A Look into My Shit Hole of a Brain

Good Evening, World!!! I am not in a good space to be writing this post but just want to let you that my brain is being a shithole right now. My brain is just going all of the place. Part of me wonders if taking a client to their dental appointment yesterday played apart in this but I am doing the best I can.

My brain is causing me some imposter syndrome and have mixed emotions around this. I feel like I am an imposter even though I am not the only that deals with this. My cat helps me keep my imposter syndrome in check.

After getting off work I have been doing some art. Specifically, I have been coloring. Coloring a book a friend of mine who is also a neighbor. My friend gave me a the perfect coloring book. While I coloring, I am listening to the podcast Philosophize This. I really get an education from this podcast. An education I never got in high school.

So that is that shit that is going on in my mind at moment. I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Mostly Lazy Sunday

Hello, World!!! It is 9:14pm here in Seattle. The weather in Seattle has made today a mostly lazy Sunday. I say mostly because I did volunteer at PAWS Cat City this morning. I love volunteering and enjoy being able to help people find new family members with adopting a cat.

Speaking of cats, I spent most of the day with my own cat, Billie Dean. Billie and I enjoyed our Sunday being lazy while enjoying ourselves doing a handful of things which included watching football, listening to a philosophy podcast called Philosophize This and doing mindfulness.

I spent some of my day focusing on mindfulness. I did this by doing a mindfulness practice with the Calm app. I also focused on mindfulness by doing a mindfulness journal as well as a mindfulness workbook. I am focusing on mindfulness because I know it helps me a great deal as well as keeps me focused on my recovery.

Besides doing mindfulness stuff, I also listened to a podcast. A podcast about philosophy. The philosophy podcast I have been listening to is Philosophize This. As I mentioned in previous blog post, I really enjoy this podcast and learn a great deal from it.

Another thing I did today was watch Sunday Night Football. I watched the 49ers play the Packers. The last half the game was great but sadly the 49ers lost. I am a 49er fan living in Seattle which means I live in enemy territory even though I am also a Seahawk fan. I wish the 49ers would have won but sadly they did not.

I do not have anything else to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Happy Caturday

Happy Caturday, World!!! I am spending today at home with my cat, Billie Dean. I was suppose to volunteer later this afternoon however due to unexpected events, Cat City is closing early today. Don’t worry everything is okay and cats are still being adopted.

Anyway, I am sitting here in my chair with Billie laying on armrest as I write this blog post and listening to a podcast. A podcast about philosophy. The philosophy podcast I am listening to is Philosophize This. I really enjoy this podcast. I recommend listening to it. I’ve learned a great deal from Philosophize This and continue to learn a lot as I am listening to it again all the way through from the beginning.

I am looking for other podcast to listen to. I am hoping to listen to podcast about mental health, philosophy, recovery, and mindfulness. Hell, I am looking for a podcast where I can learn something and/or be a better person. If you have any suggestions on what podcast to listen to, don’t hesitate to comment the podcast you recommend.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

The Never Ending Day

Good Evening, World!!! Today feels like the never ending day. It feels like a never ending day because it is going by so slowly. I have no clue why it feels like it is going so slowly but at least it’s been a relatively good day.

This week at work some folks were changed to different days to do crisis coverage. I was one of those folks and am now assigned to do crisis coverage during business hours on Thursdays. So today was first Thursday, I did crisis coverage. All the folks on Thursdays are great people but not as interactive as the Friday crisis coverage folks. On that note, when I found out I was being switched to Thursdays, I asked if I could continue to do Fridays crisis coverage and was told yes just as long I do Thursdays. That’s fine with me because I love working with folks in crisis. I was informed that I cannot do more than two days of crisis coverage and I am okay with that.

Thankfully, I am currently off work. I am listening to a podcast about philosophy. Actually, the philosophy podcast I am currently listening to is Philosophize This. I love this podcast for many reasons and I learn a great deal from it. I wish I learned philosophy when I was in high school but sadly that was not an option from the high school I graduated from.

As I sit here blogging and listening to Philosophize This, my cat, Billie Dean, is laying next to me purring. I love the fact that Billie is content with laying next me as I sit blogging and listening to a podcast. Billie is such a love bug of a cat. I love the unconditional love the my cat, Billie gives me. I love my cat so very much.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reading I would not be blogging. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Rambling

Good Morning, World!!! It’s 2:01 in morning in my corner of the world which is Seattle, Washington. I am sadly not able to sleep and hope I can get some form of rest or preferably sleep. I wanting sleep so I am not a cranky bucket at work. Being a cranky bucket is not fun especially when you have to work. I hope I can get some sleep so I can be the best person I can be when I am at work.

Anyway I have been cuddling with my cat, Billie Dean which helps with relaxing enough to at least help with falling asleep. While cuddling with Billie, my cat, I have been listening to a podcast on philosophy. Specifically, I am listening to Philosophize This. Philosophize This is a great podcast and trying to get to the most recent podcast but I have a long way to go. I am okay with that as it will help have some structure in my life that is enjoyable for me especially since I am learning something everyday from Philosophize This. So, my cat and the podcast will be helping me get some rest tonight.

I don’t have any more to talk about this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If you wasn’t for you reader I wouldn’t be writer my blog. Thanks from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!!

A Sleepless in Seattle Type of Night

Good Morning, World!!! I am having a bad spell of insomnia. I think part of it is because I am in pain due to having kidney stones. Kidney stones is not something I would call as fun or enjoyable.

Since I am not able to sleep, I decided to do something that I find fun and enjoyable. That is listening to a podcast with my cat, Billie Dean, laying next to me in my bed. I am listening to a podcast about philosophy. Specifically, I am listening to Philosophize This. I really like this podcast and am almost caught up to the most recent one of it.

I do not have much more to say as I want to get back to listening to Philosophize This as I lay next to my cat, Billie as he purrs. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great rest of your weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Ramblings About Today

Good Evening, World!!! I missed my session with my new therapist on Tuesday and she called me today to do fifteen minute session. Something I wasn’t expecting but I am very much grateful for the time she gave me. Her kindness is awesome. I am a little weary of her being so timid but I will give her a chance as sometimes the timid ones tend to be the best therapist I have had.

I did work from work from home today. I only had three clients today and all were done via phone. The other part of the day was a two hour meeting as well as writing notes. According to the Clinical Director, I “write really good notes.” I am not sure about that but I having to train all the Peer Specialist how to write them when the lead peer comes back from leave. I am not sue how this person will react as I have only be at my new employer for five months. I really do love my job.

As much as I love the work I do, I do need time to take care of myself. So I am spending this evening doing art. The type of art I am doing is coloring. I love coloring as it is quite helpful. I colored as I listened to a podcast about philosophy. The specific podcast I listened to is Philosophize this. I learned a great about philosophy and finished a picture that I am proud of.

Now it is time for me to turn on the music full blast as I clean my bathroom. Doesn’t sound very fun but I enjoy cleaning the bathroom especially since that is where my cats litter box is. I love my cat Billie Dean so much that I clean the bathroom everyday. Billie seems to like it as I play some really good music.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I, do, however, want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Unexpected Change in Plans

Good Morning, World!!! Usually, I am at my volunteer job at this time but sadly there was a water leek last night and caused some damage. So, this morning I helped the staff member on duty load up the cats be taken up to the Lynnwood location of PAWS. We also did as much clean up as possible. Thankfully, the building management will be in today to fix everything so that the cats can go back to PAWS Cat City no later than this Tuesday.

The plans I have today may have slightly changed but that is okay. One of things I will be doing after I finish this blog post is do some artwork. Specifically, I will be coloring. I really do enjoy coloring. When I color it feels like I am healing my inner-child. An inner-child that needs to be reparented by me.

As I color I will be listening to a podcast about philosophy. The specific podcast on philosophy I will be listening to is “Philosophize This.” I am grateful to be able listen to this particular podcast as I feel like I am learning something.

As I color and listen to “Philosophize This,” I will also be doing dreaded laundry. I am not a big fan of doing laundry but it is something that needs be done. Or in the word of my grandma “Laundry is a necessary evil.” I will have to agree with my grandma on this.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great rest of your Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Been A Good Day

Good Evening, World!!! I have had a good day today. Work went better than I thought today as I didn’t get very much sleep last night. I really love my new job and I feel like I am excelling at it. My supervisor is highly “impressed” with my de-escalation skills with clients. I don’t think it’s nothing to be impressed by as I think what I am doing is something everyone can do. Anyway, I am glad I “impressed” my supervisor without even trying.

After work, I decided to turn on a podcast about philosophy. The podcast I listen to about philosophy is “Philosophize This.” I enjoy listening to “Philosophize This” immensely and suggest to you, to listen to it. I realize philosophy isn’t everyone’s cup of tea. The podcaster doing this podcast has a way of drawing me in and I appreciate that.

As I listened to “Philosophize This” I did some artwork. The type of art I did was color. I love to color. Coloring is a type of mindfulness for me as well as a type of meditation. I know it sounds weird that coloring is a mindfulness meditation for me but for some reason it is.

Of course, another form of mindfulness for me is spending time with my cat, Billie Dean. Billie is always a comfort and has a way of bringing me back to reality in a gentle way. I love my cat so very much and don’t know what life would be like without him. Cats are such amazing creatures.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Sleepless in Seattle Type of Night

Good Morning, World!!! It’s been very much a sleepless type of night here in Seattle for me. I am not exactly sure why I am unable to sleep especially after taking my sleep meds. Usually, on nights I can’t figure out why I can sleep, I contribute it to my insomnia. Having insomnia sucks shit.

As sucky as not being able to sleep is, it allows me to do things I enjoy and usually have schedule into my day. One of those things is artwork. Tonight the type of artwork I did was coloring. Coloring is very therapeutic and meditative for me.

As I colored, I listened to a podcast about philosophy. The philosophy podcast I am listening to is “Philosophize This.” “Philosophize This” is a really good podcast and am grateful that I found it on Spotify. I am learning a great deal and am hope to discuss my knowledge with other people.

Something else is that my cat Billie Dean has been by my side and/or on my lap the entire night. Billie even attempted to steal a couple of my colored pencils. Billie is really a good cat and I love him so very much.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me that you read my blog. Peace Out, World!!!