Realistically, I do not want to “play with word count.” Not sure why but I don’t maybe it reminds me of math class when I was in school. Math was NOT my strong suite. But I know that is not what this assignment is about. I just don’t feel inspired. I rather talk about social media. But that’s okay as I know I won’t be inspired to write about everything.
Today, we are suppose to critique a piece of work which can be artwork, music or writing. It is hard to critique other people work as most of the time other peoples work is better than mine. I critique my own artwork, music and writing all the time. Sadly, the critique becomes self judgement so I try not to critique my own work.
So instead of critiquing, I am going to go on rant. A rant about how people in recovery get stigmatized all the fucking time. People who are in recovery from addiction and/or mental health challenges get stigmatize so much that some people choose to not share their struggles and sadly pass away from their addiction or die by suicide. People can live in long term recovery from addiction as well as mental health challenges. I just wish we weren’t judges so harshly for something that is not are fault. So, before you judge someone due to an addiction and/or mental health challenge think of how you would feel if it was you being judged.
If we were having coffee right now, I wouldn’t be drinking coffee as I detest the taste of coffee. I may not like the taste of coffee but I love the smell of it. One would think after living in Seattle the last twenty-six years that I would have at least started drinking coffee by now but I just don’t like the taste of it.
I most likely would get tea or hot chocolate if we were “having coffee.” Most of the time it depends on the time of day as well as the time of year if I would choose tea or hot chocolate. Most of the time if it is morning I will choose tea. I usually will drink hot chocolate in the evening. If it is during the holidays I usually will drink hot chocolate even in the morning as it reminds me of some good childhood memories. After the holidays, I go back to morning tea.
I started drinking tea every morning as a teenager because I watched my grandma drink tea every morning. So, it became a morning ritual to drink tea everyday. The only exception is during the Christmas time as hot chocolate and Christmas reminds me of good childhood memories.
I am currently home in my apartment where I can see outside the window as well as able to see my cat and the television. Right now there is major traffic on the five freeway as I live in apartment across the street from the Interstate five highway. Traffic is worse going southbound than it is going northbound. Not sure why but it always seems to be that way even when it is the end of the work day and many people drive north home.
As I am staring out the window I hear some neighbors who are on the patio. I look and it appears that they are talking as the smoke a cigarette. At least they aren’t playing loud music or talking loudly. I hope I just didn’t jinx myself with other neighbors who like to be loud on the patio.
My cat, Billie Dean, just got my attention by meowing. He heard birds from a commercial on the television. He is now meowing at the television looking intently at it. I have to make sure that he doesn’t try to attack my television as it is a flat screen and he is able to knock it over. Oh how I love my cat, Billie.
When I got today’s inspiration the two things I initially thought on what I do when I am not writing is work and volunteering. I then realized that do write when I work. I have to write notes regarding clients. It is not my favorite part of the job yet I have been informed that I am really good at it.
As far as volunteering, I don’t write. When I volunteer I help take care of cats. Cats that are up for adoption and all of them really cute. I love volunteering my time helping cats get new homes. Volunteering gives me a sense of community as well as a sense of satisfaction.
Another thing I do when I am not writing is listen to music. I listen to music to help with my mental health as well as to have background noise as I live alone with my cat, Billie Dean. I sometimes dance to the music. When I dance to the music, my cat, Billie gives me this weird look that makes me laugh.
I also listen to podcast when I am not writing. I love listening to podcast. I listen to podcast that can educate me on a topic, I do not know much about. I also listen to some podcast for the entertainment. I love to learn as well as to be entertained.
I do many more things when I do not write but I do not want to bore you with everything. I am grateful that I have the ability to read and write.
Dear Bullies and the Adults that protected the bullies,
I am writer this letter to those who bullied me in high school and the adults who protected them. Due to being bullied, I now have PTSD. Yes, I have PTSD from other trauma’s I had to endure throughout my childhood and adulthood. I just want you to know that you bullying me gave me PTSD and caused the depression I was dealing ended spiraling down hill to where I tried to take my own life.
Despite trying to take my own life, I have managed to because a successful adult. An adult that was able to become a strong person despite the hate I had to endure because of you and the adults that made excuses for you. I am a strong person despite you and the shit you did to me.
I am not a big fan of social media even though I do have a Facebook account, a Twitter account and a LinkedIn account for my blog Gerties Journey. I also have a Facebook account for myself under my given name. Anyway, it is challenging to find some form of inspiration from any type of social media unless I feel up to having arguments with other people and having a butt load of unwanted emotions.
It has been my experience that people on Facebook and Twitter like to argue with each other. When it comes to LinkedIn at least people are civil with each other. Other social media platforms like TikTok and Instagram, I have know clue. As far as blogging here on WordPress the arguing is pretty minimal if there is any at all.
I guess what I am saying is social media isn’t very inspiring to talk about or at least to get inspired by to be able to write about. It saddens me as I wish I could get some form of inspiration that didn’t bring up negative or undesired emotions.
Hello!!! When it comes to the space to write, it all depends what exactly I am writing. Let use blogging as an example at this current time. For me to be able to blog, I need to have internet connection as well as my laptop with me. I also need to make sure that if I blog that there is no chance of drizzle or rain as I live in Seattle.
When it comes to writing poetry, I just need to make sure I have a pen or pencil as well as some paper. I also have to make sure if I write outside that the weather isn’t drizzly or rainy especially in the autumn and winter months. Poetry is something I may or may not share with other depending how personal it is.
When it comes to journaling, I make sure I have a writing utensil and my current journal. I usually do this in the privacy of my own home. If I am not home and say on vacation, I do this in a private room. Journaling is a private thing I do and most of the time I don’t share them.
Writing spaces can be different for everyone. When I write at home I have a space at my creative table to do so. I just have to make sure there is room for my cat at the table so he can lay right by me as I write. My cat, Billie Dean appears to want to be near me when I am being creative which includes writing. I really like that fact that Billie like to be near me as I write as it seems to be that it helps me not have writers block.
The future belongs to those who believe the beauty of their dreams.Eleanor Roosevelt
I’ve chosen this quote from Eleanor Roosevelt because it has helped me a great deal with figuring out what my dreams are as well as being able to accomplish my dreams. In my case my the dreams I am thinking about are around my career. My career of being a peer support specialist also known as a peer counselor. This quote has helped me believe in myself that I can do anything including being able to be in recovery with my mental health challenges. Being in recovery means I am able to succeed in whatever I want to succeed in which includes my job. I love my job with a passion and am beyond grateful for Eleanor Roosevelt’s quote.
The picture above is one of a woman walking alone in the woods. It reminds me of the times where I was at peace in the solitude of nature. Nature has a way about it to bring peace to ones soul or at least that is how it is for me personally. The picture above is reminding me that I need to go on one more hike before the end of summer.