Back Home, For Now

Good Morning, once again, World!!! I am out of the Emergency Room however my regular doctor want me to go to an Urgent Care clinic associated with the doctors office I go to which I plan on doing today. I do have an appointment with my regular doctor this Friday but it feels so far away so my doctor is sending me to an Urgent Clinic to see if they can give me more personalized care. In fact my doctor hopes that the Urgent Care Clinic sends me back to the Emergency Room so I can get admitted for this stupid infection that antibiotics appear to not be as helpful as one would hope they would me.

To tell you the truth, I rather me home spending time with Lil Gertie, my cat. I am sure she misses me as much as I miss her since I have been gone so much for so long as of lately.  My cat has been a great support for me in more ways than one. She has been by my side even when I am puking in the toilet.  She meows out of concern for me when I am puking.

With me not being up to par physically, it is effecting me with my mental health challenges. I do think once I have the physical health gets better so will my mental health symptoms. Or one can hope my mental health symptoms can get better.

I think I should get going so I can get to Urgent Care like my doctor wants me to. I will be taking my laptop with me because who knows what the hell is going to happen. Plus, I will be taking my coloring and art supplies. I can’t forget my trusty phone and headphones for music as music helps me a great deal. I of course will be talking both books and comic books to help me as well. I never know when this stupid illness will put me into the hospital.

Thank you so much for reading. I hope to keep you updated as time allows. I know I will get better in time. Have a wonderful Monday. I hope your work week is as awesome as you all are. Peace Out, World!!!

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Back In The Emergency Room

Good Monday Morning, world!!! It is barely after two in the morning in my corner of the world. Hell, it is two oh nine in the freaking morning and I have my stupid laptop with me as I sit in the room of a stupid Emergency Room of a hospital once again. My mouth/cheek infection appears to be getting worse. Actually more swollen a grotesque at time goes on.  The doctors and nurses are trying their damn little hearts out one how to help me.

They like the fact that I brought stuff to do to keep myself occupied such as bringing my laptop to be able to blog and keep you all up to date since I have been failing at that lately. I have brought some art work to do. Mainly coloring stuff. Specifically, mandala’s to color. They seem to help me keep myself at some sort of peace and to lessen the pain that I am dealing with.  I just wish I could have brought my cat, Lil Gertie with me but I know that is against the rules. I do have a good neighbor checking up on her later today if I don’t get out of this stupid hospital.

I hope everyone has a good Monday as well as a good work week. I hope to keep you all updated as time goes one. Talk to you all later. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Been A Couple of Weeks

Good Morning, World!!! I know it has been a couple of weeks or so since I last posted. I have been struggling quite a bit as of lately. In fact I was in the hospital for a week and got out yesterday (Thursday). I am doing much better that I was when I went into the hospital.

I had a neighbor as well as my grandpa take care of my cat while I was in the hospital. The worst part about being in the hospital was missing my cat. It has been quite nice being home with my cat. My cat hasn’t left my side since I have gotten home which has helped my anxiety a great deal.

I hope to post again soon as I am hungry and am going to eat. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Relapse Update

Good Evening, World!!! I had a good time with my family. As much as I love them, I am grateful to be back home. Back home with Lil Gertie.

To tell you the truth I think I was more grateful to be home on Thursday as I was in the hospital overnight due to a suicide attempt. An attempt that was triggered by PTSD symptoms. I informed a friend of mine who lives in my apartment building. He took me to the hospital and informed my family as well as Junior. My neighbor and Junior took care of Lil Gertie all day Wednesday and most of the day Thursday before I got the all clear to come home. Junior brought me home and I have had friends and family check up on me to make sure I’m okay.

I was more worried about Lil Gertie than me and realize that if I am feeling suicidal again that I will reach out to people who care. People who have care about me for a long time. I know of people who don’t have the support that I do when it comes to helping me when it comes to my mental health challenges. Recovery is all about getting back up on the horse and wiping yourself off when you fall.

The lesson I have learned is that I may not have someone to be available to take care of Lil Gertie. She is dependent on me to take care of her. I can not let my emotions get the better of me as I have Lil Gertie to help me with that as well as needing to take care of her.

Thank you for reading and I am not currently suicidal nor a risk to harm myself in any way. You are all awesome. Peace Out, World!!!

Thursday Afternoon Random Thoughts

Hello, World!!! I am now home from the Emergency Room. As I mentioned in my last post I self harmed and took myself to the Emergency Room. I punched a brick wall out of anger and frustration. I didn’t break any bones.

I am going to be reading one of my books. Not sure which one yet. No, I haven’t finished my Star Wars book but I will finish it soon. I am thinking about reading my Buddhist Scriptures.

I think I am going to go read now. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Sitting In The Emergency Room (ER)

Hello, World!!! I am sitting in the Emergency Room because I self harmed. I am going to be okay. I am just waiting to talk with the social worker. I might have to talk with my therapist on the phone as well.

The social worker just showed up to talk with me. I need to get going. Have a good day. I will blog again later. Peace Out, World

UGH!!! I’m In The Emergency Room (E.R)

Hello, World!!! I am sitting in the Emergency Room (E.R) because one of my neighbors flipped out and punched me in the face. I will be okay. I am just getting checked out as a precaution.

While I wait, I have been listening to music. Music that has been quite helpful. I have also been reading as well. I have been trying to keep busy as I wait as the E.R has been quite busy.

I should get going. I will update you when I get home or some time tomorrow. Thank you so much for reading!! Peace Out, World!!!