Too Many Thoughts Running Through My Mind

Good Afternoon, World from Seattle, Washington. Right now I have way too many thoughts running through my mind. I have been having many ups and downs this past week.

First I have my last day at my previous job due to being laid off. Then I have a job interview and two days later find out I got the job. I am taking the job and start at the end of the month. On that note I don’t think it’s the best job for me but it is something in my career of choice.

The day after I found out I got the job, I found out my mom has lung and they are still doing test regarding it including test on her memory loss. I’m hoping it’s not a brain tumor but will find out when an MRI and other test are done. But I’ve already told you this.

It just appears that when things get a bit overwhelming I tend to sign up for free courses WordPress does. I usually sign up for two or three of them and start one and sadly don’t finish them. Well, I signed up for four of them and it is my hope with what’s going with my mom’s health and me starting a new job that I actually start and finish them. I guess it’s a goal to help me get through both the good and bad stress I’ve been dealing with.

Speaking of stress, my cat, Billie Dean, has been helping me a great deal with the stress I have been dealing with. I love my cat, Billie so much. The thing I don’t understand is how Billie can love me so unconditionally. Hell, any pet has unconditional love.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated on my end that you the reader, read my blog. In fact if it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart once again for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Rollercoaster of the Last Few Days

Good Evening, World. Today has been a rollercoaster of a day. Lets start with the good news. I had an interview on Monday an was offered the job yesterday (Wednesday) that I got the job. I am looking forward to the new job that I start June 27th of this month. I have mixed feelings with this job but at least I’ll have employment starting the end of the month.

On that note my mom’s health hast been the best and have forgetting things a lot and usually remembers everything. My mom’s breathing has been getting worse so long story short the found a spot on her lung. It’s been made official she has lung cancer but need more test to be done see what stage it is in. The doctors need to do more test including removing the spot on her lung. She will be having more test including an MRI for her head due to her forgetfulness which is unlike my mom. If they find something in her brain that it is not suppose to be there not only will she have surgery on the removing the spot if find one if it safe enough to do it as the brain is very fragile. I will keep you updated about my mom when test results come in.

I’m just glad that I have the support of my friends, family and of course my cat Billie. Today has been a tough day and Billie has be helpful.

Than you for reading my blog. I hope you can give out positive energy and vibes for my mom. I love her so much. Again thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Official Date for Lay Off from Work

Good Evening, World!!!! I finally found out when my lay off date is at work and am not sure if I am allowed to share it as I signed some documentation. In all honest with you, I think it’s the other shit that they don’t want out there. Not everyone has the same lay off date but mine is June 3rd of this year. I’m sad I only have a couple of weeks to say goodbye to client but they will be going to place that will be helpful to them. My place employment was a mental health agency the was geared toward the queer community was it’s main focus so Seattle experience a big loss especially since it’s been around for fifty three years.

On that note I’ve have friends and family checking on me that makes me feel loved. Having a good support system is needed when you are in recovery from anything. I truly love my friends and family and that they love and care for me back. My colleagues are in the same category as friends and family.

Speaking of friends and family, Billie Dean, my cat is on my lap as I write this post as I listen to my recovery playlist from Spotify. My cat being near me is surely helping my emotions just like the music is. Music is a go to for me to change my mood around. Billie my cat listening to the music just helps that just much more.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, again thank you from the bottom of my hear for reading my blog. Peace Out, World.

Too Early to be Up on a Saturday

Good Morning, World!!! It is nearly four in the morning here in the Seattle area. I’ve been awake since just after three this morning. Not sure why I am awake this early so I’m blaming it on insomnia. On that note I’ve been trying to write this blog since I woke up but my cat, Billie Dean, is making a bit challenging to use my laptop.

So, obviously, I am figuring out a way to write it with him purring on my lap. I love my cat Billie so very much. He has made the last two months so much easier to deal with shit regarding a job I love. As I’ve mentioned before I am getting laid off from work with no lay off date. I do know I’m stay to they close or at least stop paying me. On that note we officially stop seeing clients May 31st and most of the remaining staff will be laid off in June. We don’t know exact dates but at least I know it’s sometime in June.

Any way switching subjects. It’s raining outside here in Seattle. Not exactly a surprise but it’s actually only drizzle. In fact it doesn’t rain as much as people think it does here. Plus, it is usually drizzle. It’s just mostly grey, cloudy and overcast here in Seattle.

I’m going to end this particular blog post now and try to get some more sleep. Thank for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Cell Phone Back in Service at Least with Some

Good Evening, World!!! People have been having issues with their cell phones. I just thought it was my particular cell phone carrier but it turns out it was other carriers as well.

The thing that bothered me is my mom called me twelve times in a five minute period on my cell phone after texting her it’s not working. She could have called my land line telephone and she said “you get mad when I do that.” At times I have but if you call someone’s cell phone twelve times in five minutes and then call the police is a bit excessive. The cops did give my mom a lecture on the phone especially when I have a land line. I love my mom so that is why I texted her about my cell phone. I even called from my land line and she didn’t pick up. Just use all your resources first before calling the cops.

I know my mom meant well and that she loves me. I feel bad for getting upset with her and will call her back to apologize. I really do love my mom. At least Billie kept me compony. The cell phone issue has lasted several hours and some still can use their cell phones. I’m very happy my cell phone is now working in Seattle and that Billie kept me company.

Talk to you all later and Peace Out, World!!!

A Day of an Unexpected yet Mostly Good Things

Good Afternoon, World, from Seattle. Today has be full of the unexpected with mostly good things. First of all I finally got some much needed sleep and secondly Billie Dean did not use himself has an alarm clock and let e sleep in an extra thirty minutes.

The job is still very uncertain with the lay off thing. On that note I let my supervisor know yesterday I plan on staying but putting out resume’s out there which she understands and will be a great reference for me. I’ve bee letting client know as well because they deserve to know what is going on to the best of my abilities. My colleagues are supporting me in my decision. I really love my job as it is one of two of my dream jobs.

On that note the old HR Director from my current employer sent me some peer jobs that are opened at the moment. The other cool thing the former Vice President of my current employer did the same thing and they don’t work for the same compony anymore.

I’ve been highly focused on work to day by listening to music as I do notes on clients and taking breaks. While taking breaks, I’ve been reading comic books. Both remind me of my childhood and can help me refocus on what I need to focus on.

And lets not forget the love and attention I have been receiving from my beloved cat, Billie Dean. Billie gives me a ton of unconditional love that I don’t even deserve. I love Billie so much and I am so happy to have him in my life. He is an amazing kitty.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing it. It is greatly appreciated from my end that you read my blog. Again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I just want you to remember that my readers of my blog a beyond awesome. Peace Out, World!!!

Uncertainty With a Whim of Hope

Good Evening, World!!! I had a challenging supervision with my supervisor today saying I am planning on staying to the end but with the uncertainty of when the end will be, I started putting myself out there via cover letters and resume’s. She understand and is doing the same thing. She informed that the former Vice president and acting president is seeing if she could find a spot for me. Specifically a spot to create a program for the LGBTQ+ (Queer) community. This would be great sense I am queer. To me this is hopeful news but I have a bit of uncertainty at the moment as creating new programs can be challenging.

I am applying for other jobs even though it is my hope my current job stays open as it is one of my dream jobs. I can’t lay all my eggs in one basket. I have tons of references which is a great thing.

In all honesty if I get a job where I work from the office five days a week, I don’t think Billie Dean my cat will be happy with me. We both know we love each other. I love being able to come home from work with the love Billie.

I just hope my next job, whatever it may be will be longer that an year and a half. I will miss my colleagues and clients when it’s time to say goodbye. Just send out good vibes, energy, Vudu, and karma for me please.

I am done with this post and would like to thank you for reading my post. It is greatly appreciated that you read my blog. If if it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Early to be Awake on a Sunday

Good Morning, World!!! I guess its officially Sunday around the world that it is now past three in the morning in Seattle and Hawaii is three hours behind of us or I think they are. Anyway I was woken up partly because it’s cold in my apartment and needed to turn on the heat and part because Billie want his water from the bathroom sink faucet and not his two fountain water bowls or his other water bowl that looks like a water cooler.

I love my cat Billie Dean that if he wants to wake me up just after three o’clock in the morning for his preferred way of drinking water, I’m not going to say no especially since my apartment is cold and I needed to on the heat. I hate being too cold or too hot when I am trying to sleep especially when it’s cold.

On that note my precious love bug of a cat, Billie Dean is now in my lap purring on my lap. Billie is such a love bug and is very much a lap cat. He to quite the talker (meowing) at times and when I am trying to sleep it can be a bit annoying but it’s way to get love and attention when I am in the middle of doing something like having a good a sleep.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular post. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog as if it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Range of Emotions

Hello, World!!! As I write this particular blog, I am writing in between clients and writing note about clients. I guess it’s one of the luxuries of being able to work from home part of the time. I really love my job but today has been a tough one and I am not sure why. Be back later, I have a client to see.

Okay, now I’m back after two sessions with clients and writing their notes so their insurance can pay my employer. I love my job most days and normally don’t feel drained but I’m feeling drained because nobody really knows if my employer is actually closing or not.

I blame the board of directors on this and am happy that the county is wanting to keep us open but it appears like nothing is being done. We have no leadership left. We do have one HR person left and two of the four remaining supervisors are leaving in May.

I have a range of emotions because I love my job and am grateful for it. I’m also angry, depressed and full of anxiety of what is going on. The county is giving us some hope but not much.

Working from home is helping me today because I have Billie to help me with my emotions. I love my cat so much. I wish could talk more about Billie but I have another session with a client and then a meeting. So, thank you so much for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Gratitude of Ramblings

Hello, World!!! The last month and a half has been a whirl wind especially at work. My past and current collogues have been nothing but awesome. Despite the board directs wanting to close our agency down there is some hope because the county wants us to stay open. To me the very little hope is what is keeping me going. That and the clients we serve.

I’m also grateful to the blogging community for the support you are giving me. You fellow bloggers are a big reason I continue to blog and that is because of of the support you give to me and others.

Now on to my friends, family and my cat, Billie Dean. I wouldn’t have gone through this if it it wasn’t for your support. The same support my colleagues give me .

The love and hope a receive from all of you helps me stay in my recovery and helps me keep focused on the clients my employer serves. Thank you again from the bottom of my hear for reading my blog. Without you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Peace Out, World!!!