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Tuesday Morning Waking Up Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! This my first post of the day and it is not the middle of the night. That is because I got a good night’s sleep last night. I am so very happy that I got a good night of sleep last night as I really needed it. A good night of sleep is good for person’s health, both their mental health and physical health.

I do not have anything major planned for today. As of right now the only plans I have is to do math and some artwork. Yes, I did say math. I feel like I need to increase my math skills. I am also planning on doing some artwork. The type of artwork I am planning on doing is color. I am hoping to finish a coloring page of a mandala today. There is something meditative about coloring especially coloring a mandala. I, of course, am planning on having my cat, Billie to be on my lap or next to me I do math and do some coloring. I am so very grateful for my cat, Billie who is such a lap kitty and cuddle bug.

I do not have anything else to discuss or share or to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Good Day & Yet I’m Currently Dissociating

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Good Evening, World!!! It has been a good day for me here in Seattle yet I am currently dissociating which suck shit. I am not really one hundred percent sure why I am dissociating which is scary as hell but I am sure that it is PTSD related. I do know it was a cold foggy day here in Seattle which is probably why my depression symptoms are slightly worse. Like I said I have had a good day and I have been in a really good mood. I will take a good day and a good mood with slightly elevated depression symptoms over a shitty day any day of the week.

Something I realized around the time I got hurt by a neighbor in the summer of 2023 when my dissociation started getting bad again, I color when I am dissociated. It is usually a giant poster or two that are mandala type and/or kaleidoscope type poster. I also color smaller posters that are about eight by ten (or maybe eight by twelve). The smaller posters that I am doing are sort of the similar designs as the giant poster. I only color these particular posters while I have other posters I color and focus on when I am not dissociated. You can tell just by the coloring and the mindset I am in. I think I am going to cuddle with my cat Billie as I do some coloring. My cat is even more of a lap kitty or velcro kitty when I am dissociating. I think my cat Billie does this to make sure I am safe. I love my cat, Billie so very much.

I do not have anything else to write about or to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, than you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Early To be Awake

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Good Morning, World. It is four are seven in the morning Seattle time. I’ve been awake since three thirty three this morning. I really don’t like waking up so early; It fact as I blog, I am listening to Philosophize This. I’m listening to Philosophize This is giving me some education about a subject I am not vrrr familar with;

One of the things i will do is color as I do some art work. Specifically, I plan on coloring. I’m coloring a poster. in fact I am coloring a poster of a mandala. There is something relaxing about doing a mandala.

I don’t have much more to say except coloring while listening to Philosophize This. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. it it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Back In The Emergency Room

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Good Monday Morning, world!!! It is barely after two in the morning in my corner of the world. Hell, it is two oh nine in the freaking morning and I have my stupid laptop with me as I sit in the room of a stupid Emergency Room of a hospital once again. My mouth/cheek infection appears to be getting worse. Actually more swollen a grotesque at time goes on.  The doctors and nurses are trying their damn little hearts out one how to help me.

They like the fact that I brought stuff to do to keep myself occupied such as bringing my laptop to be able to blog and keep you all up to date since I have been failing at that lately. I have brought some art work to do. Mainly coloring stuff. Specifically, mandala’s to color. They seem to help me keep myself at some sort of peace and to lessen the pain that I am dealing with.  I just wish I could have brought my cat, Lil Gertie with me but I know that is against the rules. I do have a good neighbor checking up on her later today if I don’t get out of this stupid hospital.

I hope everyone has a good Monday as well as a good work week. I hope to keep you all updated as time goes one. Talk to you all later. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

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Hello, World!!! It is after ten at night in my neck of the woods and realized that I have done multiple post today but not my usual one of a weekly check in. My week honestly has been a pretty boring one.

I went to art group on Monday. Tuesday, I went to my med management appointment as well as Hearing Voices Group. I also saw my therapist on Tuesday where I gave him a Mandala I colored for him. I informed him that me giving him a piece of art work is a sign of trust. We discussed a specific trauma I had as more of a sign of trust I have in him. I also discussed with him despite the depression and PTSD symptoms I was experiencing that I was checking in with myself regarding having gratitude in my life. My therapist appeared honored that I trusted him with my art work, gratitude in my life and the trauma I shared with him.

I also did a great deal of art work this week. Specifically coloring Mandala’s. I also volunteered three places this week. So I have been keeping myself busy.

The thing I am most proud of is trusting my therapist. Thank you so much for reading. Have a great Saturday night. Peace Out, World!!!