Apparently, Mr. Sandman Forgot to Stop by My Place

Good Saturday, Morning, World!!! It is five zero four (5:04) in the blasted morning here in Seattle area. In fact as I looked out the window it is currently foggy outside. In all honesty, I wish I was able to sleep despite liking fog when I don’t have to be out in it.

As far as my cat, Billie Dean, he is sound asleep. Something I wish I was doing at the moment. Sadly, Mr. Sandman forgot to stop by my place so I could get some sleep. I just would like to sleep a solid eight hours, preferably at night. I am however grateful that Billie, my cat, is still asleep or he would most likely be wanting to play. And as much I as enjoy playing with Billie, I am just way too tired to play with him at the moment which is why I am glad he is sound asleep.

Since I haven’t been able to sleep I have been listening to a podcast about philosophy. Specifically, I am listening to the podcast Philosophize This.” Of course as I listen to this podcast, I am coloring. In fact I am coloring the creepy, morbid Disney Horror coloring book that I ordered off of Amazon. I’m hopingo to show you updates on the pictures I am coloring.

I do not have very much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great Saturday ahead of them. Peace Out, World!!!

Grateful to be Home

Good Morning, World!!! I am back home in Seattle. I got back home from Olympia yesterday. I am so glad to be home. Billie is back home with me as of yesterday evening. My apartment was colder than it was outside when I arrived home. When I got home it was 22degrees Fahrenheit outside and inside my apartment it was 19degrees Fahrenheit. The weather in the Seattle area sucks shite right now. Snow and ice are no fun.

I had a great Christmas with both sides of my family. I just wish I could of seen my brother when I was down in Olympia visiting my mom’s side of the family. My brother is in Oregon visiting his dad for the holidays. Best part of the holidays was that there was barely any family drama.

I’m so happy to be on vacation as I was able to get my Covid-19 vaccine booster shot today. The only responsibility I have till Sunday morning is taking care of Billie. I am so happy can just lay back and do nothing. Not sure what I am going to do the rest of my vacay as I want to see how my body responds to the Covid-19 booster shot.

I do not have much more to talk about in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it weren’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy New Years and Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Been a Great Christmas

Merry Christmas, World!!! It is still Christmas in my corner of the world known as Olympia, Washington. I am currently in Olympia as I spent part of today, Christmas, visiting with my mom and two uncles. My brother sadly was not present as he is visiting his dad today. I missed having my brother around but I’m grateful he is having a fun time with his dad.

Speaking of dads, my dad is visiting my grandpa and my two uncles who live about twenty miles north of Seattle. I spent Christmas Eve with my dad’s side of the family because that when we celebrate Christmas as one of my uncles was born on Christmas. When my uncle was born on Christmas Day, my grandparents made the decision to celebrate Christmas on Christmas Eve and keep Christmas Day a special day for my uncle and just celebrate him as it is his birthday. In fact my uncles and grandpa are taking care of my cat Billie as I am in Olympia.

Going back to today, I had a great time with my mom’s side of the family. We had an awesome dinner and Denny’s. I was also able to walk around Capital Lake this evening with a friend who lives here in Olympia. In fact it started snowing here in Olympia as my friend and I were walking.

Going back to yesterday, Christmas Eve, I had a great time with my dad’s side of the family celebrating Christmas. We had an awesome dinner of lasagna. I know it’s not the “typical” Christmas dinner but it doesn’t matter just as long as I am spending it with my loved ones.

I do not have much more to say in this particular post except that miss my cat and can’t wait to see him when I get home in a couple of days. I would also like to thank you for reading my blog. It is really appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Merry Christmas and Peace Out, World!!!

Second Day of Vacation

Happy Holidays, World!!! It 5:04am in the blessed morning here in Seattle. Billie Dean decided he needed to wake me up at 4:14am in the morning. He woke me up by howling which is unusual. Turns out he was constipated. Thankfully he was able to poop. Then he got his after pooping zoomies for what felt like an eternity. Then Billie decided he wanted to play so I obliged him and played with him. Now he is being extra cuddly so lets hope that I can get a few more hours of sleep so I am not a cranky bucket when I celebrate Christmas today with my dads side of the family. Despite Billie waking me up before the butt crack of dawn I am grateful for the love I have for him and am even more grateful for his unconditional love to me. Now, I am going back to be to see if I can get few more hours of sleep.

I do not have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Holidays and Peace Out World!!!

Mr. Sandman Wants me To Learn & Not Sleep

I am getting a bit frustrated. I can not sleep even if my life depended on it which in a way sleep is a part of being able to to function in daily life. I just really want to sleep and want to sleep now. At least the Seattle rain is soothing me and helping lessening the anxiety that I am dealing with at the moment.

On that note I have been being creative by doing art. Specifically, I have been coloring. Coloring has been quite helpful for me to be able to lessen the anxiety I am dealing with. As I have been coloring, I have been listening to a podcast about philosophy. I feel like listening to “Philosophize This” is giving me an education I never received in school, specifically high school since I never went to college. Being able to be creative by doing art via coloring and listening to a podcast on philosophy is helpful for me to get through a sleepless night.

Of course, Billie Dean, my cat has be quite helpful with keeping the anxiety down. Billie is such a love bug and I love him so very much. I am grateful that he is in my life. I just whish I could sleep. I guess it’s time to cuddle with Billie my cat once again.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom from my heart for reading my blog. Wish me luck that I can get some sleep. Peace Out, World!!!

Another Night Without Sleep With a Bit of Learning & Creativity

It is extremely extremely early in my corner of the world which is Seattle. It is cold for Seattle. Not cold as in snowing or freezing outside. It is just cold as the temperatures are below normal. At least it’s just really bad rain and wind and the temperatures are in the low 40’s.

Anyway, it’s not because of the “cold” weather why I am up at this god awful hour in the middle of the night. I am up in the middle of the night due to insomnia. I think part of the insomnia I am dealing with tonight is because of PTSD shit. Having PTSD and insomnia suck shit especially since I am unable sleep.

So, since I am unable to sleep, I am doing art. Actually the type of art I am doing is coloring. Of course as I am coloring I am listening to a podcast about philosophy. I am using creativity via art by coloring as I learn about philosophy but listening to a podcast. I am listening to Philosophize This.” So, I guess by being creative while doing art, I am able to learn about philosophy.

Of course my cat, Billie Dean is keeping me company by sitting on my lap. Billie is purring up a storm which means he is just happy he is getting attention. Oh shit the fire department is here at my building. Thankfully the fire alarm isn’t going off or at least it is not at the moment. Anyone, Billie is just grateful for the attention I am giving him in the middle of the night.

I do not have much more to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Unable to Sleep & It’s Not the Cats Fault

Good Very Early Morning, World!!! It is seven minutes after two in the morning in my neck of the world in Seattle. Yes, it means it is 2:07 in the morning. I am unable to sleep at the moment it is starting to frustrate the hell out of me. It is frustrating the hell out of me because not only is my anxiety is acting up but by PTSD is acting up as well. In my opinion it is the anxiety and the PTSD that is keeping me up which is helping with the helping the insomnia.

On the plus note, the Seattle rain is quite soothing helping me calm down and be mindful of being in the present. In fact my cat is also helping me be in the present moment. I love the fact how the Seattle rain and my cat help me be in the current present moment.

And of course the other thing that is helping me is right now is is listening to the podcast on philosophy. Specifically, I am listening to “Philosophize This” and am feeling like I am getting a great education about philosophy. I know it seems weird but I feel like I am learning a lot and getting an informal education.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do what to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Friday Eve (aka Thursday) Ramblings

Happy Friday Eve, World!!! Friday Eve is also known at Thursday or at least it is here on the West Coast of the United State of America. I am really glad that it is Thursday and that I took yesterday (Wednesday) off. As much as I love my job, today was a particularly tough day for me emotionally. The topics my clients discussed with me today, triggered some of my own issues which is to be expected from time to time.

As I write this particular blog, I am sitting in my bed with my cat, Billie Dean laying right next to me. He is purring up a storm and nudging my hand so he can be petted. I love my sweet kitty, Billie as is my best friend and gives me unconditional love.

After, I finish this particular blogs, I will be listening to a podcast on philosophy as I do some art by coloring a coloring book with some swear words in it. Actually, the podcast on philosophy I will be listening to is Philosophize This. Listening to this podcast as I do some art work by coloring, helps me learn. I am grateful for what I am learning about philosophy as I create some art work by coloring.

The weather in Seattle is becoming sucky as it is getting windy and the rain will come shortly. Windy here isn’t exactly as windy as the Santa Anna winds in California and definitely not as strong as a tornado or hurricane. So, the Seattle weather is perfection for listening to a podcast on philosophy as I do art work by coloring.

I do not have much more to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Friday Full of Blah’s

Happy Late Friday Evening, World!!! Well, it is still Friday in my neck of the woods that is known as Seattle. In fact, Seattle is now in the yucky season when it comes to weather which means rain. On a good note at least it is not snow. I am not a big fan of snow. Hell, I am not a big fan of the cold that comes with the snow. So, I guess, I am grateful for the typical Seattle weather that is currently happening.

Now that we are off the topic of weather, I didn’t go into work again today. Sadly, my anxiety and depression are still acting up. I wish it wasn’t. Maybe the weather does fit my mood. I wish my mood didn’t fit what the weather is doing outside here in Seattle. Having depression and anxiety acting up at the same time sucks shit. As much as I wish I wasn’t dealing with both anxiety and depression, I am glad I have been doing some self care

The self care I have been doing is listening to a podcast about philosophy. Specifically, the philosophy podcast, I have been listening to is Philosophize This. I really enjoy this podcast. The best part of listening to this podcast is I get to learn about stuff I didn’t learn in school.

As I listen to Philosophize This I color. I color because it is a form of mindfulness for me. It is a mindful meditation for me because it gives me a sense of peace and purpose. It helps me focus on what I need to do.

Another thing that gives me focus isn’t a thing but an animal. Billie Dean, my cat gives me focus. Billie also gives me purpose in my life. He gives me purpose because he depends on me. Billie depends on me by feeding him, cleaning out his litter box and of course playing with him as well as giving him pets and attention.

I not know have much more to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

A Good Night Sleep Will Help

Hello, World!!! I am slightly feeling better than I was three hours ago. There is still a shit load of shit in my head but I continued doing what I was doing and it helped.

Having my cat lay next to be as I colored has been quite helpful. Also, while coloring listening to a podcast about philosophy helped a great deal as well. I feel like I am learning a great deal from Philosophize This. I wish I was able to learn this in high school but sadly I did not learn it.

As far as the coloring goes, I am making some major progress and hope to take a picture of it so I can share it with you. Coloring is a form of mindfulness for me. I know it sounds weird but it is a form mindfulness for me.

Speaking of mindfulness, I need to finish this particular blog post so I can do a mindfulness exercise before going to bed. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a good night all. Peace Out, World!!