Still Fighting Off Fucking Depression

Good Afternoon, again, World!!! I am still fighting off fucking depression however it is slowing going away with the things I have done so far. I hung out with a friend. We went to Red Robin and had a late lunch, early dinner. We then walked around the mall and ended up getting pictures with Santa Claus. Getting a picture together with Santa was fun.

Even though the holidays bring more depression my way, I am glad I am coming up with new ways to fight off the depression and to start new traditions. My friend and I are going to do the Santa picture every year from now on.

I am now at my volunteer job waiting for five o’clock to come around as that is when my shift start. I only have about fifteen more minutes till my shift starts which is okay with me. I love my volunteer job. I have been at this volunteer job for four years now. It has helped me a great deal with my life and mental health.

Granted my depression is still acting up at the moment but I am glad I have decided to not isolate. Isolation is a persons worst enemy when they have depression. Fighting isolation and depression sucks shit but I am currently doing it at the moment.

I am just realizing this is my third post today. I have not posted multiple times in a day in a very long time. I am grateful that I am utilizing this great coping skill for me. I hope that me blogging helps you my reader.

I do not have much else to say. I hope everyone has an awesome Saturday afternoon and evening. Thank you so very much for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of this. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

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Fighting Off Depression & Feeling Horrible About Lying

Good Afternoon, World!!! I was asked if I could work tomorrow night and I said no due to having the flu. Yes, I know that was a lie but, I haven’t been feeling all that well and feel like I am coming down with a cold. In all honesty I don’t feel like working for the individual that wants me to work for them tomorrow because it always appears that I am working for that particular person. So, I told this person a lied saying I have the flu even though I don’t.

I really feel bad for lying to this individual about having the flu but since I feel like I am coming down with the cold and I see my doctor on Tuesday, I can get a doctors not as a precaution. I know lying is bad and it make me feel horrible about myself and it is something I rarely do. I just don’t want to work for this person as they always seem to be the one who needs someone to work for them.

On the plus side this whole ordeal is making me realize even more than usual that this job is not the best fit for me due to the fact that it is an on call position for a graveyard shift. If I had a more regular shift even for a graveyard shift I think I could do the job but since it is an on call position it is difficult for me due to sleep issues that I already have.

Because of this realization I am working on my resume and cover letter to apply to other jobs. Jobs that I will be interested in even if they are not Peer Specialist positions. Most anything with a study schedule in a field that is in the social service field I am cool with.

Even though I am working on job stuff, I have come to realize that my depression has increased a little bit today. Enough to where I don’t want to go to my volunteer job. Even though my depression is acting up I will be going to my volunteer job this evening. Getting out and doing something for others is always helpful for me even if it doesn’t feel like it at the moment.

I might be fighting off depression but at least I am attempting to not isolate by spending time with a friend before I go to my volunteer job as well as going to my volunteer job. My friend and I are going to go have a late lunch early dinner at our favorite restaurant, Red Robin. I love Red Robin. Eating at Red Robin with friends is always a good time and helps a good portion of the time.

I do not have much else to say in this post. I do feel really bad about lying to my colleague about having the flu so I don’t have to work tomorrow and hope that I am able to work through lying to them. Other than that I don’t have much else to say. I hope everyone has a good rest of their weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Spending Time With Grandpa

Good Evening, World!!! It is ten o’clock at night in my corner of the world. I have been spending time with my grandpa as I am staying the night at his place tonight. We went to Red Robin to have a nice meal with wonderful service. After eating at Red Robin, we came back to my grandpa’s place and I applied for a job.

A part time job as a peer specialist. I was going to apply for my jobs but I got to sleepy to do so, so I feel asleep for about three hours. Sleep that I desperately need. Now that I am up and awake I plan on applying for more jobs as a peer specialist.

I am looking forward to my volunteer job interview with the Seattle Art Museum (SAM) on Thursday. I am looking forward to this because it will help me gain more of a community in the art community. Plus if I get the volunteer job it will look good on the resume’.

No need to worry about Lil Gertie, my cat, as she is being taking care of my a friend of mine who happens to be a neighbor. A friend who is really good with animals. He should be called the animal whisper.

Well, I am going to get going and watch the news. Have a wonderful night everyone. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Just Another Boring Post

Good Afternoon, World!!! I have decided I am not going to go volunteer tonight. I rather spend time with my grandpa watching the Seattle Seahawks preseason game. As much as I am not big American Football fan it’s always nice to spend time with my grandpa spending time with what he enjoys to do.

While spending time with my grandpa and uncle I plan on not only watching the Seattle Seahawk game, I plan on blogging as well as looking for and applying for jobs. I plan on doing this as I am extremely eager to go back to work. Working gives me a sense of purpose like volunteer does however work gives me more purpose.

As I spend time with my grandpa and uncle a good friend of mine who is a neighbor will be taking care of Lil Gertie, my cat, for me. He is very fond of my cat and I can trust him with Lil Gertie. I will miss Lil Gertie while I am gone even though it is just over night.

I am hoping that spending time with my grandpa and uncle that we can go out to eat on my treat to Red Robin. I am a big fan of Red Robin and the food they serve as well as their awesome service. It appears that the Red Robin event keep being put off and I hope this time it doesn’t get put off this time around.

In all honestly I most likely will be working on my resume’ and applying for jobs as I really want to get back to work. Not working is getting quite boring for me. Applying for work helps me feel productive even though I know I am productive in other ways in my life.

Thank you for reading my boring post. I thank you for reading my post. It is sincerely appreciated from my end of things. I hope I am not boring you with the same ole topics in my post. I’ll try to come up with new idea’s to discuss. Again thank you so much for reading my post. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Exactly A Morning Person

Good Morning, World!!! If you could call it a good morning. I am not exactly a morning person any morning but this morning I most definitely not a morning person. I didn’t get much sleep last night. At least I have some positive things going on in my life today. Some things I may not want to do but are good for me to day.

My day starts off with attending a doctor’s appointment for my stupid weird ass mouth infection. I know I have said this many times before in other post but I hope she can give me some stronger antibiotics. I also hope for some stronger pain meds but all the pain meds will do is cover up the problem and not fix it. At least the antibiotics will be able to fix problem.

After seeing my doctor, I will be seeing my therapist. We will be discussing some behaviors that I need to learn to control. Also, I hope that he can help me with some paper work or at least make sure I am understanding the paperwork correctly. I might have to actually go to the DSHS office to take care of the paperwork but at least my therapist might be able to help.

My grandpa is picking me up from therapy appointment so we can go to Red Robin. I am treating him to lunch at Red Robin. It’s always nice to spend time with family that are supportive especially over food.

Oh, I highly dislike mornings but I am one of those people I would rather get things done early so I can relax later on during the day. I am still waiting for my news paper to be delivered. It is my morning ritual to read the paper and drink tea with milk, honey and sugar in it.

Despite the lack of sleep last night, I hope that I can keep my anger under control. My anger is easily flared up when I don’t get much sleep. At least I am aware of this and can be mindful of when my anger starts to arise.

It’s just barely after six in the morning in my corner of the world. That means I should start getting ready for the day. Thank you for reading my blog and hope you enjoy reading it. I hope to blog more later on today to share how things are going. It’s greatly appreciated from my end that you read. Peace Out, World!!!

Still Haven’t Been To Sleep, I Might As Well Get Up For The Day

Good Morning and Happy Friday, World!!! I still haven’t been to sleep yet and it is four in the morning in my corner of the world. Not sure why I haven’t been to sleep but at least I see my doctor and therapist today.

Not sure why I can’t sleep because once I discuss what’s bothering me like in my last post, I am able to get to sleep. It’s just too early to be awake much less wanting to get the day started due to the lack of sleep.

I do see my doctor today regarding my weird ass mouth infection. I am hoping that she can give me an antibiotic that is stronger and more helpful than the one I am on.  The pain is still pretty intense and wish it would go away.

I see my therapist later this morning and I’ll be discussing some of the stuff I talked about in my last post. He might be able to help me a little bit on the paper work. I really think I just need to go into the DSHS office next week to work it out there.

My grandpa and I never did go to Red Robin yesterday for various reasons. So we decided that we are going to go after I see my therapist. Like I have said before, I love Red Robin for both their food and their awesome customer service. I love spending time with my grandpa.

As you may know, I have advertisements on my blog. I have them on my blog to earn an extra few cents every time someone clicks on an add. I just hope people are doing that so I can make extra money for the holidays so I can give gifts to my friends and family. Please click on the ads for me. I would be extremely grateful for it.

Thank you for reading my blog. Also thank you for putting up with my shit especially when I am ask you to do me a favor by clicking the ads on my blog so I can earn some extra money. I hope everyone has a wonderful Friday. Happy Friday!!! Peace Out, World!!!

 

More Randomness From A Tired Person

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am still tired as hell due to the lack of sleep last night. The insomnia isn’t what kept me up last night though it play a small roll in the lack of sleep. Part of the reason I didn’t sleep last night was because some idiot of a neighbor kept pulling the pull stations on every floor to set off the fire alarm. Needless to say there were and are a lot of angry people and scared pets in the building right now.

I am looking forward to spending time with my grandpa later this afternoon. I am treating him to my favorite restaurant, Red Robin. I always get great food as well as great service when I go there.  My grandpa likes it there as well however it can be too loud for him to hear anybody.

I am still playing email tag with a future employer about a job. Actually, more like finding a time for a job interview. I hope to hear back from her sometime today. I really want this job as I will be working with the homeless once again and the best part I would be working within the age group I want to work with. That is young adults. Cross your fingers that I not only get the interview as it sounds like I will but cross them fingers that I get the job as well.

Something I did yesterday was apply for two volunteer positions. One with the Seattle Art Museum (SAM) and the other at Benaroya Hall, the home of the Seattle Symphony. These are some things that I am interested in. Plus it looks good on a resume’. It shows employer that that I have many interest in the community. The local community at that. Having the arts and music on my resume’ will show future employers that I am a well rounded person.

Another thing I am planning on doing that I could put on a resume’ with some discretion is volunteering for candidates that are running for election during this years mid-term elections.   I am already volunteering for two candidates and am excited to help them win the seats they are running for. With volunteering for anything politics putting it on a resume’ is dependent on where and what you’re applying for.

I am still in pain from the stupid mouth infection I am dealing with. That is why I am seeking health care from my doctor tomorrow. Hopefully, she can help with getting rid of the infection. I also hope she can help with the pain management thing as well.

It appears from my end of things that I have be quite long winded as of lately when it comes to my post. I hope you all don’t mind me being long winded. Sometimes I just need to let things out that I may not be able to talk about verbally to others or others might get tired of the randomness of the various topics I bring up.

Thank you so very much for reading my blog. I appreciate that you take the time to read it or even skim over it. I hope everyone has a great Thursday and Peace Out World!!!