Nothing Like A Nightmare Early On A Monday Morning

Good Morning, World!!! Well, it is Monday morning and people are starting to get up to get ready for their work day. I have been awake since two thirty this morning due to a nightmare and it is now five o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world. Waking up to a nightmare is absolutely no fun. At least my cat did her job and woke me up from the nightmare before it got any worse. Some how she trained herself to wake me up from a nightmare by either licking my nose or licking one of my big toes. Not sure how she trained herself to do that but I am grateful for it.

Since I woke up from a nightmare, I have been reading comic books and listening to music. Specifically, I have been reading Wonder Woman comic books and listening to Christmas music. For some reason reading Wonder Woman comic books and listening to Christmas music has been quite helpful for me the last two and half hours which I am extremely grateful for.

Now that it is five o’clock in the morning, I will be watching the morning news as I haven’t kept up to date on the news via television all weekend. I did however read the newspaper over the weekend. Sometimes staying away from the news is quite helpful for my mental health and this past weekend it was quite helpful as my depression symptoms have been increasing which sucks shit.

I don’t have much more to talk about at the moment. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. I hope everyone has a great start to the work week. I also hope everyone has a great Monday. Peace Out, World!!!

 

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Friday Night At Home In My PJ’s

Happy Friday Evening, World!!! I have been home for a few hours and have decided to spend my Friday evening in my pajama’s spending time with my cat, Lil Gertie. I spent the night at my grandpa’s last night. I got to my grandpa’s yesterday afternoon and didn’t get back home till this afternoon and it feels great to be home. In fact, it is nice to spend time by myself with my cat. My cat has pretty much been sitting on my lap most of the evening which is very relaxing for me.

I have pretty much done absolutely nothing productive. I have taken a shower and clean the kitty litter box but that is as productive as I am getting this evening. I have been listening to Christmas music as I read comic books. I am reading A Superhero’s Christmas volumes one and two. It is a holiday ritual that I do every year even when I am severely depressed as it is one thing I know I can do as a personal tradition. A tradition I have been doing for about eight years now. I read these two comic books multiple times during the holiday season.  The superhero’s are all DC superhero’s in the comic books.

I thing my Friday evening has been quite relaxing. I have a cat on my lap while listening to Christmas music and reading a Superhero’s Christmas volumes one and two from DC comics. How much more relaxing can a night be? I think I might even watch a Christmas movie but not sure yet.

I don’t have much else to say in this post. I hope you all have a relaxing Friday as well as relaxing weekend. Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is very much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Still a Struggle on This Sunday Afternoon

Good Afternoon, once again, World!!! As I mentioned in my last post I was planning on going to both an art store and book store. I did manage to go to both of the stores and bought some things that would be helpful for me in both the good and bad times.

When I got home from the stores, I decided to do some coloring while listening music. It helped temporarily but not enough to make my self harm urges to go away. The urges appear to be getting stronger.

Since they are getting stronger, I decided I would do some mindfulness and meditation practices. They helped slightly but not enough. Doing the mindfulness and meditation practices made me realize that I need to go to the hospital to get evaluated. I most likely won’t end up on in inpatient unit but at least I will be safe for a few hours.

I did call the crisis worker again. You know the one I talked about in an earlier post. So, she said, that going to a hospital is a solid idea however she wants me spend about twenty minutes with my cat. In fact I spent about a half an hour with my cat before I decided to post this.

Now that I am done spending time with my cat and blogging, I’ll be going to the hospital. I will post when I am back from the hospital as I think it is not going to be more than five or six hours if not sooner.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. No need to worry about me. You know I am going to be safe as after I am done with this post, I will be on my way to the hospital. Thank you so much, again for reading my blog. I hope you all have a good rest of your Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

No Sleep In Seattle

Good Morning, World!!! It is just after two o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world. Not my idea of a good way to start off a Monday. This marks two nights in a row where I have not been able to sleep. I wish I wasn’t wide awake.

I received an email earlier today regarding a volunteer job at Benaroya Hall which is the home of the Seattle Symphony. I applied for a volunteer job their and hope that when I have the ‘interview” that I get a position that is best suited to my skill set. Plus, volunteering at Benaroya Hall and for the Seattle Symphony will look good on the resume’. It will show that I have interest outside of the mental health field. Plus, it will give me the structure I so desire and need.

Another thing I will like to bring up is the advertisements on my blog. I know they can be quite annoying however if you click on them, it gives me a little income. Not much but some. So, I ask you my loyal readers and followers to click on an advertisement or two once or twice a week so I can get money. Yes, its only a few cents per click but at least it is something.

I am going to go back to bed and try to get some sleep. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Midnight & I Can’t Sleep

Good Morning, World!!! It is twelve midnight in my corner of the world and I can not sleep. I am not sure why I can not sleep. I highly dislike not being able to sleep. I have a great deal on my mind but I think I can not sleep due to the fact that it is a combination of PTSD and insomnia.

Right now my depression and PTSD are acting up and I am not sure why. I am pretty sure my poor health isn’t helping the symptoms of my mental health challenges. This stupid weird ass mouth infection is just not conducive to what I have planned.

Maybe, I will turn on some music and do some art. Actually, the genre of art I will be doing is coloring. Not sure what genre of music I will be listening to yet but the decision is in the works.

Have goodnight and hope everyone has a good nights sleep. I hope everyone has a good Monday and work week when they get up for work. Thanks for reading. I really do appreciate people reading my blog. Having regular readers is what helps keep this blog going. Peace Out, World!!!

The One AM Blues

Good Morning, World!!! It is one in the morning in my corner of the world. I am dealing with the blues. I am not sure why it is that I am dealing with the blues but I am. So, I have decided to put on some Blues music to help me get out of being in the blues.

Dealing with the blues can lead me to dealing with depression and I don’t want that either. So, here I am listening to blues music while blogging about my boring ole life again.

I just hope one day I can be a success in societies eyes but I know that is an unrealistic wish of mine but one can hope. For me being a success is for me is to be working and me being what I call productive in my own personal life. Maybe I am having woe is me moment.

I just really want to get back to work soon in a career I would love to be in. For me working helps my mental health a great deal.  A job that I can be proud of and not dread to go to everyday. I want a job I love and the pay doesn’t have to be all that much just as long as I am able to pay my bills.

Having the blues sucks. Maybe I should try to get some sleep. Good night everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

 

The Last Shitty Randomness Post For The Night

Good Evening, World!!! It is nine thirty at night in my corner of the world. Not exactly bed time for me yet as I stay up late. Yet, I know many of you are still up right now because it is the middle of the night in your corner of the world and are unable to sleep.

Today’s topics in my post are nothing but randomness that comes to my mind. I know that sounds odd and bit out there but it appears to be working with people at least reading my boring ass blog.

We have discussed many topics here including me getting an interview for a volunteer position at the Seattle Art Museum (SAM). I am looking forward to it and hope I get the volunteer position.

This led into my frustration with a potential employer that said they wanted to set up a time next week to do an interview yet they haven’t gotten back to me. This frustrates the hell out of me because it is a job that I really want.

I discussed a great deal of things in what I am calling my randomness series. We covered a great deal of topics. Topics that I hope will get people interested in reading my blog.

One thing I have discussed many times is the advertisements I have a blog. I have them in hopes that people click on them. If people click on them I make some money. Not much money. Only a few cents worth but its money that adds up. I hope people will do that to help a poor soul like me.

I also discussed me filling out a volunteer application for Benaroya Hall, home of the Seattle Symphony so I could volunteer there as well. I love symphony music. Volunteering with the visual and performing arts always looks good on a resume’.

I guess right now I really want to get an interview with potential employer who reached out to me about times to interview yet has never gotten back to me. I really want this job because it will allow me to volunteer places as well attend my much needed appointments with my therapist.

We did talk about my physical health as well. But we really didn’t discuss much about my mental health. I see my regular doctor tomorrow and then see my therapist afterwards which is a good thing.

Going back to the work thing is if I get this job I would only be working one to two days a week because its an overnight shift at a young adult shelter where homeless individual between 18 to 25ish sleep. They are twelve hour shifts. Only working twelve to twenty four hours a week will allow me to keep volunteering as well attend to my needs regarding both physical and mental health.

I know it is barely nine fifteen at night but I’m calling it a night. I hope everyone has a good nights sleep tonight and Peace Out, World!!!