Everyday Inspiration, Day 2; Write a List

What I’ve Learned

  • I’ve learned to play the flute.
  • I’ve learned the basics of playing the harmonica.
  • I’ve learned that the Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) skill help me when life is unmanageable or just a little stressful.
  • I’ve learned to laugh at myself and that humor goes a long way.
  • I’ve (re)learned several times over that cats are always forgiving and full of unconditional love.
  • I’ve learned from my cat how to be a better human and how to have more patience with humans.
  • I’ve learned that my artwork doesn’t have to be perfect for others to enjoy it.
  • I’ve learned from my cat how to love myself.

Billie Not Liking Me At the Moment Even Though He Still Loves Me

Good Morning, World!!! I took Billie for a follow dental appointment. As a precautionary procedure they I giving Billie antibiotics as one of the sites isn’t getting better but not getting worse so I chose to do antibiotics. Billie isn’t liking it. He may not like me for a few minutes but I know he still loves me. He still wanted his morning loving after the antibiotic.

My cat means the world to me and I love him with all my heart. Having an Emotional Support Animal (ESA) has greatly helped me with my recovery and mental health symptoms. I’m grateful for my last cat Lil Brooke and my current cat Billie.

Thank you for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me the you the reader read my blog. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. So thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Can’t Sleep; Worried About Mom & Brother

I am unable to sleep for two reason. First my mom has stage three lung cancer and second; nobody has heard from my brother for nearly three months. Nobody seems to care about to do a missing person report on my brother but me. My brother came up missing right before the cancer diagnosis of my mom. Not sure if the two are related. I’m worried about both my mom and brother. I would love my mommy and brother to meet my cat Billie. Not sure if that will be a reality now as nobody knows where my brother is and nobody knows how much time my mom has live or if she will survive. I’m hopping a miracle happens some how since my brother has know idea our mom has cancer.

I don’t have much much to say but thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Developing Your Eye; Day 4: Bliss

This is my cat, Billie the first night he was home after adopting him from a local animal shelter. In this picture he is giving me a hug as he sleeps. It’s one of my favorite picture and gives me since of bliss he trusted me from day one.

I feel like the picture explains itself as Billie, my cat found his bliss in in new furrever home with me two and half years ago. His first night home he was comfortable sleeping on me while giving me a hug. One of the most previous I have of Billie.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 19: Feature a Guest

A picture of Billie Dean the Kat who is the featured guest

Good Morning, World!!! I know it is weird to have a cat or any animal as a featured guest on a blog. My plan is to ask him questions and answer them the way I think he would answer them as he were able to speak human and not just meow like the cat he is. Here is the “interview.”

Me: How did we originally meet?

Billie: We met while you doing a regular volunteer shift at PAWS Cat City.

Me: Was it love at first sight for you?

Billie: I think it was love at first sight for the both of us. I know you love my crinkly ear and you can’t deny that.

Me: When you came home with me, how did you feel?

Billie: Do you really need to ask that question? You know I love you unconditionally.

Me: What can I do better as your parent?

Billie: You can feed me at the butt crack of dawn when I ask for it then. Hell, you can feed me whenever I ask for it even if there is still food in the bowl.

Me: You do realize I’m not going to get up at the butt crack of dawn to feed you when I know you have food?

Billie: Yes, but do you remember who runs this home?

Me: Of course I do. You run this home, I just pay the bills.

Billie: I love you but I’m done with this interview. It’s time for another nap.

The Healing Love of the Cats of My Recent Life

Lil Gertie the first cat that captured my heart as an adult. She was only 8 when she crossed over the rainbow bridge, I would still adopt her even only having a year an half with her.

Lil Gertie wasn’t exactly the type of cat I would looking for. I go into wanting a black cat knowing the realities I might not connect with a black cat. Anyway, after filling out the survey, I talked with a volunteer who I know from his place of work. He said we have a cat who needs to be an only cat. She is all white and the two of you share the same name. Then he explained to me about her ear issues and fell in love with out looking at her. So I decided to not put her on hold as I wasn’t sure at the moment and wanted a couple days to think about while still giving her a chance of being adopted sooner as I made my decision. So two days later I made my decision to adopt Lil Gertie. Sadly she got cancer and ended up having a mini stroke. It was the best choice to let her cross over even I only had a year and have with her. She got her furrever home and helped with some hard shit like the the first holiday season without my grandma as well as the first Mother’s day with my grandma. She was also there during the first anniversary of my grandma’s death. As much as I miss Lil Gertie, her untimely death helped me put into action becoming a volunteer at PAWS Cat City in Seattle.

I now volunteer there and started January of 2020 so we continued volunteer through mid-March. Volunteers were furghloaded till June were a hand full off us could start back up and I was one of the first to start volunteer again.

Billie wanting to take a shower with ne when he realize he didn’t lie it;’

I was very lucky when I adopted him because it was right before the lock down from Covid and he helped me through the initial part of isolating and not go to big gatherings like I was planning on going to. Billie was the on constant in my life during Covid-19 pandemic. In fact he has helped me be more mindful in my life and realized he has now ended two jobs with me and started two new jobs one of which I started this week. Billie helped me realize that working nights once a week and an occasional on call shift was not for me so I got a job as a full time Peer Specialist at an agency that treated me like family. Sadly after being there for a year and half the agency permanently closed its doors. Staff found out March 1st of this year and I didn’t find out my lay off date till two weeks before hand. My last day was June 3rd. Billie was and is my calming affect through all the recent work stuff. If I didn’t have my loving Billie on June 3rd, I don’t think I would have lived much less continue to want to work. Billie’s unconditional love is what got me through a very dark time that I hadn’t had in four years. The Healing affect of Billie helped me get back on track and I started a new job this week as peer.

Both of my cats have healed me in ways with their love that human could not do. My cats are family to me even the ones I help take care of at my volunteer job at Cat City. Thank you for listening to me babble on about my cats. Peace Out, World and go pet a cat.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 12: Critique a Piece of Work

I don’t have anything to critique at the moment. This will be a very short post. I will say that my critique would be my new job and the great way they are doing training. My new employer is doing an awesome job with training and is willing to be accommodable to those of us living with a disability. So far I give the training an A.

Head Full of Shit in the Middle of the Night

My head is full of shit right now and not sure how to deal with it when you cute ass cat named Billie wants to “help” blog with me. He is kindly walking on the keyboard to find a comfy spot on it to lay down and take a nap. I love my Billie so much and am beyond grateful that I am the receiver of his unconditional love. I love him to the moon and back.

My head is so full of shit the only thing I could think of was read comic books, paint and listen music. Specifically my recovery play list. In fact I start back to painting a piece of art that I thought was finished years ago but the universe had something else to say about it.

Add more yellow and green. Attempted to paint purple around the black hole as it is getting smaller and that is a great thing for my recovery.

I don’t have much more to say except that the shit is still in my head but it is a lot less after listening to music, reading comic books and paint. And of course Billie helped a great deal as well. I do want to thank you for reading my blog as if it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing it so thank you for reading it. I hope you have a great Thursday ahead of you as you all deserve to be happy. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 4: A Story in a Single Story

Bilie acting handsome for his mug shot

When it comes to a story in a single image it is usually the same four pictures WordPress chooses so I chose on o my cat,; Billie Dean. I adopted Billie from my volunteer job Which is at an animal shelter. Hell, I wouldn’t be volunteering at PAWS Cat City in Seattle if it wasn’t for my positive experience with adopted Lil Brooke. As much as I a miss her, I am happy to volunteer at Cat City and have adopted Billie during one of my volunteer shifts.’

Billie gives me unconditional love and particularly never leaves my sight. I love Billie so very much. It is hard to know who loves who more.

Too Many Thoughts Running Through My Mind

Good Afternoon, World from Seattle, Washington. Right now I have way too many thoughts running through my mind. I have been having many ups and downs this past week.

First I have my last day at my previous job due to being laid off. Then I have a job interview and two days later find out I got the job. I am taking the job and start at the end of the month. On that note I don’t think it’s the best job for me but it is something in my career of choice.

The day after I found out I got the job, I found out my mom has lung and they are still doing test regarding it including test on her memory loss. I’m hoping it’s not a brain tumor but will find out when an MRI and other test are done. But I’ve already told you this.

It just appears that when things get a bit overwhelming I tend to sign up for free courses WordPress does. I usually sign up for two or three of them and start one and sadly don’t finish them. Well, I signed up for four of them and it is my hope with what’s going with my mom’s health and me starting a new job that I actually start and finish them. I guess it’s a goal to help me get through both the good and bad stress I’ve been dealing with.

Speaking of stress, my cat, Billie Dean, has been helping me a great deal with the stress I have been dealing with. I love my cat, Billie so much. The thing I don’t understand is how Billie can love me so unconditionally. Hell, any pet has unconditional love.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated on my end that you the reader, read my blog. In fact if it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart once again for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!