Blogging Through Shit

Good Morning, World!!! I am not sure what I am dealing with at the moment. One moment I am struggling and the next, I am okay. Since I am unsure what is going on with me emotionally, I tend to write in moments like this. Writing helps me process whatever the hell is going on. It helps me figure out what is going on.

As I write this post I am just going to write what is going through my head. This might be scary for you all as I am going to be blunt as hell and not hold back. Hell, what I think scares the shit out of me sometimes. The stuff coming out is not the scariest I have thought.

I am slightly worried about money for the month of May. Not as worried as I was in previous post but still worried. I know things will work out when it comes the money situation as I have people who can be of help to be if need be. I just don’t want to have to depend on them.

I wish my neighbor would turn down their stupid television. It is pissing me off and for some fucking reason it is trigger me. Why in the hell is someone’s loud television trigging me? Sounds silly but it is triggering for some odd reason.

I think I am going to read. I love reading and enjoy it immensely. I just don’t understand why it is taking me so long to read this particular book. It is an awesome book and will write a book review on it when I am finally finished with it.

I wonder who actually reads my blog. I mean is it reaching the people I want it to reach. Are people actually reading it or just “liking it” after reading a few sentences? I am trying to figure out why I only have just over three hundred followers after nearly four years of blogging. In fact I wonder if tags work sometimes. I know they must but I just wonder how many people actually go to the tags. I know I do.

I should really be doing chores right now. I need to clean my apartment. I clean my apartment once a week. Or I attempt to clean it once week. Nobody likes having to clean but it is a necessity that is part of being an adult.

I think I am going to go now. Thank you for reading. It is very much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

5 responses to “Blogging Through Shit

  1. I get triggered by loud noises too. I could never live somewhere where I share walls with others. As an autistic person, everything just goes in my brain and stays there in a jumbled unfiltered mess. I’ve learned to deal with common things like traffic or the grocery store. But, I easily get overwhelmed by too much input. I have no output function. It just stays there and everything builds up until I leave the environment.

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  2. I found your blog by searching for info. on DBT. I read it was something that helps with suicidal thoughts. I often feel isolated. But, isolation is comforting to me. I don’t understand people. Being social and walking outside my home, especially into unfamiliar territory is overwhelming. But, this isolation feeds my anxieties and worries. I also don’t have many friends. Isolation is a double edged sword as I often feel like something is wrong with me. I don’t feel like I was supposed to be born into this world. I was the product of rape. Why did my mom keep me? Why didn’t she abort me? Life is hard!

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