Still Struggling but Doing Better

Good Evening, World. It is almost ten o’clock on a Sunday night here in rainy Seattle. I feel like the rain fits my current mood of being depressed. On that note, it feel like the depression is lifting a little bit which is a really good thing.

Sadly, I did not go to my volunteer job at PAWS Cat City this morning because I did not get much sleep last night. It felt like I didn’t getting any sleep but I’m sure I got some sleep; sort of like cat naps or I would have most likely slept all day today if I got absolutely no sleep last night.

I’ve been lucky today as I had some of my support system help me out today. My uncle and grandpa came over with some breakfast. After we ate breakfast, my uncle and grandpa helped me a little bit with cleaning my apartment. It’s still a disaster area but at least you can tell there is some improvement.

After my family helped me with my apartment, I decided to turn on my music and play it very loudly. So, loud I will be surprised if one of my neighbor don’t complain to the apartment management. On that note, while having my music on full blast, decided to do some art work. The type of art work I did was coloring. I love to color and was able to finish the piece I was coloring to give to a friend who is a neighbor and live in my apartment building.

So, I went up to my friends apartment who is a neighbor and gave him my finished coloring piece I colored for him. In fact his music was on blast as well. He was also doing some art work except he was painting. In fact he allowed me to add to his painting which I found cool that he let me help him with this painting.

When I came back from my friends apartment, I decided to binge watch a couple of television shows on Netflix and Hulu. Of course, Billie Dean, my cat sat on my lap as I binged watched television shows. I love my cat so very much. He is a very sweet and loving kitty. He is also very much a lap kitty which is great especially when my depression is acting up.

As far as the Everyday Inspiration course I am taking through WordPress, I plan on continuing the course where I last left off. I really enjoy taking this course. It helps me stay focused on blogging. It also helps me keep you the reader more interested in my blog or at least that is my hope in what it does.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you, the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 12: Critique a Piece of Work

Good Afternoon, World!!! It is hard for me to critique a piece of work weather it’s art, a piece of music or piece of writing including poetry. I have a hard time critiquing because everyone has a different way to expressing themselves. Not all them will be my cup of tea but I will not critique someone’s peace of art, music or writing including poetry as it is not my place to judge.

Wishing the Depression Would Disappear

Hello, World!!! It is late Friday evening, In fact it is almost on eleven at night on Friday. I went to work today and that went fine and dandy despite the depression and anxiety would go away. I love my job and am grateful for it. I just wish Depression and Anxiety wouldn’t get in the way of my job but at least I am still able to work and do an okay job at it. Of course when I got home from work Billie Dean greeted me at the door which helped with the depression and anxiety

When I got home I spent time doing some art while listening to music. Specifically the type of art work I was doing was coloring. I was doing some coloring of some morbid coloring books while listening to YungBlud and Nirvana. I love doing art while listening to music. As I was coloring and listening to music, Billie of course was trying to “help” me do my art work by coloring.

I do not have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope to start back to Everyday Inspiration course tomorrow (Saturday). I really want to finish the course. Again, thank from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World.

A Brief Post About Nothing

Good Evening, World!!! I didn’t post my Everyday Inspiration today because, my depression and anxiety were so bad that I needed to call out to work due being sick. Well maybe really depressed and anxiety ridden. I’ve been sleeping most of the day. I feel bad because, I was ignored my poor Billie Dean all night as well as today due to sleeping the most of the day. I hope you all can forgive me. I will be back to do my Everyday Inspiration course on tomorrow (Friday ) and/or Saturday. Thank you for understanding.

I do not have much more to discuss in his particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. I am greatly appreciated that you the reader, read the blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 11: A Cup of Coffee

If we were to go out for cup of coffee, I would not be drinking coffee as I do not like the taste of coffee. I do love the smell of coffee but highly dislike the taste of coffee. Yes, I realize that is weird considering that I have lived in Seattle over 25 years.

In fact when I go out to “coffee” with friends, I usually get hot chocolate or some hot tea. In fact it depends on the time of year as well as the time of day on what I get. If it is in the morning, I normally get some tea. When it is the holiday season I most likely will get hot chocolate unless it is first thing in the morning. The rest of the day and/or year it depends on how am feeling at the moment. I am grateful that my friend who are originally from the Seattle area don’t give me a hard time about not drinking coffee.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 10: Let the Scene Write Itself

Right now I am working from home. I am sitting in a comfy chair in front of my work computer. Technically, it’s a laptop but you get the idea. I am looking at my schedule for the day. Nothing but meetings all day. Well, not all day; I am seeing two client virtually today.

Not only do I see my work laptop, I see my cat, Billie Dean. Billie is on his cat tree looking out my living room window. I’m not sure if he is seeing a bird or two or even a squirrel but Billie is looking intently at something outside.

Another thing I see is the wall in front of me. It has pictures. Pictures of my beloved family. A family that may be dysfunctional but at least I know my family loves me. I know they love me even when we don’t get along. I love my family.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 9: Writing & Not Writing

To write or not to write depends on the context. For example, my job requires me to write notes on clients after having a session with. I tend to write the notes on my clients as soon as possible; usually after the session is over. Sadly, there are times I can’t write notes after a session with client which is why the last hour of my work day is for paperwork which includes finishing up notes on clients I saw that day.

When it comes to blogging, I try to blog at least twice a week. On that note, as of today I am on a twenty-three day writing streak. I think in is one of the longest streaks I have been on. I’m sure I have had longer writing streaks when in comes to blogging but I’m sure how long ago it was or when it was.

When, I to comes to journaling, I tend to make an effort to do it three to four times a week. I try to do it that often because it’s a form self care for me. It helps me keep my mental health symptoms in check especially when my symptoms are acting up.

Now on to poetry, it usually happens when I feel inspired to do so. Sometimes it comes multiple times a day to not writing any poetry for a month or two. When it comes to not writing poetry for a month or two, I contribute to writers block which happens more often than I like it to happen.

As far as when and where I write is dependent on what I am writing. It is also dependent on the time of year due to the weather here in Seattle. I like to write outside but I only do that when it’s nice outside and not work related. When it’s work related it needs to be in a private due to HIPAA laws. Sadly, I do not have an outside setting that is private so it’s inside a private space for work related stuff.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 8: Reinvent the Letter Format

I’m not exactly like to reinvent something that works such as letters. I know there are different type of letters; like business letters, person letters to friends and family as well as Dear John letters. But why reinvent the letter. All it matters to me is that I have friends that send me letters that are delivered by the mail carrier. I happily respond to those letter to friend and family via letter. Hand written letters are so much more personable than email ninety-nine percent of the time. So why reinvent the letter.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 7: Let Social Media Inspire You

In all honesty right now social media isn’t inspiring me to write about it. Nothing on Facebook or Twitter inspire me at the moment. Hell, I rarely use my Twitter account. I don’t do Instagram nor do I understand TicTok. I wish I could be inspired by something on Facebook but it just angers me and I don’t really want to be angry. So as I’m not going to write about something I am not inspired by.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 6: The Space to Write

As far as a space to write depends on if I am working from home or from the office. When it comes to working from the office, it is easier to write notes. As far as writing notes for work when I work from my home, I do have a “work space” which I not only do appointments with clients virtually but have to write notes on my client and it seems to be working.

As far as writing space for blogging it depends on my mood, the weather and my work schedule. I usually blog from home in various places that is not my home work space. I also l like to take space to write outside when the weather is good. Preferably at parks that have some nature hiking trails in some of the Seattle Park system. I tend to do my best writing when I’m in “nature” even if it’s in the middle of the city.

Of course when I am writing in one of my favorite places at home when it is not work related, my cat Billie Dean loves to help me write. Billie even want to help me with my work notes but he seems to want to help with the non work stuff. I love the Billie tries to help me write. I love him so much.