Trying to Get to Sleep

Hello, World!!! It is nearly eleven at night here in Seattle with my cat, Billie Dean by my side. I’m having trouble going to sleep again. I just wish I knew why I have been having issues sleeping. It’s something to talk with my mental health and physical health teams about.

Anyway, I had an okay day today. I went to my grandpa’s home and did some of my laundry. I also helped my grandpa with some of his chores. He is 91 going on 92. I love my grandpa so much and am grateful for him everyday. He and my grandma helped my dad raise me.

The thing I’m planning on doing to help me relax enough to get to sleep. So, I am going to be watching Mr. Holland’s Opus which is a great movie that includes music. I love this movie and can watch it multiple times without getting sick of it.

I don’t have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you my reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a good night and Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! It is that time of week that I do my weekly check-in. First and fore most I have been working from home due to the fact that I have been dealing with Covid-19. My work is wanting me to come back to the office at least once a week if not twice a week. So I go a Covid-19 test yesterday to see if it comes back negative which I hope it does because I am going stir crazy isolating because of Covid. On that note at least my employer has be very supportive. I consider myself that I am able to work from home when I am not so fatigue from having Covid-19.

On that note, my family and friends as well as my neighbors have supportive of me going through Covid-19. My family, friends and neighbors have been making sure I’ve been getting fed with food they make me. They also provide me with stuff like toilet paper and cleaning supplies. I’m grateful that I have people in my life that care about me and willing to make sure I am doing okay.

Going back to the work issue, I feel like I am lucky that I am able to have the luxury from home. Yes, I did have to take about week off because Covid-19 sucks shit and was so fatigue from it that even working from home was challenging. Again, I am happy that I am well enough to be able to work from home. Yes, I still fill shitty but at least I feel well enough go work from home and I am lucky to be able to work from home.

As far as my sleep goes, it sucks shit. I didn’t sleep well last night and ended up sleeping all day today. My sleep hygiene sucks right now. I am not sure why but I would like to blame having Covid-19. Weather or not Covid is the reason why my sleep schedule is so off.

I don’t have much more lack of sleep issue. I sadly slept all day today due to the lack of sleep I got last night. I really do not like when my sleep schedule is so out of wack but I realize that I will get back to a normal sleep schedule for myself.

I don’t have much more to say about my weekly check in. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader, I would not be writing my blog. I greatly appreciate that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading in my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

The Great Escape via a Book

Well, Happy Good in the Middle of the night to the folks who can’t sleep or have to work, World!!! For me I am unable to sleep again for the second night in a row which sucks shits. I will much likely start to read the book. The book’s name is ” The Paper Bag Christmas” by Kevin Alan Milne.. I hope I can start reading it tonight since I am having some much sleep issues which sucks shit. It is my home that I will do a book review on this book and hope the author doesn’t mind.

In fact is one of my goals for 2022 to is read more books and this is great way to off this particular goal to accomplish. Thank you for reading blog. It greatly appreciated that you read my blog. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog.

Not Much Sleep but @ Least I Got a Little Sleep

Good Afternoon, World. I am happy to announce that I got some sleep. I didn’t get much sleep but at least I got a little be of sleep. Now that I am sort of awake, I plan on taking it by reading. I will be reading a book that a family member loaned me. In fact my great aunt load me this book and it appears to be a short book that is an easy read. After that I would be geeking out as well as nerding out by reading comic books. Specifically, I will be reading Wonder Woman comic books.

I figured that reading will be an easy way to relax since I didn’t get much sleep today. Reading is a form of self care for me. Self care is necessary in my line of work as being a peer specialist at a mental health agency. I love my job but need to take care of myself so I can make sure I can be of help to my clients.

Of course my cat is a part or my self care plan. He is such cuddle bug as well as a love bug. I don’t know what I would do with out his unconditional love. I love Billie just as much as he loves me.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog post. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog post. Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog.

Still Can’t F*cking Sleep

Good Morning from Seattle!!! I still have not be to sleep and it is fucking pissing me off. And I really don’t care if this post isn’t G rated. Part of me is wondering if I am unable to sleep because of depression but I am not having my typical signs of depression but it’s something to think about.

On the plus side of things, my family, friends and colleagues are worried about me. In fact they all have been checking in on me which makes me feel love and appreciated. I have some pretty awesome people in my life including my colleagues. My colleagues really seem to care about each other. Of course I know my friends and family love me and care about me.

And of course my precious kitty cat, Billie Dean loves me so very much. He has been following me around all day as well as cuddling with me. He is my baby and I don’t care what others think as Billie in part of my family. I am so glad that he picked me in the shelter. Being picked by any animal is a precious thing especially when it’s a cat or bird.

I best be going now as I am starting fall asleep as I write this blog. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Thank you again from the bottom for my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Going to Work Today

Good Morning, World!!! As if this day couldn’t get worse. Well it could get worse but I have faith it won’t. Despite not getting much sleep last due to an idiot neighbor pulling the fire alarm due to other neighbors not wearing mask which is annoying in itself. I found out my dad was in the Emergency Room all night. He will be admitted to the hospital. It looks like I won’t be going to work like I had hoped to do. I did let two supervisors know as well as HR know that I would be going into work but I will have to now tell them I won’t be going into work. I really want to work but due to the lack of sleep due to a neighbor and my dad being in the hospital, I wouldn’t be at my best to help my clients. I really want to be at my best for my clients at work as they deserve to have me at my best.

On that note, Billie Dean, my cat is cuddling me right now. I think he senses that something is wrong and is comforting me. I just love my cat, Billie so much. He know exactly when I need some extra loving care and comfort.

As far as my dad goes, I hope he is just in the hospital for a couple of days. On a positive note he does not have Covid-19. He had a couple of grand mal seizures so they are just keeping him for observation and to make sure his meds are at an appropriated level. I love dad and am grateful that he raised me as a single dad back in the 80’s and 90’s with the help of my grandparents.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to say thank for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great Wednesday ahead of you. I know I will try to have a good Wednesday. Just remember I appreciate all of you and think you are all awesome people. Peace Out, World!!!

Unable to Sleep so I Might as Well as Read

Good Very Early Morning, World!!! It just a few minutes after two o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world known as Seattle. I really wish could sleep but something I have learned in my recovery is go with the flow even though it is not easy to do at times.

Right now it seems like it is one of those times that it’s easy to go with the flow even when it wasn’t the flow you thought would happen. On of my new year’s goals was to be reading more. Long story short my great aunt who is my grandpa’s sister lent my grandpa to read a book. My grandpa hasn’t read it yet but let me borrower it to read. It appears to be an easy reading and not a very long book which is good thing. So it is my goal to read this book within two week starting after I end this particular blog post. The book is set in the holiday season focusing on Christmas. I am more into Science Fiction and Fantasy genre books but it never hurt to try something knew when it comes to reading or anything else. At least Billie Dean my cat will be cuddling up with me as I read this book. I hope to give a review of this book when I am done with it.

I do not have much more to say about this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog because if it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you have a better night sleep than I am having. Peace Out, World!!!

An Extremely Lazy Sunday

Good Evening, World!!! It is ten o’clock at night in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. I literally have done nothing all day be eat, sleep and read Wonder Woman comic books. I mostly slept all day. I wish I didn’t sleep all day because it screws up with my sleep hygiene; sleep schedule.

I’m starting to get worried about my sleep schedule because I am wondering it is mainly due to getting over Covid-19 or if depression symptoms are starting to creep back in. No matter the reason, I just want to be back on my normal sleep schedule. If it is because of depression, I will need to let both my physical and mental health teams be aware of it. As far as the Covid-19 shit messing with the sleep, I know it’s normal for some people to feel extremely fatigue that it makes them sleep more than they usually do.

As far as when I have been awake today, I’ve been in bed cuddling with my very sweet kitty, Billie Dean. In fact I joke around with people that I sleep with a man every night name Billie. Not my fault people don’t pick up on the joke especially when they know I have a male cat. Billie is such a cuddle but and a pain in the butt at times.

While being in bed most of the day cuddling with my precious cat, Billie, I have been reading comics. Specifically comic books. To be more specific, I have been reading Wonder Woman comic books. In fact the back story of me becoming a Wonder Woman fan was because of my dad who was a single dad. Long story short my mom abandoned both my dad and myself in the middle of the night when my dad was working a night shift leaving me home by myself at the age of three. I know my mom left a note but since I couldn’t l read it I called my grandparent phone number which I was required to memorize. Anyway, my mom left both me and my dad because she couldn’t handle dealing with a man with a TBI working on sobriety and a daughter dealing with hearing impairments and speech delays. Even though I had my paternal grandmother as a female role model, my dad with his intellectual disabilities and TBI know he was not able to read due to is disabilities he wanted to make sure I had a role model to look up to even if it was/is a fictional one. So at the age of them three my dad started buying me Wonder Woman comic books. As I grew older and learned how to read, I would read two to three Wonder Woman comic books to my dad as part of our bedtime routine. I may still be sad my dad was not able to read bedtime stories to me but am grateful that we looked and Wonder Woman comic books as apart of our bedtime routine which turned into me reading them to my dad once I was able to read. Yes, my grandparents did help with me learning to read but watching my dad full of pride with me reading is something I will never forgot.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post except the my dad making sure I learned to read despite him not being able to read makes my heart happy and grateful. I would like to thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reading reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. Again, from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! This week has one hell of a week. Not exactly a bad type hell of week but more like a frustrating type hell of a week. First things first, I had to take this past Monday off due to still having covid-19 and feeling like fucking shit. I still feel like crap but at least I am feeling better enough to work. Thankfully, I have the luxury of being able to work from home because I would not be feeling well enough to be working in the office. Covid-19 is no fucking joke. I was informed my the Emergency Room doctors as well as my own doctor that if I hadn’t had the vaccine and the booster shot for Covid-19 I most likely would have end up in the hospital due to the fact I have underlining health issues.

On that note, despite not feeling very well, I still worked most of the week from home. I worked from Tuesday through yesterday, Friday. In fact I initially wasn’t going to work yesterday, Friday, because it would have been my grandma’s 92nd birthday but realized taking off the day she passed away on would be a better day to take off. My supervisor, therapist, doctor, friends and family all agreed. Even though work went well this past week, I did manage to celebrate my grandma’s birthday by having a slice of banana cream pie as it was would she would have wanted for her birthday. I also sang happy birthday to a picture of my grandma.

Despite working from home while to completely feeling well, my friends and family have been checking on me to see how I have been doing especially health wise. There nothing like having Covid-19 to worry everyone for several reasons. One of which everyone want to make sure I am isolating so I don’t infect others which is a no brainer and something I am doing. Secondly, they are all worried that the Covid-19 can get worse for me due to having other health issues. I am so blessed to have friends and family that love me. Talk to you all later as now it’s time to spend more time cuddling my cat, Billie Dean. It appears that Billie want me to stop typing and give him attention.

Not Exactly How I Planned to Start my Weekend

Good Saturday Afternoon, World!!! I did not get much sleep last night due to insomnia. When I did finally get to sleep a neighbor pulled the fire alarm on several occasions due to the fact other neighbors weren’t wearing their mask. I understand being frustrated others not wearing mask because we are in a middle of pandemic with Covid-19. That doesn’t me you pull a fire alarm because someone is not wearing a mask. Needless to say, I am extremely frustrated that this is still continuing and the police and apartment management company are doing shit. The fire department is fining the individual pulling the alarm as well the apartment management. So, at least the fire department is doing something about it.

On that note, my grandpa and uncle came over to drop some things off for me. They brought me some cough medicine as well cough drops because I am still dealing with the annoying and painful cough that is still lingering from having Covid-19. They even made me one of my favorite food and brought it me which is Cheese Tortellini. It was yummy and have some left over for dinner tonight. Oh how I love that my grandpa made me my favorite dish and that my uncle drove him to give it to me. And much to my surprise my uncle paid me back the money he owed be and gave me an extra $20 “for interest” because it took him so long to pay me back.

Now I am going to cuddle with my cat, Billie Dean, on my lap and watch a couple of movies. I’m not sure what movies I am going to watch but I know for a fact that Billie won’t mind spending a few hours on my lap as I do nothing but watch a movie or two.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have an absolutely great weekend ahead of you and that it is a fun and relaxing one. Peace Out, World!!!