Good Morning, once again, World!!! I am out of the Emergency Room however my regular doctor want me to go to an Urgent Care clinic associated with the doctors office I go to which I plan on doing today. I do have an appointment with my regular doctor this Friday but it feels so far away so my doctor is sending me to an Urgent Clinic to see if they can give me more personalized care. In fact my doctor hopes that the Urgent Care Clinic sends me back to the Emergency Room so I can get admitted for this stupid infection that antibiotics appear to not be as helpful as one would hope they would me.
To tell you the truth, I rather me home spending time with Lil Gertie, my cat. I am sure she misses me as much as I miss her since I have been gone so much for so long as of lately. My cat has been a great support for me in more ways than one. She has been by my side even when I am puking in the toilet. She meows out of concern for me when I am puking.
With me not being up to par physically, it is effecting me with my mental health challenges. I do think once I have the physical health gets better so will my mental health symptoms. Or one can hope my mental health symptoms can get better.
I think I should get going so I can get to Urgent Care like my doctor wants me to. I will be taking my laptop with me because who knows what the hell is going to happen. Plus, I will be taking my coloring and art supplies. I can’t forget my trusty phone and headphones for music as music helps me a great deal. I of course will be talking both books and comic books to help me as well. I never know when this stupid illness will put me into the hospital.
Thank you so much for reading. I hope to keep you updated as time allows. I know I will get better in time. Have a wonderful Monday. I hope your work week is as awesome as you all are. Peace Out, World!!!
Hello, World!!! I am now home from the Emergency Room. As I mentioned in my last post I self harmed and took myself to the Emergency Room. I punched a brick wall out of anger and frustration. I didn’t break any bones.
I am going to be reading one of my books. Not sure which one yet. No, I haven’t finished my Star Wars book but I will finish it soon. I am thinking about reading my Buddhist Scriptures.
I think I am going to go read now. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!
Hello, World!!! I am sitting in the Emergency Room because I self harmed. I am going to be okay. I am just waiting to talk with the social worker. I might have to talk with my therapist on the phone as well.
The social worker just showed up to talk with me. I need to get going. Have a good day. I will blog again later. Peace Out, World
Good Morning, World!!! I am back from the emergency room (ER). They gave be some other meds to help me sleep. They want me to try to get sleep without the meds first. I will try to take a nap but wont take the meds till tonight. The doctor wants me to contact my mental health treatment team which I am going to do. I just want to sleep.
Good Morning, World!!! It is now five thirty in the morning for me. I still haven’t gotten any sleep. Sleep that I am desperately wanting and needing. I finally took some Ambien and it didn’t fucking work. It usually does and it is frustrating the hell out of me that I can not get some fucking sleep.
I am so frustrated that it is putting me in crisis mode. Enough of a crisis mode that once I am done blogging, I am going to take myself to the Emergency Room (E.R). I will be okay, I just need someone to fucking hear me on how fucking frustrating getting no sleep is. Right now I think going to the E.R is the best bet. I don’t want to concern you all. I just wanted to let you know what is going on. I know I will be okay, I just need to get the sleep thing taken care of.
Good Evening, World!!! I am home from the Emergency Room (E.R). I went to the E.R because I self harmed again. I ended up getting stitches. While in the E.R I used my coping skills. I ended up doing some are work. Specifically, I colored mandala’s. The nurses and social work were impressed with my color scheme of the mandala’s.
The social worker on duty asked what let me to self harm this time and I explained that I dissociated and that is when I self harmed. Dissociation is a problem for me and when I self harm while dissociated it makes it that much worse for me.
Now that I am home, I will be working on one of my workbooks. Not sure which one yet but I will do one. I have found that workbooks help me with my recovery. My therapist likes the fact that I do self help workbooks to help myself and my recovery.