Too Sleepy to do Anything but Self Care

Good Evening, World!!! I’ve been tired and sleepy all day. The only thing I could do today was volunteer at PAWS Cat City which helped with my depression. Of course when i got home from volunteering spent some much needed time with my Billie Dean. Billie is such love bug.

I’m been tired and sleepy all day due to insomnia last night. So I decided to read most of the day with Billie in my lap. I read some science fiction books as well as comic books. I think the reading and cuddling with my cat, Billie helped a great deal with the sleepiness and depression.

Sometimes time just lay back cuddling with my cat and reading helps with my depression.. Depression sucks shit. At least self care is helping the depression a little bit. It’s not eve eight forty five in the evening here is Seattle and I am reading for bed.

Thank you reading my blog. I hope you all have a good night sleep. Good Night and Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Volunteer a PAW Cat City
  • Read Comic Books

Monday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Attend a Training via Zoom  on De-escalation
  • Spend tie with Billie
  • Pick up grandpa from airport from honor flight

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Read Comic Books
  • Work
  • Spend time with Billie, my cat

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Work
  • Spend time with my cat Billie while reading comic books

Thursday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Work
  • Spend time with cat Billie while reading Comic Books

Friday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Work
  • Spend time with my cat Billie while reading comic books

Saturday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk
  • Read Comic Books while cuddling with my cat Billie

A Tiring Day Yet A Blessed Day

Today is Sunday and I have not forgot that today is a religious for both the Jewish faith and the Christian faith. It is Passover for those of the Jewish faith and is Easter for those of the Christian faith. I just wanted to acknowledge both faiths and hope they enjoy their perspective religious activities.

If with the lack of sleep due to insomnia, I do my regular shift at PAWS Cat City as well as an extra as well. I am hoping with the lack of sleep and two shifts at PAWS Cat City that I get a good night sleep tonight.

I also hope to spend time reading comic books while cuddling with my cat Billie Dean. I love my cat Billie so very much and I know he loves me.

Not it’s time to try to sleep. Happy Sunday everyone and Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Cuddle time with Billie Dean, my cat
  • Reading

Monday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk Billie (my cat) around apartment building
  • Work
  • Reading

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk Billie (my cat) around apartment building
  • Therapy
  • Work
  • Reading

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Cuddle time with Billie, my cat
  • Work
  • Reading

Thursday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Cuddle time with Billie my cat
  • Work
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Reading

Friday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Cuddle time with Billie my cat
  • Work
  • Reading

Saturday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk Billing my cat around apartment building and cuddle tie
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Reading while cuddling with Billie my cat

Still Sleepless in Seattle

Good Morning, again, World!!! I am still sleepless in Seattle. Apartment is still cold despite the heat being on full blast but at least its slight warmer than my last post. Despite the lack of sleep, I till plan on volunteering at PAWS Cat City at 9:00am in the morning, Seattle time. I love volunteering especially at PAWS Cats City. I do have say my cat Billie Dean is a wee bit jealous when I get home from volunteering but quickly goes away when he gets treats, cat nip, extra wet food and some play time. Billie is one spoiled cat. I love him so much. Billie and I seem to be going be be reading Wonder Woman Comic Books till I go volunteer. Both of of us seem to be homebodies lately which is good thing.

Well, I guess it’s back to reading Wonder Woman comic books. I have a lot of them plus collectable of Wonder Woman stuff. I hope to talk to you later. Have a Sunday everyone. Peace Out World!!!

Semi-Woe Is Me Moment

Hello World!!!I went to my volunteer job at PAWS Cat City like I do every Sunday. I had me a great time. I love spending time with kitties waiting for their furrever home.

On that note I got to my floor where one of my neighbors started raising her voice at me. I ignored her and passed by her so I can get to my apartment. Of course I’m greeted my by cat who escaped into the hall way and this neighbor who already yelled at me, started screaming on my cat and myself. I’ve never seen cat so scared and run back to the apartment. It took all my might to not interact with this neighbor.

I spent some time with Billie Dean to calm him down which calmed me down. Which was helpful for the both of us. I went down to the community room to get a soda not know this neighbor has going to be down there doing a puzzle. She screamed at me an called me names that I won’t mention here because I found them offence of and don’t want to offend anyone else. I got my soda and listened to her and I left the community room crying. I did not say anything to her except “I hope you have a good Sunday” and left the community room and came to my apartment. Spent some more time with a Billie Dean my cat which helped.

I then reached out to a neighbor who is a friend so I could get a good reality check and a hug. We talked about twenty minutes and I felt better. The conversation I had with the neighbor I am friends with pointed out that I wouldn’t have taken all this so hard due to my work situation and being laid off with an unknown lay of date. He said “I would be having a woe is me moment if I were in your situation. The only difference is that yours is a semi woe is me moment which is goo for you.” He also suggested the I try to be friends with some of my neighbors which is true.

I do not have much more to say. I just want to say thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing it. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Depression & Anxiety Suck Sh*t

Hello, World!!! It is another Sunday afternoon here in Seattle. Thankfully, it is a Sunday of a three day weekend because tomorrow (Monday) is Presidents Day here in the United States. Not sure why we have a Presidents Day but I’m grateful that I don’t have to work and get paid for doing nothing. I would rather be working tomorrow but I have the day off.

Part of the reason why I want to work because both my depression and anxiety are acting up at the moment. I wish they were not acting up especially at the same time which sucks sh*t.

In fact volunteering at PAWS Cat City this morning helped both the depression and anxiety. I love volunteering and being able to help cats find their furrever home. Today, we only had three cats. One was on hold, one isn’t ready for adoption and the other is adoptable and not on hold. Lets hope the two adoptable cats get adopted today.

On that note, Billie Dean, my cat has been quite helpful for both the anxiety and depression. He love getting attention no matter if my symptoms are acting up or not but he seeks it out more when my mental health symptoms are acting up. I am grateful that he knows when I need the attention from him when he ask for more attention than he usually wants which he loves.

I do not have anything else to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. I appreciate you the reader, reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Clean my apartment with the help of my grandpa and uncle
  • Dinner with my grandpa and uncle

Monday

  • Sleep in as it’s a holiday in the States
  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk
  • Continue to clean apartment (this time without the help of family)
  • Dinner with some neighbors who have become good friends
  • Read a book (most likely my cat Billie will be on my lap when I do this)

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk
  • Therapy
  • Work from the office from twelve o’clock in the afternoon to eight in the evening.
  • Arrive home and give my cat the much needed attention he want since I was at work all day

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk
  • Work from home
  • Take Billie to play with neighbors who I am having dinner with the neighbors I am good friends with.

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk
  • Work from home
  • Walk Billie around common area’s of the apartment build. (He is afraid of the outside even on a leach and harness.

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk
  • Work from the office
  • Arrive home and give Billie much needed attention since I was working in the office.
  • Read with Billie sleeping in my lap.

Saturday

  • Sleep in
  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk
  • Be lazy the entire day

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! It is that time in the evening where I do my weekly check-in. It has been an up and down week for me. Sunday I volunteered a Paws Cat City and had a great time volunteering like I always do.

Monday, I took off because it was Valentines Day which is really difficult for me because my grandma died four years ago and Valentines Day. I didn’t know if I was going to be a hot mess or not so I took the day off from work. Valentines Day landed on a day I work from twelve noon to eight o’clock in the evening. I did pretty good till about six o’clock when the grief hit me like Tsunami. Besides being hit my a Tsunami of grief at six o’clock in the evening, I had a pretty good day. I went on brunch “date” with my grandpa at IHOP. We had an awesome time eating great food and remembering the good times with my grandma before she passed away four years ago.

Despite spending some good times with my grandpa as we remembered my grandma, I had a of friend call me to check in on me. I really think the support my grandpa and I gave each other as well as the support my friends gave me really helped with the grief. Of course my cat Billie Dean helped a great deal with help with the grief of my grandma especially when I became a hot mess with tears rolling done my face for about an hour.

As for work goes it went well. I really love my job. My colleagues are beyond awesome. All three of peers support specialist including myself got some add work to do which I think is awesome as it will ultimately help the clients we serve. I really love my job and the freedom they give use peers and how the supervisors don’t micromanage us peers.

I don’t have much more to say in the particular blog post. I do want to thank your for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you so much from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Go for daily walk
  • Volunteer at Paws Cat City
  • Work on a workbooks for my recovery

Monday

  • It’s Valentines Day. A day I never really liked since I was a a kid because I never understood why we needed a “special day to say I love you” to those you love and care about.
  • Taking Valentines Day off for self care because today marks four years since my grandma passed away due to complications of Parkinson’s.
  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Go for daily walk
  • Take my Grandpa out on a Valentines Day date for brunch to help with the grief of the anniversary of my grandma’s death.
  • Spend some extra cuddle time with my cat Billie to deal with the grief of the anniversary of my grandma’s death on Valentines Day

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Daily walk
  • Therapy
  • Work
  • Work on a workbook for my recovery

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Daily walk
  • Work
  • Work on workbook for my recovery

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Daily walk
  • Work
  • Work on workbook for my recovery

Friday

  • Mindfulness mediation practice
  • Daily walk
  • Work
  • Work on workbook for my recover
  • Dinner with family

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Daily walk
  • Lunch and shopping with grandpa