Wanting to Escape from My Own Reality

Good Evening, World!!! Right now I really want to escape my own reality. The reality of the depression I am dealing with. I personally think the depression I am currently dealing with has something to do with being in quarantine due to Covid-19.

Let’s start with first things first, work helps me not focus on my own reality as I need to make sure the needs of my clients get met. Plus it feels good when a client accomplishes a goal that they have bee working on for a long time. I love being able to walk along side of people who are working on their own personal journey of recovery.

Another thing the helps me escape from my own reality is volunteering at a local animal shelter. Even though I have my own cat to play with it is gratifying to see cats get adopted into a furrever home. Seeing cats adopted is rewarding in itself and I am thrilled to be able to experience that and not just with the cats I have adopted but cats that have been adopted by others.

Another way, I find a way to escape from reality it reading. Reading all sorts of books including comics or comic books. I do have to say be favorite comic book is Wonder Woman and I have my dad to thank for that. Despite my dad loosing his ability to read, he always encouraged me to read. In fact my favorite genre’s of books are science fiction, fantasy and horror books. Since my dad is unable to read due to a traumatic brain injury (TBI), we call each other every evening and I read him books. Doing this has helped mend and heal our issues. We do occasionally read comic books but that is more my thing that my dad’s thing. I am just grateful that reading to my dad is healing our relationship.

Of course I can forget my sweet loving cuddle bug of a cat that helps me escape the realities of what life has to bring. The cat love is unconditional and am grateful for my cat Billie Dean.

Let not forget the most important of escaping reality which is sleep. Sleep can be a major reality escape especially with people dealing with depression and other such mental health diagnosis.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading m blog as if it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be witting my blog. It is great appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 4: A Story in a Single Image

Billie’s first night home giving me a hug as he lays on my lap and chest.

Todays, “assignment” was to tell a story of an image. WordPress gave four images to choose from in which didn’t inspire me to write. So, I picked one that would. I picked one of my cat Billie Dean’s first evening at home with me. He is laying on me sleeping and it looks like he is giving me a hug.

Billie inspires me every single day especially when the symptoms of my depression increase. He inspires me to keep going. He is an inspiration because, he helps me stay focused on what I need to do to stay in Recovery. I love my cat and I love being in recovery. So that is why Billie is an inspiration.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 3: One-Word Inspiration

Choice

Choice is the word I chose to be my inspiration to write about. Choice is a loaded word. For me choice is the reason why I am here today. I made the choice to be in active recovery. I made the choice to continue living in Seattle where I have an awesome job helping others with their recovery journey and an amazing volunteer job where I help cats get their furrever homes.

To me being able to make my own choices helps me keep hope alive in my own self. It helps me keep the hope alive in myself because helps make the decisions or choices to stay in recovery. Staying in recovery is what is important to me. It’s important to me because I want to help others with their recovery. It’s important to me because I want to be here for my cat, Billie. It’s important to me because I want to make sure other cats get their furrever home. So the choice to stay in recovery is what keeps me alive. That’s why I chose the work choice. Life is nothing but choices.

Sleepless in Seattle Type of Night

Good Morning, World!!! It is 5:24 in the morning here in my corner of the world known as Seattle. I haven’t been able to sleep for multiple reasons. Some reasons are known like dealing with an never ending migraine which is a chronic pain issues. Other reasons is due to PTSD and insomnia while some reasons are unknown. Sadly, due to the lack of sleep and migraine, I am unable to volunteer at PAWS Cat City today due to the lack of sleep and the migraine. Yes, I did leave them three voicemails and an email letting them I won’t be there.

It makes me sad that I won’t be able to volunteer today due to insomnia and a migraine. I really love to volunteer at PAWS Cat City. They are an amazing organization. Plus, I get to help a community that has helped me with adopting my last cat, Lil Gertie and current cat Billie Dean. If it wasn’t for the awesome experience of the adoption with Lil Brooke I would have never become a volunteer. Yes, I also had an awesome adoption experience with Billie but by the time I adopted him I had already been a volunteer for a couple of months at PAWS Cat City.

Billie, my cat has been extra cuddly tonight as I think he knows I haven’t be feeling well. Part of wonders if the lack of sleep and migraine has any thing to due with the stress I am having around the holidays which includes the Holiday Blues, Depression, and PTSD that comes this time of year due to trauma related things. I am trying to make my own Christmas traditions around Christmas which are helping a great deal but some days or in this case nights are tougher than others days and/or nights.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog as if it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It really means a great deal to me that you do. Happy Holidays and Peace Out, World!!!

A Lazy Sunday

Good Evening, World!!! It is a Sunday evening and it was a great day for many reasons. Lets start with how I started the day. I started the day by volunteering at PAWS Cat City. I love volunteering especially at an animal shelter where I can help animals and people alike. I get to help people get a new pet or should I say a new family member when they adopt a cat.

Speaking of cats, after volunteering, I came home to my cat who didn’t leave my side today. He was on my lap most of the day. He laid on my lap as I watched the last day of the Olympics. The Olympics were pretty cool this year despite it being held a year late due to a pandemic which is still going on. The Olympic tend to bring the world together even in the middle of the global pandemic.

It looks like this is going to be a short post as I do not have much more to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader, I wouldn’t be blogging. I hope everyone has a great week ahead. Peace Out, World!!!

The Day That Changed My Life, Again

Good Evening, World!!! Today marks exactly three years since I adopted my last cat Lil Gertie. I miss her a great deal and wish I had more time with her. Sadly, I only had a year and a half with her before she crossed over the rainbow bridge.

The therapist I had three years ago suggested getting an Emotional Support Animal (ESA). We discussed why it would be good for my recovery and help reduce the symptoms of my mental health challenges. So, I decided to adopt a cat from PAWS Cat City here in Seattle. I connected with Lil Gertie at first site. She changed my life in so many ways.

One of the ways that she changed my life is that she gave me something to focus on other than myself and what I was struggling with. She gave me a purpose I was lacking when I adopted her. She helped me gain self confidence and self worth.

Due to the self confidence and self worth I gained, I was able to go back to work. Going back to work even though it was part time for just over two years helped me not just with my self worth and self confidence, it helped me realize what I wanted to do with my life which was to be a peer support specialist again. Now, I can happily say I am once again a peer support specialist and working fulltime.

Sadly, Lil Gertie couldn’t see me become a peer support specialist again because she crossed over the rainbow bridge on Thanksgiving Day of 2019. Lil Gertie received a cancer diagnosis in October of 2019 and she was given six months to live, maybe nine months. When I was given this news I started the volunteer process to become a volunteer at PAWS Cat City. It was in the middle of this process that Lil Gertie had a mini stroke on Thanksgiving Day and made the decision that it was best to end her suffering by having the vet help her cross the rainbow bridge. Yes, I was with Lil Gertie when she crossed over.

Despite loosing Lil Gertie in the middle of the process of becoming a volunteering PAWS Cat City, I continued the process. I continued as I knew it would not only help me with my grief of loosing Lil Gertie, I wanted to help cat find their furrever homes and to help people find their new best friend. I had my first shift at PAWS Cat City in January of 2020.

It was while on a volunteer shift at PAWS Cat City, that Billie Dean my current cat and I fell in love with each other. I put him on hold to get the what I needed for him and adopted him the next day. Billie has been apart of my life for just over a year now and I wouldn’t change it for the world.

Yes, I miss Lil Gertie and love her with all my heart but I wouldn’t change anything for the world. Today, is the day she changed my life forever and for the better.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I hope everyone has a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

1 Year Ago of Billie’s Gotcha Day

Good Afternoon, World!!! Today February 6th 2021 marks one year since I adopted my cat, Billie Dean from PAWS Cat City. Today is what I call Gotcha Day. I love my cat, Billie so very much. I will be posting pictures in the post of Billie. For those readers who have a visual impairment, WordPress allows me to put captions in the picture and I hope that your device allows you to read it the way it is suppose to help you as I know you are not able to see the pictures.

Billie with a gift wrap bow on his back like a present. Even thought Billie was not a Christmas present he sure is a present that came at the right time for me a year ago today February 6th.
Billie helping open Christmas gifts.
Billie just chilling all stretched out on a middle level of his cat tree.
Billie eating his wet food

I love Billie so much and am grateful he came into my life. I hope you enjoyed the picture of my beloved Billie. I don’t know what I would have done to cope with Covid-19 without Billie. I am happy that I adopted Billie before Covid-19 became a major issue here in Seattle as well as the rest of the United States.

I don’t have much more to say expect thank you. I appreciate that you read my blog and hope you continue to read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Happy Monday

Good Afternoon, World!!! I will be heading out to my volunteer job at PAWS Cat City within the next forty minutes. I love being able to volunteer my time with helping PAWS. I enjoy doing whatever is needed for me to do including the deep cleaning. I do have to say the best part of volunteering at PAWS Cat City is when the cats get adopted to their furrever home.

Speaking of cats, my cat Billie, loves doing mindfulness and meditation practices with me. Every time I do a mindfulness exercise on The Calm App, Billie gets in my lap as I do the exercise. It appears that the he does the practice with me. I love the fact that my cat, Billie, does the mindfulness practice with me through The Calm App. Doing a mindfulness and/or meditation practice helps me a great deal and is one of the best ways for me to start my day.

On a not so good not is that the air quality here in Seattle is considered hazardous. It is considered hazardous due to the wild fires around Washington as well as the rest of the west coast. Seattle isn’t the only place with hazardous air quality. California and Oregon are dealing with worse air quality that Washington is.

I do not have much more to say. I do want to thank you all for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great Monday. I also hope everyone has an awesome work week ahead of you. Don’t forget to stop and smell the roses (or coffee). What I mean is don’t forget to take the time to just breathe. Peace Out, World!!!

Just a Random Monday Evening Post

Good Evening, World!!! Today has been an okay day. My emotions have been up and down today. I owe the up and down emotions due to the lack of sleep and the recent trauma I experienced. Overall, I think I am doing okay with dealing with the many emotions I am feeling, despite not wanting to feel some of them.

One of the ways that helped me deal with my emotions is going in and volunteering at PAWS Cat City. It is officially kitten season and am grateful to get some kitten time in. As much as I love kittens and would really want one, I realize as I volunteer at PAWS Cat City, why having a kitten is not conducive for me to have one at the moment. Mainly because they are a great deal of work and I do not have time to invest in a kitten right now. Plus, I have Billie Dean and not sure how he would interact with a kitten. Anyway, two kittens and a senior kitty got adopted during my volunteer shift. Adoptions are my favorite part of volunteering at PAWS Cat City. Watching the cats get a furrever home with smiling and happy humans is an awesome feeling.

Every time I come home from volunteering at PAW Cat City, Billie Dean, my cat is attached to me at the ankle if I am walking around my apartment or to my lap if I am sitting. I don’t think he is jealous of me being with other cats, I just think he has some anxiety he will be replaced or have to go back to an animal shelter. There is no way in hell he will be replaced and the only way he will go back to an animal shelter is if I am dead. I don’t plan on dying anytime soon. I love Billie so much and I am beyond grateful to have him in my life.

Something I forgot to tell you in a posted I posted yesterday is that I was taking a course through WordPress regarding commenting on people blogs. It is a five day course and tomorrow (Wednesday) is my last day. I really enjoy the course and being able to communicate with other bloggers. I really enjoy the blogging community. I love the blogging community because we have mad respect for each other and have very little drama which I greatly appreciate.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

4 Months & 2 Days With This Cutie

Good Evening, World!!! It has been four months and two days since I adopted Billie Dean. I love Billie so much and I know he loves me. Billie is my emotional support animal (ESA) and he does an awesome job at it. He is such a lap cat and cuddle bug. Billie being such a lap cat has helped me a great deal just to sit and breath while being in the present moment. It is like he wants me to enjoy the moment I am in and focus on my breath. Having Billie in my life has helped me a great deal especially in regards to my mental health recovery, just like my previous cat, Lil Gertie, did. As much as I miss Lil Gertie and grateful she was in my life, I am glad Billie came into my life.

Below are some picture of my precious cat, Billie Dean. Billie is an amazing cat. There are captions below the pictures for those who are sight impaired. I hope you enjoy.

Billie laying in the same spot on the back of the chair Lil Gertie would perch herself on.
One of Billie’s favorite spots to chill.
Billie sitting on my bathroom sink by my shower as I attempt to get ready for the day.
Billie sitting on tippy top of his cat tree.

Billie chilling in a little cubby on his cat tree.
Billie looking over the arm of the chair to see what I am doing. He does this quite offten.

I do not have much more to say in this particular post. I just wanted to share pictures of my beloved cat, Billie. I hope you have enjoyed the pictures of my cat. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great week ahead of them. I also hope everyone has a good evening ahead of them. Peace Out, World!!!