Semi-Early Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! I got sleep last night which is good news. The bad news is I woke up with depression. Yes, I know I am up early but I am happy I got sleep. Waking up depressed is no fun.

I am not sure what I am going to do today. My therapist will be out of the office today so I will be checking in with his supervisor. His supervisor is a nice woman. I will be checking in with her over the phone for a fifteen minute check-in.

I am most likely going to be reading. I am going to be reading my Star Wars book. I make it a habit to read every day. I love reading. I am also going to be reading a book or two on Buddhism. One of those books happens to be Buddhist Scriptures.

I need to be finding things to do to help combat this depression. For me having plans helps me with fighting off the depression. I am hoping I can talk with my therapist supervisor early so we can come up with a plan.

Thanks for reading. It is very much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

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Focusing On Things That Help

Good Evening, World. Since my last post I decided to work on one of my workbooks;  Pathways to Recovery. It is a strengths based workbook focusing on your recovery. I am now done with the first chapter.

I also have been reading Buddhist Scriptures. Reading about Buddhism is a form of mindfulness for me. It gives me hope and a sense of peace. Finding faith that potentially will help me with my recovery path is a huge deal.

As I am writing this post I am sipping on some tea and enjoying some scented candles. Doing things like lit candles and sipping tea is extremely soothing for me. Being able to soothing myself is a good thing. I feel like I don’t deserve to self soothe.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Thursday Afternoon Random Thoughts

Hello, World!!! I am now home from the Emergency Room. As I mentioned in my last post I self harmed and took myself to the Emergency Room. I punched a brick wall out of anger and frustration. I didn’t break any bones.

I am going to be reading one of my books. Not sure which one yet. No, I haven’t finished my Star Wars book but I will finish it soon. I am thinking about reading my Buddhist Scriptures.

I think I am going to go read now. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

No Sleep In Seattle

Good Morning, World!!! As I sit here typing this post, it is three o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world. I have attempted to sleep on several occasions tonight but unable to do so.

Since I have been unable to sleep I turned on my favorite podcast Philosophize This. The two podcast I listened to was about Saint Augustine and Buddha while sorting out the end pieces from a jigsaw puzzle that I am going to start. Anyway, I found that both Christianity and Buddhism played a major role in Philosophy especially modern day philosophy. I love listening to this particular podcast as it gives me different points of views in a non judgmental and non conforming way. A way that doesn’t shove shit down your throat. 

Now that I am done discussing religion for the time being, I am going to get going. I am going to work on the jigsaw puzzle while listening to a podcast on philosophy. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!!

Random Thoughts At Midnight

Hello, World!!! It is midnight in my corner of the world and I have a lot on my mind. Some things are serious while other things are just normal everyday worries. All the things on my mind are not what is keeping me up.

I am up because I am wanting to and am watching The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. Watching something that has humor such as The Tonight Show helps me be able to sleep at night. Being able to laugh before bed has something helpful in it and am grateful that I have learned this about myself.

I have been reading Star Wars: Heir To The Empire book. I am really enjoying it. In fact I am nearly finished with it. I hope to do a book review on it when I am done with the book. The cool thing about this book it is part of a trilogy.

I think I am liking the fact that I am looking into Buddhism. It is giving me a hope and a faith I didn’t have. I am not saying I didn’t have hope; I am saying I am having a new found hope. Having a faith in any particular religion helps folks with their recovery.

Thank you for reading. I will now get back to watching The Tonight Show. Peace Out, World. Goodnight.

DBT Skills Helping Me Through A Rough Moment

Hello, World!!! I am struggling a little right now. I am struggling with anxiety and PTSD. A struggle that I know I can get through. I can get through with the use of my skills. Specifically, DBT skills.

One of those skills is painting. I will be painting to help express the emotions that I am feeling at the moment. Emotions that I have trouble verbalizing out loud or even on paper or computer screen.

Another skill I can do that is helpful to me is mindfulness. Mindfulness helps calm my anxiety right down. Mindfulness also gives me a sense of peace. A peace the Buddhism is giving me as I look into it.

Looking into Buddhism is giving me a faith and hope that I have been searching for. A faith that has been a long time coming.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Update on Doctor’s Appointment

Good Morning, World!!! Yup, it is still morning in my corner of the world. I went to my doctor’s appointment and it went well. I have a slight concussion from being hit in the eye by a neighbor. I am taking 800mg ibuprofen for the pain and an anti-nausea medicine for nausea.

I am now going to read. I am not sure if I am going to read my Star Wars book or a book on Buddhism. I might read both at some point today. I might even do a workbook or two as well. I love to read and work on my workbooks.

Thank you for reading. Peace out, World!!!