Keeping Busy to Stay in a Neutral State of Mind

Hello, World from Seattle. It has been one of them days where trying to be in a neutral state of mind has been challenging. It has been challenging due to some negative shit, I have experienced the last few weeks. Yes, I would prefer to be in a good state of mind however I will and am more than okay to be in a neutral state of mind.

I started off the day cuddling with my cat Billie. In fact that appears to be an everyday thing. An everyday thing I don’t mind especially since it is how I start my day. I am more than sure that Billie enjoys starting his day cuddling with me.

After cuddling with my cat, Billie, I worked on a Mindfulness workbook. As I was working on the mindfulness workbook, I realized that my morning cuddles or any cuddles with Billie is mindfulness. So, I guess I do mindfulness everyday as I cuddle with Billie. Even though I do mindfulness daily, I am still going to work on the mindfulness workbook daily till it is finished.

I, of course did all that before getting ready and going to volunteer at PAWS Cat City. I really enjoy volunteering at Cat City. In fact it is one of the highlights of my week. Even though I have my own cat, I enjoy spending time with the cats at Cat City. In fact I enjoy spending time with the kittens and the senior cats. On that note, spending time with the kittens reminds me why I prefer the adult and senior cats especially to have one as a family member.

When I arrived home after volunteering I had packages at my door from Amazon. One of which was For Dummies book for basic math and pre-algerbra. So, I worked on for about a half an hour and the next half an hour I worked on my other For Dummies book which is on U.S History. I’m still waiting on two more educational Books for Dummies. I am doing the For Dummies books because I have forgotten most of what I learned or I never learned it in school.

After “educating myself,” I decided to be creative. First I did some art work. The art I am doing is coloring a poster for my mom. After coloring, I decided to do some crafting by doing latch hook. I am really enjoying doing the latch hook. I am currently doing a latch hook with a cat on it and it is to wipe your feet with before entering your home. I am not sure what I’m going to do with it when I am done with it.

Well, I’m looking at the time and it is time for dinner. That means it is time to end this particular blog post and go eat. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. That is why it is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. Again, thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Frustrated w/Noisy & Aggressive Neighbors

Hello, World!!!! I’m frustrated with my neighbors. Actually, I am furious with one particular neighbor who started some shit with another neighbor for no reason. I finally got to bed and sleep at a decent time when I got woken up by a neighbor screaming for help. A disabled neighbor started beating my other neighbor with a crutch for no reason at all. When I heard the screaming I opened my door and looked into the hallway and witnessed what was going on. When I noticed my neighbor being hit by another neighbor and their crutch, I called 911 and I was not the only one who did. My neighbor who was injured went to the hospital. The other neighbor doing the violence got arrested and screamed the entire time.

On that note I’m not sure if I can go back to sleep at the moment. I just don’t know which neighbors to trust now but at least I know which neighbors are my friends. The neighbor who got attacked is a friend. The neighbor who did the attack will no longer be trustworthy and will no longer be a friend of mine.

Since I’m not sure if I’m going to go back to sleep anytime soon, I will seek comfort from my cat, Billie. Billie is really great at comforting me in hard moments. I’m so happy to have a pet to comfort me and keep me company.

Since I am not sure if I will be able to go to sleep right away, I will be applying for jobs. Even jobs I may not want but I need the money to help pay for bills. I’m running low on money. But that’s enough about this topic.

I’m thinking I might do something creative. Not sure if I will color, latch hook or cross stitch. All three get me relaxed. I most likely will either color a cross stitch.

I don’t have much more to say but thank you for reading my post. Peace Out and Good Night, World!!!

Struggling & Making an Effort to Feel Better Emotionally

Good Afternoon, World!!! I’ve been struggling with PTSD and Depression the last couple of weeks. Partly because I lost my new job and mainly due to some traumatic events in my life that don’t count losing a job. I’ve been applying for new jobs because I need the money to pay the bills even though I know of resources I can go to to help.

I’ve been applying to jobs in fast food even thought I don’t want to work fast food or retail but I need the money to pay the bills. I would rather work as a peer specialist or in the human service feild but right now a job is job and I can’t be too picky right so I can pay bills.

Things that I plan on doing are DBT skills and new hobbies like Latch hooking or attempting to teach myself. I also plan on doing some art by coloring and reading some books. And of course reading some books. I also have a twenty minute check in via phone with my therapist later today. Last but not least doing art work with coloring and spending time with my cat Billie.

I don’t have much more to say. I do want to thank you for reading my blog and hope I’m not boring anyone of you. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

My Go to Wellness Tools When Things are Either Going Well or Not so Well & Sometimes in the Middle

Hello, World!!! Things haven’t had been very good lately but I’m handling them okay. I lost my new job because I wasn’t the right fit and I agree. It turned out to a be mutual agreement and “considered a lay off.” This lay off I’m okay with. The first lay off I wasn’t okay with it due to the fact of how it was handled.

I am putting in applications and going to interviews in the career of my choice as a peer specialist. I have also been applying to old employers I tolerated even the ones that were overnight or twelve plus hours long. Having a job helps me a great deal.

Even though things may not be going so well my cat, Billie has been a huge help. Hell, he is a huge help when things are both going well and not so well. Having an animal around had been quite helpful for me.

Another thing I have found helpful in both the good times and not so good times is volunteering. Volunteering at an animal shelter has been and continues to be quite rewarding. Helping cats find their furrever homes and people a new family member in a cat is one of the best feelings in the world.

Something I have started to do is to start doing math. Specifically, basic math and pre-algerbra. I’m doing this to help me if I get too emotional as well as to keep my math skills up. Having basic math skills is something every adult should have.

Another thing I am taking up is latch hook. I figure taking up a hobby latch hook would be helpful when thing aren’t going so well and even when they are going well.

Of course I’ll still be doing art. Specifically coloring. I am coloring a poster for my mom. She likes that type of thing. She is dealing with cancer and the treatment that goes along with it. Plus her birthday is tomorrow.

I don’t have much more to talk about. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Unemployment Sucks; Family & Friends Rock

Good Afternoon, World!!! It’s evening time here in Seattle and I am feeling a little depressed while dealing with some PTSD. I have been sleeping off and on all day due to the depression and PTSD. Personally, I think being unemployed is was is helping the depression a little bit. I really need a job to help keep myself busy which help with the symptoms of my mental health diagnosis.

On the plus side when I haven’t been sleeping most of the day family and friends have been checking up on me. Some of my friends and neighbors have been feeding me. My grandpa gave me money to buy some art and crafting supplies to keep myself busy and hopefully awake during the day. So, I got some coloring stuff like colored pencils and markers as well as some of those giant and detailed coloring posters. I also got some crafting stuff as well. I got some latch hook crafting. I’ve never done latch hook so I want to try something knew and who knows I might have some done before the holidays to give as gift. Of course 98% of the latch hook stuff I’m get to make happen to be cats which isn’t surprising since I own a cat. Actually, I feel like my cat is more like a family member that me owning him.

As far as the unemployment part of life they are being challenging right now. I am on the job hunt and applying for jobs and getting interviews. It’s just the waiting game on hearing back if I’m going to get an interview or a job. Patience is not my virture.

I don’t have much else to say except my cat Billie is wanting to sit on my lap and my laptop is getting in his way. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So , thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Clean apartment (if my concussion is up to it)
  • Do Math
  • Do a recovery workbook
  • Color picture for mom

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Clean apartment as physical ailments allow
  • Do math
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Just enjoy the day with my cat Billie (especially when he wants attention)
  • Color picture for mom

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Wait for the phone person to fix my land line phone
  • Hang out with my cat Billie
  • Recovery workbooks
  • Apply for jobs
  • Color picture for mom

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Recovery workbooks
  • Job interview
  • Math
  • Apply for jobs
  • Color picture for mom

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Time with Billie (before scary doctors appointments for me)
  • Doctors appointment
  • Recovery workbooks
  • Math
  • Color picture for mom

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Vet check up for Billie’s dental work
  • Recovery Workbooks
  • Apply for jobs
  • Math
  • Watch Movies
  • Wish mom happy birthday

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Color picture for mom
  • Recovery Workbooks
  • Math

Another Day of Sleep & Night of Insomnia

Hello, World!!! It is extremely early on the morning of Sunday, September 4, 2022; here in Seattle. I’m unable to sleep for the second night in a row. Primarily due to sleeping during the day. Not the brightest thing to do especially since I volunteer later on this morning.

Despite being just after two in the morning two in the morning, I feel like I have accomplished a lot tonight. First and fore most I listened to a podcast about philosophy as I colored picture for my mom so I can sure her up. My mom is dealing with stage three lung cancer and hope my colored picture cheers her up. As I colored the picture, I mentioned I’ve listened to a podcast philosophy. The podcast I listened to the philosophy podcast Philosophize This. I highly recommend listening to Philosophize This.

Another thing, I have done was a Basic Math and Pre-Algebra book. I’m doing this because I want to for the hell of it. Plus, if ever get the luxury of going to college, it will put me in a higher math class. But the honest reality is I just want to learn more even if I don’t even attend college. Kind of like me listening to Philosophize this except philosophy is my interesting.

I guess it is now time to play with my precious and playful cat, Billie. I love my Billie so much. He has always be there for me emotionally but the last couple of weeks he has been there for me a little bit more extra. I love my cat so much.

Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, once again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Even though it’s just after two in the morning on a Sunday morning, I hope everyone has a great Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

The Woes of Billie my Cat & Myself; Yes, Things are Getting Better w/the Two of Us

Hello, World! It is just after twelve noon in the afternoon here in my corner of the world known as Seattle. A lot has happened over the last couple of weeks. Lot of job interviews and doctors appointments.I’m going to get better health wise.

In fact my cat has had some health issues besides the kidney stuff. He has some dental stuff done and one is’t healing correctly so as a precautionary measure they are giving Billie my cat antibiotics. Billie appears to be fine most of the time. Well except when he has to take his antibiotics. I don’t blame as they probably taste yucky to him.

As far as me I’ve sexually assaulted last weekend by a neighbor and few days later physically assaulted by the same neighbor. The police are “looking into it.”

I the mean time I have been feeling out job applications and attending job interviews. Some I know I won’t get while others I have a good chance. Wish me luck with getting a job sooner than later.

I’ve also be doing art work for my mom which i hope she enjoys.

I don’t have much more to say except thank you for reading.

Up Before the Butt Crack of Dawn

Good Sunday Morning, World from Seattle, Washington, USA. It is two o seven in the morning as I start this lovely post. I would rather be sleeping soundly like my cat Billie Dean is right now.. In fact he is snoring. Snoring is normal for him.

Lets start why I’m probably up before the but crack of dawn which would be work tomorrow (Monday). I go into my work site for the first time I go into my actual job site and I have anxiety over it. Not sure why but I think it’s because I want to do a good job at what I do and proof my supervisor and myself that I can do the job.

On that note, I will be volunteering at PAWS Cat City later this morning and am proud to say that Boris got adopted Friday morning. If he wasn’t FIV positive and more lovey dovey than my Billie Boy I would have add him to the family.

My other plans to do today is to do a math workbook to freshen up on my math skills. I also plan on doing a mindfulness workbook to help me with being more mindful of the moment and maybe start a mindfulness group at work if it’s the type of recovery work I can do at the Triage center. I’m also going to work on a workbook specifically for mental health recovery.

As part of my self care besides volunteering at PAWS Cat City, I’ll do some art work by coloring. And of course spending time with my cat Billie.

Happy Friday

Good Morning, World!!! I am off from work today yet I woke up at five o’clock in the morning. Wish I could have slept longer but the sleep I got was restful. It’s always a good thing to get restful sleep.

Since I was up so early a neighbor of mine who is a good friend goes out to breakfast every Friday so I asked if I could join him for breakfast. He said yes so we went out to breakfast. I had biscuits and gravy while my friend had was is called the Seattle omelet. It was cool hanging out with this friend.

Since I don’t have anything to do today since I don’t have to work; I signed up for an extra volunteer shift at PAWS Cat City. So I will be volunteering for a few hours today. I love volunteering and seeing cats get their furrever home.

On that note I’ve been doing some art work since waking up as well as after breakfast with a friend. I’ve been coloring the poster for my mom. In fact I plan on coloring after my volunteer job as well. I love doing art work.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you all for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciative from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great weekend ahead. Happy Friday and Peace Out, World!!!