Now That I Have My Foot In The Door

As I sit here at my laptop, I can’t help but think about how much I love my current job as a Consumer Aide at local mental health agency. The last year working in my current position has made me realize that I made the right choice in my career change from bagging groceries at grocery store to  being a Consumer Aide at a mental health agency. I have come to the conclusion that I am meant to work in the mental health field.

Knowing that I am meant to be working in the mental health field has me thinking about my current position as a Consumer Aide. If you been following my blog for a while you know that I had applied and interviewed for a number of Peer Support Specialist positions and no job offers till my current position as a Consumer Aide. Part of the reason why I applied, interviewed and accepted my current position is basically I needed to have my foot in the door in regards to having paid employment in the mental health field.

Now that I have my foot in the door and been in my current position for almost thirteen (13) months, I have decided that I am going apply for peer positions. Unfortunately, that means I have to look outside the agency I work for because they don’t have any open peer positions. I am hoping that since I’ve been working in the mental health field for over a year now that I will be able get a peer position.

This coming up week, I will be touching up my résumé and working on cover letters. There is one Peer Specialist I have been looking at for a while now and hope that the agency that posted the job is still looking for a qualified applicant. I hope that it isn’t too late to apply for it.

As much as I don’t want to leave my current position as well as my clients it is best for me to apply for Peer Specialist positions. It is best for me if I want to move up in my career. I also don’t want to leave the agency I work for but unfortunately, there are no Peer Specialist positions open.

As I end this post, cross your fingers for me that everything works out. Have a wonderful Sunday evening. Peace Out!!!

Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)

I realize I am a day late with my blogging feature and I don’t have any excuse for not posting it. I decided to discuss Seasonal Affective Disorder also known as SAD since it is the beginning of Autumn. I got the information from: http://familydoctor.org/familydoctor/en.html

What is Seasonal Affective Disorder?

Seasonal affective disorder (also called SAD) is a type of depression that is triggered by the seasons of the year. The most common type of SAD is called winter-onset depression. Symptoms usually begin in late fall or early winter and go away by summer. A much less common type of SAD, known as summer-onset depression, usually begins in the late spring or early summer and goes away by winter. SAD may be related to changes in the amount of daylight during different times of the year.

How common is SAD?

Between 4% and 6% of people in the United States suffer from SAD. Another 10% to 20% may experience a mild form of winter-onset SAD. SAD is more common in women than in men. Although some children and teenagers get SAD, it usually doesn’t start in people younger than 20 years of age. For adults, the risk of SAD decreases as they get older. Winter-onset SAD is more common in northern regions, where the winter season is typically longer and more harsh.

What are the symptoms of SAD?

Although your symptoms are clues to the diagnosis, not everyone who has SAD experiences the same symptoms. Common symptoms of winter-onset SAD (90% of people who have SAD) include the following:

  • A change in appetite, especially a craving for sweet or starchy foods
  • Weight gain
  • A drop in energy level
  • Fatigue
  • A tendency to oversleep
  • Difficulty concentrating
  • Irritability and anxiety
  • Increased sensitivity to social rejection
  • Avoidance of social situations and a loss of interest in the activities you used to enjoy
  • Feelings of guilt
  • Feelings of hopelessness
  • Physical problems, such as headaches

Symptoms of summer-onset SAD (10% of people who have SAD) include:

  • A loss of appetite
  • Weight loss
  • Insomnia
  • Irritability and anxiety
  • Agitation

Symptoms of SAD tend to come back year after year. They also usually come and go at about the same time every year. The changes in mood are not necessarily related to obvious things that would make a certain season stressful (like regularly being unemployed during the winter, for example).

Is there a treatment for SAD?

SAD can be treated in a number of ways, including light therapy, medicine, or behavior therapy. Your doctor may want to combine therapies if using one does not work for you.

If you have winter-onset SAD and your doctor suggests you try light therapy, you may use a specially made light box, or a light visor that you wear on your head like a cap. You will sit in front of the light box or wear the light visor for a certain length of time each day. Generally, light therapy takes about 30 minutes each day throughout the fall and winter, when you’re most likely to be depressed. Another kind of light therapy involves a “dawn simulator” which is a light that is activated by a timer. It is set up in your bedroom to mimic a natural sunrise. The light turns on early in the morning and gradually increases in brightness and allows your body to wake up naturally, without using an alarm. If light therapy helps, you’ll continue it until enough sunlight is available, typically in the springtime. Stopping light therapy too soon can result in a return of symptoms.

When used properly, light therapy seems to have very few side effects. However, some side effects include eyestrain, headache, fatigue, irritability and inability to sleep (if light therapy is used too late in the day). Light therapy should be used carefully in people who have manic depressive disorders, skin that is sensitive to sunlight and/or medical conditions that make their eyes vulnerable to sunlight damage.

Tanning beds should not be used to treat SAD. The light sources in tanning beds are high in ultraviolet (UV) rays, which harm both your eyes and your skin.

I hope the above information is helpful. Please remember that I am not a doctor or therapist. There are also other treatments for SAD that you may want to discuss with your health care professional or mental health provider. Have a wonderful weekend. Peace Out!!!

Writing 101: Finding Your Inspiration; Day Fifteen: Take a Cue From Your Readers

It is the fifteenth day of Writing 101: Finding Your Inspiration. Todays assignment is to take a cue from you the writer. I’m still doing my poll at http://polldaddy.com/poll/9074944/ I would love for more of you to vote. I would love to be able to give you what you want in regards to reading my blog. As of right now, people want to read more of my recovery story. If you have any other suggestions please don’t hesitate to add your own answer in the poll and it would be much appreciated for any suggestions in the comment area. I want to be able to keep all my readers interested in my blog. Of course there are some suggestions I may not take if they don’t go along with what my blog is about or the direction my blog is going.

Thanks for reading. Have a wonderful weekend and  Peace Out!!!

Blogging 201; Day Ten: Give ‘Em What They Want, II

It is the tenth and final day of Blogging 201. Part of todays assignment is to not only look at our site stats again but to do a poll. For one of my Writing 101 assignments we had to do a poll and I did one. I included that same poll in another Blogging 201 assignment. As of right now, not very many people have taken the poll. Please take the poll so I know what you the reader want more of. http://polldaddy.com/poll/9074944/

As I end this post, I am a little sad that Blogging 201 is over with. I enjoyed doing Blogging 201. To my fellow Blogging 201 course takers, it was nice getting to know you. I hope to see you all in future courses. Have a good weekend. Peace Out!!!

Writing 101: Finding Your Inspiration; Day Fourteen: Recreate A Single Day

The day I want to recreate isn’t exactly G or PG rated. In fact it is more X rated. The reason why it is X rated is because the day I have in mind is the first time I had sex willingly. The first person I have ever had sex with willingly was with Junior. The first night, just like every night he was and is extremely gentle with me when we are intimate with each other.

To tell you the truth every time Junior and I intimate with each is like the first time we made love with each other. No need to write about recreating a single day when that recreation happens multiple times a week. Every time I think about making love to Junior, I smile. I smile because he loves me just the way I am. He is always gentle with me when we have intimate moments.

Being with Junior isn’t just about making love, it is about being with someone that I love who loves me back. For Junior and myself its about being with each other and being who we were meant to be with each other. It’s about loving each other without judgment. For me being with Junior everyday is a recreation of a single day and that’s all one can ask for.

As I finish this particular post, I want to encourage you all to be with people who help recreate events and/or moments everyday. Having people who love you to create and recreate days and moment is an awesome experience. Have a great evening. Peace Out!!!

Blogging 201; Day Nine: The Buddy System

It is hard to believe that today is day nine of Blogging 201. Only one more day left and am a little sad. Todays assignment is to build a “buddy system.” This is something I have been trying to build even before taking any of the WordPress courses. In all honesty it would be helpful to have five or six solid blogging buddies. I say this because not everyone is going to be around one hundred percent of the time and it will be nice to have a choice of guest writers on my blog from time to time. I’ve been wanting to have guest bloggers for a while now. I just have to figure out how to do the guest blogger thing here on WordPress. I know I will figure it you. If you want to be a blogging buddy with me just email me at Gerties_Journey@outlook.com. Please put in the subject Blogging Buddy or Guest Blogger.

Thanks for reading. Have a wonderful  Thursday. Peace Out!!!

Writting 101: Finding Your Inspiration; Day Thirteen: Compose a Series of Vignettes

Sitting in the lobby of my therapist with my legs shaking and tears flowing down my cheeks. The admin assistant brings me my stuffed Eeyore (that my therapist holds on to for me for our sessions) and a box of Kleenex. I whisper “Thank you,” as I think to myself, “everyone must know now. She (the admin assistant) has that pity look.”

*****

Laying on the gurney in the E.R with Junior sitting by my side, holding my hand. The doctor and nurse come into the tiny E.R room with a look on their faces that no future parents want to see. Unfortunately, we have seen that look before. The doctor confirmed the look when she said, “We have to take you immediately to the maternity floor. You are experiencing another miscarriage. You will be having a procedure done called Dilation and Curettage also known as a D & C. With your previous miscarriage and being so far along, we feel it is best that you have a D & C for your health.” As I emotionally shut down, Junior started to shed tears for the loss of our second set of twins.

*****

Tears were finally flowing down my face the moment I stepped into the lobby of my therapist office. I arrived 45 minutes early and was informed by the admin assistant that I would be able to see Diana in 15 minutes. Those 15 minutes were extremely long but when Diana came out me to take me back to the office to have our session, I sobbed. I sobbed out what I needed to the moment I found out I had miscarried again.

*****

To this day, I still shed tears and even sob over the loss of my babies. I cry over both sets of twins I miscarried. Crying in which I find difficult to so. Even though I find  it difficult to cry, I find it therapeutic when I do so especially over the loss of my children.

Daily Prompt: Autumn Leaves

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Autumn Leaves.” Changing colors, dropping temperatures, pumpkin spice lattes: do these mainstays of Fall fill your heart with warmth — or with dread?

Happy Autumn!!! Today is the first day of Autumn in the United States. It being the first day of Autumn is why I chose to do this (past) daily prompt. Yes, I know I have already blogged today for Blogging 201, which I am enjoying and yet to blog for Writing 101, which I am enjoying as well. I just thought it would be cool to blog about Autumn since it is the first day of Autumn.

I don’t mind early Autumn because of all the beautiful colors it brings. It is mid to late Autumn that I personally dread. I dread Autumn because that is when my depression typically starts to get worse. Don’t get me wrong I struggle with my depression all year, it just gets worse in mid to late Autumn as the days get shorter and as the weather changes from dreary rainy days and to frequent wind storms that love to bring the major rain. I guess you can say my depression is affected by the timing of the year. I don’t just dread mid to late Autumn because of the short days and horrible weather, I also dread winter for the same reason.

Due to the shorter days and not so good weather that Autumn and Winter bring, I make sure I take care of myself. I make sure I have good sleep hygiene. That means go to bed at the same time every night and getting up at the same time every morning or at least as much as possible. I also go for two daily walks despite how horrible and miserable the weather may be. I also make sure I am eating on the regular basis and making sure I’m eating as healthy as possible. (We all know that late Autumn to mid Winter brings the holidays where eating healthy can be difficult.) Not only do I make sure I get the proper sleep and exercise and eat healthy, I make sure I take my meds as scheduled and go to my appointments with my therapist and psychiatric nurse practitioner. Doing all the above things don’t always make me feel better but at least they wont make me feel worse nor will the above activities make the situation worse.

Not making the situation worse is what works best for me on the dark gloomy days of late Autumn through Winter. For those of us who struggle with a mental illness, just knowing the time of year our symptoms are at their worst is helpful in itself especially if you are at the beginning stages of recovery. It is also helpful for the people in our lives that help us; weather they are professionals or friends and/or family.  Having supportive people is also extremely helpful. I know that the people in life are well aware that mid Autumn to late Autumn through Winter are when I struggle the most with my mental illness.

Now that I have explained why I dread Autumn, it is now time to end this post. I need to work on my Writing 101 assignment and most likely be posting that later on. I need to give my eyes a break for now. Have a great first day of Autumn. Peace Out!!

Blogging 201; Day Eight: Make Your Blog a Hub

Happy Autumn!!! Today is not only first day of Autumn but the eighth day of Blogging 201. It seems that the assignment I did for today in regards to Blogging 201 disappeared. That means I am redoing it which is annoying as hell.

Todays assignment wants us to do a page to add to our blog in regards to our online presence. For me, I am happy with the presence I have. I am happy with the presence I have since my main goals of my blog are to be an example of what recovery looks like and to educate others to help lessen the stigma that goes to having a mental illness. At the moment my presence on social media is enough.

There is one part I am not happy with in regards to my presence is the amount of followers I have and that is one of the reasons why I have decided to do Blogging 201. Like I said earlier and will reiterate is that the primary goals of my blog is to educate others and be an example of what recovery looks like. I realize that the amount of followers shouldn’t matter but it does matter. It matters because EVERYONE is effected by mental illness in one way another weather they want to admit it or not.

Have a wonderful day. Enjoy the first day of Autumn!! Peace Out!!!

Writing 101: Finding Your Inspiration; Day 12: Play With Word Count

An Untitled Poem

(For now)

by Gertie

You don’t look like me.

You don’t act like me.

You may have a mental illness like me

but why should

our recovery look the same.

Its not one size fits all.

We are different;

so is our road to recovery.

Don’t judge mine.