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Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Mindfulness Meditation practice through the Calm App.
  • Morning walk
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Spend the day with my partner, Junior
  • Dinner at Red Robin with friends and Junior

Monday

  • Mindfulness Meditation practice through the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Attend Emerald House
  • Movies with friends and Junior

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness Meditation through the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Attend Emerald House
  • Attend an in person queer group
  • Read
  • Art (color and/or rock painting)

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness Meditation through the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Attend a virtual group
  • Lunch with my partner, Junior at Red Robin
  • Read
  • Art (color and/or rock painting)
  • Attend a virtual 12 step meeting

Thursday

  • Mindfulness Meditation through the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Attend a virtual group
  • Read
  • Art (color and/or rock painting)
  • Time with Junior

Friday

  • Mindfulness Meditation through the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Attend Emerald House
  • Attend virtual appointment with therapist
  • Dinner at Red Robin with Junior and friends
  • Movies with Junior and friends

Saturday

  • Mindfulness Meditation through the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Go to the U-District Farmer’s Market
  • Read
  • Art (Color and/or rock painting)
  • Dinner with friends

Tough Start to the Day

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Good Morning, World!!! It has been a tough start to the day for me. I woke up a couple of hours ago due to a nightmare. It was a screaming nightmare and the reason why I know is because I am over at Junior’s house with my cat, Billie, and Junior informed me it was a screaming nightmare. Nightmares suck and I don’t envy PTSD on anyone including my worst enemy.

Junior is worried about my increased PTSD symptoms as he is worried it could affect the pregnancy. Hell, I am even more worried as I am that one that is pregnant. I just don’t want the PTSD to affect my pregnancy in any way. Having PTSD and being pregnant is not easy and I am grateful to have Junior and his love in my life.

I do not have much more to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you, the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Been A Good Sunday

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Good Evening, World!!! It has been quite the day and it is just barely after five o’clock in the evening here in Seattle. I have had a pretty good Sunday. I started off today by volunteering at PAWS Cat City. It is nice to be able to be back in the swing of things at PAWS Cat City. I really enjoy volunteering with cats at PAWS Cat City.

After volunteering at PAWS Cat City I went to Red Robin with Junior to have lunch with some friends of ours. I always love Red Robin but since becoming pregnant I have been craving Red Robin like it’s going out of style. I really am happy to be able have had Red Robin with friends and Junior.

Now Junior and I are at his place with my cat, Billie. We are just going to spend some much needed time together. I’m pretty sure we are going to have some intimate moments later but until then we are going to spend time watching movies as Billie explores Junior’s house. Junior is an amazing partner. I love him so freaking much.

I do not have much more to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you, the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Enjoy the Benefits of Being Pregnant

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Good Morning, World!!! It is hard to believe that despite severe PTSD symptoms that I have been surprisingly sleeping better and longer. Instead of my usual four hours of sleep, I have been getting about six to eight hours of sleep. I am so freaking happy that I am sleeping better and longer hours. The OBGYN informed me that the more restful and longer sleep is due to being in my first trimester of pregnancy.

Another thing that can happen during pregnancy is an increased sex drive which is currently happening to me. As someone who has an extensive trauma history and being traumatized again in the last six months this can be a scary thing. Despite it being somewhat scary my partner, Junior is being so sweet with the increased sex drive while understanding that PTSD can and will get in the way.

Of course I will discuss the PTSD stuff as well as the increased sex drive with my therapist. In fact I have an appointment with her today and I will officially let her know about being pregnant. I am sure my therapist and I will be discussing my mental health while being pregnant and will be an on going discussion for therapy.

I do not have much more to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write on my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Bundle Of Nerves With A Bun In The Oven

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Good Evening, World!!! As of right now I am a mixture of emotions. I had my annual exam this morning and thankfully my partner was able to come with me as I struggle with the annual exam due to trauma. Junior, my partner, also came for another reason which was to medically confirm if I was pregnant as the two take home tests I took last week said I was. My doctor did medically confirm that I am pregnant and that I am about eight weeks pregnant. My doctor also made me an appointment with the OBGYN in the same clinic as my doctor is in, for next Tuesday. Of course Junior will be coming with me. Needless to say we are both scared shitless and ecstatic.

I do not have much more to write about in this particular blog post with the exception that I will keep you all updated about the pregnancy. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write on my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

The Purple Flute

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Good Evening, World!!! I am feeling really loved and appreciated as Junior did something very special for me. He bought me a purple flute and it was delivered to me today. I didn’t know it was coming until this morning when Junior informed me to be expecting a package. He would not tell me what it was till I opened it. I was and still am shocked as hell when I opened up the package. I am so thrilled that I have a brand new flute and that it is purple. Now, if I can just get the old flute fixed I will be even happier as then I would have two flutes to play.

My brand new purple flute.

I do not have much more to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write on my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Anxiety Over Tomorrow’s Doctor’s Appointment

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am nervous as hell for tomorrow morning as I have my yearly annual wellness exam with my doctor tomorrow. I am scared due to trauma related issues that my doctor is quite aware of. I am also scared and full of anxiety due to the fact that my doctor will confirm something medically which is why I am having my partner Junior come with me. It is something he would like medically confirmed as well.

Anyway, I am sadly having intrusive thought ping ponging in my head at the moment and it is not a good thing which is partly why I am currently writing this blog post. Blogging tends to help with the ping ponging of my thoughts as well as help with anxiety I deal with. I am just happy that I have various skills in my tool box to help with the anxiety.

I do not have much more to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you, the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write on my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Hump Day Update

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Good Evening, World!!! It is Wednesday which means it is time for a mid week update or what I like to call it; Hump Day Update. The only thing I really have to update you on is something I want to confirm with my doctor first and I see her for my annual wellness check this Friday. Overall, things are going relatively well. Things with Junior are going quite well and my mom is quite happy that we are back together. Of course my dad and grandpa “approve” of Junior because he has always treated me well.

I do not have much more to update you on in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write on my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Pleasant Surprise

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Good Morning, World!!! It is just barely after eight o’clock in the morning here in Seattle. Thankfully, the weather is somewhat becoming more normal for Seattle. It is now currently raining but sadly it is still cold outside and in the thirties (Fahrenheit) but at least it is not cold enough to snow at this point in time.

As I type this particular blog post my cat Billie is on my lap as my partner, Junior is fixing me breakfast when he does not have to. He decided to come by my place after his shift as a Seattle fire fighter to spend time with me and to make sure I eat. When Junior showed up to make me breakfast I told him he just wanted an excuse to see my cat, Billie. Anyway, Junior is making me French toast with scrambled eggs. Junior knows how much I love French toast and scrambled eggs and how I have been craving them almost daily. I am always happy to spend time with him and wish he didn’t spoil me so much.

I do not have much more to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you, the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Posted on by Gertie

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice with the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • University of Washington women’s basketball game with grandpa and uncle
  • Dinner with grandpa and uncle
  • Work on a recovery workbook

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice with the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Clean apartment with the help of two friends
  • Work on a recovery workbook
  • Color
  • Read

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice with the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Go to Emerald House (a mental health clubhouse)
  • Dinner with a friend
  • Work on a recovery workbook
  • Color
  • Read

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice with the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Virtual group
  • Lunch with partner
  • Attend a virtual 12 step meeting
  • Work on a recovery workbook
  • Color
  • Read

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice with the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Virtual group
  • Work on recovery workbook
  • Color
  • Read

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice with the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • Go to Emerald House (a mental health clubhouse)
  • Work on recovery workbook
  • Movies with friends and boyfriend
  • Dinner with friends and boyfriend
  • Color
  • Read

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice with the Calm App
  • Morning walk
  • University District Farmer’s Market with boyfriend
  • Work on recovery workbook
  • Color
  • Read