Monthly Archives: June 2018

Cat Helping Me Through PTSD

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! My cat woke me up from another nightmare. Something that I am an extremely proud of her for. I am just tired has hell and wish I could go back to sleep after the nightmare but unable to do so at the moment. Lil Gertie is curly up with me and giving me the emotional support that I need at the moment. She is an awesome little kitty.

On the other hand I did to attempt to get back to sleep as I have one more training to go to in regards in becoming a facilitator for groups at a peer run agency. Agency that only gets funding by getting grants. Being a volunteer facilitator will look great on the resume’. A resume’ that will help me get a job that I want.

Going back to the grants and funding. It’s has been a desire of mine to learn how to learn how to write grants as it could be helpful in getting jobs in the the nonprofit sectors of jobs. I hope someday I can go to school for this.

Thank you for reading. Have a good night everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Going To Be A Busy Weekend

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Good Morning, World!!! I know I just posted about an hour ago about how my Friday went. Well this post is going to be how busy my weekend is going to be going. I am going to be going to a facilitator training both today and tomorrow at a local peer run program. This training to help be a volunteer co-facilitator at this peer run program. The training is both today and tomorrow.

I know it it will be an intense training and am prepared for it as much as I can be emotionally. Trainings are quite emotionally draining and I have prepared as much as one can be prepared for such training’s.

I should get going as I need to get ready for the day. Have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

A Full & Busy Friday (Late Post)

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Good Saturday Morning, World!!! This post is a day late as I wanted it to post it yesterday. I went to my doctor’s appointment yesterday morning. We had a heart to heart discussion about my suicide attempt late last week. We discussed a safety plan and called my therapist who was surprisingly available to answer his phone. So the three of us discussed the safety plan and the fear I had on stricter med moderating. My therapist informed me that it will need to be a discussion that need to be continued. He did think the ideas my doctor and I cam up with were great idea’s.

I also went to my Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) group. It is going to be challenging as we will be doing chain analysis but I am looking forward to doing this. Other members don’t want to do it has “its too hard” and it is but I am all for being accountable to my behavior. One person is thinking about dropping out because “its getting too hard.” I look at if this way if you don’t do something difficult that you won’t be able to grow as person.

Thanks you for reading. Have a good weekend. Peace Out, World!!!!

My Cat Thinks She Is Human

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Good Morning, World!!! I have notice a few things about Lil Gertie the last couple of days. It started when Lil Gertie took a Cheeto out of my hand the other day and just ate it. Then the other night she was more hyper than usual so I put on one of my favorite bands, Black Sabbath and she calmed the hell down. Who knew Black Sabbath would calm down a hyper cat. Last night she got on my lap and started eating my strawberry ice cream right from the bowl. Then as I was attempting to eat my doughnut she grabbed a piece and ate that this morning. I swear my cat thinks she is a human.

I go see my doctor in a couple of hours. She is just going to check up on me after my suicide attempt last week. My doctor is an awesome person. She wants to make sure I am doing alright both physically and mentally after last week.

I also start back up in DBT group today. I am so looking forward to DBT group this afternoon. I love being able to focus using my skills and being a “leader” in the group according to the group facilitators. I don’t know about being a leader but I do the skills and share my experience on how well the DBT skills work for me.

Thank you for reading. Have a great Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

Good Morning, World

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Good Morning, World!!! I got some sleep last night and woke up on this god awful hour because Lil Gertie woke me up form a nightmare. She woke me up with a like on the nose. With her waking me up from the worst part of the nightmare from happening she has done her job and I didn’t have to train her to do that.

I have quite a lot planned today. First I go see my doctor a ten this morning. I am looking forward to seeing her as she has been my doctor for nine years. She is going to do a check up after the attempt to take my own life last week. My doctor is awesome.

I will all so be starting Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) back up today. I am looking forward to this as it gives me the structure and skills I need to help myself. I love being able to help myself with the skills I know how to do has well as the ones I will be learning.

I emailed my therapist about the PTSD stuff and how Lil Gertie has been helpful for me. I attempt to only email him when I think he needs to know something soon. As someone who worked in the mental health field I know from experience that I am more likely respond to an email verses a voicemail.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!