Just Another Random Post About Nothing in Particular

Good Late Evening, World!!! As much as I love my job and the work I do, today was a rough day for me. It was a rough day because two clients I had appointments with today, had experienced someone close to them die by suicide within the last couple of days. It’s never easy dealing with loosing somebody close to you to suicide. I did what I could to help my clients and I personally experienced some secondary trauma from hearing both of my clients experience. Its not easy especially when you have experienced similar traumas as the clients. The best I could do was listen and I personally don’t think that is enough but in these cases is enough.

Something that I did was reach out to my therapist to help me with the dialog I was having in my head about my clients as well as the dialog I am having about quitting wanting quit my meds. I’m not going to stop my meds but wanted my therapist to know. I also have a couple of support friends who are a part of my Wellness Recovery Action Plan (WRAP) who know about the meds. I am feeling supported by my friends and therapist and the love they give me.

My cat Billie Dean is of course loving on me as he picks up the stuff I am dealing with. Billie is the sweetest lap cat one can have. I am blessed to have Billie in my life as he loves me and gives me the hope to live just like my friends. Billie is an amazing cat and I love him so much for his unconditional love me.

Another thing that is a part for my WRAP is mindfulness by myself as well as with my clients.. Mindfulness helps me greatly

I don’t have much more say in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again thank you for reading my block. I hope you have a good night of sleep. Peace OUt, World!!!

Monday Evening Ramblings

Hello, World!!! It is 9:24pm on a Monday evening here in Seattle. Monday’s are the start of the work week for me. Normally, I would have gone into the office today but I decided not to for no reason except I wanted to work from home. I didn’t have any clients that had an in person appointment with me today so I was able to work from home. I did have appointments with client but they were all scheduled for a virtual appointment or telephone appointment. Normally, I wouldn’t have worked from home today but my anxiety was through the roof and my depression was slightly acting up. I really do think working from home today helped both my anxiety and depression.

As far as my anxiety and depression they are doing much better than this morning. Working from home helped a great deal. Even though working from home helped, I think being home with my cat, Billie Dean, helped the anxiety and depression the most. Billie would not let me leave his sight and when he does this I think it is way to make sure I refocus myself. Refocus by realizing I have a responsibility my cat, Billie, who depends on me to make sure he is fed and taken care of which includes his health care. His unconditional love helps me be a more loving person to others and most importantly more loving to myself. For that I am forever grateful for Billie my cat as well as my last kitty Lil Gertie. The love I have received from all the pets I have had is what has helped me love myself and other people.

Since we kind of on the topic of love; something that has also helped me with self love as well as help my anxiety and depression is mindfulness. Mindfulness has helped me great deal with my mental health recovery. Mindfulness helps me make better decisions for my life even though I will still make mistakes.

I do not have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader I would not be writer my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom from my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great rest of you Monday. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! I realize I haven’t done weekly check-ins in a while. I will do my best to do weekly check-ins more regularly. Whenever, I do weekly check-in’s I wonder what you the reader think of them.

On that note, this week has been quite the week. A week that went by slowly but also had good moments in it. Let’s use today as an example. My grandpa and uncle came by my apartment to help me clean it. They didn’t have to do this but they did. I still have a lot to do with cleaning my apartment however I am greatly appreciative that I had help from family. I am also grateful for the love my family has for me.

Speaking of love, I feel the love from my friends as well. A neighbor of mine who is a friend invited me over for dinner twice this past week. I was able to have dinner with this friend both times she invited me to dinner. It was nice spend time with this friend.

As far as work goes, it went well this week. It did go by slowly but that is okay because some weeks are going to be like that. Yesterday (Friday), was paperwork day. I was bored as I was and am all caught up on paperwork. I was able to get some unexpected stuff done thanks to my supervisor and small group team. A client will be benefitting because of the help of my supervisor and colleagues.

This past week I realized, I haven’t been doing mindfulness meditation practices on the daily basis like I was at the beginning of the year. So, I started it back up again three days ago. Mindfulness meditation practice helps me be able to be a better person as well as help me cope.

Another thing I have started back up is journaling on the daily basis. I am using journaling daily as a form of a daily check-in with myself. Doing some journaling daily as a form of a check-in with myself will also help me figure out what I need to work on with my therapist.

Now on to the topic of my cat, Billie Dean. Billie has been more of a cuddle bug than he normally is. I am not one hundred percent sure why he is being more of a cuddle bug, I am grateful that he is being more of a cuddle bug. Having Billie in my life has been quite helpful and I love him so very much.

I do not have anything else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciative from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

The Never Ending Day

Good Evening, World!!! Today feels like the never ending day. It feels like a never ending day because it is going by so slowly. I have no clue why it feels like it is going so slowly but at least it’s been a relatively good day.

This week at work some folks were changed to different days to do crisis coverage. I was one of those folks and am now assigned to do crisis coverage during business hours on Thursdays. So today was first Thursday, I did crisis coverage. All the folks on Thursdays are great people but not as interactive as the Friday crisis coverage folks. On that note, when I found out I was being switched to Thursdays, I asked if I could continue to do Fridays crisis coverage and was told yes just as long I do Thursdays. That’s fine with me because I love working with folks in crisis. I was informed that I cannot do more than two days of crisis coverage and I am okay with that.

Thankfully, I am currently off work. I am listening to a podcast about philosophy. Actually, the philosophy podcast I am currently listening to is Philosophize This. I love this podcast for many reasons and I learn a great deal from it. I wish I learned philosophy when I was in high school but sadly that was not an option from the high school I graduated from.

As I sit here blogging and listening to Philosophize This, my cat, Billie Dean, is laying next to me purring. I love the fact that Billie is content with laying next me as I sit blogging and listening to a podcast. Billie is such a love bug of a cat. I love the unconditional love the my cat, Billie gives me. I love my cat so very much.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reading I would not be blogging. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

A Buttload of Emotions

Hello, World!!! Today, I have had a buttload of emotions. The main emotion that bothered me today was anger. Anger over a training at work. I know why I was angry and it really didn’t have anything to do with the training itself but the trainer. Even though the trainer didn’t do anything negative in the training today, I have had some pretty negative experiences with this person. The negative experiences I had with this person was about fifteen years ago and thought I was over it till I saw this person and realize that I wasn’t over it.

So, when the training was over I did a five minute mindfulness meditation practice. A mindfulness meditation practice that helped a great deal and did two more times before the end of work. All three times I did the mindfulness meditation practice helped a great deal.

After work I called a friend as a well as my grandpa. After talking with both my friend and grandpa on the phone, I visited a neighbor in my building who has become a friend. Talking with friends and family helped a great deal. I felt the love from friends and family and that helped with my anger.

Speaking of love, I felt the love from my cat, Billie Dean. He could tell I was have a challenging time so he sat on my lap. Billie being on my lap also helped my anger. I am so grateful that my cat, Billie, can tell when I am having tough moments like today. He is an amazing kitty and I love him so much.

I do not have anything else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reading I wouldn’t be blogging. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Mini Get Away

Good Afternoon, World!!! Right now, I am currently in Bremerton, Washington. It being Labor Day weekend here in the United States, I decided to come to Bremerton yesterday and I will be going back home to Seattle tomorrow. I decided to take tomorrow off as it is nice to have an extra day off from time to time.

I came to Bremerton because it is a Ferry Boat ride away and feels like it’s far away. I love being able to come to Bremerton for a couple of nights as it is a form of self care for me. It has been a form of self care for me since I made the active decision to be in active mental health and self harm recovery. In fact it was my grandma’s idea and she would pay for a couple of nights in a hotel for me because she knew that being near water and a couple of days away would help me even when I am doing well.

Even though my grandma passed away three and a half years ago, I still come to Bremerton as a way to recharge. In fact, I am really missing my grandma right now. I miss being able to call her up and talk with her. She and my grandpa helped my dad raise me. My grandma was very supportive of me and I am grateful that I am still keeping up with this self care tradition. Most importantly I am grateful that I have a job to be able to pay for the mini get away myself without needing to ask for someone else to pay for it.

Speaking of paying for my trip, my grandpa is taking care of my cat, Billie Dean as I am out of town. Billie is at my grandpa’s getting even more spoiled than he normally is. My grandpa really enjoys taking care of Billie. Billie also loves being spoiled by my grandpa.

Well it is lunch time and I am hungry. So, I am going to end this particular blog post so I can go eat and walk around the Bremerton waterfront. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 3: One-Word Inspiration

HOME

 

Home is where the heart is or at least that is how the saying goes. I don’t know how exactly true it is as if home is where the heart is then I guess I have lots of homes. I am not exactly going to discuss home is where the heart is in this post or last that is not what my plan is.

For me my current home is home to me. Home is currently in Seattle where I live in an apartment that is the longest place I have lived as an adult. Home is also where my beloved cat, Billie Dean, resides with me. So, I guess, for me home is where my cat, Billie is. Coming home to Billie is where the love is. I guess for me home isn’t just where I get the unconditional love from Billie is but a place that I created to be a home that is full of memories of homes past which is why my home is my home.

Three and a Half Years and I Still Miss My Grandma

Good Morning, World!!! Today marks exactly three and a half years since the death of my grandma. I miss my grandma a great deal. She along side my grandpa helped my dad raise me since my dad was a single father. My grandma was the motherly figure in my life. I miss being able to talk with her just to tell her about how my day went.

As much as I miss my grandma, I am glad she is no longer suffering as she had Parkinson’s Disease. I just wish she was alive to meet my last cat, Lil Gertie as well as my current cat Billie Dean. She would have loved both cats and would have spoiled them.

I don’t have much more to say in the particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated that you do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my hear for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

A Lazy Sunday

Good Evening, World!!! It is a Sunday evening and it was a great day for many reasons. Lets start with how I started the day. I started the day by volunteering at PAWS Cat City. I love volunteering especially at an animal shelter where I can help animals and people alike. I get to help people get a new pet or should I say a new family member when they adopt a cat.

Speaking of cats, after volunteering, I came home to my cat who didn’t leave my side today. He was on my lap most of the day. He laid on my lap as I watched the last day of the Olympics. The Olympics were pretty cool this year despite it being held a year late due to a pandemic which is still going on. The Olympic tend to bring the world together even in the middle of the global pandemic.

It looks like this is going to be a short post as I do not have much more to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader, I wouldn’t be blogging. I hope everyone has a great week ahead. Peace Out, World!!!

The Basic’s of the Reality of Self Care & Self Love

Happy Midnight from my corner of the world which is Seattle, Washington. As I stated it is midnight here in Seattle and it appears that I am unable to sleep. At this point in time I don’t think it is insomnia that is keeping me up.

The reason why I am thinking it is not insomnia as I have been doing to some good self care after the toe infection I have been dealing with. Even though I am suppose to be staying off of it, I am have been doing some major chores around my apartment. Specifically, I have been cleaning it as it is in desperate need of a major cleaning. The lack of cleanliness hasn’t been good for my depression which is why I am been cleaning about thirty minutes day. While cleaning I have been listening to music. Specifically, I have been listening to my Recovery Music list to keep me motivated.

Another thing that has helping me stay motivated is by doing mindfulness and meditation practices. Practicing mindfulness and meditation as helped me stat focused on what I need to do for good self care as well as good self love. Self love is extremely challenging for me which is why I am doing my best to do things that create self love in myself by doing mindfulness and meditation practices on a daily schedule.

As part of my self care, I am starting read books for fun again. I noticed when I read for fun it helps me go on a mini vacation without costing too much money. It could be done in many situations and can also be considered a form of mindfulness.

Oh an lets not forget about reading comic books. Comic books is a great way to do good self care as well as an awesome form of self love. Comic books has a way for me to believe in myself in ways other types of reading material may not be quite as helpful.

I recently bought some magazines regarding mindfulness, meditation , journaling as well as creativity to help me continue on good self care and good self love. Of course all this will be help me especially if I stick to it like I plan to. Journaling will be a good help with my recovery.

The one thing that helps me everyday, multiple times a day to stay grounded is my cat Billie Dean. Billie has been a great help with staying in the reality of doing good self care and self love. I love my cat Billie so much and am grateful for being able to having as a mindfulness exercise multiple times a day.

On a plus note I was able to go to work today (Friday) and was thrilled about it. I love being a Peer Support Specialist which is why I am focusing on self-care and self-love.

I do not have much more to say i this particular blog. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog; it truly is greatly appreciated. Now it is time to say goodnight now that is it midnight Seattle time. Plus it is time to cuddled with my precious kitty Billie Dean aka Billie the Kat aka Billie. I have everyone has great night ahead of them. Have an awesome weekend ahead and don’t forget to do good self care. You my readers are just very awesome people. Thank you for reading my blog. Good Night and Peace Out, World!!!