Resiliency Making an Appearance

Good Evening, World!!! The last two and half months have been challenging for me and many others due to the unexpected news off my employer closing and being laid off. It has been quite traumatizing for all involved and am beyond grateful for the support I have received from many different people including those, I never expected support from.

If you been reading my blog regularly the last two and half months, you know I’m getting laid off due to my employer closing. Due to Covid-19 I know most of my colleagues via zoom and same goes for the clients I serve. Any way, I am realizing the fact how resilient myself, colleagues and clients are while sharing the same trauma even though we are experiencing it in different ways.

As sucky as the pandemic has been, Zoom has become a love hate relationship. Zoom may has it’s problems but it sure has its ups. Lets start by the best part of Zoom meetings and appointments which is surprise visits from all the pets which includes on my end seeing (and hearing) birds, rabbits, cats, dogs, turtles, snakes, rats and a miniature horse. I think with the seeing all the animals people have as pets has built a rapport with others if the pandemic didn’t happen. I know my cat, Billie, has helped my clients in Zoom appointments. Hell, Billie and my colleagues pets have helped ease a lot of meetings when they (pets) make an appearance in meetings.

Not only have pets including my own cat Billie has helped with my resiliency, music has helped a great deal. The last two and have months my recovery play list has helped a great with the resiliency part of my recovery. My recovery play list appears to be the play list I’ve been listening to the most since I found out I was being laid off. So music helping so much just my cat Billie is.

I don’t have much more to say except that my cat, Billie (and other animals/pets I see in Zoom meetings) and music have been helping me a great deal with being resilient. I also want to thanks you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciative from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Official Date for Lay Off from Work

Good Evening, World!!!! I finally found out when my lay off date is at work and am not sure if I am allowed to share it as I signed some documentation. In all honest with you, I think it’s the other shit that they don’t want out there. Not everyone has the same lay off date but mine is June 3rd of this year. I’m sad I only have a couple of weeks to say goodbye to client but they will be going to place that will be helpful to them. My place employment was a mental health agency the was geared toward the queer community was it’s main focus so Seattle experience a big loss especially since it’s been around for fifty three years.

On that note I’ve have friends and family checking on me that makes me feel loved. Having a good support system is needed when you are in recovery from anything. I truly love my friends and family and that they love and care for me back. My colleagues are in the same category as friends and family.

Speaking of friends and family, Billie Dean, my cat is on my lap as I write this post as I listen to my recovery playlist from Spotify. My cat being near me is surely helping my emotions just like the music is. Music is a go to for me to change my mood around. Billie my cat listening to the music just helps that just much more.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, again thank you from the bottom of my hear for reading my blog. Peace Out, World.

Just One of Them Days

Hello, World!!! It’s been one of them days where I things that went all the wrong directions, actually got everyone off work early. First the president is in town so everyone is working from home. Which is great because I’m dealing with a migraine.

The not so great part of working from home is four out of my five clients cancelled on me and I am finished with my paperwork so my supervisor gave me the rest of the day off with pay due to having a migraine. To make it worse the fire alarm system in my apartment building keeps malfunctioning

Just like planning a good bye party at work in a dysfunctional way, this is how my neighbors get together in a difunctional way. Yes, in a way my dysfunctional family’s are very similar at times, annoying and fun at the same time.

Well, since I get to take the rest of the day off, I get to do some self care. Self care with my cat Billie and listening to music while taking care of my health care of a migraine. Peace Out, World.

A Day of an Unexpected yet Mostly Good Things

Good Afternoon, World, from Seattle. Today has be full of the unexpected with mostly good things. First of all I finally got some much needed sleep and secondly Billie Dean did not use himself has an alarm clock and let e sleep in an extra thirty minutes.

The job is still very uncertain with the lay off thing. On that note I let my supervisor know yesterday I plan on staying but putting out resume’s out there which she understands and will be a great reference for me. I’ve bee letting client know as well because they deserve to know what is going on to the best of my abilities. My colleagues are supporting me in my decision. I really love my job as it is one of two of my dream jobs.

On that note the old HR Director from my current employer sent me some peer jobs that are opened at the moment. The other cool thing the former Vice President of my current employer did the same thing and they don’t work for the same compony anymore.

I’ve been highly focused on work to day by listening to music as I do notes on clients and taking breaks. While taking breaks, I’ve been reading comic books. Both remind me of my childhood and can help me refocus on what I need to focus on.

And lets not forget the love and attention I have been receiving from my beloved cat, Billie Dean. Billie gives me a ton of unconditional love that I don’t even deserve. I love Billie so much and I am so happy to have him in my life. He is an amazing kitty.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing it. It is greatly appreciated from my end that you read my blog. Again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I just want you to remember that my readers of my blog a beyond awesome. Peace Out, World!!!

A Nice Day off of Work

Happy Friday, Night from Seattle. In fact there is only nine minutes left of Friday here in Seattle. I decided to take a PTO (Paid Time Off) day off and I am glad I did. It’s allowed me to take a metal health break from work especially with the board of of directors are wanting to close the agency and the county wanting to keep it open. See very little hope from the county but I a not holding my breath.

Today’s day off was for self care. I spent a lot of time with friend pets and animals which is a good thing because it helped with my mood and helped me hopeful for the day. Of coursed spending the day with my cat Billie Dean aka Billie the Kat. I love having time with pets and animals.

I also spent the day doing artwork while listening to music. I colored and painted as I listened to various genre’s of music. I primarily listened to old school eighties rock. The kind with the big hair. I think it helped a great deal doing art while listening to music.

I also spent time with a family member who helped me with my taxes. We will finish them tomorrow. So I feel like I had an overall good day.

After starting my taxes with my family member, I decided to read. I read most of a book that I started today an will finish the book tomorrow. Looking forward to finishing the book tomorrow.

I don’t have much more to say but thank you for reading my blog. I am grateful for you the reader reading my blog. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 12: Critique a Piece of Work

Good Afternoon, World!!! It is hard for me to critique a piece of work weather it’s art, a piece of music or piece of writing including poetry. I have a hard time critiquing because everyone has a different way to expressing themselves. Not all them will be my cup of tea but I will not critique someone’s peace of art, music or writing including poetry as it is not my place to judge.

Wishing the Depression Would Disappear

Hello, World!!! It is late Friday evening, In fact it is almost on eleven at night on Friday. I went to work today and that went fine and dandy despite the depression and anxiety would go away. I love my job and am grateful for it. I just wish Depression and Anxiety wouldn’t get in the way of my job but at least I am still able to work and do an okay job at it. Of course when I got home from work Billie Dean greeted me at the door which helped with the depression and anxiety

When I got home I spent time doing some art while listening to music. Specifically the type of art work I was doing was coloring. I was doing some coloring of some morbid coloring books while listening to YungBlud and Nirvana. I love doing art while listening to music. As I was coloring and listening to music, Billie of course was trying to “help” me do my art work by coloring.

I do not have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope to start back to Everyday Inspiration course tomorrow (Saturday). I really want to finish the course. Again, thank from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World.

Can’t Sleep & Slightly Depressed

Good Early Morning, World!!! It is a few minutes after two o’clock in the morning here is in Seattle. I am unable to sleep and I am slightly depressed most likely due to the lack of sleep tonight and last night. The lack of helps play into the increase of depression symptoms which sucks shit.

Billie Dean, my cat has been helping my depression a great deal. He has been by my side all day and night with couple of exceptions when he was eating, drinking water or using the litterbox. Having Billie not leave my side has been quite helpful to my depression

Another thing that has been helpful is doing some art work. In fact the type of art work I have been doing is coloring. As I have been coloring, I have going back and forth listening to a podcast on philosophy and music. Coloring while listening to a philosophy podcast or music has helped my depression decrease just like having my cat Billie by my side.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 4: A Story in a Single Image

Hello, World!!! Today’s assignment is to have a story in a single image. Sadly, WordPress gives the same four images which doesn’t help me find inspiration anymore since I have taken this course before. I am choosing to not share the image I am choosing to writer about is for several reasons. One; I am writing under pseudonym which happens to be a nickname I had as a kid. Two; one of the people in the picture I am looking at to writer about has a lifetime restraining order against someone who nearly killed them. Three; I don’t have everyone’s permission to post on my blog which I will respect.

The picture I am looking a picture of a group of friend with me as we are doing a ropes course as part of a team building exercise for band camp. Yes, I went to band camp. I remember this quite vividly as many of my peers didn’t think I had it in me to do the ropes course much less ending up being the leader of it so my friends could complete the course. Hell, I didn’t think I had it in me.

In fact despite never being the best flute player in the band, this ropes course at band camp gave me the confidence I needed to keep practicing my flute. From then on, I was never last chair again. I ended up third to last chair. Still not even close to being first chair but kept me practice to make sure that I didn’t go back to second to last chair or last chair. I tried many times to be fourth to last chair but in all honesty the person in fourth last chair had more talent that I did.

The picture of the ropes course with my friends not only gave me confidence in myself but it gave my peers some much more respect and I also ended up with some self respect because of this. So, the picture or image I told you about is something to write about which is why I got my inspiration from it.

Weekly Check In

Good Evening, World!!! It is another weekend and it’s Saturday. Saturdays are the day I have chosen to do my weekly check ins with you my reader since Saturdays are technically the last day of the week according to most calendars.

I do not have much to check in about this week. Overall, work went well this week. Art group at work went really well and if felt really productive. Or at least more productive this past Monday than in the recent past. I think doing art group is one of my favorite parts of my job. I love my job and being able to help clients where they are at.

On the friend front, I went and hung out with a good friend of mine yesterday (Friday) evening. We went out to dinner. We of course went to our favorite restaurant, Red Robin. I love Red Robin so much that I ended up getting six gift cards for Red Robin for Christmas totaling one hundred fifty dollars. My friends and family know me well when it comes to my favorite restaurant of Red Robin.

As far as family goes is I went to my grandpa’s house today. I did some of my laundry which is nice because I don’t have to pay for it like I do in my apartment building. One of my uncles made some enchilada’s for dinner. Boy was is good. I love spending time with my family. My grandpa also took me to renew my driver license today. We waited nearly three hours which sucked but at least I got to spend time with my grandpa.

Now that I am home for the remainder or the weekend with a couple of exceptions, I am spending some much needed time with my cat Billie Dean. Billie has helped me quite a bit this week when I’ve been home. My PTSD has been acting up and Billie know exactly what to do and he didn’t need any training. When I haven’t been working from home, I’ve been spending time with Billie as well as doing artwork while listening to music very loudly. In fact the artwork I have been doing is coloring. I’ve been coloring to some pretty awesome music. In fact, I’ve listened to MxPx, ACDC, Guns & Roses and Twisted Sister. It’s been one of them weeks where I needed some very loud music.

I do not have much more to say in this particular post. I do, however, want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!