted my therapist to know. I also have a couple of support friends who are a part of my Wellness Recovery Action Plan (WRAP) who know about the meds. I am feeling supported by my friends and therapist and the love they give me.

My cat Billie Dean is of course loving on me as he picks up the stuff I am dealing with. Billie is the sweetest lap cat one can have. I am blessed to have Billie in my life as he loves me and gives me the hope to live just like my friends. Billie is an amazing cat and I love him so much for his unconditional love me.

Another thing that is a part for my WRAP is mindfulness by myself as well as with my clients.. Mindfulness helps me greatly

I don’t have much more say in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again thank you for reading my block. I hope you have a good night of sleep. Peace OUt, World!!!