Back Home, For Now

Good Morning, once again, World!!! I am out of the Emergency Room however my regular doctor want me to go to an Urgent Care clinic associated with the doctors office I go to which I plan on doing today. I do have an appointment with my regular doctor this Friday but it feels so far away so my doctor is sending me to an Urgent Clinic to see if they can give me more personalized care. In fact my doctor hopes that the Urgent Care Clinic sends me back to the Emergency Room so I can get admitted for this stupid infection that antibiotics appear to not be as helpful as one would hope they would me.

To tell you the truth, I rather me home spending time with Lil Gertie, my cat. I am sure she misses me as much as I miss her since I have been gone so much for so long as of lately.  My cat has been a great support for me in more ways than one. She has been by my side even when I am puking in the toilet.  She meows out of concern for me when I am puking.

With me not being up to par physically, it is effecting me with my mental health challenges. I do think once I have the physical health gets better so will my mental health symptoms. Or one can hope my mental health symptoms can get better.

I think I should get going so I can get to Urgent Care like my doctor wants me to. I will be taking my laptop with me because who knows what the hell is going to happen. Plus, I will be taking my coloring and art supplies. I can’t forget my trusty phone and headphones for music as music helps me a great deal. I of course will be talking both books and comic books to help me as well. I never know when this stupid illness will put me into the hospital.

Thank you so much for reading. I hope to keep you updated as time allows. I know I will get better in time. Have a wonderful Monday. I hope your work week is as awesome as you all are. Peace Out, World!!!

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A Full & Busy Friday (Late Post)

Good Saturday Morning, World!!! This post is a day late as I wanted it to post it yesterday. I went to my doctor’s appointment yesterday morning. We had a heart to heart discussion about my suicide attempt late last week. We discussed a safety plan and called my therapist who was surprisingly available to answer his phone. So the three of us discussed the safety plan and the fear I had on stricter med moderating. My therapist informed me that it will need to be a discussion that need to be continued. He did think the ideas my doctor and I cam up with were great idea’s.

I also went to my Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) group. It is going to be challenging as we will be doing chain analysis but I am looking forward to doing this. Other members don’t want to do it has “its too hard” and it is but I am all for being accountable to my behavior. One person is thinking about dropping out because “its getting too hard.” I look at if this way if you don’t do something difficult that you won’t be able to grow as person.

Thanks you for reading. Have a good weekend. Peace Out, World!!!!

My Cat Thinks She Is Human

Good Morning, World!!! I have notice a few things about Lil Gertie the last couple of days. It started when Lil Gertie took a Cheeto out of my hand the other day and just ate it. Then the other night she was more hyper than usual so I put on one of my favorite bands, Black Sabbath and she calmed the hell down. Who knew Black Sabbath would calm down a hyper cat. Last night she got on my lap and started eating my strawberry ice cream right from the bowl. Then as I was attempting to eat my doughnut she grabbed a piece and ate that this morning. I swear my cat thinks she is a human.

I go see my doctor in a couple of hours. She is just going to check up on me after my suicide attempt last week. My doctor is an awesome person. She wants to make sure I am doing alright both physically and mentally after last week.

I also start back up in DBT group today. I am so looking forward to DBT group this afternoon. I love being able to focus using my skills and being a “leader” in the group according to the group facilitators. I don’t know about being a leader but I do the skills and share my experience on how well the DBT skills work for me.

Thank you for reading. Have a great Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

Good Morning, World

Good Morning, World!!! I got some sleep last night and woke up on this god awful hour because Lil Gertie woke me up form a nightmare. She woke me up with a like on the nose. With her waking me up from the worst part of the nightmare from happening she has done her job and I didn’t have to train her to do that.

I have quite a lot planned today. First I go see my doctor a ten this morning. I am looking forward to seeing her as she has been my doctor for nine years. She is going to do a check up after the attempt to take my own life last week. My doctor is awesome.

I will all so be starting Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) back up today. I am looking forward to this as it gives me the structure and skills I need to help myself. I love being able to help myself with the skills I know how to do has well as the ones I will be learning.

I emailed my therapist about the PTSD stuff and how Lil Gertie has been helpful for me. I attempt to only email him when I think he needs to know something soon. As someone who worked in the mental health field I know from experience that I am more likely respond to an email verses a voicemail.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

 

It’s Been An Overall Good Day

Good Evening, World!!! Today, overall has been a good day despite not getting any sleep. I even attempted to take a nap when I got home from day treatment and seeing my therapist.

As I stated I saw my therapist today. We discussed my suicide attempt on Wednesday and talked about it in detail. We discussed how having a cat helped me make the decision to live and carry on with my life. We talked about the three groups I plan on attending especially the DBT group I start back up tomorrow. We both agree that DBT group will be extremely important for me to attend. I showed him my scrap book and he appeared surprised that I was will to share something “so personal” with him. We talked about how arts and crafts have been helpful to me. In fact he wants me to continue to attend art group as he “feels like it helps” me express my emotions. He is going to sit in on Art group on Monday.

I see my doctor tomorrow and my doctor called me today to check in on me. We talked a little about my suicide attempt. She just wanted to make sure I was doing better and to make sure I’ll be going to see her tomorrow. I confirmed that I would be there tomorrow. We will be discussing the suicide attempt even though it was more than a week ago.

I am grateful that I am not suicidal and that I have a good support system that checks in with me. My therapist, doctor, and psychiatric nurse practitioner all agree that I am doing okay at the moment. They are talking with each other and agree that me being out of the hospital for psych reasons is a good thing.

Thank you so much for reading. It is greatly appreciated. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!!

Update on Doctor’s Appointment

Good Morning, World!!! Yup, it is still morning in my corner of the world. I went to my doctor’s appointment and it went well. I have a slight concussion from being hit in the eye by a neighbor. I am taking 800mg ibuprofen for the pain and an anti-nausea medicine for nausea.

I am now going to read. I am not sure if I am going to read my Star Wars book or a book on Buddhism. I might read both at some point today. I might even do a workbook or two as well. I love to read and work on my workbooks.

Thank you for reading. Peace out, World!!!

Dealing With PTSD

Good Morning, World!!! I am blogging once again. Yes, so soon after my last post. I am struggling with some PTSD symptoms. Symptoms that are related to childhood trauma.

Blogging about what is going on can be helpful to me. This is one of those moments where I think it is helpful for me and I hope it can be helpful to at least one other person in the world. It is my hope that when I post about my struggles that at least one person in the world doesn’t feel so alone.

I think I am going to work on one of my workbooks before heading to my doctors appointment. Working on my workbooks will help with the PTSD as well as the anxiety that goes with me going to the doctors today.

Thank you for reading. Have a wonderful day. Peace Out, World!!!