Just Some Ramblings About Life

Developing Your Eye; Day 8: Treasure

My teddy bear that I’ve had since the day I was born or so I’m told

Treasure can mean different things to different people. For instance I have what I call many treasures including my cat Billie and having a place to call home. But for today, the treasure I’ve decided to feature for this assignment is my teddy bear. In fact my uncle got him for me the day I was born or at least that is way the story goes. Considering, that he needs to be stuffed again and have his arm sewn back together at this very moment, I believe the story. The picture in this post just shows the Teddy wasn’t in dire need of being put back together. I call my teddy bear; Teddy or Ted. My family says it’s time to put him in retirement and let him watch over me as I sleep while he sits on the dresser. I agree but I’ve been sleeping with this stuffed animal for my entire life and it’s hard to give up. Teddy has been pretty much everywhere with me except when I went to camp as a preteen and teenager. So, Teddy is a treasure that has seen it all with me; the good, the bad and the ugly and lets not forget he has seen me in my recovery process. Since he has been with me my entire life that is why I chose him to be my featured treasure.

Developing Your Eye; Day 4: Bliss

This is my cat, Billie the first night he was home after adopting him from a local animal shelter. In this picture he is giving me a hug as he sleeps. It’s one of my favorite picture and gives me since of bliss he trusted me from day one.

I feel like the picture explains itself as Billie, my cat found his bliss in in new furrever home with me two and half years ago. His first night home he was comfortable sleeping on me while giving me a hug. One of the most previous I have of Billie.

Developing Your Eye; Day 1: Home

A sunset taken from my home. I looked out my west window and saw this wonderful sunset. I admit at first I thought it was fire but quickly realized it was and is a beautiful sunset.

I had gotten home from doing something and the first thing I noticed was the sunset outside my west window. It was and is so beautiful I had to take a picture of it and am glad to be able to share you with all of you. I do have to say the photo doesn’t due the beauty justice but at least you can still see the beauty. I love when I am home and see this type of beauty.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 19: Feature a Guest

A picture of Billie Dean the Kat who is the featured guest

Good Morning, World!!! I know it is weird to have a cat or any animal as a featured guest on a blog. My plan is to ask him questions and answer them the way I think he would answer them as he were able to speak human and not just meow like the cat he is. Here is the “interview.”

Me: How did we originally meet?

Billie: We met while you doing a regular volunteer shift at PAWS Cat City.

Me: Was it love at first sight for you?

Billie: I think it was love at first sight for the both of us. I know you love my crinkly ear and you can’t deny that.

Me: When you came home with me, how did you feel?

Billie: Do you really need to ask that question? You know I love you unconditionally.

Me: What can I do better as your parent?

Billie: You can feed me at the butt crack of dawn when I ask for it then. Hell, you can feed me whenever I ask for it even if there is still food in the bowl.

Me: You do realize I’m not going to get up at the butt crack of dawn to feed you when I know you have food?

Billie: Yes, but do you remember who runs this home?

Me: Of course I do. You run this home, I just pay the bills.

Billie: I love you but I’m done with this interview. It’s time for another nap.

Anxiety Increasing as Tomorrow Gets Closer

Hello, World!!! My anxiety is increasing as tomorrow gets closer. Even though I’ve had my first week of work it was mostly done remotely or in person with the HR and IT departments which is at different location that I will be working at. See tomorrow in my first day at my job site and I am nervous as fucking hell. I know it is okay to be nervous but not just anxious about my first day at my job site.

I am nervous about having to take public transportation again. The last two years I’ve been either working from home or taking Lyft to and from work due to Covid-19 as I was trying to limit the amount of exposure I could get. I’m not so worried about the exposure as much due to having the vaccine, the booster and actually being diagnosed with Covid-19 the day after I got the booster. Covid suck shit and I know there is a possibility of getting it again but that is not why I’m worried about using public transportation. I’m nervous because, I’ll be taking a route I’ve never taken before. I’m nervous because even on routes, I am familiar with, there are times I have to get off due anxiety and/or PTSD issues and would have to wait for the next bus so I could be in a better head space to be back on the bus. I know everything will be fine but I’m still anxious about it. I just to get use to public transportation again as well as a new route to me.

When I get home from work tomorrow I am sure my cat Billie dean will be more than happy that I am home. Hell, Billie is always happy when I get home even if it is for five minutes for checking my mail or taking out the garbage. I’m more than certain that I will be just as happy to be home as my cat will be.

I do not have much else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, once again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Middle of a Sunday Afternoon Update

Good Afternoon, World!!! I’m not feeling so good. It’s not because I am sick; it is because I am dealing with the worst cramps in the world and I usually have some pretty bad cramps. These cramps are some of the worst I’ve had that at one point in time they were so painful, I actually cried and had to take one of my narcotic medications to relieve the pain. I rarely take a narcotic pain reliever especially for cramps as I have high tolerance for pain.

Since my cramps were so bad I called in sick to my volunteer job. I called out because wouldn’t be able to do my volunteer work like should do it because of my stupid period.

Having a period doesn’t mean you are a woman; it means you have uterus and were assigned at birth to be “female.” In fact people naturally assume I am “female” because I was assigned it at birth and appear to look like one when in reality, I consider myself non-binary and gender non conforming. I realize I could loose some followers and regular readers for my gender identity but that is their choice even if I would like them to continue to read my blog.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post except that having a period fucking sucks. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciative from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It truly means the world to me that you do read my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 10: Let the Scene Write Itself

I am grudgingly writing this post post because I’m sick of looking at my messy ass apartment. Also I’m sick and tired of what I think is the same crow taunting my poor cat Billie all he wants to do is taunt the poor cute squirrels.

On that note, if I look past the tree I can see that there is an accident on the freeway across the street from me. Some call freeways; highways but I call them freeways. I just hope everyone is okay in the accident.

Now, I am hear a crinkly sound. It’s my cat Billie with his he in my bag of Lays Bar-Be-Que Chips. For some reason he loves only this brand and flavor of chips. I got one weird ass cat name Billie. I do love him so much.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 3; One-Word Inspiration

Choice

I chose the word choice because we all have choices to make. Some are good and some are not so good. For example I had and interview for a job and told them yes when they offered me the job the next dey. I really ant this job; its the commute I am not not a big fan of. Even I have taken the job and haven’t started yet, I am still applying for other jobs that are closer to home and pay more.

Worse care scenario I make a decision of taking a job closer to home and pays more money. The think about this job that I took was be cause the HR lad who works there work at the job I was laid of from. In fact I admire her.

In all honesty I don’t ant to make the choice of making a job change especially if I haven’t started yet or just start the job. It is a choice I will have to decide on if it comes up.

The Very Little Things I Did Being Home Sick

Good Evening, World!!! If you read my last post you would know I stayed home sick. I have done very little to day. I did spend a lot of time cuddling with my cat Billie especially when I was reading. I read a few chapter in Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. So far I am enjoying it. I’ve also been reading Wonder Woman comic books.

I’ve been reading when I have not been sleeping. I hope I am able to go to work tomorrow especially since I only have two week left before my lay off date. I really don’t like sleeping during the day because I am afraid I might not sleep at night.

I don’t have anything else to say except I need to eat dinner and then cuddle with my cat Billie again. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!