Daily Prompt; Can You Share a Positive Example of Where You’ve Felt Loved?

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Can you share a positive example of where you’ve felt loved?
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This should be an easy one but it is not as it hurts when I think that a high percentage of all the times I have had a positive example of love have happened when I have been an adult. I am not saying that I don’t have positive examples of how I felt loved, it’s just that I have more as an adult due to the trauma I experienced as a child.

If I had to choose a positive example of when I felt love is when a friend of mine who is the manager at PAWS Cat City where I volunteer at gave me a heart shaped stone as a reminder that I am loved when I am struggling. She had given it to me after she was able to grab a few at the end of a funeral service she attended. The person who passed away had a major influence on a lot of people’s lives including mine despite never meeting this person. Anyway, the pink heart shaped stone is a reminder of how loved I am and not just by the PAWS Cat City manager but by other friends as well as some family.

Somewhat Of A Challenging Night

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Good Morning, World!!! I am tired as I didn’t sleep well last night. I didn’t sleep well last night due to the fact I was in so much pain that Junior ended up taking me to the hospital. Turns out that I have a kidney infection in the right kidney. I also have kidney stones as I had to have an MRI despite being pregnant. MRI’s, CT scans and X-Rays are not the best for pregnant people however the pain I was (and still am) experiencing could cause distress to the baby which causes harm. So, Junior and I with the help of the doctors weighed out the risk and thought it’s better to do the MRI. The MRI confirmed kidney stones.

Having kidney stones and a kidney infection is not fun especially since I am unable to take the pain meds doctors normally would prescribe. I am unable to take the pain meds due to being pregnant. On that note, I am able to take antibiotics for the kidney infection which is a good thing. The doctors put me on ten days worth of antibiotics and informed me to get in to see the OBGYN as soon as possible to make sure the kidney infection is clearing up and pain subsiding from the kidney stones.

I am just happy that Junior was able to take me to the emergency room and that what I am dealing with can be treated. I wish I was able to get some sleep but I am glad that the doctors were able to figure out what was wrong with me health wise.

I do not have much more to write about in the particular blog post. I do want to thank you, the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Been A Good Sunday

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Good Evening, World!!! It has been quite the day and it is just barely after five o’clock in the evening here in Seattle. I have had a pretty good Sunday. I started off today by volunteering at PAWS Cat City. It is nice to be able to be back in the swing of things at PAWS Cat City. I really enjoy volunteering with cats at PAWS Cat City.

After volunteering at PAWS Cat City I went to Red Robin with Junior to have lunch with some friends of ours. I always love Red Robin but since becoming pregnant I have been craving Red Robin like it’s going out of style. I really am happy to be able have had Red Robin with friends and Junior.

Now Junior and I are at his place with my cat, Billie. We are just going to spend some much needed time together. I’m pretty sure we are going to have some intimate moments later but until then we are going to spend time watching movies as Billie explores Junior’s house. Junior is an amazing partner. I love him so freaking much.

I do not have much more to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you, the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Daily Prompt; What is the Greatest Gift Someone Could Give You

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What is the greatest gift someone could give you?
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For me the greatest gift someone can give me is their time, love and friendship. Giving your time to listen to me or to spend with me is the greatest gift a friend or loved one can give me. It shows me that they care about me and love me. I know it seems hokey but it is true.

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Lunch at Red Robin with Junior and mutual friends
  • Spend time with Junior
  • Color
  • Read
  • Work on recover based workbooks

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Attend Emerald House (a mental health clubhouse)
  • Color
  • Read
  • Work on recovery based workbooks

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Attend Emerald House (a mental health clubhouse)
  • Color
  • Read
  • Work on recovery based workbooks
  • Dinner with a good friend

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Emerald House virtual group
  • Read
  • Color
  • Work on recovery based workbooks
  • Attend a virtual 12 step meeting

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Emerald House virtual group
  • Lunch with a friend
  • Attend an LGBTQ+ virtual recovery group
  • Color
  • Read
  • Work on recovery based workbooks

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • Attend Emerald House (a mental health clubhouse)
  • Virtual appointment with psychiatric nurse practitioner
  • Dinner at Red Robin with Junior
  • Color
  • Read
  • Work on recovery based workbooks

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Morning walk
  • University District Farmers Market
  • Read
  • Color
  • Work on recovery based workbooks

Weekly Check-In

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Good Evening, World!!! It is Saturday evening which means I do my weekly check-in with you the reader. Overall, things have been overwhelming knowing that I am going to be a parent and give birth this summer. The thought of being a parent is both scary and exciting at the same time.

In fact my therapist and I discussed being pregnant and me becoming a parent. We talked about me being fearful of becoming like my parents when I become a parent and my therapist validated my fear. She assured me that I won’t end up parenting my kid like my parents parented me. I also talked to my therapist about my kid ending up with a mental health challenge due to my own mental health challenges. My therapist understands my concerns.

I am pretty sure I don’t have much more to check in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it weren’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Daily Prompt; Describe an Item You Were Incredibly Attached to as a Youth. What Became of It?

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Describe an item you were incredibly attached to as a youth. What became of it?
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The thing I was incredibly attached to as a youth was my teddy bear. It was a gift from one of my uncles the day I was born. I slept with it every night as a kid and even as a teenager. Hell, I slept with this teddy bear as an adult. I still have this teddy bear and I am nearly 45 years old. I stopped sleeping with it about five years ago because my teddy bear is getting extremely old and worn out. So, that means my teddy bear is spending his retirement years on display in my bedroom. My teddy bear is extremely well loved and has been through a great deal with me.

Caturday w/Billie the Kat + a Friend

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Happy Caturday, World!!! I have decided to start posting pictures of my cat and on occasions other cats on Saturdays as who doesn’t love to look at pictures of cats. For those who are site impaired or blind I will do a caption on the photo as WordPress allows folks to do this on their blog. Well today I will be posting two photos of Billie plus another cat that got adopted from PAWS Cat City.

This sweet kitty posing in front of the I’m going home sign at PAWS Cat City. Twenty minutes later she met her new family and got adopted.
Billie laying on me as he is gives me a hug.
Billie acting all proper with his front legs crossed.

Well, that is it for this week’s pictures of the cuteness of my cat Billie and the sweet kitty that got adopted from PAWS Cat City. I hope you enjoy the pictures. Peace Out, World!!!

Nightmares Suck Sh!t

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Good Morning, World!!! It is way too early to be awake. I am awake due to a stupid nightmare. A nightmare that was a screaming nightmare and the only reason why I know this is because a neighbor called the police and they showed up to make sure I am okay. I informed the police that I am in fact okay and that I had a nightmare. They understood and left. I know the police were just doing their job but when your trauma related nightmare involved a police officer and the police show up, it doesn’t really help the PTSD. Again, it is not the police officers fault that a neighbor called nor is it my neighbors fault for making sure I was okay due to my screaming while having a nightmare. I just wish my nightmare wasn’t a screaming one.

On that note, my cat, Billie, is helping a great deal. He is currently laying in my lap purring as I write this particular blog post. I love my cat so very much and can’t imagine my life without him. He is such an amazing cat that loves to spend as much time in my lap as he can get. I am glad he is able to help me self regulate especially after a nightmare.

I do not have much more to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you, the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write on my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World.

Just Another Post About Therapy

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Good Evening, World!!! I had therapy today and it was a virtual appointment as it has been for the last year due to me working. My next appointment will be an in person appointment which I am thrilled about. My therapist and I will attempt to make a more set schedule for in person appointments now that I am not currently working.

My therapist and I of course discussed being pregnant. We discussed how being pregnant most likely will trigger my PTSD due to having the OBGYN checking me down below the belt on the monthly basis while pregnant. We discussed the things I could do to help me if I get triggered by getting examined by the OBGYN.

We also discussed a hard traumatic event that happened to me when I was a child. My therapist validated this experience and reiterated that I am not the monster despite me feeling like a monster. My therapist is really awesome and I am grateful that she is a safe person to talk with and that she makes therapy a safe place.

I do not have much more to write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you, the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write on my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!