Weekly Check In

Good Afternoon, World!!! I realize it has been a week since I last blogged. I did attempt to post and have plenty of unfinished post to prove that I did attempt to do so. I honestly don’t have any excuses to why didn’t finish the post I started.

I guess I will make this post my weekly check in as I was planning to tell you what my week was like anyway. I guess, I will start with Monday. Monday, I went to my doctors appointment and had my annual wellness check done. It was not a fun experience like always because of my trauma history. Anyway, my doctor wants me to get an ultrasound done because my uterus is enlarged and no I am not pregnant. She did a pregnancy test to make sure I wasn’t even though I already knew due to not being sexually active for well over a year. So, I am waiting on my insurance to “approve” the ultrasound. I am also waiting for insurance to “approve” me for a mammogram even though I am now forty and “shouldn’t need approval” according to the paperwork I have from them but hey we all need to go through this stupid red tape from time to time.

Tuesday, I saw my psychiatric nurse practitioner for a med review and that went well. She increased my Ambien to ten milligrams. We briefly discussed how things were going and I was honest with her and informed her about my doctor’s appointment. She thanked me for updating her on my physical health issues.

I also saw my therapist on Tuesday and we ended up discussing a great deal about my annual wellness check up. We discussed this as it was quite triggering to me due to my severe and lengthy trauma history. We also discussed about needing an ultrasound and being “of age” for a mammogram and the emotions that go with all of it. He also brought up the fact that a program called “Path with Art” registration is open for spring classes as he knows I love to do art and be creative as well as trying to build structure to help with my recovery.

Thursday, I went and saw my denturist to get them realigned and adjusted. It went pretty well except my grandpa got upset with the denturist due to the fact the he asked the denturist why I was telling him (my grandpa) that I shouldn’t wear my dentures at night. The denturist explained at length why not. My grandpa was not all that happy with the answer because my grandpa has been wearing his dentures at night for years. My grandpa also brought up some concerns that he and I both had and the denturist put our minds at ease. I am grateful that my grandpa paid for my dentures.

I also saw my therapist for a second time in the same week on Thursday. We discussed shit that was going on in regards to PTSD and anxiety. We also once again discussed signing up for “Path with Art” which I did later in the evening.

In fact when I signed up for Path with Art, I found out I could only take one class which sucks but I understand as it is free and geared toward folks in certain programs/agencies. Part of the registration is to give them your top three choices. My first choice is how to tell a story through comics and I feel like this was (and is) the best first choice for me as I love comics. I hope I get into this particular class as I really want to learn more about comics.

Another thing that happened Thursday was my boss texted me to see if I could work today (Saturday) and I informed him I couldn’t. He said okay and wants to do a one on one supervision with me this coming Wednesday due to not taking shift the last couple of months which I understand why he wants to do it. I am a little fearful that I will be let go but I don’t think that is the case as my employer appears to be cool from my experience and my supervisor did say we were going to talk about availability for his on calls. Plus, if I am to be let go even though it doesn’t seem all that likely at the moment, I will accept the fact about being let go due to the fact of not taking any shifts so in essence, I will be taking responsibility for my own actions.  I would be lying if I said I wasn’t worried about the potential of being fired but it would be my own fault due to not taking any shifts when I was asked if I could do them. But like I said I don’t think that will be the case as I think they will just give me some kind of warning if it continues and like my supervisor said we will be discussing availability.  Also if it was something more official like being terminated, I am sure he would have sent me an email instead of a text.

I honestly don’t have much more to say except that the weather in Seattle currently sucks. It is windy and rainy outside. It is the type of day to stay inside and read type of day. Or maybe even a binge watch type of day. I most likely will be reading. I really love to read.

I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. If it wasn’t for you my reader, I don’t think I would continue to blog even though I do enjoy blogging. Again, thank you for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

A Relaxing Monday

Good Evening, World!!! I really did not do much today as it was low key type of day. I went to my doctors appointment as planned. My doctor and I decided since I am doing well and haven’t been in the emergency room for over two months for neither mental health or physical health that I will see her every four weeks instead of every two weeks. Which means I am doing better both mentally and physically despite needing to go to urgent care a couple of weeks ago due to a severe cold but my doctor thinks that is better than the emergency room and I did what was needed as a precaution since I have asthma. My doctor and I also discussed my up coming appointment regarding my oral surgery. She wants me to keep her updated on how the oral surgery went via email. I have a pretty awesome doctor.

As much as I appreciate it being Martin Luther King Day and am grateful for all he did, I wish the mental health agency I am a client of was open today. I say this because I miss attending Art Group. I haven’t attended art group since before the holidays. Despite not being able to go art group due to the mental health agency being closed, I did do some art. I did a combo of genre’s. I painted and added some collaging on the painting. I love adding both genre’s together. It makes the art more interesting.

Another thing I did today was read. I am reading Lost Boys by Orson Scott Card. So far I am enjoying it immensely. I love being able to read. I love it so much because it gets me out of my head and helps me forget about my problems even though it is temporary. It is a great escape for me especially since I don’t have the money to go on vacations. Reading is a type of vacation for me.

I do not have much else to say at the moment. I hope everyone who had a three day weekend had a good three days off. Those who did not I hope your work week started off well. I hope everyone has great rest of your week especially if you have to work. I also want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things especially since I have not been blogging on the regular basis. Have a great rest of you evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Boredom Sets In As I Wait For….

Good Morning, World!!! At this very moment I am sitting in the waiting room of my doctor’s office to see her for our ever two week check up even though I have not seen her since November. Long story short, our schedules didn’t mesh well and the holidays didn’t help with the scheduling. Any way I am sure we will be discussing how things have been going with me both physical health and mental health wise. I am sure we will also be discussing how I have not been using the emergency room on the regular basis and only going to urgent care once as seeing her every two weeks is to help cut down on the amount of times I go to the emergency room. Anyway, one of the things I plan on doing is asking my doctor if she can prescribe me some Ativan for my upcoming dental appointment. Actually, it will be for my oral surgery of taking out all of my teeth. I have anxiety over going to the dentist. I know it sounds a wee bit silly but I do. I know most likely my doctor will not prescribe me the Ativan but at least I will have an answer as if I don’t ask the answer will be an automatic no.

As I wait for my doctor, not only have I been writing this post I have been reading the book Lost Boys by Orson Scott Card. It has been quite helpful to me as I wait to see my doctor. Hell, it was quite helpful to me last night when I was unable to sleep due to sleeping too much for about three days due to depression. I love to read. It helps me get out of my own head space and think about something else for once. It is quite helpful for me and my recovery journey.

I best be ending this particular post as it is getting closer to my appointment time with my doctor. I hope to post more later on today. I hope everyone has a good Monday. Peace Out, World!!!

Manic Monday Madness

Good Evening, World!!!  I don’t deal with bipolar however, I think I was Manic a little bit earlier. I am trying to get my Medicaid straightened out and it appears there was an error on DSHS which they acknowledge and they will be paying the bill for the service that should have been already.

After dealing with DSHS, I went and informed my therapist of what had. He agrees that the information I got was quite confusing him. So he is going to take me to the DSHS office on Friday to get clarity when my medicaid got turn backed on. I have it but nobody agrees of when it started. I did talk to my therapist about other shit like the PTSD and the grief.  It was overall a good session with him. It was extremely helpful for me today.

I didn’t art group like wanted to because I was too tired. Yes, I wanted to go but I was too tired so I came home and took a nap, The  nap was refreshing.  I can do art her at home.

I don’t know what else to write about at the moment. I feel like that today was full of madness due to all the red tape I had to deal with today. Thank you for reading  my blog. It is greatly appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Turns Out It Wasn’t My Appendix, So I Am Okay

Good Morning, World!!! I went to the emergency room because I thought I was having a problem with my appendix. It turned out that my stomach issues were due to the antibiotics that I am on. I am still on the antibiotics because they are the best ones to be on to get rid of the weird ass mouth infection I have. The doctors still think I should still take the antibiotics till I see my doctor or when they run out.

Now on to a different subject. I stayed the night with my grandpa. I am still at his house. He is making waffles for breakfast. Spending time with my grandpa helps the both of us.

I think I am going to look for jobs and apply for them as I am getting really bored with the routine that I have now. I miss working and hope that some day soon that I can go back to work. Working does me good.

Another thing I will be doing is reading other people blogs and update myself on what others are doing in their lives. I haven’t done that in a long while. Reading other peoples blogs brings me hope.

Thank you for reading my blog. I hope to blog again later. Have a great Sunday everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Been A Long Day

Good Evening, World!!! As many of you know I have had a long day. It didn’t really turn out as planned but that is okay for me. It started when I saw my doctor this morning to look at my weird ass mouth infection. She gave me some more antibiotics.  We also discussed how long I have been seeing her and her concern that I could be over using the hospital’s which is valid. So I’ll be seeing her every two weeks just for checks about physical health stuff and if needed mental health stuff as well. Which I am okay with.

I then saw my trusty therapist who is trying his best to gain my trust and it is slightly working. We discussed ways on how I can change certain behaviors and how he can help me with that. He now wants to see me twice a week to help me with my behaviors and help me not use the Emergency Rooms as much for both physical and mental health reasons.

Plans changed when my grandpa picked me up to go to Red Robin. We decided that he would take me to a walk in dental clinic and get a comprehensive dental check up. He paid for it. Looks like that I will need to get all my teeth pulled and get a full set of dentures which is not surprising for me. So next week, I am going to the DSHS office to get some paper work straightened out as it appears I am loosing some things due to a computer and/or human error. So hopefully, I’ll be able to get back on medicaid so I can get my teeth fixed.

My grandpa and I did go out to eat to IHOP but it surely was no Red Robin. Hopefully, we can go to Red Robin soon. I love Red Robin. I think we might go to Red Robin on Sunday.

As far as getting an interview with a potential employer, I am still waiting to hear back. I think it is ridiculous that they haven’t even set one up with me yet when I informed them that the time they gave me I was unable to do so due other obligations. I gave them dates and times when I was available next week and the person said they would get back to me by the end of Friday which is today.

Thank you again for reading my blog as I ramble on about different shit. Have a good rest of your Friday and I hope you enjoy your weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Playing The Waiting Game

Good Morning, again, World!!! I sit here at my laptop in the waiting room of my doctors office. So the waiting game begins. I highly dislike going to the doctors but it is so much better than having to go to the hospital. I really dislike playing the waiting game but that is why I decided to bring my laptop with me so I can keep myself entertained somehow.

As I play the waiting game the theme of money keep coming up due to the advertisements I have on my blog. Every time someone clicks on an ad, I get a few cents. Yes, few cents isn’t all that much but it all adds up.

Another thing, I brought with me today as I play the waiting game is I brought my comic books. Actually, I brought my Wonder Woman comic books as Wonder Woman is my favorite superhero.

I just hope that my doctor gives me stronger antibiotics to help get rid of this weird ass mouth infection that I have. I’m hopeful yet extremely doubtful that I’ll get some stronger pain meds. I’m doubtful due to the fact that I have a family history of drug abuse and I don’t want to get addicted. Plus I don’t need another issue on top of the issues I already have. All I want is for the infection to go away because when it goes away then so does the annoying ass pain. I really dislike waiting with a passion and I hope that my doctor isn’t running late.

I am a big proponent of starting and ending things on time. I say this because people have lives to live. That means in their lives that they have other obligations to attend to. Like for me, I have to rush to go see my therapist.

I should get going as it is almost time for my appointment and want to make sure I am ready when they call out my name. Thank you for reading. You all are awesome. Happy Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

Yet, Another Post About Randomness Shit

Good Evening, World!!! I have more randomness to discuss. Let’s talk about the government. They, specifically, Department of Social and Health Services (DSHS) are cutting off paying for my medicare premiums which I think is a mistake on their part. Then my spend down went from two hundred to four thousand dollars. How can one afford health care with out the help of DSHS. I don’t qualify for certain insurance because I have Medicare but I can afford the premiums for Medicare. How am I suppose to get health care now? No sense in worrying about it now. I’ll call them tomorrow when I have time.  Oh ya, I lost my food stamps all together now because DSHS thinks I make double of what I make now which I think is a computer glitch on their end which is why I am going to call them tomorrow.

On that note, I am still playing email tag about setting up a time next week for a job interview. A job that I really want to get and have. It is only one to two shifts a week and each shift is twelve hours. It is an over night shift but I am okay with it. I just hope I really get the interview soon and the job as quickly as possible.

I’m wondering if the universe and it’s gods and goddesses are putting me through this to make me a stronger person. A person to be a much better advocate not just for myself but for others. An advocate for those who can’t speak up for themselves or haven’t had a chance to find their voice yet.  I hope and pray to the universe full of Goddesses and Gods that I become what I want to become, a voice for those who haven’t found theirs yet. It is also my hope that I find the job that is meant for me

Thank for reading more of my randomness shit. I hope you all aren’t getting sick of it. I surely am getting sick of it. On the plus side its getting people to read my blog and have had a hand full of people follow my blog today.

I know things will work out for me. They always do even if it’s not as quick as I would like it to be. I am slowly learning patience in my recovery. Thank you all for being apart of my recovery.

Thank you so much for reading. It means a great deal to me and I am appreciative of it. Peace Out, World!!!

More Randomness With Some Oddities

Good Afternoon, World!!! It appears that I find myself at wits end with a bunch of randomness things to share with all of you. I have no clue why I am full of random stuff to share with you today but I do.

Let’s start with me getting an interview for a volunteer job at the Seattle Art Museum (SAM). I am of course going to dress up in interview attire to make a good impression even though it is just for a volunteer position. I know it is just a volunteer job but I hope I get it as it will help me learn more about the arts as well as make me more of a well rounded person. Plus, it will look good on the resume’ as well.

As far as trying to get an interview for an actual paying job, that appears to be more challenging at the moment as I was informed that they would get back to me sometime today with an interview time. I know with job interviews that there always seems to be at least two if not three interviewers in the room and trying to get everyone’s schedule to get into sync with each others is difficult to do.  I just hope they get back to me today however it seems pretty unlikely at the moment even though its not even two forty-five in the afternoon yet.

I haven’t been watching much television as of lately. Actually, I have watched any at all today. I am not sure why. Maybe because there is usually nothing good on television to begin with. I haven’t even watched any movies or anything on HULU or Neflix. Maybe I am just enjoying the quite.

My mouth infection is still causing me some major pain. Thankfully, I see my doctor tomorrow morning. Hopefully, she will give me so stronger antibiotics for the infection. I am also hope she could give me something stronger than ibuprofen but it’s the stronger antibiotics that would be most helpful to me.

Thank you for reading yet another post on nothing but randomness. It appears that my post today have been quite random in nature. Again, thank you for reading. I hope you have great Thursday. Peace Out, World!!!

More Randomness From A Tired Person

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am still tired as hell due to the lack of sleep last night. The insomnia isn’t what kept me up last night though it play a small roll in the lack of sleep. Part of the reason I didn’t sleep last night was because some idiot of a neighbor kept pulling the pull stations on every floor to set off the fire alarm. Needless to say there were and are a lot of angry people and scared pets in the building right now.

I am looking forward to spending time with my grandpa later this afternoon. I am treating him to my favorite restaurant, Red Robin. I always get great food as well as great service when I go there.  My grandpa likes it there as well however it can be too loud for him to hear anybody.

I am still playing email tag with a future employer about a job. Actually, more like finding a time for a job interview. I hope to hear back from her sometime today. I really want this job as I will be working with the homeless once again and the best part I would be working within the age group I want to work with. That is young adults. Cross your fingers that I not only get the interview as it sounds like I will but cross them fingers that I get the job as well.

Something I did yesterday was apply for two volunteer positions. One with the Seattle Art Museum (SAM) and the other at Benaroya Hall, the home of the Seattle Symphony. These are some things that I am interested in. Plus it looks good on a resume’. It shows employer that that I have many interest in the community. The local community at that. Having the arts and music on my resume’ will show future employers that I am a well rounded person.

Another thing I am planning on doing that I could put on a resume’ with some discretion is volunteering for candidates that are running for election during this years mid-term elections.   I am already volunteering for two candidates and am excited to help them win the seats they are running for. With volunteering for anything politics putting it on a resume’ is dependent on where and what you’re applying for.

I am still in pain from the stupid mouth infection I am dealing with. That is why I am seeking health care from my doctor tomorrow. Hopefully, she can help with getting rid of the infection. I also hope she can help with the pain management thing as well.

It appears from my end of things that I have be quite long winded as of lately when it comes to my post. I hope you all don’t mind me being long winded. Sometimes I just need to let things out that I may not be able to talk about verbally to others or others might get tired of the randomness of the various topics I bring up.

Thank you so very much for reading my blog. I appreciate that you take the time to read it or even skim over it. I hope everyone has a great Thursday and Peace Out World!!!