Tag Archives: Insomnia

Sleepless in Seattle, Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep at the moment and it has nothing to do with my cat and every thing to deal with the symptoms of my mental health challenges. Dealing with a mental health condition is not my idea of fun yet I have learned a great deal from them. I have learned that acceptance of oneself is not easy however you can still have fun despite all the challenges the conditions bring.

For an example; painting can be fun. I love to paint. I am painting an abstract version of my cat for my grandpa per his request. My grandpa loves the idea that I am painting. He thinks it is a great way to express myself in a healthy and productive way.

Something else that being in recovery brings to me is faith. Or at least searching for a particular faith. Right now I have been reading books on Buddhism. It has given me some hope and peace that I have been looking for. Some people in my life may not like the idea that I am looking into Buddhism but they are grateful that I am searching for some type of faith even if it is not their faith.

I have been working on my strengths based recovery workbook. That part that I am working on is about attitudes. That attitudes that it is discussing at the moment is hope and courage. I am thrilled that I decided to get this workbook as I have been finding it quite helpful to me as well as to my recovery.

I find it amazing that being able to write in the middle of the night can come easy to me. Maybe it is because I am naturally a night owl or that I am more creative at night. Whatever the reason, I am glad that I can express myself in a healthy way. A way that my old therapist, Diana, would be proud of me.

Thank you for reading. Have a great morning and Peace Out, World!!!

Semi-Early Morning Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I got sleep last night which is good news. The bad news is I woke up with depression. Yes, I know I am up early but I am happy I got sleep. Waking up depressed is no fun.

I am not sure what I am going to do today. My therapist will be out of the office today so I will be checking in with his supervisor. His supervisor is a nice woman. I will be checking in with her over the phone for a fifteen minute check-in.

I am most likely going to be reading. I am going to be reading my Star Wars book. I make it a habit to read every day. I love reading. I am also going to be reading a book or two on Buddhism. One of those books happens to be Buddhist Scriptures.

I need to be finding things to do to help combat this depression. For me having plans helps me with fighting off the depression. I am hoping I can talk with my therapist supervisor early so we can come up with a plan.

Thanks for reading. It is very much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Thursday Morning Random Thoughts

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I still haven’t had any sleep. I have been keeping myself busy as being busy helps me deal with what I need to deal with.

One way I have been dealing with things is working on my workbooks. I have been working on both my LGBTQ and my recovery strengths workbooks. Both workbooks are helping me with my recovery with a mental health challenge as well as accepting myself as me.

I have also been reading. I have been reading my Star Wars book. I am almost done with it. I hope that when I am done with it that I will remember to do a book review on it. I love to read.

I have also been working on a jigsaw puzzle of the Titanic while listening to a podcast about philosophy. Doing puzzle and listening to a podcast helps me retain what I heard on the podcast.

Thank you for reading and Peace out world!!!

No Sleep In Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! As I sit here typing this post, it is three o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world. I have attempted to sleep on several occasions tonight but unable to do so.

Since I have been unable to sleep I turned on my favorite podcast Philosophize This. The two podcast I listened to was about Saint Augustine and Buddha while sorting out the end pieces from a jigsaw puzzle that I am going to start. Anyway, I found that both Christianity and Buddhism played a major role in Philosophy especially modern day philosophy. I love listening to this particular podcast as it gives me different points of views in a non judgmental and non conforming way. A way that doesn’t shove shit down your throat. 

Now that I am done discussing religion for the time being, I am going to get going. I am going to work on the jigsaw puzzle while listening to a podcast on philosophy. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!!

Up Too Early, Again

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is three o’clock in the morning and I am wide awake. I am not sure why I either don’t sleep or I am up at odd hours in the morning like I am now.

At least I am able to do something to keep me busy. I am going to be listening to Philosophize This. Philosophize This is a podcast on philosophy that I have been listening to for a while now. I have been attempting to catch up to the most recent one.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

No Sleep In Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I didn’t get any sleep last night. I wish I could have gotten some sleep. I suspected I wouldn’t be getting sleep due to my late yet long nap yesterday evening.

I read a good portion of the night. I read Star Wars; Heir to the Empire by Timothy Zahn. It is an easy read for me. I am really enjoying the book.

I also listened to a podcast on philosophy. Specifically, Philosophize This. The dude that does the podcast is from Seattle. I take notes on the podcast and look back at them.

Thank you for reading. Peace out, World!!!

Midnight Thoughts

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am watching the Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. I am cracking up laughing like I usually do watching Jimmy Fallon. Watching a comedy like the Tonight Show before I go to be has proven to be helpful for me to sleep.

I don’t think I’ll get much sleep tonight as I took a long and late nap. A much needed nap. A nap that I am grateful for.

I think I am going to be working on my recovery workbook if I am unable to sleep. Working on my workbook that focuses on recovery is quite helpful for me. As you may know is that my recovery is extremely important to me. It means the world to me.

I also might read my Star Wars: Heir To The Empire if I can not sleep tonight. As I am really enjoying the book.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

All I Want Is…

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! Right now all I want is sleep. I haven’t been to sleep yet. I just want to get to sleep especially since I have to be up in less than three hours to go to the social security office.

I have been reading my Star Wars book when I haven’t been pacing or trying to sleep. I think the reading is helping me through long hours of not doing anything as well as my anxiety.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day and Peace Out, World!!!

3 Hours of Reading & Trying to Sleep

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am still awake. After my last post I was hoping to get back to sleep. I, unfortunately was unable to do so.

I think not being able to get back to sleep is due to my anxiety. Not only is my anxiety acting but my depression is acting up as well. Not sure why but it is. Maybe its due to the lack of sleep.

I have been reading the last three hours when I wasn’t trying to get back to sleep. I am grateful I chose to read the Star Wars book. I know I have said this before but it is an easy read or eye candy as I like to call it.

I think I am going to get going and watch the morning news. Have a great day everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

An Early Awaking

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am up way too early once again.  It is two thirty in the morning in my corner of the world. I am not sure what I am going to do till I leave for my therapy appointment. I leave at eight in the morning.

I think I am going to read. I will be reading my Star Wars book. I really enjoy Star Wars. It is an easy read and not difficult to concentrate on.

Thank you for reading. I hope you have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!