Not wanting to be a Cranky Bucket at Work

Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep again. I don’t think not going into work isn’t an option at the moment as the clients I have today are struggling with some minor crisis. I need to find someway to get somewhat of a better night of sleep.

One of those ways is to take a sleeping pill but sadly it makes me groggy but at least the grogginess at least goes away with time but not quick enough. I really don’t want to be a cranky bucket at work. I also don’t want to call in sick due to the lack of sleep. I really love my job. My job means the world to me.

On the plus note at least my cat has been extra lovely Dovey with me. Billie Dean is an amazing cat and I love him so much. I may have rescued him but I think he was and is the one doing the rescuing of me. Billie is really a great lap cat and helps me not be a cranky bucket when I have to start work at eight in the morning Seattle time.

I am thinking I might have to take a my sleeping meds so I can get some sleep so I am not a cranky bucket at work. I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader for reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart from reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

So Far a Good Day Off with A Goodbye to Dr. B

Good Late Afternoon, World!!! Overall, today has been a good day. I started off the day with having breakfast with some fabulous friends. It is always nice spending time with friends especially when they treat you to a nice meal.

I then took my cat, Billie Dean into his last appointment with Dr. B to get bloodwork done. From what I was told, Billie allowed Dr. B and crew one last belly rub as it will be their last time seeing Billie as sadly Dr. B is going out of business for various reason. I will miss her as Billie’s vet but understand why she is going out of business. On that note I just got a call from Dr. B and Billie’s kidney’s are in the normal range which means the kidney food is doing its job. On the sad note, today was a goodbye to Dr. B from me and Billie since Dr. B is going out of business. Dr. B is the sweetest and most compassionate vet ever. She is just an amazing vet and am sad she is having to go out of business so the goodbye is to Dr. B and her amazing crew.

I did do an extra volunteer shift today since I took the day off from work to take my sweet cat, Billie to the vet. I love volunteering and enjoy getting my kitten fix at PAWS Cat City. As much as I love kittens, I personally wouldn’t want to get one as they are a lot of work which is why I get my kitten fix when I volunteer at Cat City. I love all the cats at Cat City and wish I could be that “crazy cat person” but I don’t have the space nor money to have any more cats.

Now that I am home from everything I’ve done today, I have showered and ready to take it easy. I am planning on reading a book on philosophy as well as listen to a podcast on philosophy. The book I am going to be reading is “The Republic and Other Works” by Plato. I am really enjoying this book. Now as far the podcast I will be listening to is “Philosophize This.” I really enjoy listening to this podcast. I learn so much from it.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Great Start to the Day

Good Morning, World!!! Despite not getting much sleep last night, I am having a great start to my day. I woke up with my cat, Billie Dean laying next me in my bed staring at me. Usually when I wake up with Billie next to me he doesn’t stare at me. When he does stare at me when I wake up it usually means it is going to be a great day.

Another way today started of great was a couple of my neighbors who are dear friends to me took me out to breakfast. They even paid for it which as an awesome treat for me. I am grateful to have wonderful neighbors who are great friends. Friends and cats make this world a better place to live.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have an Awesome Day and Peace Out, World!!!

A Sleepless in Seattle Type of Night

Good Morning, World!!! It is just after three o’clock in the morning here in Seattle. Sadly, I cannot sleep. I am blaming it on insomnia. Insomnia sucks shit. At least I have today off so I can take it easy. Also, my cat, Billie Dean, is keeping me company with laying right beside me at the moment as I type this blog post.

The things that have been keeping me busy tonight since I am unable to sleep is listening to music while I do some art. I am listening to some AC/DC and Guns & Roses as I color. I am coloring a Mandela from a coloring book I bought on Amazon. As much as I am not a fan of buying stuff on Amazon, I am grateful for the coloring book options. For some reason coloring a Mandela while listening to eighty’s rock music is quite soothing. I love AC/DC and Gun & Roses.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post as I want to try to get some sleep. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it weren’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Looking Forward to Tomorrow

Hello, World!!! I am looking forward to tomorrow. I have decided to take tomorrow (Wednesday) off. Primarily because my cat, Billie Dean, is getting blood work done from the vet. Tomorrow will be Billie’s last time going to Dr. B because the property is being sold and she sadly can’t find any affordable commercial real estate. So, Billie is getting bloodwork done so we can have more up to date readings on his kidneys. This is so his new vet will have a baseline for the kidneys so he can be treated appropriately.

On that note, I will also be volunteering at PAWS Cat City. I love being able to pick up extra volunteer shifts when I can. I know this sounds weird and/or odd but volunteering at Cat City is a form of self care for me. It’s self care for me because it gives me more purpose in my life. Yes, my work gives me purpose however volunteering gives me even more purpose to my life.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Goodnight and Peace Out, World!!!

My Job is Awesome & I Love My Cat

Good Evening, World!!! I just want to tell you that I love my job and it’s completely awesome. Yes, my job has it’s rough days however, I love it most days. Today, was one of many days I love. My job can be emotionally draining which is why I do my best to do good self care especially when my depression symptoms are acting up.

One of the ways I do good self care is go to therapy and stay in regular contact with her. For instance, I emailed my therapist to let her know about what is going on. She emailed me back thanking me for keeping her updated on things. I email her so when I see her next we can discuss it.

Another way I do self care is taking care of my cat, Billie Dean. In fact Billie is trying is hardest to “help” me write this particular blog post. I love my cat so much. It is hard to believe I’ve had him one year and seven and half months. Billie helps me realize there is more to this world than my job and myself. I am beyond grateful for Billie and love him so much.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

The Start of Another Work Week

Good Morning, World!!! It is Monday and the typical start of another work week. I personally don’t start work till twelve noon on Mondays. In fact Mondays are one of the two days I go into the office. I like the fact that I go into work on Mondays and Fridays as it makes my weekend feel like a weekend. I also enjoy working from home on Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays. There are pros and cons to working in the office as well as working from home.

Despite having increased depression symptoms, I am grateful to be going into the office to work today. I think getting out of the house will help with the depression. I am also grateful that working helps with the depression. As much as I wish I didn’t struggle with depression, the depression is what helps me with my job as I need lived experience with a mental health challenge to have my job. As you can tell, I am trying to look at the silver lining in things at the moment.

The part I don’t like about going into the office is I don’t get to spend the day with my cat, Billie Dean. I really love my cat and miss him when I am not with him. Billie is my pride and joy. In fact Billie is my emotional support animal (esa) and helps with my depression a great deal. I love Billie so much.

I do not have much more to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Laundry

Monday

  •  Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Therapy
  • Work

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Take Billie to vet for bloodwork
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work
  • Time with family

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Time with my cat Billie
  • Read
  • Art

Weekly Check-In

It is that time of week that I do a weekly check-in. Yes, I realize it has been a while since I have done a weekly check-in but I have decided to start doing them again. Let’s start with the obvious of how grateful I am for my cat Billie Dean. Billie has been so cuddly and lovey this past week. Billie being extra cuddly has been great since I have been dealing with increased anxiety and depression symptoms.

Since the symptoms of my anxiety and depression having been acting up, I took two mental health days off yesterday (Friday) and Thursday. Since I took Thursday and Friday off, I spent a lot of time reaching out to friends. Friends who have been quite supportive and helped me get through some tough moments.

Besides reaching out to friends, I have been listening to podcast and reading. I have been listening to podcast and reading about philosophy. The podcast I have been listening to is “Philosophize This.” The book I have been reading is by Plato called “The Republic and Other Works.” I have been on a philosophy kick lately especially since I have been reading about it.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I wouldn’t be writing this blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Friday Full of Blah’s

Happy Late Friday Evening, World!!! Well, it is still Friday in my neck of the woods that is known as Seattle. In fact, Seattle is now in the yucky season when it comes to weather which means rain. On a good note at least it is not snow. I am not a big fan of snow. Hell, I am not a big fan of the cold that comes with the snow. So, I guess, I am grateful for the typical Seattle weather that is currently happening.

Now that we are off the topic of weather, I didn’t go into work again today. Sadly, my anxiety and depression are still acting up. I wish it wasn’t. Maybe the weather does fit my mood. I wish my mood didn’t fit what the weather is doing outside here in Seattle. Having depression and anxiety acting up at the same time sucks shit. As much as I wish I wasn’t dealing with both anxiety and depression, I am glad I have been doing some self care

The self care I have been doing is listening to a podcast about philosophy. Specifically, the philosophy podcast, I have been listening to is Philosophize This. I really enjoy this podcast. The best part of listening to this podcast is I get to learn about stuff I didn’t learn in school.

As I listen to Philosophize This I color. I color because it is a form of mindfulness for me. It is a mindful meditation for me because it gives me a sense of peace and purpose. It helps me focus on what I need to do.

Another thing that gives me focus isn’t a thing but an animal. Billie Dean, my cat gives me focus. Billie also gives me purpose in my life. He gives me purpose because he depends on me. Billie depends on me by feeding him, cleaning out his litter box and of course playing with him as well as giving him pets and attention.

I not know have much more to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!