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A Middle of the Night New Challenge to Coloring This

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A giant color picture I just started due to not being able to sleep. Not much is colored but I did color some. It is going to take awhile and hope to update you all as it progresses.

Good Morning, World!!! Or maybe I could say, Happy Middle of the Night to those of us who are currently able to sleep. Many times coloring helps me with both my anxiety and my insomnia. I am not sure if I am going to work on more tonight or not as I am hoping my anxiety meds and sleeping meds will kick in and help tonight. I just hope I get enough sleep to get into work tomorrow. I really love my job and don’t want to miss too much of being out. But I least coloring helps me grounding and a form or coping skills from. I hope everyone has a great time doing will help to keep your self from burnout.

Thank you for following my blog and hope that I can continue with his a comple of coloring picture come along.

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Out of Work Today Due to Anxiety Acting Up

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Good Morning, World!!! Right now, I should be arriving at work especially since I need to be attending a new employee orientation where all new employees are required to take. Sadly, due to a mishap with my bank once again, I am having major panic attacks over it to where I needed to take my anxiety meds which is a controlled substance. My work frowns upon needing to take those types of meds when you are working as you need to be on full alert. I did let my supervisors know that I would not be in today. I just worry I will get fired because I’ve already missed three days counting today and I’ve only been with my new employee for just over a month now. I’m sure I have nothing to worry about at this moment in time with work or they would have informed me by now or I would hope they would have.

The thing I am most worried about is the money situation I am having with my bank. I thought it was taken care of and it was at one point in time. Now it is screwed up again. I did call the bank to see if I could get it fixed. They said it is now taken care of but I will still go to the bank I regularly go to, to make sure it is taken care of. Even though the nice banking people on the phone were helpful, I just want to make sure it is fully taken care of when I go into the bank. Messing with people’s money is no joke and I know my bank with help with the money situation as communication styles were challenging specifically on my end.

Of course the lack of sleep last night did not help much with my anxiety around my money in my bank account this morning. It was quite a shocker when the same banking issue arises again as you barely wake up from a not so good night of sleep. Having insomnia sucks and waking up to money issues that were supposed to be taken care of already suck.

Good thing I have my cat, Billie Dean by my side to help with my anxiety especially when I go to the bank. No Billie will not go to the bank with me. He will help me with decreasing my anxiety before I go to the bank. Hopefully, this will help with everything.

I do not have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Hump Day (Wednesday) Ramblings (Part One)

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Good Morning, World!!! Well what is left of morning. Only 45-minutes left of morning here in Seattle.Well, I am not in Seattle currently but am in a suburb of Seattle called Lynnwood. I am in Lynnwood visiting my grandpa and doing my laundry. Also, I am helping my grandpa with some household chores he can’t get done due to age. He would have my uncles help since they live with him but one works during the day and the other sleeps during the day due to working at night. Anyway, I am enjoying my time with my grandpa even though he is taking a nap at the moment.

When my grandpa picked me up at (my) home in Seattle, took me to get my meds. One of which is for anxiety, the other for PTSD and the last one for sleep. Insurance was being jerks about filling all three meds stating that I need “prior authorization” when I never needed it before on these three meds. Thankfully, it got straightened out and that being inform that the “prior authorization” was a mistake for the meds I picked up.

After picking up my medicine, my grandpa took me out to breakfast. We went to a place called the Blue Star Cafe in the Wallingford neighborhood in Seattle. It is right next to Archie McPhee’s. Archie McPhee’s is famous in Seattle. Well, anyway, enough about Archie’s, my grandpa’ loved the Blue Star Cafe. It take a lot for my grandpa to be “impressed” with a restaurant. He wants to take the family there which means him (my grandpa), my dad, my two uncles and myself.

After I am done writing this particular blog post I am going to put the load of laundry that is in the washer machine into the dryer and then put my last load in the washing machine. On that note, I will start reading a book called Enchantment by Orson Scott Card. It is going to be weird reading without my cat, Billie not being around as I am at my grandpa’s and he is at home. Oh how I miss my cat but I know I will be back home later today. I love my cat as well as love reading.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is really appreciative from my end of things that you read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Hump Day (Wednesday)!!! Peace Out, World!!!

Recovery Looks Differently for People

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Happy Saturday from Seattle. I am going to discuss how recovery looks differently for people. For me I go to therapy and see a psychiatric nurse practitioner who prescribes my psychiatrist nurse practitioner. Going to therapy also helps me with my recovery.

Another thing I do is mindfulness and meditation. I do this by doing mindfulness workbooks as well doing the Calm App; Both are helpful with my recovery. I also do recovery related workbooks. Workbooks help a great deal along with mindfulness and meditation.

I am going to start doing tarot cards to help with my recovery. I even have a recovery tarot journal that I will do whenever I do a tarot reading. I will do normal journaling

And of course Billie my cat is an Emotion Support Animal and has helped me a great deal with my depression. Having an ESA is quite helpful for me.

So this how I work with my recovery.. I want to thank you for you reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Billie Not Liking Me At the Moment Even Though He Still Loves Me

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Good Morning, World!!! I took Billie for a follow dental appointment. As a precautionary procedure they I giving Billie antibiotics as one of the sites isn’t getting better but not getting worse so I chose to do antibiotics. Billie isn’t liking it. He may not like me for a few minutes but I know he still loves me. He still wanted his morning loving after the antibiotic.

My cat means the world to me and I love him with all my heart. Having an Emotional Support Animal (ESA) has greatly helped me with my recovery and mental health symptoms. I’m grateful for my last cat Lil Brooke and my current cat Billie.

Thank you for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me the you the reader read my blog. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. So thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Early To Be Awake on the First Day of a Job

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Good Morning, World from the land known as Seattle. It is one forty seven in the morning here in Seattle and been awake since one o’clock Seattle time. Yes, it only been just over forty five minutes but I’m tired as fucking hell and have to get up in four hours.

I think it is pre jitter nerves for the first day of my new job in Everett. I’m not very familiar with the Everett area and will be spending at a location on my first day that I normal won’t be at. On that note, I get work from home for the rest of the week and start working at my “normal office” on the 18th of July. I’ll be working from 9:00am to 5:00pm so I sort of get to sleep in. On the plus note, I get to read or listen to a podcast as I will be taking public transportation.

On that note when I woke up at one o’clock in the morning I took some meds to help with my anxiety and nerves. The meds are starting to kick in so I’m going to try to go back to sleep. Just wish I was as sound as asleep as my Billie the cat is right now. I do wan to thank you for reading my blog. If wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

My Meds Aren’t Working

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Good Morning, Word!!! My medication is not working. Friend and family are saying that it appear that I am on drugs when I am not on drugs. MY meds aren’t working like they are suppose to. My friends and family think I am using drugs when in reality my meds are not working properly. The last thing I want is people thinking I am on drugs.

On that note, I let my doctor, therapist and psychiatrist know vie email and phone call. I know that is a bit much but I just wanted to make sure they were made aware of it. Plus my meds are making me funny and they should know about that. I hope they get back to me soon.

Television Not Working; Time to Read

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Good Afternoon, World!!! My television stopped working and not sure why. That means I get to catch up on some reading. I’m hoping my uncle or grandpa can help me with my television as I like to watch the news. I like to know what is going on in the world.

Granted the news can cause some anxiety but I like to know what is going on in the world. Despite the news being depressing, I think I will read a book. I have two choose books to choose from and i think I am going to read the singleton book ss the the other three books are a serious of books.

Another think I am going to to do is listen to a podcast about philosophy. I learn a great deal from philosophy. I listen to it by podcast. I’m glad I’m learning stuff about different subjects.

I think I need to go now. i am getting tired from my med. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out World!!!

Not the Awaking I Wanted

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gegGood Morning, World!!! It’s too early to be asleep and which my meds would work so I can sleep through the night. sadly that is not the case tonight. I’m not now not going to worry about the sleep issue asleep.

I think I’m going read and ply my cat. The book I am reading iw better than I thought it was going to . As fart as my cat goes, he is being a big as I write this blog. Hw likes to snuggle especially when I am reading. in fact I think I am going to rea now.

I do not have much more to say. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, Wor!!!

Middle of the Night Munchies

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Good Morning, World!!! It is two nineteen in the morning here is Seattle with my cat Billie laying next me. Honestly, I have the munchies and took too many of two my meds. I took too many to NOT die by suicided but lessen the pain I feel for my client who took their own life. I took the Xanax and Ambien numb myself and hopefully get sleep. Sadly, I can’t sleep and I have a big day ahead of me.

I got the munchies from the meds. I’m eating Ben and Jerry’s Half Baked ice cream as well as some cheese ball ship stuff and Cherry Pepsi. As I a eating I a listening to some music. In fact I feel high with the amount of med I took. No I am NOT suicidal, I jus need to numb myself.

After eating, I will continue to is to music with my cat, Billie by my side as well as do some art. Not sure what type of art but some form of it.

I don’t have a lot more to say expect I’m going to miss my client died by suicide. Thank you all for being there for me and I promise you I won’t do any harm to myself. Peace Out, World!!!!