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Insomnia Strikes Again

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Good Morning, World!!! It is a few minutes after two o’clock in the morning here in Seattle. I am sadly unable to sleep again due to insomnia. I am not a big fan of not being able to sleep as getting a good night’s sleep is crucial both physical health and mental health.

Speaking of mental health, since I am unable to sleep, I have been working on a recovery related workbook. I find that working on recovery related workbooks help me with my recovery and allows me to look inward on how I can improve myself and lessen the symptoms of my mental health challenges. The recovery related workbooks also helps me in between session with my therapist.

In addition to working on recovery related workbooks, I have been reading. I am reading the second book in a dark queer fantasy series. I am really enjoying the book as well as the series. Reading helps me get out of my head and is a way for me to focus on something other than my current problems.

I do not have much more to discuss or write about in this particular except that I am going to curl up with my cat, Billie and read. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Just Boring Update of a Post

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Good Evening, World!!! It is a Tuesday evening here in Seattle. I have not done much of anything since I got home on Saturday when I was in Spokane for my dad’s funeral. Today, was the first day I left my apartment and apartment building. I went to the food bank today and got some much-needed peanut butter and bread. I also ended up with a whole apple pie and about a dozen tangerines. I love me some tangerines.

Other than going to the food bank today, I spent it at home with my cat, Billie who pretty much slept all day laying next to me. As my cat, Billie slept next to me, I did some artwork as I listened to a philosophy podcast named, Philosophize This. I really enjoy listening to Philosophize This especially when I do some form of artwork. The type of artwork I did today was color. Coloring is relaxing for me as well as a form of meditation. It is also fun for me and way to let out my inner child which allows me to heal some of my past and PTSD.

I do not have much more to discuss or write in the particular blog post because I want to go back to coloring and listening to Philosophize This. I want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not continue to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Sleepless In Seattle Type Of Night; Again

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Good Morning, World!!! It is a few minutes after one o’clock in the morning here in Seattle. I, sadly am unable to sleep due to insomnia. Having insomnia sucks but at least I can catch up on listening to a podcast that I enjoy. The current podcast I am catching up on is on philosophy. The name of the podcast I am listening to is Philosophize This. I really enjoy listening to this particular podcast because it is done simply and relatable but then again philosophy is an interesting topic to learn.

As I listen to Philosophize This I am doing some artwork. The type of artwork I am doing is coloring. I am coloring a gigantic poster. A gigantic poster that I bought from Stuff2Color.com. I really enjoy coloring the stuff I buy from Stuff2Color.com. Hell, coloring anything I buy to color is enjoyable. I am glad that I can color as I listen to podcasts. I think I am going to go back to coloring again as I listen to the philosophy podcast as my cat, Billie sleeps next to me. Oh how I love my cat.

I do not have anything else to discuss or write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not continue to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Thankful For Busy Day Ahead Online

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Good Morning, World!!! It snowed once again in Seattle last night. Last night’s snow was a lot more and sticking around. I am not a big fan of snow but at least I do not have to go out in it today despite how busy I am going to be today. Thankfully the busy day is all online.

I am currently doing a volunteer shift with the Alley Cat Project. I am on the incoming calls team which means, I return phone calls, emails and online submissions. All of this is done online and I call people back from my personal phone. I am just grateful I can do this volunteer job in the comfort of my own home with my own cat, Billie in my lap.

On that note I also have an online virtual group therapy session today. The group is for queer people like me. I am happy that the mental health agency I am a client at has a safe space for the queer community who seek services from them. I am so glad that it is virtual for many reasons especially today with the snow.

I do not have anything else to discuss or write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Therapy + Snow = Snowball Fight With Therapist

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Good Evening, World!!! It snowed last night here in Seattle and it sucks but at least I was still able to see my therapist in person. My therapist and I discussed the death of my dad and how challenging it has been to lose him so close to my mom dying. We also discussed how not just my mom’s death but my dad’s death has increased my PTSD symptoms. While discussing the increased PTSD symptom my therapist noticed that I was starting to dissociate and thought it would be a great idea to go outside to have a snowball fight to allow myself to let my inner child out. So, today’s session focused on allowing myself to let out my inner child as I had a snowball fight with my therapist.

Allowing myself to let out my inner child helped a great deal with my dissociation and my therapist saw this as we had our snowball fight. She asked me in what ways I could let my inner child out so we discussed how my cat, Billie helps. I also brought up the fact that I never stopped coloring and continued to color despite being made fun of on the occasional basis from people. Coloring has always allowed me to be me and kept me connected to my inner child even though I didn’t realize it till today.

Now that I am home, I am coloring as I watch the local news with my cat, Billie sleeping in my lap. I love the fact that I have my cat, Billie in my lap purring as I color letting out my inner child. I am so happy that I let out my inner child today in therapy and that I am doing that with coloring at home.

I do not have much more to discuss or write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless In Seattle Type Of Night

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Good Morning, World!!! It is a few minutes after two o’clock in the morning here in Seattle and I am sadly unable to sleep. I am unable to sleep due to PTSD and insomnia which is nothing new to me. It is literally below freezing outside and is supposed to snow in Seattle. Other cities in the area already have accumulated snow. I do not like snow and I really hope we do not get any.

Since it is so cold outside I have my heating blanket on as I really do not like turning on my heat unless I have to. On that note since it is so cold and I am unable to sleep, I am coloring as I have my heating blanket on. I have this special lap desk I can use in bed which comes in handy especially when I don’t feel like getting out of bed and want to color. I really enjoy coloring.

As I color my cat, Billie is curled up next to me snoring. I am so grateful that my cat is in my life. I do not know what I would do without my cat, Billie. I love my cat so very much and I am so very grateful for Billie’s unconditional love.

I do not have anything else to discuss or write about in this particular blog post except, I really hope it does not snow in Seattle. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Snowing In Seattle

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Good Morning, World!!! It is currently snowing in my neighborhood here in Seattle. It is also officially Groundhog Day here in the United States. According to news sources the groundhog, Punxsutawney Phil saw his shadow and he is in Punxsuntawney, Pennsylvania. If he was in Seattle he would not have seen his shadow which means there wouldn’t be “six more weeks of winter.” If the Punxsutawney Phil didn’t see his shadow spring would be “early.” I am not sure how this all got started and I know it is a fun tradition but why put a poor groundhog through that especially since we all know that groundhogs can’t predict seasons much less the weather just like humans can’t.

I do not have anything else to discuss or write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Good Day & Yet I’m Currently Dissociating

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Good Evening, World!!! It has been a good day for me here in Seattle yet I am currently dissociating which suck shit. I am not really one hundred percent sure why I am dissociating which is scary as hell but I am sure that it is PTSD related. I do know it was a cold foggy day here in Seattle which is probably why my depression symptoms are slightly worse. Like I said I have had a good day and I have been in a really good mood. I will take a good day and a good mood with slightly elevated depression symptoms over a shitty day any day of the week.

Something I realized around the time I got hurt by a neighbor in the summer of 2023 when my dissociation started getting bad again, I color when I am dissociated. It is usually a giant poster or two that are mandala type and/or kaleidoscope type poster. I also color smaller posters that are about eight by ten (or maybe eight by twelve). The smaller posters that I am doing are sort of the similar designs as the giant poster. I only color these particular posters while I have other posters I color and focus on when I am not dissociated. You can tell just by the coloring and the mindset I am in. I think I am going to cuddle with my cat Billie as I do some coloring. My cat is even more of a lap kitty or velcro kitty when I am dissociating. I think my cat Billie does this to make sure I am safe. I love my cat, Billie so very much.

I do not have anything else to write about or to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, than you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Daily Prompt; Was Today Typical?

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So far it has been a typical day for me. It is only nine o’clock in the morning here in Seattle so I can only say that so far it has been a typical day. I do my mindfulness meditation practice this morning. I also did my morning walk. Thankfully it was not raining but it sure was cold. I then came home to shower and eat breakfast. I then cuddled with my cat, Billie like I always do. Now, I am blogging and afterwards I will go see my psychiatric nurse practitioner and then go get my meds. So, yes so far it has been a typical day.

Another Sleepless In Seattle Type Of Night

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Good Morning, World!!! I am once again sleepless in Seattle. At least there was no family drama involved this time around like last night. Sadly, my depression and PTSD symptoms have not decreased much due to being so hypervigilant from last nights family drama. I really dislike hypervigilance and wish I did not have PTSD.

Since I am unable to sleep again and dealing with the aftermath of the family drama of last night I have been cuddling with my cat, Billie. In fact he is all curled up in my lap as I type this particular blog. My cat, Billie has been curled up sleeping as I do some artwork. The type of artwork I am doing is coloring a gigantic coloring poster. I love coloring and enjoy doing it especially when my cat, Billie is curled up on my lap or beside me.

I do not have anything else to talk about nor to write about in this particular blog post except that I hope that I can get some sleep. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!