Apparently, Not Going Back to Sleep Tonight

Good Fucking, Morning, World!!! This is most likely be a rant of a post. It is 6:03am in the morning here in Seattle. I am one angry person who is now a fucking a cranky bucket and now I have to be up to start getting ready for work. Work that I love to do but challenging on a good day and even more challenging when you are a cranky bucket.

I swear my neighbors don’t get it or understand that arguing and physically fighting is not a good thing any time of the day especially in the middle of the night. Then there is the idiot neighbor who has pulled the fire alarm so many times it’s not funny and very angering on my part as well as other neighbors me angry. The Seattle Fire Department and the Seattle Police Department are doing shit about the dude pulling the fire alarm. All I want it fucking sleep so I can be the best I can be for the best I can be for the client a serve at work.

I really don’t want to be cranky at work especially working really to not be one when I am in sessions with clients. My clients tend to understand which is a good thing. Now that I have to be up to get ready for work, it is time for morning meditation mindfulness practice with a nice cup of tea.

Well, I don’t have much more to say expect for thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my heart. Here is to a day that I hope to not be a cranky bucket. Peace Out, World!!!

Phuck Getting Sleep Tonight

Good Morning, World!!! Apparently it appears I am not getting a good night sleep tonight because I have neighbors that a physically fighting on my hallway floor. On top of that other neighbors are pulling the building the fire alarm. I am tired and tired has phucking hell. All the shit that is happening is trigging my PTSD. I am tired as hell and a phucking cranky buck it. I just wish Seattle Housing Authority (SHA), The Seattle Fire Department as well as the Seattle Police would do something. People do need to work and being a cranky bucket is not a way to start the day.

I don’t have much to say. Thank you for listening to my rants especially about my neighbors.

Almost Asleep but Two Idiots Woke Me up

Good Fucking Morning, Word! I was almost fucking asleep due to another sleepless night. One dickwod of my neighbors pulled the fire alarm again due to the fact anther dickwad of neighbor not wearing a mask. I all want is this pulling of the fire alarm to stop if it is not a true emergency. I am tired as hell and want some fucking sleep. If I don’ get some sleep soon I will become a bat shit cranky bucket. Lets hope i get some hope I get some sleep now.

Not Going to Work Today

Good Morning, World!!! As if this day couldn’t get worse. Well it could get worse but I have faith it won’t. Despite not getting much sleep last due to an idiot neighbor pulling the fire alarm due to other neighbors not wearing mask which is annoying in itself. I found out my dad was in the Emergency Room all night. He will be admitted to the hospital. It looks like I won’t be going to work like I had hoped to do. I did let two supervisors know as well as HR know that I would be going into work but I will have to now tell them I won’t be going into work. I really want to work but due to the lack of sleep due to a neighbor and my dad being in the hospital, I wouldn’t be at my best to help my clients. I really want to be at my best for my clients at work as they deserve to have me at my best.

On that note, Billie Dean, my cat is cuddling me right now. I think he senses that something is wrong and is comforting me. I just love my cat, Billie so much. He know exactly when I need some extra loving care and comfort.

As far as my dad goes, I hope he is just in the hospital for a couple of days. On a positive note he does not have Covid-19. He had a couple of grand mal seizures so they are just keeping him for observation and to make sure his meds are at an appropriated level. I love dad and am grateful that he raised me as a single dad back in the 80’s and 90’s with the help of my grandparents.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to say thank for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great Wednesday ahead of you. I know I will try to have a good Wednesday. Just remember I appreciate all of you and think you are all awesome people. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Tired to Sleep

At this point in time I don’t really care if my blog is rated fucking G. I am getting extremely fucking angry at my neighbor who keeps pulling the fire alarm. I understand his frustration with others not wearing their mask but that doesn’t mean you put the fucking fire alarm. I’m sure sometime down the road I will laugh over this but right now it’s not exactly laughable. Well, I can giggle a little because the dude tells on himself when the firefighters arrive to the building. I honestly don’t know who is my angry myself and my neighbors or the fire department. I am pretty sure that the firefighter are just as tired as my neighbors and I with the about of times my neighbor has pulled the fire alarm.

On that note, I am pretty sure that the animals in my building aren’t happy about it either. I sure know my cat Billie Dean isn’t a happy camper about it. On a good note at least my neighbors with pets including myself are evacuating which means we get to know each other a little be more. Not exactly the way I would want to get to know my neighbors but at least we are getting to know each other.

The thing my neighbors and I don’t understand is why the dude is pulling the alarm for one or two people not wearing their mask. I know for a fact that I wear my mask but when the fire alarm goes off, I don’t always remember to wear my mask as I am too concerned with getting the hell out of the building with my cat. So, personally I don’t think this neighbor is exactly thinking this through.

The think that pisses me and my neighbors off the most as well as the fire department is that the police and apartment management aren’t doing shit about it. At least the fire department is fining the neighbor as well as the apartment building management. But sadly it doesn’t seem to be helping but at least the fire department is doing their job unlike the cops and apartment building management. Well it is four forty five in the morning I am going to try to get some sleep as I have to get up at seven o’clock in the morning for work. I just hope I am not a cranky bucket for work.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post except that I want some fucking sleep and not have the fire alarm to go off again due to the idiot neighbor pulling the alarm. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I greatly appreciate all of you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!! It’s now time to try to get back to sleep. Good night world, or maybe I should say good morning since it is four forty five in the morning. Peace Out, World

Angry As Fucking Hell Due to a Neighbor

Good Fucking, Morning, World!!!! I have been woken up four times in a matter of two fucking hours. One of my neighbors keeps pulling the fucking fire alarm because other neighbors are not wearing their goddamn mask. I understand being frustrated with other people not wearing their mask but don’t put the fire alarm.

The sad thing about it is that this dude admits it to the fire department who fines him as well as the building management. Sadly, the building management and the stupid cops are not doing shit about it. I personally think the dude needs to get arrested for it. I know for a fact I am not the only neighbor highly pissed over this situation.

I’m pissed about it because if I don’t get enough sleep then I will not be able to work and work in an appropriate manner. I work with people that have mental health issues and I need to be on top of my game to help my clients.

It’s frustrating as hell but at least my work is understanding for the most part. I just get going so i can get some form of sleep. Peace Our, World!!!

No, Going Back to Sleep for Me

Happy Holidays, World!!! It is 6:03am in the blasted morning and I was finally getting back to sleep after Billie Dean, my cat woke me up. I was almost a sleep and Billie was asleep snoring when the building fire alarm went of. One of my neighbors decided to put the fire alarm pull station again because another neighbor wasn’t not wearing mask. This isn’t the first time this neighbor has pulled the fire alarm pull station when neighbors haven’t been wearing mask. The neighbor who does this pulls it because he wants the fire department to talk with the neighbors who don’t wear mask because of Covid-19. The only thing it is doing is making all the neighbors and the firefighters angry at this particular neighbor. I understand wanting others to wear mask due to the global pandemic but it’s common sense that you don’t pull the fire alarm for someone is not wearing a mask.

The thing is the fire alarm causes my anxiety and my PTSD symptoms to increase. It causes my anxiety to increase because I have to make sure I get my cat, Billie in his carrier and put on my shoes and jacket as well as remembering my keys and wallet as a blaring fire alarm with a strobe light going off. The alarm going off increases my PTSD because, I have been in three fires in my life; two as a child and one as an adult. It’s no fun dealing with PTSD of any kind but it takes me a while to finally get back to an okay place after the building fire alarm goes off.

Well, I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I appreciate all of you. Happy Holidays and Peace Out, World!!!

Phuck, My Neighbor

Good Morning, World!!! I am fucking livid at a particular neighbor of mine. A neighbor of mine has pulled the fire alarm three different times tonight. He pulled it because other neighbors were not wearing their mask due to Covid-19. This isn’t the first time this neighbor has done this and it is becoming a pattern. Apparently, this becoming more frequent and the police and apartment management aren’t doing shit about it.

The police say they can’t arrest this neighbor because it is only a misdemeanor and the county jail are not book misdemeanors due to Covid-19. Well the neighbor who is pulling the fire alarm are putting other people lives at stake and it seem like nobody gives a shit.

I don’t appreciate not being able to sleep because of this neighbor. I need sleep as well as my other neighbors do. Apparently the apartment management has “talked” with this neighbor but that is all or at least that is how it appears to me and other neighbors.

I don’t have much more to say as I want to try to get some sleep tonight. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Without you reading my blog, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for my reading my blog. I hope this day will become better. Peace Out, World!!!

UGH!!! Why Can’t They Just Fix The Damn Thing?

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am quite frustrated at the fucking moment. I am frustrated because the building fire alarm is malfunctioning once again. I just don’t understand why the building management won’t actually fix the damn thing. The fire alarm malfunctions multiple times a month and sadly the entire fire alarm system has been replace three times in the eleven years I have lived here.

The worst thing about it going off this time around is that I was in the freaking shower. There is nothing more annoying than a fire alarm starting to malfunction as you are taking a shower. When the alarm started going off, I quickly got out of the shower, dried off as best as I can and got dressed. I, then put my cat, Lil Gertie, in her carrier and exited the building as I wasn’t sure if there was actually a fire and another malfunction. Thankfully, there was no fire but it sure is frustrating that it was yet another malfunction.

Through all this the fire department called the building management after hours number as nobody is in the office in the evenings or on the weekends. The firefighters are getting quite frustrated with the situation. When the firefighters finally reached someone they were informed that it could take “a few hours to get there.” Well, the firefighter talking with person from management got extremely upset and said “someone needs to be here in a half an hour or less or the fine will double if not triple the amount depending of what the fire marshal decides. Needless to say someone from the building management was here in about fifteen minutes and then about twenty minutes later someone from the maintenance team was here.

More or less all this took about an hour and I am finally back in my apartment. My cat is extremely happy to be out of her carrier and back in the apartment. Hell, I am happy to be back in my apartment. I am now planning on taking another shower as I was unable to finish my last shower due the fire alarm malfunction.

I do not have much more to say as I don’t want to get myself angry as I am frustrated at the moment due to the situation mentioned in this post. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. Peace Out, World!!!

Good Things In Therapy + Whining About 911 Outage

Good Evening, World!!! As many of you know who live in the United States there was a 911 outage due in most of the nation due to a network problem with Century Link. I am a Century Link customer for my land line and internet service and am grateful that my phone line and internet was not interrupted and have only had one issue with them in eighteen years of service. But for me a customer service issue is far different than a 911 outage and the 911 outage has me livid as hell. I won’t change companies because of the outage but have 911 go out in one city much less much of a nation is NEVER a good thing as people lives are at stake.

The worst part about the 911 outage is that the fire alarm system went off in my apartment building twice due to neighbors burning food and both time it didn’t alert the fire department. The alternative numbers that were given to us were busy so some of us, including myself, walked to the closet fire station which is only seven blocks away to let them know. The battalion chief was grateful for me and my neighbor for letting them know about the alarm system going off both times and the back up number not working both time. She even called “the powers at be” to let them know about the back up emergency numbers were not working.

I know that most of the 911 outages are taken care of here in Washington but it is still affecting parts of Seattle. It is effecting my neighborhood in Seattle which sucks. But at least the state and county are at least keeping people updated.

Now on to my session with my therapist today. We discussed what happened to my dad with his seizures as well as my mom overdosing on Heroin and how I able to not be in crisis myself after such a stressful holiday. He stated “with all the family crisis’s going on and the grief of your grandma, I am proud of you that you didn’t let you it put you into a crisis. You deserve to be proud of yourself.” We discussed how well I have been doing and that not calling the crisis team of the holidays shows major improvement in my recovery. Which is true. Even when I was doing extremely well, I had to call the crisis team at least once over the holidays and this year was the first time in over a decade that I didn’t have to.

I don’t have much more to say except that I have a great therapist. A therapist that is awesome. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. Happy Friday!!!  Peace Out, World!!!