Back In The Emergency Room

Good Monday Morning, world!!! It is barely after two in the morning in my corner of the world. Hell, it is two oh nine in the freaking morning and I have my stupid laptop with me as I sit in the room of a stupid Emergency Room of a hospital once again. My mouth/cheek infection appears to be getting worse. Actually more swollen a grotesque at time goes on.  The doctors and nurses are trying their damn little hearts out one how to help me.

They like the fact that I brought stuff to do to keep myself occupied such as bringing my laptop to be able to blog and keep you all up to date since I have been failing at that lately. I have brought some art work to do. Mainly coloring stuff. Specifically, mandala’s to color. They seem to help me keep myself at some sort of peace and to lessen the pain that I am dealing with.  I just wish I could have brought my cat, Lil Gertie with me but I know that is against the rules. I do have a good neighbor checking up on her later today if I don’t get out of this stupid hospital.

I hope everyone has a good Monday as well as a good work week. I hope to keep you all updated as time goes one. Talk to you all later. Peace Out, World!!!

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Sleepless In Seattle

Good Morning, World!!! I am sleepless in Seattle once again. It has nothing to do with Lil Gertie wanting to play at this hour of the day. It has everything to do with the insomnia that I am experiencing. Insomnia sucks!!!

Since my last post, I have not only attempted to sleep but I have read. I am reading about Buddhism. It is helping me be at peace with myself and the world as a whole. The more I read about Buddhism, the more I realize it is the right spiritually for me. Having faith in something is quite helpful for me as an individual as well as my recovery.

I am going to go now. I am going to play with Lil Gertie as she appears to be playful at the moment. Peace Out, World!!!

Cat = Help With PTSD

Good Morning, World!!! I woken up by Lil Gertie. She licked me smack dab on the nose. Some how this cat knows when I am having a nightmare or some other symptom of PTSD. I’m not sure how she knows but she knows.

I think once I am done blogging this post, I will read. Read about Buddhism. I am learning so many different things about this religion. A religion that knows that you’re going to struggle yet doesn’t shame or guilt you into a being something you are not. It encourages you to strive to be the best you are.

Having a faith in something spiritual is key to being in recovery for anyone. It doesn’t have to be Buddhism or even Christianity. Just as you have faith in something. For me it is Buddhism. Or at least for now it is because I am looking into it, to make sure it is the right faith for me.

Thank you for reading. Have a good morning. Peace Out, World!!!

I Don’t Think My Cat Realizes It’s Sunday

Good Morning, World!!! I don’t think Lil Gertie realizes it is Sunday. Sunday is meant to either sleep in or go to a religious service and sometimes both. For me it is meant to sleep in. If you read my blog regularly you know sleep doesn’t come easy for me.

I think what I am going to do is attempt to go back to sleep. Especially since Lil Gertie is taking a cat nap at the moment.

I will also be reading. Reading two books on Buddhism. One is called Why Buddhism Is True while the other book is Buddhist Scriptures. Right now I am looking into Buddhism and it is giving me hope and a sense of peace. A Peace that I need at the moment.

Thank you for reading my blog. It is extremely appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Focusing On Things That Help

Good Evening, World. Since my last post I decided to work on one of my workbooks;  Pathways to Recovery. It is a strengths based workbook focusing on your recovery. I am now done with the first chapter.

I also have been reading Buddhist Scriptures. Reading about Buddhism is a form of mindfulness for me. It gives me hope and a sense of peace. Finding faith that potentially will help me with my recovery path is a huge deal.

As I am writing this post I am sipping on some tea and enjoying some scented candles. Doing things like lit candles and sipping tea is extremely soothing for me. Being able to soothing myself is a good thing. I feel like I don’t deserve to self soothe.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Been A Good Day

Hello, World!!! It has been a good day. I hung out with friends and we went to out favorite restaurant, Red Robin. I got my favorite burger; The Whiskey River Burger with extra cheese and onion straws. It was nice to hang out with two close friends.

After eating we went shopping. I got new sandals as the ones I had the last two summers were worn so much the soles had holes in them. I am liking the new sandals and they are very comfortable.

When I got home I read my book on Buddhism as well as Buddhist scripture. I am finding that looking into the Buddhist faith has been quite helpful for me. It is bringing me a sense of peace I haven’t felt in a long time.

I think I am going to go and eat left over Red Robin for dinner. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Weekly Check-In

Hello, World!!! As many of you know my family celebrated Mother’s Day today to honor my grandma. It was difficult for all of us as this is the first Mother’s Day without my grandma since she passed away.

As I told you earlier this week, I went to the Social Security office to discuss why I wasn’t getting any money. To find out I was suppose to be getting some money but they “forgot” to give it to me. Thankfully, my provisional checks were reinstated as I wait for Social Security  to make a decision.

I also made the decision to officially look into Buddhism. I have found that folks who consider themselves Buddhist to be at peace with themselves. Plus, I feel like it can help me with my recovery.

Thanks for reading. Have a goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!