Two O’clock in the Morning Randomness

Good Morning, World!!! It is two o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world. I am not able to sleep at the moment. I am unsure why I am unable to sleep however I personally think it is part to insomnia as well PTSD symptoms. Having little to no sleep also does not help with my depression symptoms. All I know is I would like to get some sleep so I am not a cranky bucket.

I might as well as remind you my reader of why there are advertisements on my blog. I have advertisements on my blog to earn some extra money. However I don’t earn the extra money unless you click on to the ad and let it load. So with each little click to the advertisements on my blog earns me a few cents. I know it is not much money but it something. So, I don’t think I will discuss that advertisement thing again for another few weeks as I am sure you don’t want to keep reading about it as I am sure you are not big fans of the advertisements but they do earn me a few extra cents with each click.

Anyways it sounds like the wind is blowing hard and the rain is pounding against my bedroom window. It sounds like there is some nasty weather outside at the moment and it most definitely not the typical Seattle weather for this time of year although it is not unusual for there to be some wind from time to time.  I just hope this nasty goes away by the time the sun rises but I am not holding out hope for it the nastiness to stop.

Enough about the weather here in Seattle lets talk about it being two in the morning in my corner of the world and how Lil Gertie is happy that I am awake. She is happy I am awake because I have been playing with her to help me through the difficult moments I have been have due to not being able to sleep. This is the time of day she is most playful and usually doesn’t expect to play with me as I am in bed but I think she is happy she is able to play since I am up. I love my cat, Lil Gertie, so much. It is hard to believe that in three days from now it will be seven months since I adopted Lil Gertie. I love her so much and can’t imagine life without her right now. Oh yeah before I forget, I order Lil Gertie a new cat carrier as I have been using the box cat carrier I got when I adopted her. I bought it from Amazon last Wednesday and finally it was delivered last Friday. She still doesn’t like being in the carrier but she hasn’t fought going into it when I have but her in it and she has meowed when she has been in it. I have been putting Lil Gertie into the new carrier so she can get use to it and not so afraid of it. I keep her in it for no more than ten minutes to see how she reacts and no I don’t keep her in the carrier when I am not home. I keep the side entrance of the carrier open and down so she could go in and out of it if she wants. She has gone in it to sniff and quickly came out but hopefully she will know it is a safe place for her so when I do have to take her somewhere, it won’t put her in more stress. The last thing I want is to put Lil Gertie in stress out mode.

I think I am going to get going as I am wanting to attempt to get some sleep tonight. Hopefully insomnia gives me a break and that my anxiety, depression and PTSD symptoms continue to lessen so I can get some sleep. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. You guys are all awesome!!! Peace Out, World!!!

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Monday Moodiness

Good Evening, World!!! Right now, I am realizing that I have been moody most of the day. I have been moody for many reasons. My depression is acting up. My grief dealing with my grandma hit me like a tsunami today. Oh yeah and that weather sucks shit.

It doesn’t help things that I have been isolating myself today. Not sure why I am isolating today but I have. I did email my therapist and primary care doctor about the depression, grief and isolation. Both my doctor and therapist reminded me of my appointments with them tomorrow which I know will be quite helpful for me. My therapist also informed that I do have refills for my psych meds as he talked with the “shrink on duty.” So, at least I know I have meds for the next two weeks.

My cat, Lil Gertie, has been of great help to me today. She has been laying by my side on my share or laying on my lap. She even let me hold her for about ten minutes as I paced around my apartment. She usually only lets me hold her for about two to three minutes max. She is an awesome emotional support animal. Right now she is taking some “me time” by sleeping on my bed. Everyone needs some space at times and she has done a very good job with supporting me today so she deserves the “me time.”

I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. Knowing that I have perfect strangers that care about me and that I am able to help by sharing my story helps me get through tough days like today. I hope everyone has a good rest of your Monday. Enjoy your week with whatever you are doing. Peace Out, World!!!

Another Lazy A$$ Day

Good Evening, World!!! Today has been another lazy ass day for me. I didn’t go to my volunteer job today.  I took today off from my volunteer job as I needed to take time to myself.

Today marks five months since I got my cat, Lil Gertie. She has been a blessing in my life and has helped me a great deal emotionally. Having Lil Gertie, is helping me keep my apartment cleaner than it was before I got adopted her. So, Lil Gertie, has been helping me in more ways than I expected.

I spent most of the day binge watching television and movies. While binge watching television and movies, Lil Gertie spent it by my sided in my chair between me and the arm rest. I think I will continue to binge watch television and movies till I got to bed.

Thank you for reading my blog it is greatly appreciated. I hope you all have a wonderful rest of your Saturday. Again, thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

It Has Been Five Months

Good Morning, World!!! I didn’t get a wink of sleep last night which is quite annoying. As annoying as it is to be sleepless in Seattle, today is good and happy day. It is good and happy day because today marks the five month anniversary of me adopting my cat, Lil Gertie. She is an emotional support animal and is extremely intuitive to my emotional needs.

It has been a blessing to have Lil Gertie in my life and am more than pleased that i was able to give Lil Gertie a forever home. Lil Gertie has been in-tuned with my emotional needs since day one but as time goes on, she is becoming more intuitive to my needs especially when it comes to my Anxiety and PTSD symptoms.

Lil Gertie sure loves her wet food. She always begs for it at the same time everyday even though she has dry food available to her 24 hours day. She is not afraid to wake me up when she thinks it is time to be fed her wet cat food. She is one spoiled little cat. Lil Gertie, knows she is queen bee of the house hold. I am really happy that I was able to give Lil Gertie a forever home. She is an amazing little cat and very calm except for when it comes to fireworks and the fire alarm.

Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things for you reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great Saturday. Peace Out World!!!

Worries of the Night

Hello, World!!! It is now twelve thirty in the morning in my corner of the world. I am still up due to watching late night television. Late night television helps me deal with life in general especially today. I say this because Lil Gertie has given me a couple of days due some coughing episodes and today’s coughing episodes were scary and worrisome. So, I took her to the vet. The vet diagnosed her with allergies and mild asthma even though the vet didn’t hear wheezing. She determined the mild asthma diagnosis by watching the two videos I took of Lil Gertie’s coughing attacks. The vet, Dr. B, said I did the right thing with the videos.

Another thing that I am worried about is the sleeping meds and my health insurance being slow to approve the pre-authorization for it. It is tough to be dealing with lack of sleep but am grateful for what little sleep I do get especially when I don’t have anything to help with it.

I do not have much more to say. I think I am going try to get some shut eye. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a good night. Peace Out, World!!!

A Day of Self-Care

Hello, World!!! Today, overall has been a good day. Despite it being a good day I have dealt with a great deal of grief regarding my grandma. Tomorrow (Sunday, September 2nd) would have been my grandparents 63rd wedding anniversary.

Since I have been dealing with grief a great deal today and the last couple of weeks I decided to make it a day of self care. I spent most of the day playing with my cat, Lil Gertie as well as reading Wonder Woman comic books. I did this so I could be in a good head space to volunteer earlier this evening for a help line..

Volunteering helped me a great deal. It helped me get out of my head as well as out of myself to help others. Helping others by volunteering gives me a purpose that even work can not give me.

Now that I am home, I am going back to doing what I was doing earlier in the day. That is petting and/or playing with my cat, Lil Gertie, and reading Wonder Woman comic books. I know it will be helpful for me as it has been proven helpful to me earlier as well as in the past.

Thank you for reading. Have a great rest of your Saturday. Peace Out, World!!!

Midnight Randomness

Hello, World!!! I personally think I would be asleep right now if a neighbor who is dealing with the symptoms of their mental health challenges didn’t keep pulling the pull stations to set of the building fire alarm system. It is pissing a lot of people of yet the fire department can’t do much about it and the police are trying to put the neighbor on a seventy two hour hold.

As annoying as the fire alarm going off constantly, my neighbors are getting together and making an annoying situation into a good situation. The noise may be bothersome to us humans but its worse for our animals. So, one of my neighbors and I decided to get a handful of other neighbors to come to my apartment and have a sleepover. Humans and animals are all invited. Thankfully, the neighbors that are staying over are good friends. Most importantly the animals are getting along which is surprising because a couple of animals including my cat really don’t get along with other animals. Maybe it’s because the animals involved with the sleepover are all emotional support animals and are putting their issues aside to help us humans.

As far as my cat, Lil Gertie, she is staying close to me because the constant going off of the fire alarm is quite anxiety for me. I am proud of Lil Gertie for putting up with so many people in my apartment and most importantly tolerating the other animals staying overnight. She is extremely being tolerant of the sixth month old puppy who wants to play with her.

On a side note, I have an appointment with my therapist later today since it is officially Friday since it is now twelve midnight in my corner of the world. I sure will have a story to tell regarding the fire alarm constantly going off and having a sleepover with neighbors and their animals at my place. I’m sure he’ll get a kick out of how we decided to make a difficult situation into a positive situation. I am looking forward my session with my therapist later on today.

Thank you again, for reading my blog. It is very much appreciated. I am trying to mix things up when it comes to the topics I discuss with you. I am hoping that the more I mix things up sharing my story with you that it will keep you all interested in reading my blog. I hope everyone gets a good nights sleep or at least a better nights sleep than myself an neighbors are getting. I really need to get going now because the fire alarm is going off again and would still be posting about the issue but I need to evacuate since the fire alarm is going off once again. Have a good nights sleep. Peace out, World!!!